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Unformatted text preview: The Requirements to be a Pretty Boy ==> 21 � � � � � � l by ★ˆ 3 3 “ ★ (zotnlajsxm@hanmail.net) translated by r0sesareblue 1. funeral "i feel so sorry.. thats tragic." "who says its not? ... the father went to america when he was young and i didnt hear from him for awhile.. and the mom died from a hit and run.. tsk tsk..." "so whats going to happen to the girl?" "she's going to stay with her mom's friend in Seoul... a really close friend.. shes divorced and has a son i think..." "sigh.. she looks like a nice kid.. its a pity." "Yeh Won.. wake up now. You have to go to Seoul." "................................" "Yeh Won.. come on.. " "yes.. i'll come out soon..." "And.. dont dawdle... come out fast.." "^^ okay.." My mom's funeral... everyone left already... its quiet. "Mommy! i wont cry anymore... i'll be strong.. so watch out for me in heaven..." ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ its already been 6 months since Ive arrived in Seoul.... Today Im registering for school... I am a junior now... "Im going now!!!" "Okay.. heres your lunch.. make lots of new friends ... ^^" "okay ^^" I am going to go to Boo Ja high school [*note* translated into "wealthy" high school"] Yup its just like the name.. where all the rich kids go... Since i live with a wealthy ahjumma [* what you call a woman in her 30's] i get to go to this school... I waited behind my big house for the bus. "how come this bus isnt coming??? . ^" about 15 minutes passed?? and the bus came. this bus is really crowded. and i got pushed inside. "eeeeeeek!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" when the bus went around a corner people went left and right "euukk... ahhhhh!!" . ^ At the second stop.. students wearing a different uniform got out. "wow.. i feel like i can live now.." I went and sat at the last seat. "hey.. did you hear that?? Han Yoo Bin ... he was trying to get Park Hyun Woo's girl from Gae Sung Gon Go. "Really??? that Han Yoo Bin does have a unique personality." " �� " "Min Jae. dont you want to go out with girls??? "Me?? i have to meet some ^^" Suddenly the bus stopped "ACKK..." I realized what happened and i lifted my head... i thought i was going to faint...><.><.>.<.>.<>.<.><.>< Some guy ran into me (?) and was hugging me i had half my butt in the air too. "ACk!!!!!!" Puk... Instinctively i punched the guy, who didnt even know he was hugging me, in the stomach he yelled and cursed "are you crazy???? Min Jae.. Won Min Jae~~~ Are you okay????" "i think the baby in my stomach died... what do i do???" [*joke] ">.< i didnt know i would punch that hard... im.. im sorry.." I said to the guy laying on the bus floor "ahh.. my stomach... ahh i think im going to die.." isnt that guy going a little overboard? but he did look pretty miserable. "Im.. im so sorry..." "ah.. my stomach.." "Im...AHHHHHHHHHHHH..!!" the bus driver stopped the bus when i fell into the guy's arms "AH.. excuse me.." "Huk..." "ah.. im so sorry.." i pushed the guy's stomach again. "ah.. im sorry..." the guy dusted his pants and abruptly stood up. "Min Jae.. are you okay..." "Bus driver.. thanks.." And when the doors opened, the guy ive never seen before took my arm and dragged me off the bus. "ahh.. it hurts..." when the bus left, the guy let go of my arm. "so you hit my stomach..and then you suddenly hugged me, is that right??" "................................." "plus my favorite strawberry underwear...." "� pervert!!!......!!!!!" that guy grabbed my arm again. "i like you.. ^^" "What??" "i said that i like you.. you're wearing my favorite strawberry panties.. and your strength.. your power.. i like it!! this is the first time ive seen strawberry underwear since ive been going to Go Ding..^^ i didnt know girls still wore strawberry panties..." PUK!! "Ah.. Ah... HEY!!" I kicked the guy's leg "dont try to joke with me.. i hate jerks like you.. . ^" like a movie star, i turned around and started going to school "Hey hey!! whats your name???? you.. you're caught.." that guy yelled while holding onto his foot. "from the first day, you're tardy??? how come there are only three freshmen.. but so many juniors and seniors..." ".........." "Up .. down.. up.. down.. up down up down.. get down!!" "....................................." the tardy police. "when i was in the navy, i did 3 in 3 seconds. i dont expect that from you guys.. but 1 time in 1 second. up down up down.. the first five people to the pole wont get punishment." ackkkkk~~~ everyone yelled and ran that tardy police.. thinks hes a navy general what a jerk... "oww my leg... already my legs hurt..." but how come that one jerk didnt get caught? its really interesting.. "you're late on your first day!! Han Yeh Won??? If you're late again, you're going to get punished.." "yes.." "go sit in that empty seat.." "yes.. ^^" I sat in the empty chair... my desk partner was a girl wearing glasses with black rims and dark freckles. "hey.. what period is this??" "you dont look at the schedules??" "Huh?? . ^" what a hoe.. whats so bad about telling me.... "math..." "thanks ^^" since its the first day, i shouldnt frown.. i have to make a good image.. a good first image.. ^^ .. its 4th period and there's still one empty seat.. did that person not come to school??? "Hey... that seat.. why is it empty?" <­ since it was math i whispered "dont you know that its math?? dont talk to me.." shes really a hoe.. truly.. "Over there. why are you talking during class??" "No its not that.." At the same time "Teacher, she keeps talking to me.." " . ^><><><><><><>< b*tch.. what kind of person is that??? the teacher came to our desks and nudged my head "the person next to you is studying so why are you talking to her? "um..." "then on chapter 11.. read number 41." i glared at the girl next to me. shes really a hoe.. and i hoped to make friends. how did a person like that end up as my partner . ^ Till 6th period, the seat remained empty.. "Hey you're Han Yeh Won right??" "Yes.. ??" "Min Jae is outside.. hes looking for you.." "WHO?" "I dont know.." I went down to the 1st floor A tall guy stood there. "Huh? over here Han Yeh Won!!!" "You.. are you out of your mind?? I still need to sign out " "Its okay.. its just signing out^^" "its okay for you.. but not for me.. so.." That guy grabbed my arm... "Go out with me.. i want you" "whats wrong with you?? let go..." that guy pushed me toward a wall. 2. "Be my girlfriend.. hey.. people line up to go out with me.. Han Yeh Won.." "What is the matter with you?? Let go..." Suddenly a guy wearing a bag started walking this way. "Huh? HEY!! please help..." "who is this jerk??" "Won Min Jae.. what are you doing at school??? didnt you get suspended?? for fighting.." "Huh?? Han Yoo Bin.. you're coming to school now?? you're coming back on the first day??" the guy started to release my arm. "Stupid.. you cant get a girl so you're doing this?? pathetic... pathetic..." "anyways you bastard.. you went to america and you didnt bother to keep in touch?? people said you arrived here a week ago..." "stupid.. lets hurry up and go upstairs.." "Okay.. Yeh Won.. lets talk next time.." i decided to follow the guys upstairs. "Yoo Bin.. im gonna go inside.. take care of Yeh Won.." "bastard.. go away.. stupid.." Min Jae went to the 4th floor and i turned left at the 3rd floor. but it looked like that other guy was still following me. i looked at him with a weird expression. "what are you looking at???" " . ^ psh.." but this guy kept following me. i was trying to go into my room when i bumped into him. Apparently he was going into the same classroom. "Hey.. you.. why do you keep following me???" "Oh? Han Yoo Bin.. Han Yeh Won.. hurry up and come inside." "Han Yoo Bin?? ah.. yes.." I sat down in my seat. "Han Yoo Bin.. are you coming to school now??? everyone said you ended..." "Hello..." that guy respectfully bowed to the teacher .................................... ........................................ ........... .......... ............. and then he sat in the empty chair. ohh he's the owner of that empty seat!!! the bell rang and i packed my bag to go home. Bus Stop. "Han Yeh Won..!! lets go together!!!!" ".. Won Min Jae.. dont you know that we're gonna go hang out today??" "Shut up.. i believe in love not friendship!^^ bastard.. im chasing after love right now.. so im not going today. O­kae­eee??" PAK. "lets go together..." that guy put his hand on my shoulder. "Let go..." "i want to go together.." PUK. "owwww... what kind of girl is that strong??" "Im gonna say this one more time.. i seriously hate jerks like you.. you distgust me!! distgust!!" "why do you say it so regretfully??" "You!!.. when i get mad, its really scary...." HWAK Suddenly some guy behind me grabbed my hand. " . ^" "Pitiful Won Min Jae.. cant get a girl... im right huh??" HWAK that jerk twisted my hand and suddenly hugged me. "You do it like this!!! got it?? Won Min Jae.. why dont you learn from me.." "Huh?? Han Yoo Bin..... you're dead... i called Yeh Won first!!" " . ^ shut up. you bastard.. if you dont get her, i'll take her away.." that guy ran toward the end of the hallway with that Min Jae jerk following him "................" i stood there with a dumb expression on my face. When that Yoo Bin guy held my wrist.. the truth is i squirmed but that guy's strength is no joke.. my wrist is still sore. (House) Right now im living in Ahjummah's son Jin Hwan's room. I havent seen him once... Ahjumma is a really busy lady so there was no time to even buy furniture. Ahjumma works at a broadcasting station.. as a producer. shes so awesome.. a woman working at a job like that. theres 5 rooms and 3 bathrooms.. and if you go out onto the veranda, you can see the river... and lots of celebrities live in our apartment building.. i see them sometimes... "WoWWwww~" i went into my room to take a nap.. and i fell into a deep sleep... i even dreamed. PUK. but did i have a nightmare?? why does my throat hurt so much?? it feels like i cant breathe. "Cough.. Cough cough..." i couldnt stand it any longer so i opened my eyes... but when i opened my eyes someones hand was holding onto my throat... and a guy ive never seen before was laying next to me. "...................." and that guy's leg was on my stomach. .. "ACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!! cough!!!!!" (i screamed so loud that ialmost choked) "ACk!!" that guy rubbed his eyes and woke up. "Who.. Who are you??" "I should be asking that!! get out of my room right now.. and get out of my house!"( he yelled louder and pointed toward the bedroom door) " . ^" What happened?? Who is this guy?? is it Ahjumma's son, Jin Hwan?? ...................... 3. .."who are you and why are you in my house?? go right now.. or else im gonna call the police.." that guy yelled and accused me. "AH.. ACk.." i was so surprised that i fell off the bed. this is a disgrace.. . ^ "hey.. so uh listen to m..." "shut up. if you dont go right now im really going to call" (he pointed to the door again) "ACKKKK.." i ran like crazy out of the room that guy came out to the living room and made a phone call. "Hello.. Ummah?? this is Jin Hwan.. yea.. talk about that later... [*ummah is mom] ................... whos that girl in our house??? WHaT?? whats wrong with you?? if you were gonna bring a girl, why a retarded looking girl like that?? .. okay. hang up.." retarded looking girl?? <­­ is he talking about me??? the more i listened the angrier i got. "HEY you. who are you calling retarded~~~" "go to that corner where i cant see you. now!!!". � surprised, i went out to the veranda like his slave and sadly sat down. his face has such pretty features but what kind of guy has such a dirty temper??? that guy took something out of his bag turned up the volume and sat on the sofa to eat cookies *growl growl** .^ shhii.... i didnt eat anything today... � that guy acted like nothing happened and just lied on the sofa listening to music did 20 minutes pass?? Ahjumma came home. i ran out of the veranda to ahjumma "Ahjumma!!!" "hey.. why are you so cold?? were you out on the veranda????" "yes.. ahjumma.." tears were starting to form. "Hwanee!!! did you send Yeh Won out???" [* Jin Hwan's nickname is Hwanee] "Ummah.. whos that hoe?? why is she at our house??" (pointing at me) "I told you last time.." "kick her out... im here now!!!" "JIN HWAN!!! Yeh won~~ even though hes like this, he has a warm heart. so please understand..^^" he has a warm heart???? huk.. ahjumma.. if you're gonna lie, you should make it more believable~~!! "UMmaH!! im here now.. so hurry and kick her out.." "Yeh Won!! Jin Hwan's the same age as you.. his birthday is a little faster but hes still a junior. he was a foreign exchange student in France but now hes home.^^ " Ahjumma ignored Jin Hwan and talked to me instead "Ummah!!!" "Yeh Won.. lets buy furniture later!!~~~" "Okay.. . ^" "Ummah! talk to me.. ummah!!" victory for Ahjumma ^^ sucks for him... he went to France.. wow they're so rich... though his personality is so bad (Furniture store) "how about this bed??" "This? it looks okay.." "What do you think Jin Hwan??" ".............." that guy acted like he didnt even hear his mom and continued browsing. hah.. hes pissed.. hes a junior now­ he should act like one.. he acts just like a kindergartener. "Mister.. this this.. this.. that.. ooh that!~~~~ i want to buy all of them.. and it would be good if they came today.." Ahjumma bought anything that she liked. "Ahjumma... this is way too much.. � � " "Yeh Won.. since Jin Hwan came, you have to use the small room. ^^ and we have to buy Jin Hwan's stuff too. Dont worry and tell me if you like anything.." "Okay � " I held huuge bundles in each hand and started home. "Today i have a business dinner so im going to come home late .. dont wait up for me." what?? Ahjummas going to be late.. then its just me and that guy.. . ^ i might have seen wrong but.. i think i saw a smile form on his lips "................ . " with a pathetic expression on my face i looked at Ahjumma through the mirror ".. and Hwanee.. just because im not here... dont think you can bother Yeh Won.. im going to kill you if you do. . ^" Huk.. i knew ahjumma was funny. but i didnt know she would say THAT... "Ummah.. who do you think i am? why would i bother her?? ^^" while he said this he looked at me and laughed.. it was definitely a devilish laugh.. "get the bags from the trunk and take them upstairs.. i have to go now.." "Yes.. ^^" Ahjumma got in the car while me and Jin Hwan got the 10+ bags "Ahjumma.. come home early please.. and dont drink too much ^^" <­­ i said this while holding a huge load. "Sure.. okay so im leaving!!^^ Hwanee.. be friends with Yeh Won.." "Okay. Go.Go. cuz its heavy.." "Okay ^^" *shooong* Ahjumma left i started to go up the stairs but Jin Hwan was seeing if his mom left (?). he made sure and came closer to me. TAK. <­­ the sound of shopping bags being dumped on the floor. ".......................................(dumfounded)" "hey you.. take all these bags. my arms hurt too much.." "WHAT?? Hey.. hey!!!" Without a word, that guy massaged his arms and went inside the elevator "Huh?? wait.yea??? hey.. help me.. " I barely lifted all the bags when they started to fall off one by one... that guy laughed evily and went up. ".................................evil bastard....." i had three bags between my teeth and shopping bags in both hands as i waited for the elevator. but the elevator didnt come. "did it break?? huh???? huh?????" what is this?? the elevator stopped at every floor from 1 to 21. that jerk must have pressed all the buttons... (home was on the 7th floor.. right now it was at the 14th) Huk.. ive never seen such an evil bastard.. around 15 minutes passed?? i rode the elevator to the 7th floor. i bit the shopping bags in my mouth tightly and muttered to my self 'i have to fight and win.. fight and not lose!!!' DING Arrival. From the hallway, i heard loud music (rock) "..................." i paused in front of the door. can i beat this guy for sure??? my heart started to feel heavier 4. i opened the door and went inside. the music was so loud my ears were ringing.. that guy was laying on the sofa, singing along to the music ".............................lower the volume!!!!!" i said as i dropped the bags that were in my mouth but my voice couldn't be heard.... "lower the volume..." i said as i stood right in front of him that jerk glared at me with an annoyed expression and said "get away..." "............" i was frustrated so i went inside my room. but that guy suddenly sprinted up and blocked the bedroom door. TUK... that guy is super tall. i looked up and glared at him. "where are you going?? this is my room.. so dont put one foot in here!!!" "Why?? all my stuff is in there...!!!"" "Im here now.. so this room belongs to me, it always did. before you might have stayed here.. but starting now its not.. why?? (rudely) because i came back.. got it??" " . ^" i glared at him fiercely "your eyes might pop out.. and your room is over there... there (he pointed with his foot) get it?? that was my closet so clean it up and use it.." ". rude bastard.." "what???b*tch......." BbAmbarambambarambarmaral.. right then, that guy's cell phone rang hah­ funny... its the wedding march "You're lucky this time..!!!" he said and picked up his phone "Hello... huh?? why?? yea so what if i just came.. do i have time to meet with you?? heck no.. okay .. okay... hey hang up." yup, no phone manners either .... . ^ it looks like a girl called.... i went to that guy's closet. the room was filled with clothes. i crouched down and sat... wait.. wait.. in that other room i had my books.. my stuff.. and my ... underwear.... my *private* things... *stood up* "you scared me.." the guy had opened the door a crack "EY!! go out and buy something to eat..." "what?? YOU go and buy..." "you.. get out­ hurry.. and come back late.. my friends are coming and i dont want them to see you.. they're gonna think somethings going on!!" ". move.." "where you going?" "you told me to go out.." "^^ okay & try to come back late!!! really late.. why not come home the same time as my mom.. hmm.. i think my moms still at the station..^^" TAK. i slammed the door and went outside. im so stupid to come out with no money. since i couldnt buy anything, i aimlessly circled the apartment building i saw a bench near the grass.. (people call this the scary part) there, a guy and a girl were making out i think??? i know i shouldnt have been doing this but i turned my head in their direction "... its broad daylight, what are they doing?? huk.." i grabbed my mouth in shock that guy that was kissing had his eyes wide open and was looking at me.. ?? his wrists were moving around~~ hwee~~ he motioned for me to go away " . ^ ( i waved)" i waved and ran away from that spot this is the first time ive seen kissing so closely. my heart is still beating loudly... but that guy.. his face looks so familiar... . ^ i didnt move from that spot i sat dazed on the floor "huh?? Han Yeh Won.. right??" who is that??? "..........." as i turned my head.. i saw that it was that Won Min Jae guy who bothered me this morning he was dressed in black formal clothes with his hair all gelled up smiling, he came closer to me. "who.. who are you???" "you forgot me?? im Won Jae.. ^^ wow.. this is fate.. God led us to each other.." "I dont know anyone by that name~~~ lalalalalla~~~~" i abruptly stood up and ran like crazy in the other direction "Huh?? Han Yeh Won... wait... Han Yeh Won..~~!!!!!!!" that guy is so hard to get rid of.. hes still following me. where am i???? i went into a random building and started running up the stairs. this is where i live.. "Yeh Won??? where are you going?? this is so tiring.." . ^ i should be the most tired.. without thinking, i ran even harder "Yeh Won.. lets stop running." "Dont follow me!!!! Stupid.. i dont like you..." "Yeh Won.. why are you saying regretful words again??" i ended up at the 7th floor in front of #703, my house. suddenly i remembered.. Jin Hwan.. hes probably playing with his friends right?? "Yeh Won!!!! you're not running away anymore??" "AHHHhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~" i was so scared that i didnt think and i opened the door wide open. "Yeh Won!!!" when i opened the door.. i had a feeling.. i shouldnt be here. inside the house Jin Hwan had a girl in each arm and was drinking beer. and was looking at me with a weird expression on his face. "What is this?? you're back already?? i told you to come late...!!!' "Huh?? uh.. sorry.." "Who is this?? Jin Hwan?? your maid??" a girl with long hair leaned on him asked. "why do you care??? none of your buisness.." such a cold and scary guy. right then "Yeh Won.. where is this?? im so tired.. i think im gonna die.." this guy is so rude.. plus he has bad timing.. He and Jin Hwan made eye contact. that Min Jae guy glanced at Jin Hwan and looked so shocked to see him. "Yeh.. Yeh Won!!!" that.. that guy.. who is it?? im seeing wrong.. right???" " . ^ What are you seeing wrong??" "is it possible.. that.. that guy's Jin Hwan??" that guy said with his chin shaking "yea!!!" his face started sweating Right then, Jin Hwan put down his beer bottle and came near us. "You.. right?? Won Min Jae.. yea?" "huh?? Hi..^^ when did you come back?? its .. its nice to see you.. ^^;;" "Hi?? Nice to see you?? what is this.. you f*cker.." "Yeh.. Yeh Won.. i'll see you at school tomorrow!!" "Huh?" that Min Jae guy started down the stairs he must be tired.. he already troubled himself by following me. "Hey.. how do you know that jerk??" Jin Hwan looked at me with scary eyes "Huh?? sa.. same high school." "You're Boo Ja High school?? he said with slight distgust "Huh?? . ^ yea...but.." "fawk.. " his four guy friends who were watching came near us. "Jin Hwan.. Won Min Jae from Boo Ja high school..right??" "Won Min Jae right?? Yoo Han Bin.. where's Yoo Han Bin???" "we have to catch that bastard and beat the crap out of him..." "shut up.." "(dazed)" he was a little scary.. even though he did get mad at me. its the first time ive felt such a threating atmosphere. "you.. whats your name??" "Ha.. Han Yeh Won.." "Han Yeh Won?? because of you its no fun anymore so go buy more beer..." he handed me $5 bucks "Huh?? kay.." I dragged my tired body back outside. good thing­ i was wishing i could get out of that spot.. . ^ Min Jae?? Han Yoo Bin?? and Jin Hwan.. what happened between them? my mind was filled with contemplations. 