The Value of Possessions
Contradictions are a natural part of everyone’s identity. We say one thing, then
we act in the opposite way. With contradictions we discover our true feelings. We may think our
ideologies are set in stone, that the way we feel is congruent with the words we speak and the
actions we take. However, the opposite is true. Even the most stubborn, rigid person with the
“strictest” beliefs can act in a way that is totally different from their character. People discover
things about themselves that may shock them. I too have my own contradictions but I must
recognize them to change my unconstructive behavior. For example, I am a self-proclaimed
shop-aholic. I am materialistic. This characteristic of myself is obvious. However, I want to be
content with the possessions I have and not feel the need to spend money to make myself happy.
These contradictions define a part of my identity, so I must explore them and find out why I have
two conflicting views about my personality.
Sometimes I feel so greedy and I want to have things, any kind of thing just for
the sake of having it.
I want clothes, purses, bracelets, earrings, shoes, coats, books, magazines;
anything that can be bought. In my dorm room, my roommate has about a third of the belongings
in our tiny space. Her desk is clear and neat, and mine is overflowing with picture frames, lotion
bottles, mugs, perfumes, necklaces and electrical cords. Even my bed is covered in three
different blankets and pillows. I play a game with the catalogs that come to my house; I pick out
one thing on each page that I would buy, regardless of price. I could flip through clothing and
electronics catalogs all day, “buying” things.