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Alissa ColaruotoloMrs. EganAP Literature & Composition, period 316 March 2017Alias Grace: Chapter 8-11 RR“While he writes, I feel as if he is drawing me; or not drawing me, drawing on me – drawing on my skin – not with the pencil he is using, but with an old-fashioned goose pen, and not with the quill end but with the featherend. As if hundreds of butterflies have settled all over my face, and are softly opening and closing their wings. But underneath awake and watchful. It's like being wakened suddenly in the middle of the night, by a hand over your face, and yousit up with your heart going fast, and no one is there. Andunderneath that is another feeling still, a feeling like being torn open; not like a body of flesh, it is not painful as such, but like a peach; and not even torn open, but too ripe and splitting open of its own accord. And inside the peachthere's stone” (69).Dr. Jordan is with Grace Marks and he is writing down everything that she is saying. Although Grace is reluctant to let Dr. Jordan into her life, she explains how it feels nice to have someone writing down what she says. However, Grace feels as though Dr. Jordan is writing on her instead of writing down what she says, demonstrating how Grace may feel somewhat uncomfortable in revealing her true self. Thus, Grace attempts to hide her true identity and thoughts. In addition, Grace is intelligent, but she only gives Dr. Jordan surface answers, answers that he doesn't want to hear. Grace likes the feeling of him listening to her talk and is starting to enjoy talking to him. Dr. Jordan is trying to get down to her core and Grace feels as though she is being ripped open. Grace describes it in a way that is not painful, but that Dr. Jordan is slowly causing her to open up herself. However, when Grace does openup, there is more to her then Dr. Jordan thinks. Grace is like an over ripe peach, it's been way overdue for her to talk about her life and the murders and now she is just being split open because of how "ripe" she is. In addition, a butterfly symbolizes freedom, metamorphosis, and beauty. However, Grace says that underneath the layer of butterflies is a“feeling of being wide-eyed awake and watchful”, demonstrating how Grace has a hidden identity that she does not want to reveal. In other words, Grace is knowingly hiding the truth. Therefore, Grace hides her true self behind the mask of beauty and change. Additionally, Grace’s description is a representation of madness. Grace feels herself splitting on her “own accord” due to the factors that have brought her imprisonment. Whether those factors are actually guilt for the murders