5. i held two bags of beer in each hand as i opened the door. "Huh?? your friends left???" "Yea.. we didnt feel like drinking after you came in" cant he talk a little less rudely.. "then.. your friends all left??" "thats right.. im hungry so make me something.." "do it yourself.." "dont you know that cuz of you i dont feel like doing anything??" "fawk.." i couldnt curse in front of him so i cussed him out in my head while making ramen. ".. you're telling me to eat ramen now??" "Whats wrong with ramen?" "HEY!!! im not eating.. not eating.. move it.." "hey.. you told me to make anything!!!" "When did i tell you to make ramen??? i told you to make rice!! i feel like throwing up so move it!! sh*t.. hurry." [*note* ramen is thought of as.. poor people food] " � ." evil bastard.. he changes his mind so often i feel sorry for the girl that goes out with him. "Hey.. im gonna shower so watch tv.." " . ^" that guy quietly went into the restroom. but suddenly "Hey. if you try to sneak a look at me you're gonna die.. !! "Why would i try to sneak.." TAK. before i finished talking he slammed the door. rude jerk... i hope he chokes on the water and dies!!!! i hear the water running.. he must be showering .. . ^ when did i start caring about that. BamBBafa.. Bambaba BBamBBalalala... yep that funny ring tone... should i get it?? no.. i dont know what that guy will do to me if i do.. . ^ it rang about 7 times?? and another call was coming arg its so loud. i quietly opened the phone but didnt say anything. "Hwanee?? Hwanee right?? .................... if you dont want to talk its okay.." what is she saying?? . ^ im positive it was a girl on the other line.. and she was crying "i heard you came from France today. i didnt know when you would come back.. since you came back so fast people are really surprised... ................................................................... so you got over me right?? Hwanee.. im sorry.. im really sorry.. i made a mistake.. i was wrong.. i dont know what i did..it just happened.. please forgive me.." that girl started crying even harder. who the heck is this?? "Hwanee.. please im begging you.. i dont care what you say, just say anything.. i just want to hear your voice.." Huk.. i feel horrible~~ i dont know what happened.. i want to say something.. but now is not the time.. what do i do. i shouldnt have picked up this phone call.. suddenly i heard the bathroom door opening. "huk..." i quickly hung up and threw the phone on the sofa. "why are you so surprised????" he asked. "Huh?? oh.. no.. ju..just..." "fawk dont stutter!!!" "i... wha.. whatt??' "pisses me off.. (looked around) hey did you touch my phone??" huk.. omg but if i show myself, i'll die.. "uh.. i didnt touch it.. do i look like i would??" . ^ my heart is beating so loudly.. Jin Hwan threw his towel on the sofa and he glared at me as he took his phone into his room. "whew... i'll be thankful for ten years." "you scared me.." i gasped. if he went in his room he should stay there. why is he opening his door?? i could have fainted . ^ "you swear you didnt touch it??" "ye. yea... i didnt touch it.. yur so annoying.." if i stayed there any longer i thought i would get caught so i went inside my room "wheww...." i was still scared. i sat in my spot until i calmed down. (the next morning) "oh?? Yeh Won you're awake??" yesterday seemed like a dream.. but at Ahjummah's one sentence.. "Yeh Won.. will you wake up Hwanee?? if i wake him up he'll never get up.. ^^;;" at Ahjummah's one sentence. i suddenly felt hopeless. 6. very carefully i opened the door. . ^(peeked in) "Ummah..." Huk. . ^ i covered my mouth and stealthily walked in. he was shirtless and wrapped around in his blanket, that ignorant jerk. starting from now Han Yeh Won.. your happiness is over. "Hey~~ Ahjumma said to wake up.." "mmm~~~" huh?? hes not waking up... "ey. Ahjumma said to wake uppppp.. " even if i spoke directly in his ear, i dont think he would have woken up. "What kind of jerk is this?? Ahjumma!!! hes not waking up." "oh thats right!! Jin Hwan is a deep sleeper~~ try harder ^^" Ahjumma you're too much... . ^ okay. this is a good time to get back at him right?? CHAK i slapped his back "fawk who is this... be gentle.. it freakn hurts.." . ^ what.. what is he saying?? is he dreaming?? its still weird.. shii.. i shouldnt think this. i cant stand this... im going to tickle him a LOT.. ^^ no one stays asleep if i do this.. "isnt there some kind of feather?? . ^ ooh .. here." i found a furry pen on his desk.. quietly.. i started tickling his toes. "kekeke.." i giggled. "fawk i told you not to do that.." PUK... fighter down. i shouldnt fall like this.. i see birds flying around me that jerk kicked my head.. . . "ahh.. owww... heuk.. heuk..." "fawk you're so loud... (he saw me and looked shocked) what are you doing in my room??" "owwww.. . . " "why are you crying in someone else's room??trying to annoy me..." " . " "hey..yur gonna burn a hole.. stop glaring .." " . i yelled and hit and tickled you and you dont feel anything?? what kind of person is that??? if you dont wake up when i tickle you, what else should i do??" he looked at me strangely wasnt a human glare, but an animal's. "why?? whats wrong??"i asked.. scared. "did you touch me?? tell me again. who did you hit?? how dare you??" "ackkk whats wrong with you??" that guy came closer to me. hes really scary. ACK >< shouldnt he put on some clothes?? he should be embarrassed not.. huk suddenly he grabbed my arms "why are you doing this..?? move." i yelled. "tell me again.. who did you hit???? HUH???!!" "ah.. okay.. i wont do it again, isnt that enough??" HWAK "Yeh Won hes still not waking up??" Ahjumma yelled while putting water in a bucket. "ah.. Ahjumma" Ahjumma turned to stone!! because... because that jerk and i were in a slightly weird pose. laying down with tears on my face­ me. shirtless and grabbing onto my two arms AND on top of me­ Jin Hwan.. anyone would think weird things if they saw us. "you two.. wha... what are you doing??" 7. "oh. Ummah......." i have to get back to reality... "Ahjumma.. hes trying to kill me!!!!!" "What??? Jin Hwan!!! move why dont you!!" "Ummah.. its not that.. dont.. think of it as anything else.." "anyways i always said all boys are the same... how dare you touch her??!!!!!" Ahjumma slapped Jin Hwan's back. "................. " "oww.. Ummah i told you not to misunderstand.. oww.. it hurts.. your sons dying.. dying." "you still havent fixed that habit?? still seeing every girl as your girl.. huh??? huh?!?!!!" ................. ........................ ................. ............ "take care of the house.. and dont bring any of your weird friends!!!" "i got it.. stop nagging and go!!!" Hwanee yelled. "you rude... and put some clothes on... Yeh Won lets go!!" ".............." i turned my head and made eye contact with him. "��� " he was trying to hit me and had a weird expression on his face "Ah.. Ahjumma.. hurry lets go.." "okay." whew... there was a red handprint on his back. it must hurt a lot. how can i look at him later?? "Ahjumma i'll just ride the bus to school." "why?? i can drop you off." "its okay.. you're going to be late.. (opens door) Ahjumma then.. bye." "^^ study hard.." "i will..^^" the bus came 5 minutes after Ahjumma left yep that bus is still crowded. everyday is so tiring. "Ah. wait... sorry ^^" i went inside the bus. luckily i didnt see that Min Jae guy. "whew.." i sighed with relief. "Jo Young Gong Go High.. Jo Young Gong Go High" the bus driver announced. ah.. this school must be Jo Young Gong Go!! wow a lot of people left the bus. the only people left were students with the uniform i was wearing.. suddenly something caught my eyes.... Won Min Jae's friend.. that Han Yoo Bin person oh thats right!!!! that guy that was kissing at the park bench was him!!!!! i started blushing... when i started thinking of that again but today he doesnt look too happy i secretively kept looking at his face. he must have a lot of girlfriends .. . ^ i didnt want to admit it but Jin Hwan is seriously good looking too. between the two, who is more good looking?? "huk.. ah.. ^^" did i stare at him too hard?? i made eye contact with him. embarrassing... eeek~~~ why is it that everytime this bus comes to our school it stops so suddenly?? "ahhhh~~~~" i couldnt find my balance!!!! right then, one man saved this fragile girl it was that Han Yoo Bin person.. "oh.. th.. thanks.." "^^" where did his unhappy face go?? the bus doors opened and kids from our school got off. the bus was empty. "hey.." that Han Yoo Bin guy slung his bag on his shoulder and came near me " . ^" "you're the girl Min Jae likes right??? ^^" "oh.. who.. who is that????" "you dont know Min Jae?? you really dont know??" "nope.. i dont even want to know someone like that.." "hey.. dont hate Min Jae too much!! he attracts lots of girls with his looks.. you're the first one he chose to like... and do you know what kind of girls he likes??" " . " i dont really want to know "he really likes strawberries.. especially girls who wear strawberry panties ^^ funny huh?? and strong girls who play hard to get." " . ^ so??" "so dont play hard to get!! if you do it too much, it doesnt look good.." "what?? what do you know??" "me?? nothing..." ".........................." "i can make you mine in 10 seconds tho.." "psh.. im so shocked im speechless... move.." "really.. just 10 seconds. no.. it'll be a little harder for you. maybe 20 seconds??" "are you for reals!!! move!!" "^^ should i try?? huh??" he smiled. why is this jerk annoying me?? theres a lot of people around here too.. . ^ "What if you cant??" "if i cant?? i havent thought about that... . ^ there never was a girl i couldnt get.." "well unlike all the girls you've met, im not shallow like them... dont think im that easy!!!" "So can i try once??" ". (what is this crap) fine.. 20 seconds?? if i dont like you by then, you cant talk to me or act like you know me!!' "Okay ^^ im gonna do it." " . ^" "step backwards a little .. " ".........................." what kind of order is this... i took a step behind me. "come one step closer.." "............." i stepped closer to him without thinking... "what are you doing??" "see.. the important thing is position.. i have to seduce you good dont i .." "time.. 3 seconds passed already.." "^^" hwak~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "oom.................................................." " . ^" that guy lowered his head and met my lips. thats why he needed good position.. . ^ my first kiss.. my first kiss...... . but this guy isnt just an ordinary kisser. slap// " , " shocked, he touched his cheek... "dirty bastard.. dont touch me!!!!!" "..................." tears started to fall on my cheek people said that if you didnt want to be kissed for the first time, you start to cry.. i never believed this... but now that ive experienced it... i think i thoroughly understand. "......................" he looked at me shocked "so it turns out you couldnt get me .. heuk.... so dont try to talk to me.. and dont act like you know me.. dirty bastard.. evil bastard.. son of a .. distgusting.. go to hell ............................." 8. after i finished cussing, i started running in the opposite direction toward school. tak. that guy grabbed my arm and started pulling me. he had a red handprint on his cheek. i couldnt control my strength so i guess i hit him too hard. "let go.. you jerk!!!! you think im like all the girls you played and got.. you thought wrong.. im not someone you can play around with..." when did he let go of my arm?? it felt like my arm was being pulled out. "Han Yeh Won?? Han Yeh Won is it possible.. is it possible......" " . ." "was it possible that i was your first???????" " . ^" stupid... so what if you were my first.. you stupid boy. and where lots of people could see too.... no with a person i didnt even love plus i didnt even know this jerk would do that... . ^ "so.. you're my first.." "Huk.. Huk... (surprised laughter) hahahaha" ".............whats so funny??? is it so shocking that you­ the expert­ took someones first kiss???" "puaahhaahhahaa... oww my stomach..." that guy was on the floor, grabbing his stomach and laughing. ".........................." how many minutes passed??????? he got back to reality and suddenly stood up and came close to touching my nose. "im sorry to Min Jae but theres nothing i can do now..." "what??" "i was your first kiss??? good.. i'll take responsibility.." "What??" "I said i'll take responsiblity.. your first kiss.. if you're that regretful........" he said. "what kind of jerk is this??? shut up.. i dont even want to think about it......" "are you rejecting me? you're gonna regret it..." "im not gonna regret it, you jerk!!! i just feel dirty.. do i avoid poop cuz im scared of it??? i avoid it cuz its dirty........" "......................................" i put on my bag and turned toward school but why are there no people??? "where are you going??" " . ^ school­ where else??" "you're going to school now?? right now its.. 8 25. its a good time to get caught..." "........................................." huk.. that means i was with this guy for 40 mintues??? "im okay but.. its not okay for you.. maybe 10 laps around the gym?? you probably have to run that much.." "........................................." i seriously hate running.. what should i do?? "i know a safe way to go.. wanna go together??" he asked. "no.. i dont need help from you....." "fine then.." "Huh?? hey.." "you're really heavy.. i really regret taking you.." " . ^ im late cuz of you.. ah... ahh...." Puk i fell from the outside wall to inside the school. "AH. owww.. my butt......ah...." "ooh.. it must really hurt.. are you okay??" " . ^" that guy jumped easily over the wall. "it sucks to be a girl cuz your legs are so short. and have no strength either.." " . ^" "but what you said earlier.. are you really rejecting me??" "yea.. rejection.. refusal.. NO thank you.. get it??" "keke this is the first time getting dumped by a girl.. so this is how girls feel!!!" "what??" "now that i think about it.. i feel bad about all the girls i kicked to the curb.. i get how it feels to be rejected.." "ey.. dont try to be intellectual!!!" "what?? im smart." "If you're smart then im first in the whole country" i laughed. "how come you dont believe me.. im telling the truth." "Okay. okay... stop bothering me!!!! and i know you're a flirt, you dont have to explain to me.." " . " darling~~ get the phone.. darling get the phone. "...................................." what is that?? is there a ring tone like that?? "so annoying.. hello?? ...................... huh? Young Hee?? Yea.. im busy.. im at school!!! what??ey stop crying.. i dont like you anymore.. how long has it been since we broke up?? dont do this..you're making me mad.." "......................." what kind of phone call is that?? sounds just like someone else.. yep Jin Hwan.. good looking people have to pay a price. thats not a wrong statement.. but hes really rude.. . ^ "yea i exchanged you for her.. shes a hundred times, a thousand times prettier than you.. seriously skinny too.. how far did i go with her?? we went to third base.. satisfied?? so stop calling.. you're really annoying..." "....................." third base?? . ^ its people like him.. that you call distgusting!! first time ive seen it.. i only heard that people said things like that. "sorry.. this hoe is a little annoying.." ".... its okay... so im gonna go first.." i yelled to him. "whats wrong??" "ackk.. so yur gonna start yelling now??" "whats wrong?" he asked. "kya.... i realy hate people like you.. so dont come any closer!!" unknowingly, i was saying the very words that i was thinking in my head i looked straight ahead of me as i ran. what did i say again?? i probably hurt him. . ^ i didnt want to say it that way... but.. 10 minutes.. no if i could turn back time just 5 minutes... 9. i was going inside the room when.. all the kids who were huddled together looked at me and started to cuss and murmur among themselves. then one girl came to me and said "Han Yeh Won!!!" "Huh??" "is it true you and Yoo Bin kissed??" "Huh?? that..." "fawk i think this b*tch really did." the girl said really loudly... but i didnt say anything... right then, someone kicked open the door and came in.. Won Min Jae.... he pushed my shoulder and said "Han Yeh Won.. is that true??" "What??" "that you and Yoo Bin kissed.." "Huh?" the kids started crowding around. what should i say in this situation?? "You did?? Han Yeh Won did??" "what is this?? Why should i tell you???" "So you really did.. you really did!!" "HEY!!!" i yelled. suddenly BOOM everyone turned around. Han Yoo Bin furiously kicked the door with his foot. "what are you doing in my seat?? move.." the kids made a pathway and Han Yoo Bin went through it. "Whats this?? Won Min Jae.. the bell rang.. hurry, go to your room.." Yoo Bin said. Won Min Jae grabbed my arm and went toward Han Yoo Bin's seat.. and grabbed Han Yoo Bin's clothes "is that true?? you.. and Yeh Won kissed.. did you really??" "what if i did??" "bastard.." Won Min Jae socked Han Yoo Bin in the face.. Han Yoo Bin pushed his desk as he fell over. and Won Min Jae abruptly let go of my hand. "you still didnt fix that disease?? if you keep doing this you're not gonna have any friends.. bastard.. i never thought you would do something like this to me.." Min Jae said. silent Han Yoo Bin.. Won Min Jae left through the back door. Quietly getting up, Han Yoo Bin covered his mouth.. it was bleeding.. "what are you looking at?? the teacher is coming.. go sit in your seats.." "................................." it must hurt a lot. you stupid.. Han Yeh Won.. its all because of you. i kept on turning around toward Han Yoo Bin... 1st period. 2nd period... 3rd period is free time.. as soon as the bell rang.. the gossipers at our school must have told people because kids from other classes came into ours. and surrounded Han Yoo Bin. this wasnt a joking environment. desks turned over.. the environment subsided.. but no one said a word. kids from other classes started coming in <to watch> "Yoo Bin.. is that true??" "how can you do that??" "what are you saying??" Han Yoo Bin smirked and laughed. there was no shocked expression. as if he saw the future. "You tried to get a girl Min Jae called first.. you know already.. Min Jae hasnt liked anyone in 2 years.." then a coarse looking boy said "How can you do that?? you had no girls to get.. so you get Min Jae's girl?? i thought you had more conscience than that." "what did i do?? is this all over just one kiss??" Yoo Bin asked. "fawk are you watching a fire?? go away.. !!!" Han Yoo Bin was completely ignoring everyone.. right then that coarse looking guy seemed slightly mad.. "you did that with Kim Ji Min.. you're doing this again??" his eyes lifted scarily Han Yoo Bin flew that coarse looking face that guy was not small but he flew all the way to the door. "shut up.. shut up now.. or i wont just sit here.." totally angry eyes . . who the heck is Ji Min?? "Yoo Bin.. lets talk when you've calmed down.. if we talk now.. nothing good will come out of it.. hey.. Jin Sung, help me.." around three guys helped lift that chubby kid and left "Han Yoo Bin.. im disappointed in you." after saying this, his last friend left.. quietly sitting in his seat­ Han Yoo Bin... everyone quietly took a good look at Han Yoo Bin and sat in their seats. (art class) this time you were supposed to draw your partner's face. how could i draw that girl i despise. she and i sat across from each other and started to draw. "Won Min Jae likes you??" "Huh?? what.. what are you saying?? n.. no.." "Min Jae's a good person.. dont give him any burdens.." what is she saying?? "hey do you know Ji Min??" "Ji Min?? know?? that popular kid.. shes a total Cinderella.. keke" "what kind of person is she??" "What kind of person?? shes just like Cinderella.. theres not one person who doesnt know her... Han Yoo Bin.. Won Min Jae.. and Jo Young Gong Go's Jin Hwan too. those three kings all liked that one girl..." "what??" "oh yea.. its funny.. why should i be telling you this.." i wanted to hear more but.. i know if i asked she wouldnt tell me anything so i didnt ask. 6th period came and went.. even till 6th period, i didnt see Han Yoo Bin laugh once. % Bus Stop i saw Han Yoo Bin at the bust stop. i gathered up my courage and went to him. tightly holding my hands... 10. "hello??" "Huh?? Han Yeh Won??" ­Yoo Bin "Yeah.." "............................" "you know Won Min Jae. apologize to him." i said. "dont worry about it!!!" "its something i should worry about.. its all my fault." "its not all your fault..." "� and im sorry about this morning..." "its okay.. ive heard that story a lot.." . ^ "hey i wanted to ask you something." i said. Han Yoo Bin looked at me.. maybe it was the sunlight but he looked even more good looking. we ended up talking at the park bench in front of my apartment. "hey... really.. apologize to Min Jae.. he doesnt seem like a bad person." "i told you its okay.. ^^" Han Yoo Bin looked at me and laughed.. and stroked my hair as he talked "what are you so curious about??" since he asked so seriously. it was hard to say it "that.. Ji Min person.. before.. i heard about her.. what kind of girl is she?" "Kim Ji Min?? Ji Min??" why are his eyes looking so sad?? who the heck is this girl... "Ji Min?" "yea.." "Ji Min.. shes a lot like you.." "Me??" "yea.." tearfully laughing Han Yoo Bin. "how you laugh and cry.. and your friendliness.. and when you're dazed.. your high self esteem... and the same long hair.. can hit well.. how you dont like ignoring other people.. and.. and...." stuttering Han Yoo Bin... i shouldnt have asked such a thing. "ah.. im sorry for asking such a pointless thing.." "its okay.. but i dont want to talk about it anymore.." "sure.. if you dont want to you dont have to....." "Han Yeh Won what are you doing there??" it was Jin Hwan.. he had a black bag in one hand and was wearing athletic clothes. a white short sleeved shirt... and a cap on his head.. Han Yoo Bin looked at me strangely. "You two know each other??" "huh? yea.. we live together..." "Han Yeh Won.. what are you doing there??" Jin Hwan came closer to me. ................................. " i heard you came back from France. but i didnt think you would return this fast.." Yoo Bin said. Jin Hwan looked at Han Yoo Bin and said to me... "ey.. im hungry.. if school ended you should have come directly home" "Huh?? wait a minute.." i said. Jin Hwan was pulling on my hand. "ah.. yah..." "i said im hungry... hurry.." "wait..." Yoo Bin smiled and waved.. i waved too.. and laughed..... right then, Jin Hwan pulled my hand harder. i was nearly dragged home. he abruptly let go of my hand "it hurts.. and i was talking with my friend, whats your problem?" i said. Jin Hwan looked angry... why would he get angry?? suddenly Jin Hwan's phone rang "Hello.. yea.. i... Han Yoo Bin??? what about that bastard... with Won Min Jae???? why?? who????????................" silent Jin Hwan. "what??? Han Yeh won??? i got it, hang up.." he threw his phone on the sofa and came near me "Why?? whats wrong??" i asked "whats wrong with your lip?" "what??" "why did your lip burst??" "what .. what are you saying??" "you.. kissed Han Yoo Bin??" "what?? what... what are you saying?? " DID YOU KiSS?" Jin Hwan yelled at me... "Ye.. Yea.. but whats it to you??" "Ey!! Han Yeh Won..." "why does it matter to you??" "ey.. im getting really mad.. be careful of your lips!!!" "........ 0 " what.. is this?? "...................................." i quietly entered my room. i was so shocked.. i decided to take a nap in my uniform. Boom Boom... "ey." @@ "Ah.. you scared me..." surprised, i quickly stood up. "ey. Han Yeh Won..." whats this?? jerk?? ARG. i cant even sleep cuz of his fit . "ey~!! are you asleep??" i rubbed my eyes as i opened the door. "fawk you closed the door while you were whining?? ey this is my room!!!!!! got it??" ­ Jin Hwan. " . ^" he came into my room and rummaged through the clothes.. and took out a formal outfit "ey!!!you too­ hurry and change..." "huh?????" "dont talk back to me. if i tell you to change, then just change.." "why??" "to go out.." "why??" "fawk why do you keep asking.. Ummah said she would come home late.. so i want to go out and eat.." "you and me??" "fawk.. we're not eating cuz i WANT to eat with you" " . ^ i get it.... get out." "why??" the jerk yelled. "to change my clothes... kekkk" since i yelled so much, i started to lose my voice "ahahahhaa ... distgusting ...its my first time seeing such a distgusting girl" what is this, trying to piss me off.... "ey.. you're really small.." "what??" ­ me­ "this.. this." (he pointed to his chest..) . ^ "HAha. look at your red face.... and why are you trying to lie to me??? when i first saw them they were small.." "you get out.." "ey you wear little kid panties??" "YAH!! you looked through my underwear??" i fought with him for 30 minutes before we went out to Myoung Dong Street. but this guy wore black formal clothes and had his hair gelled.. and next to him was normal me with jeans.. and a blouse.. isnt there too much difference between us? when we were walking together, every person that passed by stared at us and laughed when they saw me... . ^ next time i wont go outside with this guy... "ey.. its annoying walking with you.." ­ Jin Hwan. " . ^ " "fawk why didnt you wear appropriate clothes!!!" "frkn sorry i dont have any clothes..." the guy quietly walked to the 2nd floor of an expensive looking restaurant. i dont have any money. will this guy pay for me?? . ^ 11. everything is written in english i shouldnt have looked at it... . ^ "what do you want to eat??" "me?? same thing as you..." me, confused. "two of this.." "sure.." the waitress took the menus and left. "ey. you didnt know english, so you said that right??" i asked. "fawk stop talking nonsense.. do you think im you??" "then tell me what you ordered." "fil.. fil.. filet.. ah fawk.. just eat what i ordered..." "kekeke...." "fawk do you even know??" why is he yelling nonsense?? annoying. "i dont know either ^^" he was so shocked he laughed too. the portion looked small but when i was eating i thought my stomach was going to burst. "ah... im full...... . ^" i even ate my salad and this guy kept saying how annoying it was and cussed... "where are we going??" "to drink.. you never drank before, have you??" nope never... . "of course... who hasnt drank??" "yea??" ­ Jin Hwan­ did we walk for 10 minutes?? he went into a strange bar "Oh!!!!!!!! Hwanee.. here." five guys and three girls... his friends in that corner yelled at us. "Hwanee.. its been a while since ive seen you.. i thought my heart died cuz of you... did you know how much i missed you??" "ey... move your face... ey sit..." "huh???? kay....." ­me­ "is this the girl you're living with??" "huh?? yea..." "whos that kid??" a girl next to me asked bluntly. "ey.. just order some more beer.." Jin Hwan was precisely ignoring her... even today, why are you looking so pretty ^^ people next to me where drinking straight from the bottle. "Hwanee!!! did you know how much i missed you..... you left by yourself.. you said you wouldnt dump me... 0 " "ey.. how come you havent changed?? huh?? stop bothering me... please." "heung... no.. im even gonna follow you to hell.." "fawk no.. i should have stayed there longer.. ey im gonna go to the bathroom." ­ Jin Hwan­ "Hwanee. me too!!" that girl abruptly stood up and linked arms with Hwanee. Jin Hwan left. "ey.. did Hwanee met Ji Min??" ­ his friends are talking­ "ey .. do you think he would??? that b*tch... watch when he meets her... i would f* her up..." "when did that hoe break up with Han Yoo Bin??" "ey.. that was so long ago.." "..............................." "ah.. sorry... so you and Jin Hwan live together?? that guy's a good person.." ­ one of his friends asked me­ right then a crowd of people came into the bar. ive seen these people before... its people from my school. its all the kids that came into our classroom. next to them was Won Min Jae.. and i saw Han Yoo Bin too. "................................." Won Min Jae glanced at me and looked surprised... and lowered his head again. "fawk those kids are from Boo Ja??" "so??" right then, Han Yoo Bin came to our table. "huh?? Han Yeh Won right?? why are you here??" "Huh?? yea that.." ­me­ "ey. do you know where this is??" "whats wrong with you?? yah.. Kim Han Soo.. you got cooler" ­Yoo Bin­ "fawk.. bastard.." "Han Yeh Won.. you shouldnt be here... these are people from Jo Young Gong Go.. over there are kids from our school.. lets go over there.." "huh?? ah.. that.. i..." at that moment, the door opened and Jin Hwan came in... Yoo Bin looked shocked to see Jin Hwan.. . ^ "Hwanee was here too." Yoo Bin was holding onto my arm.... and was tugging it. "Jin Hwan!!! im taking Yeh Won.. Yeh Won's our school ^^" "let go of her hand." Jin Hwan's thick and low voice. carelessly laughing Han Yoo Bin... "i said to let go of her hand..." "Jin Hwan... dont get mad over nothing!!" Jin Hwan came and pulled my arm. it frkn hurt.. but i couldnt say anything.. . ^ Yoo Bin tugged my arm again.. PUk. Jin Hwan's fist hit Yoo Bin in the face. Han Yoo Bin and the nearby table both flew. this happened all in one second.. i dont know what i saw... 12. "oooh.. you got stronger... . ^" Yoo Bin was quietly wiping his blood. Right then, the people from our school who arrived with Yoo Bin came near Jin Hwan. "(getting up) yah.. its okay.. nothing happened.. lets just go and drink... and Han Yeh Won.. i didnt think you belonged there... but next time come sit with us..." Han Yoo Bin smiled at me and turned... why is everyone like this?? "sit.." "huh?? kay.." people were all drinking but me and Won Min Jae.. were sitting diagonally from each other so.. we kept making eye contact. i tried to avoid him. Won Min Jae continually stared at me. where should i look... . 1 am... how much did this guy drink.. if he couldnt stay focused?? "then i'll leave him to you... Jin Hwan i mean.." "ah.. sure ^^" "yah.. Jin Hwan!! open your eyes.." ­me­ in front of the apartment.. i was dragging this jerk while he leaned across my shoulders "ey.. wake up.. im gonna leave you here." "ah my stomach.." "im really gonna leave you.. . ^" i threw his hand on top of him and layed him on the street. "you're really not waking up.. im leaving!!" i threw him and left. suddenly he grabbed onto my pants "ey. let go." "you.. you're gonna leave me to die while you live.. you cant do that... � im not gonna die alone." what sort of dream is he dreaming.. why is he talking about dying!!~~~ "ey. let go of my pants.." he absolutely didnt let go. luckily a guard helped me drag this guy home. "thank you.. ^^" "how much could he have drunk??" "ah.. ^^ i didnt drink.." "sexy husband??" "husband?? what are you saing?? im just a junior.." "high school student?? then why are you two living together??" "please dont misunderstand.. ahjumma lives here too." "ahjumma?? the young lady who goes to the station??" "young lady?? oh. yes.^^" since this man was hard of hearing for 15 minutes i had to talk to him before going inside. "okay so i layed him down... but how come Ahjumma isnt coming home??" i was thinking of this and that.. when 30 minutes passed? i was just about to close my eyes when... suddenly the door opened... . ^ "Ji... JI.. Jin Hwan..??" my eyes were half closed... totally gone. "wha.. wha are yu doing??" "this is my room.. get out." "what?" . ^ what is this?? lying next to me was Jin Hwan. and his personal feat while he slept... was hugging anything that was next to him. that position is this position. "this.. why are you doing this??" "mm nyah." he hugged me even tighter. ".................................." wow its pretty freaky. i carefully put his arm and leg down and put the blanket between them and left. whew..... i thought i was going to die... i sat on the sofa and slept. "yah... yah.. you're not waking up?? you're not going to school??" "ahjumma!!! 10 more minutes. 1­ 0 minutes.." PUk Puk "yah." "ah.. ahjumma.. it hurts.." PUk PUk.... "Ahjumma!!" i suddenly woke up when is this guy was kicking my butt?? "yah... where are you hitting??" "stupid.. do you know what time it is??" "today is sunday.. huk.. no today is saturday.." "stupid... why do you even live??" "what do i do??? what time is it??? what do i do its 8 o'clock... comeon, move." ".. why are you getting mad at me, i didnt do anything!!!!!" "shut up.." "... i should just hit...." that guy sat on the sofa watching tv just like a bum. "yah. when do you start school??" ­me­ "what does it matter to you??" "i give up.." "monday.." after frustrating the crap out of me does it feel good to do that?? . ^ "ey.. .do you know Han Yoo Bin??" "huh?? yea.." i was in my uniform trying to hurry as much as possible... but he kept talking to me. "do you know Won Min Jae??" "yea... i know .. why." "who is he going out with??" "� what are you trying to say?? hes not going out with anyone.." .......................... silence... i hurriedly ran to school. but the bus didnt come. . ^ what should i do?? i helplessly decided to run to school. "what time is it?? what do i do, class starts in 20 minutes.." BEEP BEEP~~!!! i was passing Jo Young Gong Go when someone honked at me. "� im in a hurry who is that??" " . ^ ey.. Han Yeh Won.." "................. Won Min Jae.." "wanna ride??" ". could i do that??" "but i have a requirement!!" "requirement?? "yea." "what is it??" "today is saturday.. play with me.. ^^" "ey playing with you is not a requirement. i can sit in the back, right?" "^^ yep." i got on behind Min Jae and headed for school. because of MIn Jae, i luckily had 5 minutes left until class. that empty seat. not coming again. Han Yoo Bin...... is he sick??? "you brought your drawing right??" "drawing?? what drawing??" "2nd period is art class today... you were supposed to bring your drawing today... is it possible you didnt bring it??" "really??? i didnt bring it." "i knew you would do that." . ^ rude hoe.. but what should i do?? what should i do?? 1st period was free time.. i sprinted toward the back gate where there was a pay phone. ring.... ring.... ring.... ring... why isnt it picking up?? please answer it... please answer.. "Hello.." ......................... ........................... ......................... Jin Hwan.. Jin Hwan. i was hoping it was Ahjumma. Jin Hwan answered. What should i do?? if i tell him to bring it, will he?? .^ "Who is this?? fawk if you get caught, you're dead." "wait....!!!!" 13. .. "wait!!!!!" "... is this Han Yeh Won?? you're dead... . ^" "sor... sorry.. (a little kindly) hey.. can i ask a favor??" "uh no. im hanging up.." "wait... i did everything you told me to do.. todays the last day to turn in my art homework.... please..... please...." "i dont care if you get 0 on a test.. or if you get 100%, it doesnt matter to me.." i knew he would do this... i knew he would do this. jerk. "im stupid for even asking you. this is why i didnt want to call." "EY.. yoU!!!" click. i hung up the phone without realising it. ......................... i messed up art class again!!! since i messed up the writing part, i was depending on the actual drawing .. . i listlessly went back into the classroom. "did you call?" rudely touching her own drawing my partner... shes not even my partner.. this hoe is the 2nd devil behind Jin Hwan.. "yea., . ^" "so i guess you wont do good on the drawing." " i guess i wont." "oh no... people who didnt bring it today are going to get hit.." " . ^" id rather she didnt say that. the art teacher has a huuuge arm (im guessing^^;;) with a rod at her side and lifting her dark glasses, she came in. "okay!! today im testing your drawing... the drawing of your partner's face will be presented this period..." ....................... i dillegently pretended i was drawing. just pass 45 minutes.. only 45 miutes. i was praying when the teacher walked by me. and looked at me. no she cant turn her head... >0< "who are you?? how come you dont have your drawing??" "yes?? i.. i left it at home." suddenly her face color changed and the teacher quickly came near me. TAK. she hit the desk. "water... drawing.. people who didnt bring these come forward!!!!" "......................." one by one, kids got up. "if you raise the hand thats getting hit, it will hurt less." thanks, partner. . i'll take that as a nice comment... i rubbed my palms and came forwad. including me, 5 people... . JJAK JJAK JJAK!!! it was no joke. the girls started crying. and the guys pretended like it didnt hurt but their faces are all red. . "Han Yeh Won.. what are you doing?? hurry up!!!" "huh??" i opened my hands flat and projected them. "one JJAK.. two .. JJAk.. three.. JJAK.." it frkn hurts. how does a woman have this much strength?? . right then, tears were on the verge of falling. when i heard the back door opening slightly. everyone turned around and looked at the door "who are you??" the teacher stuck out her face and asked. its a person i havent seen before. not a teacher at school.. and not Han Yoo Bin. a person i havent seen in my whole life.. he looked middle­aged. "who.. who are you??" "uh.. is a student by the name of Han Yeh Won here??" "......................" everyone looked at me. really, ive never seen this person before in my life.. "Im Han Yeh Won's father.." "ah... hello.." how dare that jerk lie.... that person had my drawing in one hand. "... thats my drawing.." "then go outside.." the teacher told me. "okay.." i went to that person. that weird guy grabbed my hand and took me outside... and quietly shutting the door, he said. "hey.. could i talk to my daughter a little.. ^^;;" "oh.. sure.." teacher said, shocked. "please let go of my hand... who are you and why are you doing this?" he immediately let go of my hand, this suspicious man. "hey.. you know Hwanee hyung right??" [*hyung is what guys call someone who's older] "Hwan?? Jin Hwan??" "yes.. Hwanee hyung ordered me so i came..." Hyung??? what kind of hyung??? he looked twice as old as JIn Hwan.. "hey.. here....." he gave me my drawing. "ah.. .tha.. thank you.." i turned to quietly go back in when that weird man grabbed my arm again. "?????????" "hey.. Hwanee hyung.. wanted me to tell you this..." "what?" "you did everything i asked.. but.. keep that promise.." "what?????" huk... that bastard.. making fun of that. he didnt even bring it himself... he sent someone who was younger... "ah.. okay...." i quietly opened the door and went inside. the teacher glared at me and the kid looked at me with strange expressions for sure.. they thought that that weird man was my dad... . & but that jerk should have sent it 10 minutes earlier.. no, even 5 minutes earlier.... fawk.. always such a jerk.... .................................. but what that weird man said to me ealier. what was that jerks intention??? . ^ 14. ..Ji MIn.Yoo Bin.Min Jae.Jin Hwan's story ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ only one love ..(Min Jae's story) ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ [*note* from Min Jae's point of view] "Han Yoo Bin.. you were trying to get someone elses girl, so you got like that??" "fawk pisses me off// if they dont have the capability to have a girl, they should just live alone.. cant even take care of their girlfriend.. what do they want??? fawk..." "you should be careful...." "but what happened to you?? with that Kim Ji Min girl... i thought you said you were gonna confess to her.." "yea. today im going to tell her i like her.." "yea good job. be confident.. you're the second person i approve of.. and you're different from me... ^^ only one love for you..^^" "yea you jerk... thanks.." it was my first time buying roses in a flower shop... i reached for the letter that took me 5 hours to write, and went to Ji Min's house. Ji Min's not here yet!!!!! when will Ji Min come?? strangely, today Ji Mins late.... did i wait around 3 hours??? Ji Min was joyfully running this way. "Min Jae!!!!!" i was about to run to Ji Min when the bouquet of flowers fell from my hand. without feeling, i went to Ji Min. "Won Min Jae!!!! how long have you been waiting??" "Huh? i came just now. ^^" "^^" "why are you so happy??" "did i tell you?? i ride the bus every morning.. with Jin Hwan from Jo Young Gong Go...." "Jin Hwan??? Jin Hwan from Jo Young Gong Go??" "yea... i used to always look for him in the bus... he was always so mushesuh... so today i got up the courage and confessed to Jin Hwan that i liked him... and do you know what Jin Hwan said??" "what.. what did he say??" "he said OK.. my heart is still beating so loudly..." [*meaning they're going out] Ji Min happily started running around. "Ji.. Ji MIn...." "huh??" "turn around for a little bit.. until i tell you to turn back..." "why???" "you cant look behind you..." "Okay.. ^^ im still so excited.. do you know how good looking he is??? when i looked at him up close, hes like a piece of art... even though my Min Jae is still good looking.. ^^" "... yeah.." i went to the trashcan nearby. my heart hurts... as soon as i saw the trash can... i took the bouquet of roses i was hiding, and the letter that took me all night to write and threw them away... the roses and letter were side by side... right then, i let go of my first love "boo... you can turn around now." "im shaking so much that all i can do is laugh..^^" "...^^" "what did you do??" "just... doing an experiment.. seeing if you would really turn around or not..." "what is this?? stupid.. of course i wouldnt turn around.. your're my best BEST~~ most valuable friend ^^" "valuable friend??" "why is your expression like that?? you have to congratulate me..." i gently hugged Ji MIn... "Min Jae.." "i'll congratulate you like this.. after i congratulate you, im gonna turn around and run... you cant look at me.." "huh??" "got it??" "yea ^^" did i hug Ji Min for one minute??? so Ji Min couldnt see me I turned around and left. "Ji Min!!!!" "yea??" tears started falling on my face. "bye..." "why are you doing that?? you're weird today.." "^^ be happy with him... go Ji Min!!!" "kay ^^" just like that, Min Jae's first love ended... along with the roses and letter that were in the trashcan. ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ ­­­­­­­ "Won Min Jae... so what happened?? are you going to go out with her???" "Huh?? no... i got rejected.." "rejected???" "yeah...." "ey.. are you crying??" "i dont know..." "ey.. Won Min Jae why are you crying??" that day, i sobbed in front of Yoo Bin... and decided to forget my first love. 15. [*back to Yeh Won] 5th period... English. i was diligently reading my book when.. someone just came in. i knewit.. that empty seat.. Han Yoo Bin. "hurry and sit down.." Han Yoo Bin threw the bag he was wearing on the desk and sat down. i stared straight at Han Yoo Bin. there was a red mark on his left cheek. did he get hit by someone?? Han Yoo Bin continually did this and that while flopped on his desk.. the funny thing is, no one said a word to Han Yoo Bin. free time... as soon as the bell rang Han Yoo Bin left through the back door. "ahh .. Han Yoo Bin.." "huh??? Yeh Won..." i smiled as i went near him. "where are you going??" ­curious me­ "to smoke..." "smoke?? . ^" "want to go with me??" "sure ^^" i followed Han Yoo Bin outside. the back garden with lots of flowers and trees... Han Yoo Bin went in between and sat on the grass. "wow.. no one can find you here..." "yea.. its really nice huh?? its my hidehout.. ^^" Han Yoo Bin quietly lit his cigarette... "when did you start smoking??" "when??? 6th grade???" "6th grade??? why did you start so early??" "stress.. ^^ stuff you dont know...^^" "dont smoke!!!!" "no.. telling me not to smoke... is just like telling me to die... . ^" he casually made a donut ring with his cigarette smoke... "you're stupid!!!" "are you mad??? � keke" ­Yoo Bin­ "......... but what happened to your face??" "ah.. my face... rememeber when i met you at that night club.. did i go out with her for 3 days?? i found out she was a dirty hoe... so i broke up with her.. and she hit my face.. fawk.. i cant even go outside now..." "3 days?? thats a little harsh.. i didnt think you would do that.." "haha.. ^^ im not as nice as you think.." " . ^......" "if you talk to the girls that i've gone out with, they'll probably cuss if they hear my name.. and when i meet those girls, they make a fuss cuz they want to go out.. thats why they need looks or be rich or SOMETHING..." " � ^ i really didnt think you would do that.." "if you spend some time with me.. you'll get to know everything..... ...but the bell should have rung by now... arent you going in??" "huh?? really?? you're not going in??" i said. "im okay..^^" "okay.. then im gonna go first." i stood up first and i started walking toward school when.. "Yeh Won!!!!" "yeah??" ".. say for instance, i died.. would you cry??" "ey.. Han Yoo Bin.. why would you say that?? why are you going to die?? . ^" "will you cry for me???' too serious to be a joke... too sincere an expression to be joking... too serious a tone to be playing around... Han Yoo Bin's eyes didnt shake. i wanted to avoid his eyes. "sure.. i'll cry for you.. no, even if you didnt ask me to, i would have cried.." "^^" Han Yoo Bin's brightening face.... he suddenly grabbing my arm as i turned to leave. Han Yoo Bin... "what??" ".. do you want to go out with me??" "what???" "go out with me.. i'll treat you nice.. a 100 times better than any other guy.. a 1000 times better. and i'll love you more.... and do everything you ask me to do..... and do everything you want..." "Yoo Bin.....!!!!" "sor... sorry... ^^;; stop.. stop.. i dont know... you're the first one to say you would cry if i died...." "Yoo Bin??" "but im serious.. i'll wait for you... if you change your mind, tell me..." "....................." today, Han Yoo Bin is weird... i havent seen him be serious before.... and suddenly saying all this too.... "........................." without a word, i ran to school. standing dazed on the grass... Han Yoo Bin... why are Yoo Bin's eyes looking so sad?? i got on the crowded bus... and barely arrived at my house. "whew... im tired..." "..................." its Min Jae. long time no see, Min Jae. in my neighborhood, staring dazed at me, Min Jae... "....ah... Hi..." "................." silent Min Jae.... again, those sad eyes. "Yeh Won!!!" "huh??" "i want to talk to you.." "huh?? i.. i have to go inside right now.. that jerk.. know him?? Jin Hwan. that.. that.. that guy.. after school... if i dont come right after school.... he.. he says all this crap...." "then i'll talk right here." ".................." "Yeh Won!!! i really like you.. i dont want anyone else to have you.. so.. so go out with me..." Huk. why is today like this.... am i lucky today?? but this is not a good thing... . "why the heck is today like this?? Yoo Bin did this too.. and you... really... its weird.. ^^" i have to pass this moment by laughing... Huk.. did i say something wrong?? "Han Yoo Bin confessed to you?? did he??" Min Jae grabbed my shoulder and shook me. aigoo im dizzy... . ^ "that is... Min Jae..." "is that it?? Yeh Won. Look straight at me... Han Yoo Bin. that bastard­ its a waste for you to go out with him....his girl problems are so complex and his personality is weird too.. and... and... he'll hurt you..." "Mi.. Min Jae!!!! be serious.. i dont really want to know... but Min Jae... i dont want to go out with anyone right now.. dont want to go out with anyone.. so.." right then, the elevator came down... Jin Hwan came out, dressed so nicely... he must be meeting someone again... . i was the only one looking at Jin Hwan.. Jin Hwan looked at me with round eyes.. and came near me. "Yeh Won.. i really like you... really... i tried to forget you... i even tried to act like i didnt know you.. but.. but my heart doesnt listen to me..." ............................. Huk... Jin Hwan was listening to our conversation. there was a smile on Hwanee's lips.... "hey.. Mi.. Min Jae..." shocked, i looked from Min Jae to Jin Hwan. "whats wrong??" HWAK Jin Hwan grabbed my arm and pulled me away. "EY.. whats wrong with you?? whats wrong?? it hurts... let go.." Min Jae ran toward Jin Hwan and blocked his path. "get away you bastard.. if you dont want to get socked.." "give Yeh Won to me.." "get away.. when im being nice.. kay??" "ey.. Jin Hwan.. let go.. im gonna tell Ahjumma.. ey... it hurts..." PAK. Jin Hwan painfully let go of my arm. shii... you're dead.. . ^ oww..... this bastard i see him every morning i even wake him up... . ^ "are you okay?? Yeh Won??" Min Jae looked concerned. "huh?? yea... ey.. Jin Hwan.. whats wrong with you?? seriously!!!?!?" "you be quiet... ey.. dont be stupid!!! got it??" Hwanee said to Min Jae. "do you think you have the right to say that to me??" Huk.. are they fighting again cuz of me?? this shouldnt happen.. shouldnt.... "the right?? of course.. cuz i live with this hoe.." Min Jae looked like he already knew... seriously Jin Hwan.. why is this jerk doing this? "AND.. also cuz im going out with his hoe..." dumfounded Min Jae. what do i do here... . ^ "Mi... Min Jae... dooooonnnnnnnt missun~~~ OOM.." Jin Hwan covered my mouth with his big hand... "Oob... Oob..." "anyways dont be stupid!!!" and Jin Hwan dragged me somewhere. is this jerk crazy?? he dragged me to the parking lot. ooh.. my poor arm... . ^ 16. ..."Let go.. why do you keep doing this?? you think you can do anything to my life.... who do you think you are?? "ey.. you be quiet..." Jin Hwan started his motorcycle... "ey. arent you getting on??" "why should i get on?? you're going to meet your friends.." "if you dont want to, fine..." without a word ~~ Jin Hwan left. "EY you evil jerk!!! i should just.. just..... i shouldnt be saying this.. no.. because the more i say this, the less i can control my words..." vrooom~~~~ huh?? why is that jerk coming back?? i bolted away... "please... please..." SCREeECh.. Jin Hwan blocked my way... . ^ "you scared me!!!! is it your goal to kill someone???" "Han Yeh Won.." " . ^...... what..." >,.< he didnt hear me, right?? "HAN YEH WON!!!!!!!!" "WHAT!!!!!!" "do you wanna go out with me???" "what??" "go out with me.. theres no other way.. cuz im uneasy..." "what????" "are you gonna go out with me?? or no??" "why should i go out with you?? its shocking.. . ^" "yeah?? you said you would do anything i asked right??" "huh????" why is he bringing this up??? "you said you would do anything i asked.. todays our first day, okay??" " . ^ ey.. why does everything have to go your way??" "fine.. only a month... go out with me. if you dont like me by then, i'll let you go.. alright??" "what???" "shi.... its late.. im leaving.." "YAH!! you.... . shii... Han YEh Won.. why are you always like this.. . . ^" till i die, i bet i wont forget this day. so today is our first day going out?? i couldnt sleep at all that day. i kept thinking of what happened... Min Jae.. im so sorry to him. and to Yoo Bin too..out of this whole universe, i am probably the most rotten hoe. ................................. ............................ ......................... ..... its already been more than a week since ive been going out with that guy. he said he is with me but he hasnt changed one bit. now he goes to school like me. but we wear different uniforms...... im.. Boo Ja High school... Hwanee is Jo Young Gong Go... also, after what happened to me and Min Jae... i havent seen him in school since.. and Yoo Bin did what he always did.. when he sees me he smiles and treats me well. (bus stop) "..........................." "do you have time today??" ­me­ "today?? i was gonna go to Wol Mi Do with my friends... . ^" [*like a tourist attraction place] "Wol Mi Do?? why are you going there??" "none of your business..." " � " who would look at us and think we're a couple?? he is not my ideal guy. my ideal guy: if i carried heavy stuff he would carry it for me... and smile brightly when he sees me... and hold my small hand... go shopping together.. and eat together... and when we walk, he would move me to the inside of the street. [*safer] this kind of boyfriend.. Han Yeh Won.. how did this happen??? but all the other kids are jealous of me. it really doesnt make sense... everyone looks at my face and they all say the same thing: it must be frustrating to be with this guy... . ^ [*meaning cuz hes so good looking at shes not] "ahh.. crowded again... how could i get in with this??" ... the bus came toward us and opened the doors wide open.. theres lots of people going in.. but no one going out. "fawk how can i ride this.. ey.. hurry.." ­annoyed Jin Hwan­ "............uh... mister.. just one second.. i didnt get on yet.." "we DIDNT GET ON YET!!!!!" the bus was leaving.. Jin Hwan yelled to the bus driver.. hes useful in these situations... "ey..!!!" Jin Hwan offered his hand to me.. should or shouldnt i grab ... . ^ "shii... what are you doing?? my arms falling off..." "ah..." igrabbed his hand. but what should i do?? "fawk.. theres sweat on my hand now... . ^ ey.. follow me.." "shii.. okay.." that guy pushed people one by one and got in. "fawk i said to move..." "ah..." "ah fawk.. why are you pushing!!!!" "sor... sorry..." ­innocent bystander­ Huk.. he totally doesnt care what people think... to tell the truth, i thought this. hes one person i cant understand. how can he behave like that?? how does he have to courage to do that???? amazing... and he pushed everyone in his surroundings and freed a handle (is it weird . ^) "ey.. hold tightly to me.." "ah!!!!! okay.." i held tightly to his clothes. because my hand was holding onto his shirt... i got tired... if hes the king he should have carried this...im holding a big bundle "...................." came to Jo Young Gong Go... did the bus stop suddenly again?? the people that were in the bus jerked foward and were on the verge of falling. PAK. JIn Hwan held tightly to me... his strength is no joke... even though it hurt.. i was relieved i didnt fall... i felt emotion for no reason... . ^ if i feel emotion its hard to breathe . ^ 17. "...................." he looked mushesuh. for a second.. . ^ "fawk why isnt the bus moving?? why is he driving so annoyingly!!!!" it was Jin Hwan's first time riding to school on a bus. he looks pissed. "ah.. sorry... the car must look weird.. sorry.. really sorry. sorry.." the bus driver lowered his head and bowed. the people left the bus, frustrated. "fawk........ this poop car... lets see if i'll ride this poop car again." among those who were frustrated Jin Hwan was probably the most pissed. "what do i do?? to get to my school, we have to pass 4 more stops.. . ^ you're here right??" ­me­ "........ come here..." Jin Hwan went inside Jo Young Gong Go. i was wearing my Boo Ja High school uniform how could i go inside Jo Young Gong Go... . ^ "EY!! why arent you coming??" "how.. how could i go inside??" "anyways.. just wait here.. you're so timid.." there were kids crouching by the front gate and kids running around the gym.. they were kids that were getting punished. and i saw Jo Young Gong Go's supervisor.. . ^ . everyone looked at me weirdly... aiee... annoying...... "our school's star...!! Hwanee!! come here!!!" that supervisor had a weird voice.. . . ^ he beckoned with his finger and called JIn Hwan. "teacher.. im busy right now.." "come here!!~ one. TWo.." PAK.... similar to someone.. oh yea.. the police at my school.. tardy police.. . . ^ "why do you think you're so good.. you look like you're all that, walking over here" (his accent was mixed in..) "teacher.. im really busy.." "bastard.. how do i know? dont know?? those baggy pants. who said you could wear your uniform like that?? and who said you could gell your hair?? are you dragon ball Z?? and what color is your hair?? are you from America?? why is your hair brown?? and also, what kind of shoes are you wearing?? i said only sneakers......... dont you know?? ?? school started yesterday, and you're doing this again?? "teacher.. all the kids wear their uniform like this.. you cant help it... if i dont do this, i become an outcast.. and since i didnt wash my hair for 3 days i put on gell.. and ever since i was born, my hair color was brown.. and my dad is an American .. (lie)..... and my shoes ripped so i had to wear these..." "anyways this guy is still the same from last year.. do you think i would forget about your technique?? why are you trying to lie to me??" lie?? story?? technique?? how did the teacher know that they were lies?? that teacher pulled on Jin Hwans ears and said this. "hurry and come back..." "okay.^^ teacher.. i will never forget your kindness.." "boy.. think of all the kindness i payed you!!!" that guy ran inside the school. and that supervisor came quietly to me. . . ^ "student.. i see.. are you a student from Boo Ja high school??" "huh?? oh.. yes ^^" "why is a student from Boo Ja High school at our school??" "Huh?? ah.. that.. that is...." "student. you know our school's star.. whats the relationship between you and Hwanee???" "huh?? ah.. so... so...." right then, Jin Hwan ran toward us. "teacher.. what are you doing?? she didnt do anything wrong..." he came next to me and said "Hwanee!!! who is this student??" HWAK. Jin Hwan lifted my arm and pulled it... why is he doing this?? "shes my wife... 0 " "wife?? you jerk.. why arent you leaving.. hurry.." "ey. run.." "ey we shouldnt do this.. what if you get punished at school???" ­worried me­ "ey. who knows better, you or me??" "...................." i followed him and ran super fast. Huk.. Huk... how much did we run? its hard to breathe.... "ey. wait here.." "again?? i have to go to school..." "wait......" "huh ey!!!!" did 5 minutes pass? Jin Hwan emerged riding his motorcycle. "ey get on.." "what??" "i'll give you a ride..." "but this is not yours..." "its my friends.. i went to borrow it... hurry get on... and hold on tight.." "huh?? kay.." ............................... wow. so this is how it feels to ride a motorcycle!!! its really refreshing. "ey. what are you doing?? hurry get off..." "Huh?? okay.." annoying.. i drooled and even got sentimental... "ey.. i saw your underwear... orange.. tacky.. ive never seen anyone like you.." "ey... you're dead!!!! go to your own school..." the kids were whispering while going into school. and everyone was looking our way. "ey.. hurry­ leave...." ­annoyed me­ "why???? all the girls at your school are really ugly. the kids at my school are prettier..." "ey... hurry and go.. annoying.." "really no hot girls here. thats why kids from other schools dont look for people from your school... like someone..." "ey!!!! hurry and leave..." "okay why not.. im leaving... im gonna go drinking and then come home. so im gonna be late.." that jerk left "shii.. i should just. HWAK..." i was going to go inside the front gate when someone held on to me.. . ^ "you. you.. you come here. 3. 2. 2 and 1/2 ... 1" i quickly ran toward the teacher. "who is the owner of that motorcycle??" "huh.. ah.. that is.." "a student should act like a student.. what is this motorcycle?? huh??!!!" "ah.. that is..." "when i was in the navy..~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~" this tardy policeman... he talked about his navy days for 15 minutes id rather he punish me than talk about that. "owww... my arm..." "cant you do it right?? that isnt hard at all... when i was in the navy, i ~~~~~~~~" "arg that lecture..." oww my back.... when i was turning my head.. i saw something i shouldnt have seen. i shouldnt have turned my head.... Min Jae looked at me with scary eyes and ... was wearing a 'hall monitor' sign... Min Jae.. oh yea... Min Jae.. . im so sorry to Min Jae... i didnt have the chance to apologize.. he never looked at me like that before........ why is my h e a r t hurting?? 18. besides me, there were a lot of late kids. why does Min Jae continue to stare at me?? i kept my head lowered.... . "you brats and bastards... who was late because he or she was studying!!! raise your hands..." i wanted to raise my hand.. but i would feel too guilty.... out of 30 people, around 14 raised their hands. the tardy policeman went to those kids and nudged their heads with his fist. "..............." everyone looked at him with confusd eyes. "you bastards... do you study to be late!!!! anyways, kids these days... so lazy..." " � " what kind of teacher is that??? but its a relief... that i didnt raise my hand... . ^ it would have been tragic if i did. "Won Min Jae!!!" "..............." Min Jae went and stood in front of the tardy police. how did Min Jae become a hall monitor?? "write down each kid's name.. you guys are gonna meet with me every morning at 7 AM. if you dont come by 7.. i dont know what i will do.." .....7.....7 o clock???? shut up... thats when i wake up!!!~~~~~ Min Jae took a piece of paper and went around recording each person's name. � no. no. this cant be happening .. . Min Jae was coming closer to me. and out of the kids whose names were recorded, some hoes were so estatic to be next to Min Jae. "name...." Min Jae wrote down the kid who was next to me. "........................" So this is how Min Jae looks!!!.... "....................." right then, Min Jae passed right by me. "..................." "Min Jae Oppa.. you didnt get this Unni'es name..." [* oppa is older guy/brother, and unnie is older girl/sister] Min Jae didnt even pretend to hear that girl.... " 0 " how did this happen?? "Min Jae oppa...!! why arent you writing her name??" a childlike girl grabbed Min Jae's collar and asked him... "i'll do what i want to do... so... stay still.." suddenly that girl became sad... and she looked at me once.. and came to me. "...... you're a junior right??" "...................(nod nod)" "Unnie.. what is the relationship between you and Min Jae oppa??" Min Jae was still making his round. that girl whispered quietly to me.... her name was Jung So Min. [* name tags are on the uniforms] So Min... her name is pretty too... 0 when i see pretty people, it makes me want to die... . ^ "Unnie whats your relationship??" So Min really looks like shes going to cry... "huh?? oh.. no relationship..." I took a good look at Min Jae's eyes and said in a really quiet voice. right then, So Min's face suddenly relaxed. "^^ then thats that... Min Jae oppa.. (being secretive by herself) do you know that Unnie?? [*talking to me] your athletic look.. who told you to wear these sneakers?? and why is your hair so long?? and why is your skirt so short...." ...shocked... her sneakers are more flashy than mine... and her hair length.. i thought our school had a restriction on that... skirt?? you shortened your skirt more than i did... . ^ "ey... Jung So Min..." "ah.. oppa.. i'll go.. ^^ but.. Unnie.. are you friends with Min Jae oppa??" what should i say?? should i say we're friends?? "huh?? ...... a ... a little.." "kya!!!" So Min linked arms with me joyfully. "Unnie.. Unnie lets be friends.. okay!!!^^ Unnie, so im gonna go to Min Jae oppa now.." what the heck is she saying?? she wants to be friends with me?? why should i be friends with you... . ^ "is this everyone??" "yes!!!!" "yes.." So Min answered five times louder than Min Jae... .^ Min Jae looked at So Min weirdly but So Min continued to giggle to herself... "tomorrow by 7.. hurry and go inside." i went inside my classroom. ....Min Jae... Min Jae... im sorry... sorry. i wanted to apologize... i wanted to... "Min..." "Min Jae oppa~!!! lets go together!!" So Min dashed past me and linked arms with Min Jae. "why are you doing this??" Min Jae cold heartedly let go of her arm... "oppppaaaaaa~~~ ahhh..." So Min became babyish and stuck right next to Min Jae. Jung So Min... . ^ if you do that, then i cant apologize to Min Jae. right then, standing and laughing at us.... was Han Yoo Bin. ".................." Min Jae glanced at Han Yoo Bin and walked faster. So Min was sweating, trying to keep up with his long legs... "Han Yeh Won!!!" ­Yoo Bin­ "huh??? ah.. hello..." Min Jae turned around at our voices... he glared fiercely at us and kept walking. "........" "i heard you and Jin Hwan are together ^^" "huh?? ..................(what should i say) yea.. it somehow.. became like that..." "and you wouldnt go out with me.. you're bad... � " " � " im sorry Yoo Bin... "but you're not gonna go in and study??" "study?? why study??" ­me­ "todays the test.......!!!" "what?? REALLY??" "is it possible you didnt know??" "huh?? yea... really?? really???" "yea...." "Yoo Bin.. sorry.. im have to go in first.. ^^;;" "sure.. good luck on your test..." i ran super fast into the classroom. the desks are lined up in 5 rows... theres really a test today. what kind of test is on a saturday. what do i do??? i didnt study at all.... next to me, engrossed in a book was Eun Jin... "Eun Jin!!! did you study a lot??" "dont talk to me!!!! just study.. you too.." " . " hooo.... evil hoe... so you're saying you're smart?? the first period bell rang and Yoo Bin came in. what was that again??? wow... if i knew this was coming, i would have studied. i didnt even know there was a test and i brought lunch... . [*students take a test and just go home] theres no other fool than me. Han Yeh Won, are you a person?? when i turned my head i saw Yoo Bin turning his pen negligently while taking his test... you dont even come to class everyday why do you have such an attitude?? "female student.. what are you looking at" "ah... . ^" "turn your head 30 degrees.. dont know?? hurry and take your test!!!!" :..............." what was that?? what what this again?? "..............." im messing up the whole thing. suddenly i saw someone's fingers doing something weird. "......what is that?? (mouthing)" ­me­ "answers (mouthing)" i became wide eyed. should i listen to him??? or not listen?? .^ 19.... "number 13... is 4??(mouthing" . ) gosh.. none of his answers match mine... "number 15 is ... one???" . how could this be. nothing is right. so out of the problems he told me i wrote down 10. to tell the truth, he probably doesnt study well either, that Yoo Bin. the bell rang signaling the end of the test.. i finished three tests. theres a test monday and tuesday too. i should study a little... "Yeh Won!!!" my friends ran to me. "today we're going to Wol Mi Do... right after school.." "right after??" "yea.." "okay ^^" . i should study but.. i dont have that much time left... this is a time to make new friends... . there was nothing i could do except follow them. there werent a lot of rides. but it was really noisy. "ey.. i want to ride that.." Eun Joo pointed to the Disco [*name of a ride] everyone else wanted to ride that also. [* lemme explain Disco: its a big circular ride with seats all around the side and a place where you could fall in the middle. it spins really fast so people fall off and slide down to the middle. it takes a lot of strength to get back to your seat] "i.. i want to ride too..." (why am i stuttering so annoyingly??) we bought tickets and stood in line. "wow... look at that... look at that girls huge stomach.." "kekeke distgusting.." right then "ahjumma!!! put in your beer belly.. . ^" the worker absentmindedly controlled the ride [* the worker can make the ride go faster/ slower­ its all in his powahh] that girl screamed that she wanted to stay on everyone stared at her. " . ^" and the man kept moving his controls so that she would fall off. that girl kept saying she wanted to stay on but the man kept pulling her off. "ey.. its better if you fall off. it will be less distgusting.." i unintentionally thought of something weird. that cant be.. that wont happen to us right?? the kids got off. its our turn. i observed the man's eyes and went up... and the mister laughed evily at me. it was a sinister premonition........ "we're starting!!!" after that mister's loud yell. the Disco slowly started to move... . ^ PUk.... Puk. that mister started the controlls on the ride. "ACKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Puk. i fell at the first round. no one else fell... "oh my.. look at that girl... its not even the middle of the ride yet.. . ^ hey dont go overboard!!~~ (like a pervert) okay NOW im really starting!!~~~" that mister said that in his weird voice. suddenly the intensity was twice as high. i was pulled this way and that... . ^ oh my gosh... save me..~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ i went to my seat again. so i could live, i used all my strength. "wow... i like you... that girl" that mister looked at me and said. mister, why are you saying that­ its scary.. . ^ the mister were controlling the ride so that me and my friends would fall off i did everything so i wouldnt slip is a person ive never seen in my life holding onto my leg??? "ack~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~" im busy trying to live too.. i abruptly let go of that girl who was wearing a uniform. she slid down.. and fell with a boom "wow... the uniform student.. shes so pretty... i saw her underwear.. ^^ omg.. its the same one my mom wears.." in one moment, there was a wave of laughter. pervurted mister. i started to feel sorry for that girl... "......................" that girl kept glaring at me throughout the ride.... the machine stopped.... like a drunk, i dizzily got off the ride. "ey.. did you see that girl?? i saw her underwear." "its such a disgrace to girls!!!" if you people do that too... i feel more guilty for pushing her off... right then, that girl with the uniform and her friends..... came to me. "YOU!!!!" " . ^ are they talking to me??" counting the girl, there were 7 people. that girl was sobbing. suddenly, a girl with the thickest legs and the biggest build said to me. "you follow me... you f*cker!!!~~~~~~~~~" "..................." "hoe, i said to follow me." at that girl's shout me and my friends became shocked. like ducks, we followed them to a place behind the GongDong bathroom....... ........................ "did you guys make our prettyful like this??" the girl with the biggest build pointed to the that girl who held onto my legs.. "..................." 20. ... "did you make our prettyful like this??" " . ^" "hey... this hoe did it .. this hoe..." that girl pointed at me and said. omg did that girl with the big build just go over to prettyful and touch her?? suddenly from my toe to the tip of my hair i felt goosebumps!!!!!!!!!! LES... the lesbians i always heard about. "just wait, prettyful... let me fix that hoe and i'll come back..." "okay" then she grabbed my head.. that hoe with the big build.. and without any mercy started to hit me. my friends were standing by. watching. with that girl's friends.... blood started to drip. i think my lip burst. � then... four guys started coming this direction. "................" "huh?? Hyun Sung!!! you're here now??" "huh?? who's this??" it looks like they know each other. that girl they call prettyful started telling her whole story to those guys.. the guys that were smoking.... ".............." and to make things worse.. this a getting to be a huge situation... . ^ those girls from before. you dont know how much they hit me.. right now they're quietly playing around with each other. suddenly, in front of my eyes. some girl's cell phone fell. since they played around so roughly, it must have fell. . ^ i quietly picked up the phone. and i VERY carefully pressed numbers.. who i was calling?? Min Jae?? Yoo Bin? it was Jin Hwan. why did i call Jin Hwan?? "................" please pick up.. pick up..... beeeeeeep~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ".................." Jin Hwan didnt pick up... JIn Hwan.. didnt pick up.. do i have to die like this.. . i quietly closed it. a call was coming in through this phone. deeeririri deeereereeereereee scared me. everyone looked at me. the number that came up on the screen was Jin Hwans. i quickly opened the phone and said to Jin Hwan. "hello?? Jin Hwan???" i heard extremely loud music in the backround. everyone looked at me shocked. "Jin Hwan!!! help me.. im at Wol Mi Do.. im at Wol Mi Do.." "huh?? you mother f­er... " as if that girl understood what was going on. stole the phone back. and hit me. "the nerve of this hoe. are you tattle telling? who did you call?? huh?? tell me.. you crazy hoe...." "...................." tears are coming.. since i was born i was never hit this much... and this is the first time it hurt to be hit..... but did Jin Hwan hear me?? i didnt tell him i was outside Wol Mi Do. i was beat up again by those kids. those guys in front of me laughed joyfully at the sight of me being beat up. VROOM!~~~ VROOM~~~ a loud motorcycle noise... "Han Yeh Won... Han Yeh Won.!!!!!!" huh?? my name.. that voice belonged to Jin Hwan it was 20 minutes since i called.. "im over here.." "Han Yeh Won." VROOM~~~~~ just like that, the motorcycle noise disappeared. did he leave?? "ey. do you know that person??" "................." tears continued to fall. do i have to continually get hit?? my clothes were so torn and dirty to the point where i couldnt wear them again... you couldnt recognize me. "vroooom..." again, i could hear the motorcycle sound and Jin Hwan's voice deereereedeeereereee... right then, that girl's cell phone rang loud and clear. "who is it?? pissing me off. hello?? fawk who is this?? it got disconnected.." ".......... Han Yeh Won......" sweating and wearing his Jo Young Gong Go uniform.. next to the bathroom, like a friend and angel was Jin Hwan. will he look any more mushesuh than today?? i kept crying. everyone stared at Jin Hwan dumbfoundedly. .................. Jin Hwans eyes were raised.. those eyes are only seen when hes really angry.. . . ^ "what are you doing there??" Jin Hwan's voice was low and so serious. and step by step, came closer to me. i stared at Jin Hwan... and kept crying. thank you... JIn Hwan.. Jin Hwan... right there! thats a boyfriend!!!! its my first time feeling that... . ^ im so thankful. "thank you.... heuk.... heuk..." ".................." 21. .."Han Yeh Won.. what are you doing there?? ey who are you guys??" "......... Hwanee.... . " Jin Hwan steadily came closer. those kids didnt even blink.. and one by one got up.... "huh?? whos this??" "you dont need to know." . ^ Jin Hwan said scarily... . "that son of a ....." "ey.. look at me and watch.." "..............kya!!!!!!!!!" those weird kids.. suddenly started crowding around Hwanee. Puk uhuhuhuh � � .... Jin Hwan got hit. "ey. be strong.. Hwanee be strong!! cant lose. if you lose, its the end of you and me.. (a beat too slow)" . ^ Han Yeh Won.. why do you always get into unique situations?? . yur so annoying... "ey.. why dont you be quiet?? cuz of you my stomach hurts and i cant do this.." got hit again... it must hurt a lot. .. its that many against one person... " . ^ ahhh~~!!! be strong.. if you lose.. you and i are going to die here... . ahhhhh.." a long time after.. someone was stroking my hair... "whats this?? huh?? Jin Hwan!!! ey.. are you okay??" "fawk isnt that obvious??" "huh?? ey.. you're bleeding here.. . ^" "sh*t. its okay.." it was bleeding brightly next to his mouth. "sh*t.. cuz of you i got hit here.. theres so many girls who look at my side view and fall in love with me .... annoying... . ^" ". Jin Hwan..." Hwanee went to a kid who lied on the floor. "ey ey!!! where are you from, to be so spiteful?? how dare you beat up a girl like her.. you f*ers.. (kicking him) if you want to fight more, come to Seoul­ Jo Young Gong Go... i'll hit you to my satisfaction... ey.. hurry, come.." "huh?? okay.." . ^ when i was leaving, i went to the girl with the big build who was lying down.. and hit her head. "that mother f*er..." she mumbled.. HuK. when did she wake up?? . ^ "Ji..... JIn Hwan.. wait for me!!" i hurriedly ran next to Jin Hwan. " . ^" "stupid.. ey.. wear this at least.." Jin Hwan took off his jacket and gave it to me... "^^ thanks ^^" "dont smile.. its emotional.." "ahh!!!! ah ah...." "whats wrong???" "i dont know.. my side.. it hurts.." "stupid.. they couldnt find anywhere to hit so they hit your side??" "you got hit too... here.." i lifted my heel and poked Jin Hwan on the spot next to his mouth. and with a loud voice. "EY!!! fawk.. you're dead.. ey!! ah.. it frkn hurts. its all cuz of someone too..." "ah... so... sorry..." Jin Hwan placed me behind him and went somewhere on his motorcycle. did we ride for 30 minutes?? "ey... get off.." "huh?? okay..." i was hugging Jin Hwan's stomach. as i fell asleep on his back. "ey. did you drool? you didnt drool?" "ey!!! i didnt drool.. . ^ but where is this place??" "i have to meet my friends and then leave.." "friends?? but this is a pharmacy.." "sh_t... buy some medicine.. it stings, i think im gonna die..." "huh?? okay.." i dashed inside.. and bought some medicine "should i put it on for you??" "its fine.. give it...." and he put on the medicine on his lip himself. and took something out of his pocket and held it to me. "what is it??" "look at the mirror.." "huh??" HUK.. i cant describe how i looked. on my right cheek was a foot print. my hair was a mes.. and my lip was burst red... "inside there is a bathroom..." "." i was so annoyed, i hurriedly ran to the bathroom. "what kind of humiliation is this..." i scrubbed my face clean... and retied my hair... and arranged my clothes as best i could. even though i tried looking decent.. i couldnt do anything about the footprint on my skirt... . " " Hwanee stuck his hands in his pocket... and went in some building. the bar i went to before... "............" the moment i opened the door.. 10+ people greeted Jin Hwan "oh.. Jin Hwan!!!!" "who's behind you?" "my wife." "really? i thougt you couldnt bring her today.." "it ended up like this.." "Boo Ja high school." a rude looking hoe said. "yea.. ey.. come here and sit.." "huh?? kay.." i sat down next to Jin Hwan. the girls that were there looked me up and down. "but why is your wife like that??" "huh??" "Boo Ja high?? Boo Ja.. but why are her clothes so dirty?? the girl you were with before is so much better.." "ey.. you're gonna die.. dont say that kind of stuff" "Jin Hwan!!! crying, some girl yelled loudly. ".............." "whats wrong with your face?? who did that?? ey.. you did that to get insurance right??" "ey...ey!!! move your hand.. frkn annoying.. Oh Hae Jung.. do you know you're going overboard??" "ey.. why are you saying that?? what do i do......." after drinking, one by one, people started to leave. Jin Hwan was quietly getting up... "where are you going??" ­me­ "bathroom.. why?? so you could follow and watch??" "ah... no.. not that." even though he talks.. always like that... Jin Hwan left. ".............." "whats your name??" among Jin Hwans friend, the one that looked the most drunk asked me. "yes?? Han.. Han Yeh Won.." "ahhh~~~~~~~~~~ i see!!!!! how long have you been going out??" "....7 days?? 8 days?? oh.. 8 days." "mm... a long time.. 0 " is this a long time?? really... "Jin Hwan.. do you know his habits??" "(shakes head)" "if he drinks 3 bottles.. he has to go straight to the bathroom.. kekeke" everyone laughed. "that bastard's thing is pretty small.. *hiccup*..." kekkeke "wow.. since you smiled.. you look a hella of a lot better than before.." the guy next to me said. "yea." "do you know what girl style Jin Hwan hates??" "(shakes head)" "over there.. a style like Oh Hae Jung ... a girl who goes overboard.. 1..." "EY!!! Jo Gyoo Hyun.. you're dead!!!" "ah.. i get it... okay .. and poor girls who go after rich guys.... AND... girls who arent girly.... girls with no brains... oh yea oh yea.. this is why girls dont even go 3 days and get dumped by Hwanee.. kekekek and girls who ACT nice.. and are nice to guys beside him. he really hates that.. kekeke even though that bastards like that, his heart is probably smaller than a bean...." "..............." "and.. " sh_t why are there so many? "self­centered girls!!! girls who go crazy!! and what else is there?? girls who think they're better than him.. boy­ crazy girls.. girls who cant dress... and.." at that moment, Jin Hwan came in. it became quiet all of a sudden. "what did you talk about??" i stared at Jin Hwan. "what are you looking at!!!!" "huh?? no.. no..." after i heard all that.. i felt a little uncomfortable out of the styles he hates, 50% described me. ... .................. ......... ......... bambarabambam. bambararabambaBBam!!!! that unique ring tone.. right then, Jin hwan's cell rang "hi!!" "Jin Hwan you jerk.. where are you? you're not coming home??" "oh.. Ummah.. i got it." i could hear everything.. . 6 Ahjumma.. should speak more quietly... "i said im coming home now." "hurry." click. Jin Hwan just hung up. "is that yur uhmoo??" [*drunk kid trying to say ummah] "yea.. im gonna leave first... have fun" Jin Hwan suddenly stood up. "ey. you're not getting up?" "huh?? oh..." i followed him and got up. we were riding the motorcycle and going home... when i became curious about so many things.. ...... arrived at home... when i saw the clock, it was past 2. inside the elevator... "ey!!" "what..." Jin Hwan was tired so he was rubbing his eyes. "you.. how many days was your longest relationship?" "why are you asking that?" "huH? just.. im suddenly curious thats why.." "sh_t... maybe 3 months??" Hwanee rubbed his eyes and yawned. he seems just like a little kid.. with that height... seriously. "really?? 3 months??" "whats wrong with that??" "ah.. no.. but why did you break up?" "do i have to explain every detail??" just in time, the elevator door opened.. and we quietly went inside. its a relief Ahjumma was already asleep we didnt get caught as we quietly went in. as soon as we went in. Jin Hwan layed down on his bed. "...............seems really tired.." i washed up and slept too. so the longest he's ever gone... is 3 months.. . 22. ..(the next morning..) Sunday... ^0^ Jin Hwan came home really late last night... so he got punished by Ahjumma. also because he hung up on her. Ahjumma had work again.. so she left. so it was only me and Jin Hwan. Hwanee went back into his room and slept again. the time he woke up... was 2 o clock.. so a person can sleep that long!!!! i thought this. even though i sleep.. i cant sleep past 9. "ey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" "what . ^" ­me­ I was watching a singing contest on tv. "come here." "huh??" "i said come here..." i quietly went into his room. "what??" "ah.. my head hurts.. theres honey out on the veranda. make some honey water." ".............." i quietly went out and made some honey water. todays sunday but theres really nothing to do. i should study. but i cant study. "here.." gulping loudly, Jin Hwan finished the drink in one sitting. "ey!!!" "what..." "lets go borrow some videos.." ­me­ "videos?? no. im tired." "lets borrow.." "let go.. whats wrong with you?? . ^& annoying." "letswatchletswatchletswatchletswatch.. come on, i made you honey water." he changed into athletic clothes... and went with me to borrow some videos (video store) "mister, do you have 'Spring day is Leaving'??" "no.." "'Present'??" "we're all out." "how about 'promise'?" "that too.." . ^ what do they have?? but where did Hwanee go?? Huk... videos available only to those 18 years or older... what is he doing there?? i quietly went to him "what are you doing here??" (quietly.. because i was annoyed) he was holding lots of those weird videos "ey.. what are you doing here??" "what do you think... renting videos." too confidently.. unknowingly pissing me off. "over here is R rated videos.." "im 18 .." "ey.. you're not mature enough.. not mature enough" "theres no such thing as that. i want to watch this..." "ey. hurry­ put them back" "shut up.. i'll watch what i want to watch. and you can watch whatever you want to watch.." "what?? ey!!!" "tell me truthfully.. you know you want to watch this too." he was so busy looking for videos i fought with that guy for 30 persistent minutes we eventually decided on one video: we borrowed Coyote Ugly. "did you see that mister's face?" "sh*t... what is this??? annoying." "its all cuz of you.. cuz you piss me off.. . ^" ­me­ "ey!! your breath smells so be quiet.." huk. what? what kind of guy is he? we went insideour house and immediately turned on the video. ............. "wow.. that guy is so mushesuh.. (to myself)" "................" bored, Jin Hwan scratched his stomach. at that moment, a kissing scene and a *strange* scene came up. ..... "fawk.... it sucks" "what?" "i dont know.. since ive been going out with you, i havent done that in Korea.." " . ^" so its my responsibility?? "ah sh*t. turn it off" "what?" "turn it off.. " annoyed, and yelling. "why? its fun." "ey.. im gonna hit you." i turned off the video right away. cuz whatever that guy says is not a joke. and he drank water from the refrigerator and went inside my room. "what are you doing?? get out right now!!!" "ey. this is my closet.." " . ^" Jin Hwan stared at my calendar and left... the red mark on my calendar... that day is my mom's bday .. ^^ already.. it got like this!! he didnt come out of his room for a long time and finally came out at 7. dressed to killl. "where are you going??" "to meet my friends.." "yeah??" " are you an outcast??" "what?" "i said are you an outcast.. you have no friends?" "sh*t. i do.." "if you do, you do; why are you threating me?" with that, he suddenly left. . ^ after i thought about it... i dont really have any friends.. not genuine friends.. . suddenly my heart felt so lonely. i went in that guys room and looked at this and that. before he came home, i used to live here. i decorated it prettily too... hes such a guy.. end of story.. on his wall was a poster of Britney Spears. mm.. so he likes these girls... i sat in front of his desk. the books on his desk were only comic books. no textbooks... suddenly, something caught my eye .. a book... "should i look? not look? look? not look?" again, i didnt have will power. i opened it. "..... Hwanee and Ji Min forever??" i read each page one by one. Ji Min.. Ji MIn... theres a lot.. Yoo Bin and Min Jae.. and all the girls Jin Hwan liked. "................" this was a secret diary. this diary was decorated so prettyily... there was a plane ticket from 10 years ago.... and the many things he diligently wrote down. .... the further i went.. the prettier the diary got. the 100th day after Hwanee met Ji Min... .... the girl Hwanee was with the longest is it her?? suddenly why am i feeling so warm?? why is this happening? after 105 days... my mind became blank. at the very end.. the words that girl gave as a present. i wanted to fold and take when... one picture fell from inside. "......................." Ji Min and me.. it was written in small letters next to it. Ji Min... Yoo Bin said that i was a lot like her. it was a picture of her and Hwanee together. hair that came to her shoulders.. small lips.... white complexion.... big eyes.. small face... her elegant height came up to Hwanee's arm. .................. she really looked genuine and pretty the picture looked so loving.... has Hwanee ever looked at me with this kind of expression???? suddenly it felt like it was hard to breathe like i was hit in the stomach.... its strange. why am i like this?? is it possible.. that i love this guy...... ..... probably not. probably not.... i dislike this guy so much.... +: Sohyun : + 23. i placed the diary where it was and came out. Ji Min... Ji Min... Ji Min.... in 3 days its my Ummah's birthday!!! i have to go .. go meet my ummah that day.... *ring... ring.. ring* "hello?.." "who is this??" what do you mean who is this?? what a really strange girl... "well who are you??" "............ is Hwanee there???" "not here.. he went out.." click. .. Huk. what kind of rude hoe is this?? ring. Ring.. "i said he went out.... huh??? oh Yoo Bin..... right now?? ... its fine... alright..." Yoo Bin told me to come out. .............. i changed my clothes... and went outside "Yoo Bin..." "^^" of course.. dont know who's son he is. but hes really good looking!!! Yoo Bin quietly walked somewhere. and i followed him. this is the river............... "what are we going to do here??" "voila.." the thing i was curious about before.. Yoo Bin opened the object he was carrying ­ the one that was rolled up in newspapers "a firecracker?" "yep.. i wanted to light it.." "^^ fun... when i lived in the country side.. i used to light them a lot with my friends." "okay. here..." it lit on fire Ping.. Pong Pong pong "wow. its pretty.." "..............." "............." how long did we light them??? we quietly sat down on the grass and gazed up at the black night sky. aigoo.... its cold.. i should have brought a jacket or something.. . ^ right then, Yoo Bin very carefully draped a shirt over my shoulders.. "Yeh Won~~!!!" "huh??" "look at that sky.. theres stars too.. in this polluted country.." "huh?? really?? theres a lot.. ^^ when i lived in the country, i used to see lots of shooting stars..." "really?? did you make a wish??" ".........yea..............." "what did you wish for...??" " to let my mom and me live happily!!! make my dad come back quickly!!!^^ i wished like this but.... it didnt come true... those are all lies.." "...really???? .................. next time do you want to go to the beach together??" "the beach??" "yea..^^" "really?? i always wanted to go to the beach..^^ the neighborhood where i lived was surrounded by mountains.. so i havent been to the beach yet.. ^^" "lets go for sure.." "sure ^00^" "ey.. why are you looking at me like that??" "you.. you and Hwanee.. are so different thats why." "what is?" "he.. he always cusses at me.. and says things i dont like. and orders me around.. but you.. dont cuss at me. and you treat me well..........." "yea?? but i told you.. i.. im not the nice guy you think....." "no.. you're a really kind person.. a good person..." "^^" we watched the stars.. and went home... it was 10 o' clock already. i was going home when am i still wearing Yoo Bin's clothes?? Huk... i should give Yoo Bin's clothes back.... i will return it tomorrow at school. i took out my keys.. and was about to open the door when.. Chak Chak.. Hwak.. "you scared me!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~" ­me­ "where did you go??" "huh?? you came home early.." "i said where did you go??" "wherever i go.. is no concern of yours" Jin Hwan looked at my clothes. . "whose clothes are those?? Won Min Jae????" "(shakes head)" "Han Yoo Bin???" "......................" i couldnt lie.... "ey.. who told you to meet him?" "ey.. what does it matter to you who i meet?? move... i want to go in." "ey.. ahh sh*t.. just open the door." Pak Pak. at that moment i realized he was the guy who didnt like Han Yoo Bin. and i was being nice... girls who are nice to all guys. oh yea, he frkn doesnt like that... . ^ is this what im thinking of all of a sudden? this is why it doesnt work... the next morning. *boil boil* "oh. Ahjumma!! when did you wake up?" "a while ago. but why isnt Hwanee waking up.. Yeh Won. will you wake him up??" "huh???...." "its okay... that pose before was nothing...^^" "Ahjumma!!~~~~~~~~~~~~" hesitating, i went inside Jin Hwan's room... . i clenched my teeth. "ey.. wake up.. do you know what time it is!!! ey ey!!!" "............" "ey!!! hurry wake up...." HWAk.. "ey... ey whats wrong wit hyou???" still sleeping, that guy hugged me tightly... "ey.. whats wrong?" because he slept shirt­ less... . ^ i disliked it even more... "ey!!! hurry wake up." "(dazed... he opened his eyes.)" "ey.. let go.. i cant breathe." he relaxed his hands. and i quickly removed my body. "ey. why are you in my room again?" "Ahjumma told me to wake you up!!!!!!!" that guy didnt even know he hugged me. stupid.. . ^ "why is your face so red???" "no.... nothing... . ^ " ­me­ i quickly left the room. hooo... i'll be thankful for 10 years. i continually pushed him to ride the bus but he said he would never... how could he ride a poop car like that.. he went to the parking lot... and dragged out his motorcycle. "ey.. you're not getting on??" " . ^ " i didnt have a choice but to get on. bambarababam.. bambarararar.bam... that guys cell phone. he parked his motorcycle and answered it. "hello... why??? ah really... alright.." "where are you going?" "ey... lets go to my school first." "why??" "dont know. my friend said to come for a sec.." "what???" "im going." "ey.. no... today.. if im late i die.." he didnt even hear what i was saying..and he went to his school. the Jo Young Gong Go kids were surrounding one girl. and were looking at her. "what happened??" "dont know.." he parked his motorcycle.. and went to his school i followed that guy's every step. "..............." all of a sudden, Jin Hwan stopped walking... next to the gate... wearing street clothes and dark makeup... a short skirt.... really long hair.. and heels that were 10 cm high... "................" "do you know that person??" ignoring me, Jin Hwan went to that girl. "..............." i looked at her closer... ive seen her somewhere.... yesterday when i looked at the diary. the fallen picture... Kim Min Jin.. it was that girl, Ji Min... ".................." but she was that kind of style? before she was totally innocent looking.. sincere. she was that style. but as a matter of fact.. shes really pretty... dumfounded, Jin Hwan got closer. "ey... dont move from here.." ­he told me­ "what??" "i said not to come here. im sorry... will you go by yourself???" he said that without looking at my eyes. just continually looking at that girl JIn Hwan... "okay..." ".............." "^^ Jin Hwan..." suddenly hugging Jin Hwan was Ji Min..... "................" this feeling.. how do i explain this feeling? "........................" why am i standing here? "JIn Hwan.. i missed you..^^" slowly and carefully, Jin Hwan held that girl's shoulders and dropped.... that girl started to cry. and JIn Hwan carefully touched that girl's face. "Jin Hwan." "whats wrong with you?? did something happen??" "Jin Hwan......" if i watch any longer.. i feel like my heart will burst. i turned around.. and was about to go to school when a guy from Jo Young Gong Go turned to me and said "i'll take you." it was one of Hwanee's friends.. the one who i drank with.. "...................." i quietly held onto his clothes ... he started the engine... i.. turned around. and kept looking at Jin Hwan. but Jin Hwan didnt turn around. he didnt look at me. is it possible.. that im getting offended?? im curious.. what those two are talking about. im uneasy. how those two will turn out. how did i become like this.... ,................ ........ 24. we arrived at our school... and at the gym.. just like the tardy police said.. kids are running super fast. "hey..." ­me­ "huh??" "before.. that girl Ji Min.. how does she know Hwanee??" "oh.. Ji Min?? they were together before.. did they go out for 100 days?? ah. a little more than 100.. Ji Min hella liked Hwanee ... but that hoe went to that jerk Han Yoo Bin.. it looks like shes coming back tho..." "..................." "cuz of that hoe, Jin Hwan went to France.. that b*tch..." "but when Hwanee saw her.. why was he so surprised?" "that was all he could do.. until she and Hwanee broke up... she was totally.. innocent.. pure.. she was that kind of person.. but now she looks like a prostitute... of course Jin Hwan was surprised.." ".............i see..........." "Huk... hey.. Yeh Won...!!! you cant tell Hwanee i told you this.. okay?" "(nod nod)" "of course... you're a good person.. okay then study hard.." "kay ^^" he called me Yeh Won.. and it was only the 2nd time ive met him? no it was the 3rd time meeting him... but what do i do.. if i go in now.. the tardy police will say something for sure. plus if he reconizes me.. Min Jae will get punished.. ........................... i paced nervously... and i decided to jump the wall. next to me was a barbed wire fence. if i make a mistake. i could fall... . ^ but.. there was nothing else i could do. "gggeung.. ¤ „ C ∙ “ * � " are there people around? i made sure there werent.. and i lifted my foot... "ggeung.... . ^" "who are you?" "kyak~~~~~~~~~~~~~~" i fell directly in front of me. "omygosh.. omygosh.. my back." "are you okay?? Yeh Won. are you okay??" "huh?? who are you? huh? oh Yoo Bin.." this place.. was the place i was here with Yoo Bin Yoo Bin's hideout. "Yoo Bin!!! you scared me.. i thought you were a teacher, do you know how careful i was being..." "^^ theres lots of kids who jump this wall thats why... i jump everyday.. and sometimes i fall backwards.. Yeh Won­ how did you fall forward?? ^^" Yoo Bin looked at me, amazed. "yeah.. sorry that my face is big.. . ^" "^^" "ah todays the test right??" "yea.. lets go in together." Yoo Bin held on to my arm and begged. " . ^" since i wanted to ask Yoo Bin some things, i had no choce but to sit down next to Yoo Bin. Yoo Bin started to smoke again. "cough cough." "*^^*" "dont smoke!!! it makes my stomach hurt.. . ^" "try not to think about that... only for right now.. *^^*" "Yoo Bin.. do you know Kim Ji Min??" "huh??............yea... you know her too??" "huh?? no. i just saw her today." "where??" surprised, he grabbed me and asked.. "huh?? oh.. Jo Young Gong Go.. it looked like she was waiting for Hwanee.." "y... yea?? how is she??" "huh? it looks like she changed.. a lot.. a lot a lot.. from a picture i saw when she was with Jin Hwan..." "really?? i heard rumors about that too... they were true!!' "� what rumors...??" "just.. that she goes to bars and stuff.. i didnt know if it was true...." "oh. . ^" .. "but how did you end up with her? she was with Jin Hwan originally." Huk. what kind of thing am i asking so shamelessly?? "� i stole her.." "what?? stole her?" "i just stole her.. because i didnt want that bastard looking so happy....." "........................." "^^ what are you worrying about?? its okay.. lets go inside.. ^^" "huh?? okay.." what was he saying?? what was he saying?? the teacher held a huuge stack of tests in one hand and entered the class room. but this time, the teacher was the tardy police... . ^" its good that the test means school ends early.... but i really hate it. is there a world without school? when i was taking the test.. i felt like crying. i seriously didnt know what was what.. i should know.... . again.. i finished the test­ mostly by guessing.. and i began to fall asleep... . ' i was looking next to me when. Yoo Bin had one leg on top of his desk... and was twirling his pen as he solved problems. "hoo." PAK... that tardy police. slammed his rod on my desk, right in front of my face. oww my ears... . ^ aigoo.. my head. "........whats your name ??" "huh??" "i said whats your name??" ".. ha... Han Yeh Won.." everyone turned to look at me and the tardy police. "Han Yeh Won?? did you finish your test??" "huh?ah.... yeah... . " "Han Yeh Won.. right now.. you have 20 minutes left.. dont give up hope.. and try as best you can.." "huh?? okay!!!!" everyone giggled. "one voice satisfies me.. and dont cheat." "ch.. cheat?" "work diligently." what is he saying?? cheating? the tardy police went back to the front of the classrom. when i looked to my side. Yoo Bin laughed at me while holding the peace sign. ^^V " . ^" another test done. the last test is.. tomorrow. i told myself i would do well on that test but. its hard to actually study and do well.. .^ "hoo.. theres nothing that goes right.." lifelessly, i was going down the stair when.. theres a sight you dont see everyday. that girl who followed Min Jae around.. So Min.. So Min was getting beat up by her classmates­ kids her same age. "uh.. what should i do?" i should first go to those kids. "hey. what are you doing?" those kids looked at me. Huk... their glares.. . ^ they're trying to defeat me. "whats this?? sh*t.. i thought she was a teacher." " . ^" "Yeh Won unnie..." "huh?? So Min!!!" i pretended i didnt know.. and went to So Min. "sh*t. get away.. if you're a junior.. go study. your SAT test is the day after tomorrow.." "what???" "what a retarded looking person.." "what? retarded?? "yea. Eun Byul!!! that unnie's the unnie i told you about..." ­So Min­ "what?" ­Eun Byul kid­ "Jin Hwan oppa from Jo Young Gong go..." "that hoe?? no way.. fawk Jung So Min.. i thought you had good luck... sh*t next time i see you, tell me that lie again..." those kids kicked So Min and left. "So Min are you okay?" her face had scratches and scars.. her uniform skirt had footprints.. she was close to looking like me, that night at Wol Mi Do... "im fine." So Min took out powder from her bag and started applying makeup on her wounds. "So Min. you shouldnt do this.. you should wash up and put on some medicine.. what are you doing." "please let go.. i have to meet Min Jae oppa later.." slowly, her wounds started to disappear. like she was putting on lotion... So Min put on her makeup. "So Min.. why did those kids do this to you??" "..... those hoes?? cuz i follow Min Jae oppa around. thats why.. its not even funny." "because of Min Jae?? So Min.. do those kids do this to you everday??" "sometimes.. when they see me.. if they feel like it.. if they want, they hit me. if they dont, they dont.. its like that." pitiful So Min... "does Min Jae know??" "unnie.. dont tell Min Jae oppa!!! if you do, Min Jae oppa wont agree to hang out with me anymore.. okay??" "huh???? but still." "unnie.. okay??" "huh? okay..." So Min suddenly got up to dust off her clothes, and grabbed my hand. "what??" "unnie, lets go together..." "where??" "i was going to go play with Min Jae oppa.." "i.. i dont want to.." "unnie, comeon." "no. i have to study.." "unnie.. i know you dont study." "... ho... how do you know that??" "then do you study a lot?" "no.. no but." "hurry lets go. Unnie." i cant go.. So Min.. So Min~~~ 25. ................. this place was a coffee shop on the 2nd floor of a building... "............" why is it so awkward? "......................" Min Jae kept glaring at me... dont mad dog me like that!! . its scary.. . "Min Jae oppa.. Yeh Won unnie.. why is it so awkward?? really.. i thought it would be more fun if Unnie came.." "..sor... sorry. So Min." "why did you do something i didnt ask for??" "oppa, when you're with me you dont even laugh.. you dont talk.. you just sit there.. i get so bored..." " . " So Min silently sipped her juice... "So Min.. ah... is it okay if i leave??" "huh?? no unnie.." "Jung So Min.. why are you holding onto someone who wants to leave???" .................. "Oppa but still." "okay.. im leaving now." i held my bag and quickly got up. the atmosphere was stiff. Min Jae's words were ... really really... cold.. "So Min.. Min Jae.. have fun!! ^^" "Unnie..." like lightning, i opened the door and went out. . ^ i didnt know Min Jae could speak so coldly.. ". i should go home and study at least..." but.. what happened between Hwanee and that Ji Min girl?? . ^ . ^ ... i have no energy.. aigoo no energy ... i took out my keys. and was opening the door when. the door was strangely already unlocked. "is someone home??" is it possible.. theres a burglar?? in the shoe rack.. were a pair of women's shoes.. and Hwanee's shoes.. ................ "Jin Hwan!!! JIN HWAN!!!!!" i opened Jin Hwan's door... but then... but then. i saw Ji Min and Jin Hwan kissing..... and i stopped. Jin Hwan was slightly frowning.. and Kim Ji Min looked very dignified. ".... sor... sorry..." i tugged the door shut. . ^ opening the door suddenly "Hwanee!!! Hwanee." ­Ji Min, calling to Hwanee­ "ey.. Han Yeh Won.. HAN YEH WON.!!!!' "..........." CRASH. i immediately locked my door. . ^ if i was just a little.. a little late Jin Hwan would have seen my tears..... BOOM BOOM. "ey.. Han Yeh Won.. Han Yeh Won. open the door. fawk OPEN THE DOOR!!!!" "..............." "ey.. dont misunderstand!! ey.. Han Yeh Won, are you listening???" "............" "Han Yeh Won. open the door.. please open the door..." "Hwanee.. lets go.." ­that girl­ "sh*t. let go!!!!!" " . ^ " "aww sh*t......" i couldnt hear Hwanee's voice any longer.. ........... it looks like they went outside together. why am i crying like a fool??? like a fool... . ^ "Hoo......." right then, a scrap of paper fell out of my pocket. it was Yoo Bin's phone number... "................" i went out into the living room. and called Yoo Bin. "hello..." "Yoo Bin!!!!" "whos this?? Yeh Won??" "Yea.. hey Yoo Bin.. what are you doing right now??" "me?? im drinking with my friends.." "oh really?? okay... . ^" "ey. Han Yeh Won.. Han Yeh Won!!!!" " . ^" "Han Yeh Won.. are you crying....??" "im hanging up.." "Han Yeh Won.. Han Yeh Won.." whew.... whew.... . ^ im stupid. why did i make that useless phone call... "Han Yeh Won!!!! you're finally crazy.. finally.. finally. you're crazy!!! you're crying cuz of Jin Hwan... that jerk.. like a fool...." ding dong!~dingdong~@ "who's that??" i rubbed my eyes as i got up... could it be Jin Hwan?? "who is it?" "Huk.. Huk.. Yeh Won!!! its me, Yoo Bin!!" "Yoo Bin??" i quickly opened the door. "Yoo Bin!!! how did you get here??" Yoo Bin caressed my face and carefully looked at me.. "why are you doing this??" "cuz you're crying.. thats why i ran over here.. Huk.. Huk... give me some water." "huh?? sure..." i poured out a glass of water and gave it to Yoo Bin. Yoo Bin loudly gulped the water. it looks like he really did run here. "Han Yeh Won.. were you really crying.." "� " "who made you cry?? who?? Won Min Jae??" "(shakes head)" "then who? Jin Hwan??" " � .........." "im right?? that bastard made you cry??" "Yoo Bin!! ah..." with a sudden jerk, Yoo Bin tightly hugged me. i was standing on a step. but he was so tall.. my neck was stretching up. cough cough.. its hard to breathe. im dying... . ^ "Yoo Bin!!!!" "thats why i said i would take responsibility. i said i wouldnt ever make you cry.. and i said i would make you happier than anyone else could... only you....." "Han Yoo Bin.. why are you doing this?? nothing's wrong with me... really, nothing's wrong..." "............." Yoo Bin was so serious.... "Yeh Won!!!!!".... "yea??" "sor... sorry." he placed his hands on my shoulders, stroked my hair and shrugged his head "ive been going crazy..^^" ".............." "want to go outside??" "huh?? sure. let me get a jacket.." .... Hwak. Again, Yoo Bin tightly embraced me. "Yoo Bin!! Yoo Bin. dont do this!!!!" "just 5 minutes.. no lets just stay like this for 1 minute..." "Yoo Bin...." its hard to breathe.. cough cough... right then......... the guy i saw standing behind Yoo Bin.. was Jin Hwan. "Yoo. Yoo Bin!!!! dont do this!!!!!" "^^ all done.. now i can give you up for good ^^" "huh? okay." right now, the problem wasnt whether he could give me up or not.. . "... Han Yeh Won!!!" "............ Jin Hwan??" "Yoo Bin!!!! lets go. hurry." i didnt even have a jacket.. but i urged Yoo Bin and dragged him outside. "Han Yeh Won!!!!" "hurry Yoo Bin!!!" sorry.. Jin Hwan. "Han Yoo Bin. hurry lets go.." 26. i went outside like that. huk. i thought i was going to die. "Yeh Won!! ^^" " . ^ Yoo. Yoo Bin!!! i.. want to rest at home..." "what?? but i ran all the way here." "im sorry... . ^ sorry..." "okay.. then go inside.." Yoo Bin stroked my hair again... "Yoo Bin!!!" "huh??" "be safe!! ^^" "Yeh Won!!!" "huh??" " did... Jin Hwan tell you anything about our relationship???" "no.. he didnt say anything... why?" "never mind.. ^^ im going.." Yoo Bin left like that. what kind of relationship do they have????? i only know that.. Yoo Bin stole Ji Min because he liked her... . so theres a relationship between the two >,< the only ones left were Jin Hwan and me. . ^ the door was open. "Hwanee..." Jin Hwan was sitting on the sofa, engrossed in thought. "................." "Hwanee...!!" "ey. Han Yeh Won..." "Huh?? yea??" "do you like Han Yoo Bin more than me??" "huh?? what. what are you talking about??" "i frkn hate it... everything is exactly the same.. and what is this­­coming back to me..." he's talking about Ji Min. "............." "fawk its sh*t." "you.. are you doing this because you saw me and Yoo Bin hugging?" Jin Hwan was lighting his cigarette when he looked at me. what am i saying?? . "............so what if i am??" "you bastard!!! you.. you??? think about what you did!!! you were the one that wanted to go out with me.. but you and Kim Ji Min. in your room you were .. you were..." i couldnt hold myself in. "............" "forget it" "that jerk.. that jerk.. im not gonna leave that bastard's mom and dad alone.. im gonna get revenge­ twice more than what he did to my mom... im not gonna leave that bastard alone!!!!!!!!" what is he saying??? what is he saying?? why is ... Ahjumma's name suddenly coming out?? ... why are there so many things i dont know?? ......did 2 hours pass? i opened my door and came out.. but Jin Hwan wasnt around. ............. "..............whew....." (the next morning) when i rubbed my eyes as i woke up... "Ah jumma!!! wheres Jin Hwan?" "that bastard stayed out again. when he comes back..i should cut off his legs. . ^" " . ^" "Yeh Won, after you eat, hurry and go to school." "okay..." tomorrow is my mom's birthday... i have to go to the countryside ....... "Ahjumma!!!" "yes?" "ah. nevermind." "^^awkward.." its been a while since ive ridden the bus. of course, that bus is still crowded... .^ ooh.... when the bus stopped at Jo Young Gong Go, a lot of kids got off. " . ^" theres no Ji Min girl today!!!! what was the reason for feeling so relieved?? but where could Jin Hwan have slept??? i got off at my high school... and was walking along when.. was that Kim Ji Min standing in front of my school??? did she come to visit Yoo Bin?? i rigidly lifted my head as i walked when "ey!!!" " . ^" everyone in my surroundings turned to look at her. "kekekek" Kim Ji Min was rudely laughing. "you're all stupid.. ey you!! Han Yeh Won??" " . ^" i went to that girl. "what??" "do you have time right now??" "time?? no. i have to go inside.." "it will only take a second.." the cafe behind the school... " . ^" quietly lighting her cigarrette Kim Ji Min started to spew out large clouds of smoke. "..........." cough cough.. "so i heard you and Hwanee are going out??" ".........what if i am?" "so you really are going out.. Hwanee doesnt like girls like you though.." "so what??" "ever since Hwanee left for France, i've been waiting for him...." "............and??" "you're so shocking.. what do you know about Hwanee???" Kim Ji MIn asked me like she knew everything... "............" shes right, i dont know anything.. "keke" "im gonna leave.." "i heard a rumor.. that Min Jae and Han Yoo Bin both like you.." "............" "so why dont you go out with one of them.. and leave Jin Hwan to me.. dont you think you're being a bit greedy?" "............." what a b#tch... i was about to rise when... "did you even know that Jin Hwan and Han Yoo Bin are brothers?? ... you probably do.. since you live together..." "..............." what is she saying?? who.. and who?? family??? "you.. didnt know???" she looked at me to see if she was mistaken. "what are you saying?? what.. are you saying??" "so you didnt know!!!! i thought i was going crazy when i first heard it... they're brothers.. brothers.... i think.. Yoo Bin is a few months younger..." "what are you saying?" "they're brothers... brothers.. they have the same dad.. ah shiii... Han Yoo Bin.. ask that bastard.. he'll probably tell you the whole story.." ".............." "the reason why he likes you.. and flirts with you.. is all because of Hwanee.. he'll tell you everything.. if it wasnt for that bastard.. that bastard.. i would still be with Hwanee..." "............" i ran to school... "YEh Won!!! Yeh Won!!!^^" standing next to the wall, calling me was none other than Yoo Bin... "Yoo.. Yoo Bin!! want to.. lift me up?" "sure.. hold my hand.. so you wont fall forward again *^^*" with Yoo Bin's help, i climbed over the wall and went inside. "Yeh Won." Yoo Bin was grabbing onto my arm.... "dont grab me!!" ".......Yeh Won!!! >.<" "sorry.. sorry.... whew.. hey.. Yoo Bin.." "yea?" "are you and Jin Hwan.. brothers??" ".....who said that?" Yoo Bin's face suddenly changed. "it doesnt matter.. is it true?? is that why.. is that why you were trying to get me?? is that why you kissed me.. and said you would watch out for me.. and.. make me happy.. were you just acting??" "Yeh Won!!!" SLAP i slapped Yoo Bin's cheek. why is everything so twisted? "you.. you.. were you really this kind of person??? is that why.. when Jin Hwan and Kim Ji Min were going out.. you broke up a perfectly peaceful couple.. is that why.. you.. you.. stole Kim Ji Min??? because you hated to see Jin Hwan happy??? is that why??" "you're right... you're right about everything.. .. at first i was just trying to get to you.. but. but now its not.. what i told you yesterday was all sincere." ". dont touch me!!!!!!...........i feel sorry. for Jin Hwan.. i feel sorry. if it weren't for you, those two would still like each other a lot... that would have happened...." "i told you. from the start... that i was this kind of jerk......." "right. you did say that.. but.. but i didnt believe you? its my fault then...." "..........." i left Yoo Bin like that and entered my classroom. .......... what the heck happened?? i still dont understand. two different familes... Yoo Bin and.. Hwanee?? is that why they detest each other so much?? right now.. if there was someone i wanted to see right this minute.. even before my Mom, its Jin Hwan.. i want to see Hwanee... Hwanee.... . 27. except for a few problems, i guessed on the whole thing... i really messed up the test this time!!!! . ^ ..."arg..." unconsciously, i scratched my ear while glancing around the room... when i saw Han Yoo Bin glaring at me... i quickly lowered my arm and looked straight ahead of me. "kyA~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~" the bell rang..!!! ^^ yaayy no more testing. all the kids threw their pencils.. books.. everything because they were so happy... but one solitary person.. Eun Jin.. was laying on her desk [*remember, her desk parter] "Eun Jin!! Eun Jin!!!" . ^ im not your friend but..... but. but... since i had a conscience.. "wahhhhhhhhh" "ey. you did that badly? huh?? you probably did better than me tho... . i want to cry more than you.." right then, Eun Jin suddenly lifted her head Puk... "ah.. ah.." that hoe's head hit my chin. ah.. i think my teeth cracked.. . ah.. ah.. i think my chin will fall off. "Yeh Won~!!!" Eun Jin called my name for the first time. and with a sudden jerk, had pulled me into a hug and started crying my chin is hurting but.. what is she doing?? "Eu.. Eun Jin." "i cant do this.. i cant.. i made it my goal to study but.. . i cant.. im really the stupidest person in the world.." "huh?? Eu.. Eun Jin!!!" "whatever.. i dont want to live like this anymore. id rather die playing. i never want to live like this." she hit the desk.. and Eun Jin yelled in a loud voice. . ^ aigoo my chin. after school.. i sprinted to Jo Young Gong Go. i wanted to go to the nurse's office.. but i ignored Eun Jin.. and ignored Yoo Bin "........................." why is wearing my uniform in another school.. so annoying... these kids are leaving school too. but its a little different from our school. kids who go here play more than us. .^ "...Huh?? its the girl Hwanee hyung gives rides to!!!" some guy said to me. "ey.. if Hwanee hyung knows, you're dead. hurry lets go.." ".........spit." . ^ was i always this popular?? . "whats this?? dont touch Hwanee oppa!!! we cant even touch him. crazy b*tch.. die in sh#t" "h a h a h a " a gang of girls yelled. they laughed like crazy near me. " . " why isnt that jerk coming out.... suddenly those girls stared dumfounded at the school gate. there, a gang of guys. and a gang of girls came out. they were the kids i saw at that bar. "................." "huh?? its Hwanee's wife.." "huh?? ey!!! if you hurt Hwanee.. or if you let Hwanee go back to that Ji Min b_tch.. you're gonna die!!!" ­Oh Hae Jung­ "ey. Oh Hae Jung..!! do you want to die when Hwanee finds out?" "but still im right.." right then, a kid named Jo Gyoo Hyun came near us. "hey.. are you looking for Hwanee??" "huh?? yea.. can you call Jin Hwan for me.." ­me..­ "that bastard didnt come to school today.." "what?? then where did he sleep yetserday??" "th.. that i dont know either.." his eyes look like they know something. "tell me" "i really dont know.. im sorry.. that i couldnt help you.." " . " where are you.. you bastard. really.. isnt it enough that you piss me off?? bus stop.. "..........." while i was waiting for the bus, i kicked an innocent pebble. "hoo...." VROOOOM right then, i heard the sound of Hwanee's motorcycle accelerating quickly and making skidding noises "Hwanee!! Jin Hwan!!!" its Jin Hwan for sure.. but who's that girl thats sitting behind him?? by that long hair, its probably Kim Ji Min.. it looks like Kim Ji Min.. i missed 3 buses because i was waiting for him. but Jin Hwan didnt come back. "..............." (inside the bus) .................... ...................... where the heck is he?? Jin Hwan.. theres so many things i want to ask you........ i got off the bus and was walking home when. i saw Han Yoo Bin standing in my neighborhood. "................." Yoo Bin saw me and came close "Yeh Won.." "Yoo Bin.. im sorry but... i dont want to talk to you right now.. when my head feels better, then we'll talk.." . ^ "Han Yeh Won... just listen to me.. please.." "Yoo Bin.. im sorry.." "............" i ignored Yoo Bin and went inside. Yoo Bin didnt hold on to me like before... i thought he would hold me back. yep, this big house is so quiet... how did i come to live here?? i went inside my room and quietly looked at my mom's picture. "Ummah.. Ummah... why am i hurting so much?? im.. so stupid.. i said i would become strong... but since im hurting so much because of a guy... ummah, i think im lacking something because i cant handle this... tomorrow's your birthday so... i'll go see you tomorrow .. ^^" ............... ............... ding dong.. ding dong.. i abruptly awoke and ran toward the door. "who is it?? Hwanee? Hwanee?" Hwak... ............. "why are you here??" "keke are you looking for Hwanee? how stupid.. i drank with Hwanee and rode on his motorcycle.. it was really fun.. "^^ oh yea. that girl that was behind him.. Kim Ji Min.. it was you!!! "my legs hurt. cant i come inside??" ".........why?" "im doing an errand for Hwanee.." "what??" Kim Ji Min brushed my shoulder as she went into Hwanee's room. that perfume smell.. its a really rich smell.. my nose even stings a little. "what are you doing?" she was taking out some of Hwanee's clothes.. and something else "Hwanee's errand ^^" "wheres Hwanee?? tell me.." "crazy.. do you think i'll tell you??" ...............crash.. Kim Ji Min left.. where the heck is he??....... . ................. ....... please.. please cant he come back?? i was wrong.. i'll apologize.. when i was sitting, dazed on the sofa.... *RinGRinG Ring* "hello.. Jin Hwan?? is this Hwanee??" Hwanee?? Hwanee?? 28. "ey. this is Eun Jin.. come out right now." "What??" "i said come out right now. im at the 000 club so. hurry and come" "huh? Eun Jin!! Eun Jin!!" click... Eun Jin just hung up.. today i was supposed to wait for Hwanee.. i hesitated for a long time before deciding to go meet Eun Jin. where is Eun jin?? . "Yeh Won! Yeh Won!!! over here.." "huh?? whos that?" "its me.. Eun Jin." "Eun Jin???" Eun Jin didnt look like this.. she wore glasses with black rims.. and had lots of freckles.. she was a total nerd. "how did this happen?? what happened to your glasses and freckles..??" "ey. my eyes are 20/20.. and my skin is really nice!!! look look. see how soft it is??" "then how did this happen???" "sh*t. i was gonna study because this fortune teller told me i would become the valedictorian .. .. so i followed that lie for $30 bucks. sh#t.." i was a little confused at Eun Jin's tone ... "then...." "i went to look for that fortune teller but sh#t she already ran away... . but we're gonna go into the club.. you came dressed like this?" "club?? ey.. i cant go." "i told you over the phone.." "what?" "oh well. lets just go in." "what?? ey. but we're.. underage." "its okay.." Eun Jin grabbed my arm and pulled me inside.. those young body guards bowed at Eun Jin.. . ^ whats this?? it looks like shes been here a lot before.. "............" very loud music.. those people dancing like crazy.. guys who sat drinking with women.. misters who were busy doing errands.. . i cant adjust to this.. cant adjust.. Eun Jin sat down at the very front. "Eun Jin!!" "how many bottles do you drink?" "huh? i dont drink.. and.." "7 bottles please.." "sure." Eun Jin.. . please listen to me. "wanna dance?" "dance?? what dance. how embarrassing." "Han Yeh Won dont be left out.." "Han Yeh Won.. in my eyes you're a cool friend. i dont usually keep friends but.. when i ask you to be my friend.. ey!! dont sit by yourself!!" Eun Jin.. Eun Jin... Eun Jin held onto my hand and pulled me to the front and Eun Jin started dancing like crazy i clapped and jumped on one foot to the other and tried smiling. but Eun Jin is really pretty. when she does that... and she seriously dances so well.. and is so skinny.. . ^ compared to me. right now im... in a long grey skirt.. and a hooded tee shirt.. how could i come here dressed like this.. . but are people starting to surround Eun Jin??? guys started looking slyly at her and girls looked jealous while they applauded and watched Eun Jin. . Huk..... next to her, i was just clapping along. while Eun JIn was dancing like crazy. i slipped out of there.. and went to the restroom.. 0 but whats this? next to the bathroom.. was a notice board 'who will be the best looking in our city..' and there were lots of pictures stuck on... "................" i saw Min Jae's face.. Min Jae's face... a lot of red "hot" stickers crowded his face.. . ^ and at the very top were the pictures of Yoo Bin and Hwanee. Yoo Bin was surrounded by girls.. and Hwanee, with bright eyes, was in front of a lot of beer bottles... . the stickers surrounding both of them almost covered the pictures there were so many. even when i looked from far away, those three people had the most stickers. . i pulled out a red sticker and stuck it right in the middle of Hwanee's face.. kekeke .............. Hwak "Han Yeh Won.. where are you going?" "huh?? EunJin.. ^^" she scared me.. "where are you going? running away?" running away.. � ^ am i a convict?? "huh?? no.. the bathroom.. ^^" this is my first time tasting alcohol... and it doesnt seem all that bad. it relieves your stress. and your mind... becomes blank.. thats the very best.. when i opened my eyes.. i was at home.. home.. "ah. Ahjumma!!!" "Yeh Won did you wake up?? how much did you drink yesterday.." "huh?? ah. im so sorry.. . come home yet??!!!!" but did Jin Hwan "no.. not yet.." "ah... . ^" Ahjumma dropped me off at school, so i wasnt late, thank good ness... but there were lots of people were making a commotion around the notice board on the 1st floor "hey.. hey what..." i used all my strenght to push myself inside. "......................" school ranking... ranking... i hurriedly searched for my name.. its not on the front and not on the back... whats wrong with this school?? it lets the whole school know who the stupid people are... the whole school was going crazy.. at the end were the freshmen... and at the bottom right were seniors and the juniors were in the center of the entrance.. the list was the size of the door.. . there was my name.. "out of 640 people.. im 506.. huk.. how could this be.." im one of the stupid people... "............." "ey. isnt Han Yoo Bin amazing?? Won Min Jae too.. and they're kids that play all the time.. are they sh*tting us?? its no joke." "they were always good.. im so jealous. they're so goodlooking.. plus they're good in school and fight well too.." "its all about the money.. money.." "..................." they're talking about Yoo Bin.. where is Yoo Bin? he's lower than me, for sure. theres no reason for him to get better than me.. i gathered my courage.. for 10 minutes i looked in the back for Yoo Bin's name.. but it wasnt there but Eun Jin was there.. shes 517th place.. shes worse than me. kekeke no i shouldnt do this.. i was leaving when.. at the very left.. were Han Yoo Bin and Won Min Jae's names.. with a number 1 and a number 2 right next to them... . Han Yoo Bin. first.. Won Min Jae second.. . how did that happen? Han Yoo Bin is first? this must be an accident... and when i looked at the average.. Han Yoo Bin.. got one wrong out of 12 subject tests.. . how did this happen. i started to have a minor headache and was about to leave when.. all these people are pushing me... . "whew... i barely got out of there.." i dragged my tired body up to my class room. so Han Yoo Bin is first??? and Won Min Jae is second?? doesnt make sense... . but is a gang of girls crowding around in front of my class again? what is it this time? is it our class ranking?? suddenly "you're Yeh Won nuna right?? right?" [*boys call older girls nuna] a cute boy wearing a Jo Young Gong Go uniform came to me. "ye.. yeah.." "you know Hwanee hyung. and Gyoo Hyun hyung." "s. so.." kids started crowding around me. "here.. Hwanee hyung wanted me to give this to you, nuna..." it was that wrapped box Ji Min took along with Hwanee's clothes yesterday... but how did this kid come to our school? im curious. "whats this??" "i dont know. he said its your birthday. and he gave me this." my birthday? my birthday?? there's 2 months left until my birthday.. is it possible. is it possible "hey do you know where Jin Hwan is?" that kid looked at me surprised. "i.. i dont know." "you know. where is he??' "i.. dont know.. i came because Gyoo Hyun hyung sent me." i carried that box... and ran as fast as i could to Jo Young Gong Go... the tardy police was calling me. but i didnt listen and i just ran to Jo Young Gong Go. 29. .huk.. huk.. please. please... Jo Young Gong Go. im here. "...whew.............." i took a deep breath and looked at the school.. kids are taking attendance... . ^ what do i do??? its difficult to go inside.. the girls here wear a brown uniform... and i wear a gray uniform.. its so different.. . ^ "h.. hey." "yes??" i grabbed a random guy and asked him. "hey.. do you know anyone by the name of Jo Gyoo Hyun.. hes a junior.. do you think you can call him for me?" "Gyoo Hyun hyung??? i cant.. if i go i die" "................ah.. i see." im seriously going crazy... right then, i saw that Oh Hae Jung girl i ran toward her. "hey. hey you know me right????????" ".........you?? of course.. do you have something to do at our school??" "Gyoo Hyun.. Gyoo Hyun. can you call Jo Gyoo Hyun......" "Gyoo Hyun.. why him?" "im in a hurry.. please call him.." Hae Jung seemed surprised because she looked at me with strange eyes.. i must have yelled a little "isnt it enough im getting him for you?? so why are you yelling at me??" that girl patted her clothes and went inside. 10 minutes passed. 20 minutes passed. class must have started already 30 minutes passed... right then, one guy was walking leisurely toward me.. it was Jo Gyoo Hyun why is he coming so late?? . 6 "... you know where Hwanee is right? where is he??" "ah.. i knew you would do this so thats why i didnt want to come out.." "where is he???" "no.. do you want Hwanee to kill me?? . you should have thought about my situation a little.." "WHERE IS HE!!!!!!!!!!!!!" i said to him, crying he must have been surprised and shocked. "ey. ey. why are you crying?? i'll just tell you okay??" "..........heuk... heuk.." "where is he?.." ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ ==================================== ============= "What?? Seoul Hotel???" "yea..." "where did he get the money???" "you didnt know?? that jerks a rich guy.. ah i shouldnt say this.. ey im going back inside." Jo Gyoo Hyun quickly went back inside the school. Seoul Hotel is Korea's number one hotel... how did this guy... . ^ i rode a taxi to Seoul HOtel. next time i should send the taxi bill to him.. inside the taxi, i opened my present. what the heck is it.. . "..................." it was ..... a twinkling, sparkling ring... . ^ ......where did he have the money to buy this. i tried the ring on my finger. it was a little small but.. i used all my strength to fit it on my finger. "thank you.." i ran like crazy toward Seoul Hotel. rich people are definitely different. . ^ when have i ever been to a place like this? . "................" i went to the front desk. the mister looked at me weirdly. . "um could you find someone for me?? his name is Jin Hwan.. hes here right now. can you please tell me where he is.. ??" that person was toying with the counter. "im sorry.. that guest forbade me to tell anyone who was looking for him where he was.." "mister.. please tell me!!! its really important!!" in a place like that, i yelled loudly. my voice rang... . im positive he's here. i ran toward the elevator. "hey.. lady.. where are you going?" "i have to meet him. i have to meet him!! sir!!!!" "im sorry.. please leave the premises.." "sir~~!!!!" i didnt want to leave that place so i squirmed all i could and i started crying while yelling. "no mister.. no!!! i have to meet him.." right then "i know that person.." ............. its Hwanee... those men that were dragging me bowed to Hwanee and returned to where they were. "Hwanee!!" "why the heck did you come here?? ey. get up!!! where do you think this is?" "do you know how much i searched.." "ey. dont cry fawk. ey get up!!!!" Hwanee grabbed me and dragged me someplace. this place had a very pretty fountain "..........heuk... heuk....." "stupid.. ey. why did you come??" "dont do that!!! do you know how much i looked.. why didnt you come home???" "i didnt want to see you, thats why.." " . ^ stupid.." "what???" "i said you're stupid!!! a stupid idiot!!!" "who are you calling stupid???" "you're stupid.. its not even my birthday.. and you gave me a birthday present. todays my mom's birthday.." "what?? its not your birthday??? there was a red circle on your calendar..." "yea, thats my mom's birthday.." "what?? how annoying.. ey. give back the ring." "huh??" "i said give back the ring.. you said its not your birthday.." "theres no such thing as that!" "fine.. keep it..." ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, " . ^ im going to go meet my mom.. want to go with me??" Jin Hwan looked at me dumbfoundedly... "if you dont want to, fine.. it will be hard for me anyways.." "ey... dont move an inch from here.. i'll bring my motorycle..." "huh????????" Hwanee ran to someplace. and emerged 5 minutes later on his motorcycle.. "ey. hurry get on.." "huh??? okay.." i rode behind him. but does this guy know where the countryside is?? . probably not. ^ but where is he going?? did we ride for 1 hour?? where is this place?? its a resting place. "ey... lets eat something.. i didnt even eat breakfast so im hungry.." "why dont you eat your breakfast?? . ^" "ey!! thats why im eating here.." "y.. yea??" that guy went inside.... and ate pork cutlet.. and i ate udong.. "� " "what are you looking at???" "hey. i have to ask you something..." ".......what????" "you.. do you even know where my old house is??" "............how would i know?" huk.. he didnt know and he came to this place? "then where were you planning on going?" "j.. just.." " . ^ hooo~~~~~~~~~~~~" i explained fully to him and we left this place. how stupid can he be... he asked people where we were.. and looked in the map... . it would have been better to ride the bus by myself.. did we ride for 3 hours? we're in the countryside.. my countryside.. . how many years has it been?? "ey.. what kind of road is this dangerous???" "my mom is just a little further up..." "shi... ah.ah.ey. i got poked.." "what?? be careful. this road is dangerous.." . ^ hes like a piece of luggage. luggage... i shouldnt have brought him.. . "huh? i see my mom.." i ran toward my mom... "Ummah.. im here.. its me.. Yeh Won.." i held onto my mom's grave and wept. why are tears coming out so suddenly... how long did i cry?? i dont have energy to cry anymore. "............" suddenly Hwanee took out a cigarette from his pocket lit it, and threw it in front of him. "ey. what are you doing?" "i saw it on tv... you're supposed to sprinkle alcohol and throw cigarettes." "EY!!! what the heck are you doing? my mom doesnt smoke!!!!!" "ey. everyone does this.. ey your mom didnt smoke because of you huh..." "take it out. right now." i extinguished the light and socked him. he got hit once do you know how much he lectured me.. i cant hit this bastard now. cuz its scary.. i bowed to my mom.. and was leaving when.. is it raining all of a sudden?? . ^ "ey. what do we do?? . ^ " "ah fawk..." "its dangerous to ride a motorcycle when its raining.." "ey.. you dont know anyone who lives here??" "nope." "you said you lived here!!!" that jerk is getting mad at me for no reason.. "oh there is.." . 6 the only one i was friendly with. a halmoni.. ^^ [*halmoni is grandma] Gong Yoo halmoni.. ^^ i squished in the mud and went toward halmoni's house.. ^^ halmoni, im hereee.. *^^* 30. "Halmoni!!! halmoni.. its me.. Yeh Won!!" "ey. where is this place?? that's a house?" "shut up!!!" "fawk.. you. you.. seriously.." "whos it?" yep my halmoni's shrill voice.. . ^ "Halmoni, its me Yeh Won.. ^^" Halmoni ran towards me. "Yeh Won!!!!^^" "yep.." "hurry and come in.. you're getting wet.." Halmoni ushered me inside. behind me, Jin Hwan grumbled and followed me "and who is you??" surprised Jin Hwan.. keke nice going.. even if i died and lived again, my halmoni will not fix her ways.. "huh?? ah. ey!! Han Yeh Won. say something!!!" "Halmoni, hes just someone i know!!! hurry come inside.. you're getting wet.." the warm floor.. frowning and grumbling, Jin Hwan sat down next to me. "Yeh Won.. do you want anything to eat??" "no. Halmoni. its okay." "wait.. wait. stay here.. Halmoni will bring some dried persimmons..^^" "we're fine.. Halmoni!!!" Halmoni went out. and. as if he couldnt hold it in "ey. Han Yeh Won. cough cough.." "what.." "dont you smell something weird here??" "what smell?? ohhh thats my halmoni's smell." "dont lie!!! my halmoni doesnt smell like this... . ^ " "ey. are you gonna keep doing that? if it smells, go outside.." ................ Jin Hwan became quiet.. so there is a time when hes like that!! Halmoni held a huuge bundle of dried persimmons and came inside "Halmoni i said we were fine." my favorite dried persimmons.. i started to eat "you should eat too..." i took a piece of persimmon and handed it to that jerk.. "huh?? . ^ you like this stuff??" "yep.. ^^ a lot." he looked at me as he held a piece.. "eat." "you're supposed to eat this??" JIn Hwan said in a small voice.. "yes you're supposed to eat. like this." 0 i ate a piece of persimmon.. "ew.." why is he smelling it?? JIn Hwan's face became distorted. "ey!! what are you doing?" (mouthing) "hurry and eat.." he put a piece in his mouth, scowled and went outside.. "Yeh Won.. why is he like that????" "huh? ah. no. Halmoni.. he. he wanted to drink some water^^" "yah??" "^^" arg. that bastard.. >0< Jin Hwan came back in with a red face.. . he didnt even look at the dried persimmons and sat cross legged. and hid his face.. . ^ yea your face is a fist.. . its good, why is he doing that?? "Han Yeh Won.. i cant hold it.. is there a bathroom around here??" "huh?? theres one outside." "outside?? why is the bathroom outside??" stupid boy. "this is the countryside.." he suddenly got up and went to the bathroom. will he find it?? a long time after.. that jerk went outside and suddenly i could hear the sound of a motorcycle.. i opened the door and looked. . his white face.. Jin Hwan's face looked ghastly pale and he was gulping down water "ey. whats wrong??" "ey!!! you wanna die??" "what?" "thats not a bathroom.. fawk.. i think im gonna throw up.." "why are you so loud!!~~~~" "huh? Halmoni.. ah.. no." anyways, i knew that guy would be like that.. "if you go out more, you'll see a house. do your business there." "its okay.. im not gonna go." " . ^" the rain stopped. Jin Hwan scowled because he wanted to get a move on.. i want to stay with Halmoni a little longer.. "Halmoni im leaving now..^^" "stay a longer~~" "no. Halmoni. i have to leave now if i want to get to Seoul.." "..............." tears started to form in Halmoni's eyes. Halmoni urged me. i feel like crying too.. >0< "hurry and go...." "yea. halmoni.." "you drive safetly.." Halmoni slapped Hwanee's butt hard Hwanee became greatly surprised.. kekeke when hes like that, its a little cute. "im leaving. Halmoni." "okay.. come together next time too.." "huh?? ah. sure.. ah.. good bye..!!!" til i couldnt see Halmoni anymore Halmoni kept waving at us. "im not coming back again.. e y .. are you crying??" "huh?? why do you think im crying??" i hurriedly wiped my tears.. right then, Jin Hwan grabbed my hand. i kept looking at his face. Hwanee's stiff face. ^^ ^^ my hands are pretty big. but his big hand covered my whole hand.. we got on the motorcycle again and turned towards home. (resting place) "ey. are you really okay???" "fawk.. its cuz of before.." yea he's a city boy. he couldnt adapt to the country bathroom.. . that guy rested for 30 minutes and ate medicine.. � ^ that jerks stomach is unexpectedly weak!!! we arrived at home a little past 10... JIn Hwan looked half dead.. today must have tired him... "sweet dreams.. 0 " . i went inside my room. but there was something i wanted to ask him today. the connection between him and Yoo Bin.. i went into his room again. *knockknock* why isnt he saying anything? i opened the door and went inside .......... "hey. Hwanee." Hwanee was lying on his bed.. its a relief he didnt take off his clothes.. ^^;; i knelt on my knees and looked at him. "keke' hes really good looking.. so hes my boyfriend..^^ "ey!!" "huh?? yea. you're awake??" "why did you come?" " . ^ theres. theres something i wanted to ask you.." "later.. later.. im tired.." Jin Hwan turned his back toward me and slept, covered with his blanket.. . ^ "hey wake up.." "ey. what.." ....................... annoyed Hwanee.. "Han Yoo Bin and you.." suddenly Jin Hwan opened his eyes and abruptly sat up. "who told you??" Jin Hwan grabbed my shoulder hard. "ah.. ah.. dont do this!!! who cares who told me.." "..................." "how did this happen??" .......................... after a long time he hesitatingly said in small voice... "should i tell you the whole story??" he smiled coyly.. "(nod nod)" "its what you know already.. i didnt want to acknowledge it, but that bastard and i share the same blood.. and my Ummah wrongly got dumped.." ".............." "it looks like you didnt know.. that bastard didnt tell you everything?? Han Min Gi (his dad).. that jerk and my mom.. thats how i was born.. because he wanted to keep his success, he threw my mom away... and now he lives with that bastard.." ".............." "but when he saw me, he told me to come live with him.. i was so shocked i was speechleess.. he already has a smart son who obeys him.." "Hwanee..." there were tears in Hwanee's eyes. "now you know.. so leave. cuz im exhausted... send what i told you out the other ear.." with sad eyes Hwanee laid back down. "................... good night." i quietly turned off the light and opened the door. "Han Yeh Won.." "??????????????????" "dont betray me.." "what????" "i mean, dont go to that bastard..." "... dont worry. i'll always be right here.." "..............." i shut the door and went out. so it was like that!! thats why they hate each other so much!! ................... to tell the truth, i was happy when Hwanee said that. i promise i wont betray you... really. poor Hwanee.. . . 31. ............ Jin Hwan woke up earlier than m.e and was watching tv with his eyes half closed. "............." yep, Ahjumma was preparing breakfast. "you already woke up??" "............" "ey!!!" "............." "ey.. Jin Hwan!!" " ˝ ¨ ∙ “ " i poked him and he slumped to the side.. . oh so he was sleepign!!! "where did you guys go yesterday?? ^^" "huh?? ah.. to. to my mom's grave.." "oh yes.. yesterday was your mother's birthday.." "yep. ^^" "i see. wash up and eat. Hwanee too.." for the first time, i sat at the table with that jerk and ate breakfast. since he always woke up so late we couldnt eat together.. inside the elevator.. "ey.. at 4, im gonna go to your school. so come out.." "what?? i cant.. i have 7th period at that time.. . ^" "come out.." "i really cant.. yesterday i ran out of school.. when i go today.. im gonna get punished!! yep that happened yesterday." "stupid.. come out today." "i cant. really, today i dont know whats gonna happen to me." "thats your problem.. . ^" ..........evil jerk. "............" VroOom.. in front of the school. "thanks!! drive safe." "........" Jin Hwan sped away. 0 geez what do i do?? . ........... .."Han Yeh Won.. come here." Huk.. the tardy police is calling me. as soon as i went to him, the tardy police hit my head. "ow.. ow.." "yesterday you ran away, right?" "huh?? yes..." "stand over there.." "..........." So Min and Min Jae were standing there wearing hall monitor signs.. "..........." i knew this would happen.. . right then, So Min came to my side. "Unnie. did you really run away yesterday??" "huh? yea..." "why??" ".. it just.. happened.." ". poor Unnie.. if Min Jae oppa talks to the tardy police. you probably wont get that much punishment." "huh?? why??" "cuz the tardy police likes Min Jae oppa a lot.." "why??" "cuz he studies well and is good looking.. that tardy police is kind of a pervurt so he favors good looking kids.." "so Han Yoo Bin too.." "but that oppa is so rude.. . ^" "whats that over there??" "ah. please leave, teacher.. Unnie be strong.. i'll try talking to Min Jae oppa.. ^^" thanks So Min.. . along with all the tardy kids.. i got punishment. "cant you run faster?? the idiots run twice as fast." EuAK kids were running and waving their hands "............" ............. "Han Yeh Won!! come here." "..............." " go pull out weeds." "what??" "i said go pull out weeds... at lunch time too.." "^^ okay.." i went and pulled weeds. i didnt see this coming.. i got only a little punishment.. i thought i would have to run around the gym 20 times.. or clean the bathroom for a year "Unnie!!" So Min came toward me. "yea??" "huh?? unnie.. you should only pull out weeds... . % "these arent weeds??" "no this is a weed." and she expertly pulled one out.. her speed is really fast too. "Unnie, you're thankful to me huh??" "huh?" "i told Min Jae oppa, and he told the tardy police ^^" "really??" "^^" "ey. Jung So Min­ you're not leaving?" ­Min Jae­ "huh?? Oppa, wait for me.. Unnie good luck." "kay.." shes so kind.. So Min.. ......... aigoo my back.. i pulled out three fistful amounts of weeds and went inside the classroom.. "....Yeh Won!! Yeh Won!!" "huh?? Eun Jin." Eun Jin hugged me.. . ^ "why didnt you come yesterday?" "huh?? no.. i had to go somewhere" "really?? if you had something, you should have told me.." "^^ okay.." at lunchtime, i was going to go pull out more weeds when.. i said it was okay but.. Eun Jin said she would help me so she came with me.. Eun Jin pulled out flowers too.. . ^ those innocent flowers.. "aigoo my back.." Eun Jin cried out in pain. . ^ till the last day. that empty seat.. Han Yoo Bin didnt come.. "..................." ".........." its 3:50. 10 minutes later hes coming.. Jin Hwan.. "please. please... . " i clenched my fists and prayed. "Han Yeh Won.. do you have to take a dump??" ­teacher­ "huh?? ah.. no.." "hahaha" all the kids looked at me and laughed. right then. "Yeh Won. do you have to meet someone??" Eun Jin looked like she was glaring at me. "no.. not really." .............. "if you have something going on, you should tell me!!!" "that is..." "Eun Jin.. is the teacher on the right?" "huh?? ah.. teacher.. Yeh Won.. she says her stomach hurts.." ".. Han Yeh Won. you're really hurting?" "huh?? ah.. yes.." "............." "go to the nurse's office." "teacher.. it looks serious.. send her home.." "............." the teacher mad dogged Eun Jin.. "go." wow.. shes letting me go so easily!!! i put on my bag and ran super quickly. i saw a gangster leaning on the door, smoking.. . ^ "ey. you're 15 minutes late!!!!!" "sor.. sorry.. it was hard to leave." "fine.. lets go." "where are we going??" ............ Hwanee lifted me on the motorcycle and took me somewhere.. . ^ "where are we going??" cant he hear me?? this place is Myung Dong.. >0< he wants me to ditch and come to Myung Dong, is that it.. "where are you going??" Hwanee looks the best in his uniform.. his legs are long too.. but i dont like how he shortened his pants.... its very shrunken. Hwanee.. . ^ Min Jae and Yoo Bin both shrunk their pants too. [*im guessing its the style­ just like wearing baggy pants is the syle here] owell, it is weirder to see them dragging their pants.. "where are we going??" "its over there." .................." cell phone?? what about cellphones?" "you dont have a cell.." "so why do you have to buy me one??" "Ummah gave me money." "ey.." that guy dragged me.. hes so strong.. "ahjumma!!! give me what i put on hold.." huk.. he has no manners.. that Unnie glared at Hwanee. but Jin Hwan was nonchalant.. Hwanee reached into his bag and pulled out his own phone and compared it to mine "............... its the same.." "i bought the same one on purpose.." "............^^" its the most expensive model that came out.. it does kind of bother me that he's buying it for me though..... "th. thanks.." "since im buying it.. i have a requirement." ".........requirement? what?" "my number is gonna be 1st on your speed dial.. and you cant put anyone else's number in there!!!" "no .. how about my friends??" "not even them!!!" ".............." "just one person.." "no." "its a girl.. even if i tell her no. shes probably gonna put herself in anyways.." "......... hoo.. fine.. just one person.." "^^ okay.." "if you put a guy's number in there, im gonna confiscate it. . ^" "i got it.. but i bet you have a lot of numbers." "me????" "yea. you have a lot " Hwanee pulled out his phone and handed it to me.. "... what?" "check!!!" "............." i opened Hwanee's cell. and looked at his phone book.. 1. my wife 011­344­0000" (mine? when did he do this.. . ^ ??) 2. Ummah 02 00000000 ............. "wow you really dont have any." "satisfied?.." "^^"' why am i feeling so happy? bambarabamba bambarararara Hwanee's phone rang. ........... "pick it up." "............." after hesitating, Hwanee picked up. "hello.. yea. its me." "help me Hwanee!!!!" that girl's voice is really loud.. so i heard her too. "where are you? what?? you went there again?? wait for me.." he hurriedly hung up "ey.. dont move from this spot.." "what???" 32. Hwanee hurriedly ran someplace. and i followed Hwanee. but why is that guy so fast.. . 6 when i ran one foot, he ran two feet.. his legs are longer too.. "................." Hwanee went into some club. ".............." i followed him and went someplace underground. i heard fighting sounds. "Hwanee.." .............. inside was an uproar Kim Ji Min was under the protection of Hwanee.. and Hwanee was diligently fighting... "......... what do i do. what do i do.. Hwanee's getting hit.." ................ what do i do.... i paced.. and decided to call the police. "....... hello. is this the police!! over here.. is Myung Dong.. here.. here.. where is this place???" where is this place?? where am i ? "i'll call back later.. im sorry!!!!" trying to protect Kim Ji Min, Hwanee used all his strength. ............. a drop of blood fell from Hwanee's lips. .............. hes not gonna die like this, is he?? ............... i was pacing when. Hwanee, looking half dead, pushed Ji Min in front of him and came out. "Hwanee.. Hwanee!!" "ey.. you you.. why are you here?" "Hwanee.." Hwanee's face and clothes were smeared with blood. right then, a fat guy with a stick came from behind and hit Hwanee in the head. "KYA~!!!!!!!!!!!!" Hwanee... Hwanee faltered and went to that guy. "Hwanee. be careful." im scared. why are tears coming out?? he has to win.. he has to win.. ahh.. that fat guy looked scared.. "what do i do.." i called 911 again. "hello. hello." i kept crying and my teeth kept chattering so i couldnt say anything "where are you calling?" "the.. the police.. where. where are we?" "crazy.. give it to me.." Kim Ji Min took my phone and told the operator where we were. shes not worried?? one guy held a beer bottle and went toward Hwanee. "Hwanee!! be careful." i unconsciously ran toward Hwanee.. . where did i get this courage?? when i opened my eyes.. i was inside an ambulance.. vaguely, i saw Hwanee... i could only see his nose. because everything else was covered in blood... "Hwanee.. Hwa. Hwanee!!!" as much as i called, Hwanee didnt open his eyes.. ............ ............ and the next time i awoke.. i was inside a medicine­ smelling hospital room.. "are you okay?? Yeh Won!!!" "Ahjumma!!" "Yeh Won." "wheres Hwanee?" "Hwanee?? Hwanees lying right next to you." Hwanee was lying on the bed next to me. "is he okay??" "yes.. ^^" "............" "what time is it?" "1 am.." "Ahjumma, go home and rest.." "how could i?" "if you stay here, you'll get sick too... . ^ and you have to go to work tomorrow.." "its okay.." at my persuasion, Ahjumma went home. when i looked in the mirror i saw that my head was covered in bandages. you cant explain how bad Hwanee looks.. he didnt have any big injury to his face but like me, he had bandages on his head.... and on his legs and arms.. and there were even bandages on his chest. "stupid... . " ................. i carefully held Hwanee's hand Hwanee's hands are so big... and his hands are long and skinny.. and really pretty... pretty....... ............... "ah.. Ahjumma where am i??' i rubbed my eyes as i woke up.. when Hwanee was next to me. "where am i?" "hospital. where else?" "ah..." "ey. be careful... your blood might burst." "huh?? okay.." i was still holding onto Hwanee's hand. ............. "ah.. sorry." "its okay.. but why are you sleeping here??" ­JinHwan­ "huh?? no..uh.. it just.. got like that." "you're stupid.. why did you have to follow me???" "i dont know.. i didnt even know i did that.." "next time dont do that!!!" "i got it.." i sat with him on the same bed and ate breakfast. "spinach... bean soup.. cabbage.. and whats this?? how do they expect me to eat this??" "still, you have to eat it.." "no.." Hwanee suddenly got up and went outside... "where are you going??" "to buy something to eat." "you cant.. the nurse said to eat this.." "i dont want to.. how can i eat that?" he looks mushesuh even in a patient's gown... "then.. then lets go eat together." "what???" together, we went to the restraurant underground. "sushi. Ddukbokgi... noodles.. and.. udong.." "sure.." ­waitress­ "why are you ordering so much??" "its okay. you'll eat it all.." . ^ sure i'll eat everything.. we both ate a bowl of noodles each.. and went back to the hospital room. on my right... and on his left side of his head had bandages it must look funny. we looked at each other, saying the other looked weirder.. no you look weirder.. we went up like that. i opened the door and was going in when.. Kim Ji Min.. was there. "...........why did you come??" Hwanee became scary. "Hwanee." "leave.." Hwanee said cold­heartedly, pointing toward the door... "Hwanee!!!" "i dont want to see you right now.. so.. leave. hurry." "Hwanee!!! im sorry..." "starting now, i dont care if you sell or dont sell your body.. never again am i gonna do that crazy thing i did yesterday.. im not even gonna meet you from now on." so please leave..." "Hwanee!! im sorry.." Ji Min was crying. shes so evil.. yesterday.. because of her Hwanee is like this.. "Hwanee." Hwanee dragged her out and locked the door.. "..............." isnt that too much?? i thought its good he did that though.. "oh yea." ­me, remembering­ "what??" "my phone.. that girl has it." "what?? stupid." Hwanee quickly opened the door and went out. "ey.. give back the phone." "what phone??" "Han Yeh Won's.." "i dont have it." "fawk hurry, give it. why should you have it?? i bought it for my wife.." Ji Min glared at Hwanee with devilish eyes.. Kim Ji Min took out my phone from her purse.. "huh?? ey. thats mine." Kim Ji Min glared at me. and she threw my phone on the floor "Kim Ji Min.. are you crazy?? do you wanna die!!!" Hwanee suddenly became furious. "my phone.." i went toward my phone.. my phone broke in two pieces... . i havent even used it once.. "fawk.. Kim Ji Min come here.." "i'll come back." "f#ck i said to come here!!!" people in the hallway turned to look at Hwanee. "..............." i got my phone and pulled Hwanee inside. 1 hour passed but hes still angry. that evil b#tch, Kim Ji Min.. hoe.. . ^ come back.. but know that the same thing will happen to your head.. . "Hwanee.. let go of your anger." "that mother f#er.. come back again.. i'll beat her..." >0< why is there so much difference between what im saying and what hes saying? "its okay.. its fine.. we're gonna be here together.. ^^" "................." Hwanee looked at me, dumfounded "fawk do you know how expensive that is.. . ^" Hwanee yelled. but i have nothing to say.... ......................... .......... Ahjumma came carrying a huge package. "Ummah whats up??" "i didnt know when you guys were gonna leave the hospital. so here are your private things.. and things for you guys to play with." "Ahjumma , " "you wanted me to be gone that much??" ­Hwanee­ "Hwanee. i was only looking out for you. so you guys have fun together.. tomorrow.. i'll come again." laughing, Ahjumma opened the door and went out. "Ahjumma!!" not even 5 minutes.. and she left is Jin Hwan, that jerk, really Ahjummah's son?? Hwanee and i ran toward the package and opened it. its seriously the best.. cards.. gameboy.. a labtop.. mp3 player­ there was everything we could ever want. hwak. i grabbed the labtop and he grabbed the cards "put it down." ­Jin Hwan ordered­ "no." "put it down.!!" "i have to see something right now.." "ey.. give it to me. cuz its my labtop." "ey!! are you gonna be so rude??" Hwanee took the labtop from me and sat on the bed.. . ^ "ey. are you gonna play or not??" "................" "no?? fine then.. i'll just play by myself." "im gonna. who said i wasnt?" because i was bored.. i went to his bed. and played a card game. the loser had to get hit by the winner. kekeke we played 3 rounds. and i won all of them.. his forhead was bright red. but he kept on wanting to play. 5:0.. "ey no more.. your forehead's on fire.." "its fine.. hurry.." im a little off.. i think im gonna lose. and i eventually lost. its still 5:1... "ey. im gonna do it. forehead.. (he shook his finger)" he pushed back my bangs. "ey. be gentle." "close your eyes. clench your teeth." "ey be gentle.." ">0<" Puk. "ow... ey.. who said you could hit with your fist?" "i did.. ey im tired. lets turn off the lights and sleep." "Ey!!! you cowardly jerk.. what do you think you're doing? we have to finish the game fair and square.. you bastard!!!" "EY!! @@ Han Yeh Won do you want to die?" " . ^" i quietly turned off the lights and lied on my bed. my forehead is still hurting. but did i curse a bit too much?? .^ .......................................... since hes not making any noise.. he must be asleep already.. . aigoo im exhaused... . i soon fell asleep. .. 33. "owww.. . ^" right now its 9.. at the hospital.. Jin Hwan should get hit.. i wasn't paying attention so i got hit instead.. . that was the situation... but still im happy that i dont have to go to school... . ^ its already 9.. but that jerk's still in dreamland.. but why am i so hungry?? "ey.. ey.. wake up!!! EY!!!!" "........................" . ^ like a bum, i went downstairs to the market. "Ahjumma!! i want that.." "its $3.50.." "here." i sat down and ate all my crackers.. i carried an icecream cone in each hand and was humming as i went back upstairs. i was opening the door when.. that guy seems to be awake. he was sitting dumfoundedly "ey ey!!! i bought ice cream..^^ one for you too^^" " . ^ " Hwanee gave no answer.. i went to him.. Jin Hwan was sitting and sleeping.. . ^ how interesting.. i touched the ice cream to his cheek and he suddenly awoke.. " . ^ whats this!!! you scared me.." "^0^ here. eat.." "i dont want ice cream.." "why?? i bought you one too." "i said i dont want it.. you eat it all by yourself.." . that bastard pulled the covers over his head and layed back down.. . ^ bored, i sat down by myself and played a vidoe game. knock knock.. "who can that be? come in!!!" "is Yeh Won.. Yeh Won!!!!!!" surprised, Eun Jin came toward me.. . 6 "cough cough.. i cant breathe.. . ^" "how did this happen?? what bastard did this?? what bastard!!!" "huh??? no it just." "who made your head like this?? i'll kill him.. who is it!!!! hurry.." "uh. that is.." "ah fawk its so loud i cant sleep!!!!" .^ "sor. sorry." shocked, Eun Jin's eyes became round.. she looks very surprised.. keke "ey!!! you're Jin Hwan right?" "and you're.." "yea im Eun Jin.^^" "who??" kekeke. in one second Eun Jin became completely baffled!! "ey!! you dont know me?? remember at that club.." "oh!!! JJok Sae hyung nim's wife!!" [* hyung nim refers to a guy that is older] "yea, you jerk!! but what happened to you???" "fawk i dont know.." those two know each other?? they look like they're friends.. "did you make Yeh Won like this?? you did huh??" "fawk shut up.. you're too loud.. you're overreacting.,!!! its Jjok Sae hyung nim so i accepted you.. if it was a different guy.. i wouldnt even have noticed you.. is your body nice?? is your face pretty?? or are you rich.. or smart??" "ey!! are you finished?" "shut up.. so loud." Hwanee covered his ears and laid back down.. keke hes so cute. but they dont look like friends anymore.. it looks like they really despise each other.. "Yeh Won.. how did you end up with a guy like that as your room mate. i'll come visit everyday and protect you." "ey!! what are you saying..!! dont visit again!! im gonna lock the doors." "shut up you bastard." ­Eun Jin­ "who are you to talk.." "st.. stop!!! but Eun Jin! what about school??" "school?? . ^ i told them i was visiting the hospital.. ^^" "ey. you.. really...." Eun Jin fought with Hwanee a long time before she left.. it became quiet. but since Eun Jin left. theres nothing to do.. ". ..........." ................... 30 minutes progressed.. both of us didnt say anything.. "� ".............. 1 hour passed.. still no one said anything it really seems like a big room..but im so annoyed.. i feel like its so small though.. . Hwanee abruptly got up... and threw on a jacket before going outside. i nimbly went next to him and asked. "where are you going??" "why do you care??" " . ^ j.. just.." "cuz i was annoyed.." its the first time he and i thought the same thing!!! "lets go together.. wait." i hurriedly went inside the room to get a jacket and followed him outside. street.. people looked at us like we were mental patients.. . but it feels like i havent been outside in years.. ^^ we ate this and that and just hung around. for the first time, he treated me nicely. "ey!! lets take pictures..!!" ­me­ "sticker pictures?? i dont want to." "lets take." "no.. take it by yourself." "lets take pictures.." "ah! sh#t.." okay.. cheese.. on the count of 3.. 1... 2....3. click. when our faces showed up on the screen.. i thought i was gonna die from laughing. we were wearing patient clothes.. cheese.. ekekke "ey. what should i write on here?? Hwanee and Yeh Won.." ­me­ "shut up.. how tacky.." and he wrote something himself. it looks like he did this many times.. "ey!! whats this?? 'mental patients escaping'?? ey.. write something else.." just like that, he chose it.. "ey!! what is this?" the picture came out.. the two of us were grabbing our stomaches and laughing­ me and Hwanee.. . ^ . ^ its really funny.. seriously.. looks like we're mental patients that escaped... Hwanee laughed like it was the funniest thing.. . ^ mental patients escaping.. if you think about it, it could be true.. . ^ 34. he and i looked at our picture and kept giggling as we walked into our hospital room. that jerk is laughing like crazy... "ey.. look at this.. its a frkn piece of art..." the door was opening when.. Kim Ji Min and Min Jae were inside. Min Jae quietly looked at me. Hwanee took one look at Ji Min and went to her as if he was going to kill her. "Ey.. why did you come here.. i told you specifically that if you came here again, you had to be prepared­ i gave you a warning.." Kim Ji Min tossed a shopping bag on the bed. "i bought it. i bought the same exact one.." its my phone.. *^^* "now leave.." "ey.. isnt it okay since i bought it?" "ey.. why arent you leaving!!!" "no. i dont want to." Kim Ji Min didnt want to leave so she resisted. "ah.. hey.. Min Jae??" such an awkward greeting... " did something happen?? with Yoo Bin??" "huh??" those two people became quiet all of a sudden.. everyone looked at me and Min Jae. "i said did anything happen with Yoo Bin??" "why??" "Yoo Bin hasnt been coming to school.. and he's been drinking with girls lately.. hes not in his right mind.. somethings wrong.." ".... it has nothing to do with me." "it does have something to do with you.. its because of you.. he's really silent these days.. it's happening again." "............." "hurry and go to that bastard.. that jerk needs you.. hes probably crying and waiting for you right now!!!" "im sorry.. Min Jae.. i want to rest.." Min Jae slowly opened his mouth.. ".. that bastard.. has been ill ever since he was little.. its kind of like depression. he thinks no one believes in him and everyone hates him.. its an incurable disease.. not curable.. i dont know how he became like that.." "..............." "because of that, he tried to commit suicide when he was young. what is there to be afraid of now?? that bastard?? i really think he will kill someone.." "what??" "you still dont know?? that bastard.. that bastard.. hes psycho.. hes mentally ill.. only you can block Yoo Bin. that bastard.. that bastard... again.. " "Min Jae!! Yoo Bin.. where Yoo Bin?? wheres YooBin?!!??" Min Jae took a piece of paper out of his pocket and handed it to me. i grasped the paper and opened the hospital door. "Han Yeh Won.. Han Yeh Won!!!" Hwanee is calling me. "...." "dont go!! dont go to that jerk.." "Im sorry.. Hwanee.. if its me or nobody.. i have to save someone.." "Han Yeh Won.." "i'll come back.." i left the hospital room. please dont let anything happen.. please. ............................................ ===================================== ===================== (inside the hospital room) Min Jae. Ji Min. Hwanee.. those three are left. Dumfounded Hwanee. "let go of Yeh Won.." _ Min Jae_ "who are you to say that?" "let go of Yeh Won. you know... about Yoo Bin. Yoo Bin needs Yeh Won right now.. there's no one who knows better than you." "I need Han Yeh Won too.." "Jin Hwan!!! you. you know too." "no. what do i know?? i dont know anything." "Because of Yoo Bin and Yeh Won. i decided to move on.. no, i tried very hard to forget her!!!!" ­Min Jae­ "its just didnt work out for you. im not you.." ".... send her to Yoo Bin!!! no.. theres no other way." "shut up.. shut up right now!!!" "....let her go. that way, its less painful for you.. Yeh Won will feel more comfortable too.." like that, Min Jae left. .................. Hwanee and Ji Min are left in the room.... .................. Hwanee...... doesnt look like hes completely sane. "Hwanee... whatare you going to do??" "about what??" "Han Yeh Won.. what are you gonna do?" "what do you mean what am i gonna do?? she said she would come back to me.." "does that even make sense to you?? im sure. she'll go to Han Yoo Bin and abandon you.. Han Yoo Bin.. Han Yeh Won.. she's gonna go to Han Yoo Bin.. so.. just let her go.." "who's the one who said she would return?? Kim Ji Min. you should shut up too.. hurry.. get out of my sight!!!" "Hwanee.. dont be stubborn!! you know Yoo Bin all too well." "shut up.. if you dont want to die.." "fine.. what if what if.. Han Yeh Won. what are you gonna do when she goes to Yoo Bin and doesnt come back to you??" ".............im gonna steal her back.." "what??" "i said i'll steal her back.. i'll get her back.. whether she goes to hell or another world, i'll follow her.. and steal her back.. im gonna get her back!!!" ".... i cant believe those words are coming out of your mouth... its really... really.. funny... right??" ".... shes coming back. im positive shes coming back.." A tear fell on Ji Min's cheek. "if you're like that to Han Yeh Won.. how come you didnt do that to me?? if you did to me just half the way you do Han Yeh Won.. i would have returned to you!!!" "i want to be by myself.." "fine.. fine.. try stealing her back.." "......................" and Ji Min left Hwanee alone.. 35. exactly where am i going right now? i rode a taxi.. and was running in my patient's gown a motel in In Chun. "hoo......" so Yoo Bin is here? i hesitated for a long time before going inside. right then. "lady.. you have to get a room first!!!" "theres someone i have to meet.' "who??" after turning page after page, he asked me "Ha.. Han Yoo Bin. the Han Yoo Bin in room 306. the mister lifted his eyeglasses and looked at me. "no.. you cant go.." "mister.. i really have to meet him.. if i dont go.. you dont know what will happen.. do you want bad things to happen to your business!!!!" what is he doing, when i am in such a hurry??... "go.." after a long pause, the man said. i dashed up the stairs. "room 306. 306...." room 306... . ^ *knock knock* .........................i dont hear anything. *knock knock* i opened the door. inside the room, i smelled the strong aroma of cigarrettes and alcohol..... the air didnt even circulate in this place.. "cough cough.. Yoo BIn!! Han Yoo Bin.." the room was quiet... the first thing i did was open the windows.. and turn on the lights. sitting in front of the bed, with mournful eyes was Yoo Bin the room was loitered with beer bottles.. cigarrettes.. "Yoo Bin! Yoo BIn!! wake up. its me.. Yeh Won!!" Yoo Bin glared at me his eyes dont seem like human eyes... "why did you come?? go.. dont come near me!!! i dont know what i will do..." Yoo Bin pushed me away.... "Yoo Bin!!.. im sorry.. im sorry.. im so sorry for not trusting you.. im sorry." "Han Yeh Won.. you.. you...." Yoo Bin was close to sobbing "Yoo Bin @@@ i was wrong.. i made a mistake.." like him, i started to cry "why was i born? im not happy at all. and i dont have fun.. theres nothing but death waiting for me in my head..." "why are you saying that?? theres so many more days you're alive..." "..........no.. i want to die.. but.. but.. i want to die but things dont go my way.. i couldnt die if i wanted to.. i cant do anything." "Yoo Bin!!" i pulled Yoo Bin into a hug. Yoo Bin's cold body.. he doesnt feel alive... "Yoo Bin..." we stayed like this for a few minutes.. i held Yoo Bin's hand.. as we walked down a long road Yoo Bin came back to his senses... "Yoo Bin!!! tomorow you have to go to school." "............. why are you wearing a dressing gown??" "huh?? ah. its just." "and why is your head like that??' Yoo Bin looked concerned as he examined my head. he definitely seems so kind.. so kind... "no.. i fell.." "how stupid." "^^ next time dont say that you want to die!!! and you do so well in school.. i thought you were worst than me.. " "........................." "thats why i was so confident.. help me on the next test.. ^^" "i'll solve all the problems for you. ^^" Huk... i was just kidding. "hey. take care.." "okay.." I ushered Yoo Bin into a taxi and headed to the hospital. ....today was a really tiring day. ......... ...... in front of the hospital room. i feel apprehensive about going inside... what if Hwanee is really mad... . ^ "Hwanee!!im back ... ^^" a very strong aroma of flowers came from inside the hospital room... in Hwanee's seat were flowers.. fruit.. and stacks of comic books.. it looks like Hwanee's friends visited. "Hwanee!! your friends came?" ................. "did that bastard beg you to stay with him?? did he say he was gonna do suicide again??" "why.. why are you saying that?? . ^ " "why.. am i too harsh??" "Hwanee!!!" Hwanee quietly lied down.. .... dawn.... i cant fall asleep.. the hospital room is so quiet.. "ey!! are you sleeping??" it was difficult for me to start talking. "shut up." so hes not sleeping. ^^ i ran toward his side. "ey. you're mad, arent you!!! i came back didnt i? why is a guy's heart so small.." "shut up. did you see inside of me??" "ey.. dont be mad anymore." with my two hands, i rubbed his cheeks. becoming angry, he suddenly stood up... "ey.. you wanna die??" he said and he hit my head "ow!!! ey where are you hitting??" "fawk you're the one that touched my face first.." " . ^ you hit my head cuz of that??" "if you dont like it, dont touch me.." i was in so much pain, i just turned off the lights and went to sleep.. tears are starting to come out.. it really hurts.. evil bastard.. i should just punch him!! .... when i woke up.. it was 10 :30.. i was rubbing my eyes as i woke up when.. he wasnt in his seat. "where did he go? ey? where are you? in the bathroom??" hes not in the bathroom.. i asked the nurse "Unnie!! do you know.. Jin Hwan.. do you know where he went?" oh she wouldnt know if i ask her like that!! "that cute kid?.. oh he went to get his bandages removed.." "bandages?? how about me?" "Yeh Won?? Yeh Won is scheduled for the day after tomorrow." "the day after tomorrow? why am i the day after tomorrow?" "it just happened that way. ^^." "Unnie. why only that jerk.." right then "ey. Han Yeh Won.. what are you doing there?" that guy really did take off his bandages.. . ^ im jealous... i want to hurry and take off these annoying bandages. i cant even wash my hair. "ey.. why did you get to take off your bandages??" "how should i know?? ask the Ahjumma nurse in front of you..!!!" "what??" the Nurse unnie glared at Hwanee. he is so tactless.. . ^ he should be careful of what he says. � ^ it just makes me uncomfortable.. "ah.. ah. that jerk is usually like that." i explained as i dragged that guy inside the room. seriously.. seriously.. "hoo...." "ey.. whats wrong with you??" "oh yea. that Ahjumma.. she gave me a shot.. shii... shes dead." "so why'd you do that??" *knock knock..* "who is it?? Yoo Bin!!" "Yeh Won!!!" Hwanee's face suddenly scowled... Yoo Bin was holding a huge bouquet of flowers and a basket of fruit as he came inside. "Yoo Bin.. what.. whats up?" "im visiting a sick person!!" "what about school?" "i dont usually go to class." "why did you come??" Hwanee said bitingly. "huh?? Jin Hwans here too.. ^^ how funny.. you're wearing a patient's gown. Yeh Won looks pretty. but you look stupid.. ^^" Huk. he must be crazy.. Yoo Bin. "son of a ..." "^^" Yoo Bin!! no "hold on Hwanee!!" right then, that loud hall way... a large crowd came into the hospital room. its Hwanee's school friends.. . ^ "ey.. Hw anee!! we came again." "stupid, why'd you come?? i told you not to!!!" "why are you saying that.. (seeing Yoo Bin) but that bastard.. is that Han Yoo Bin?" "huh?? you're right. from Boo Ja. Han Yoo Bin... whats the reason for coming to see Hwanee's wife??" Huk.. what do i do?? the atmosphere suddenly be came weird... "ey. Han Yoo Bin. its been a frkn long time.. since i havent see you.. i thought you did suicide again.." .............no.... Yoo Bin looked slightly angry. "ey.. Hwanee's wife.. are you cheating on him??" "shut up.." Yoo Bin said. really, what do i do?? ... in this situation "Yoo BIn!! Yoo Bin.. lets go outside.. lets go talk outside!!" "...................." this scary and threatening atmosphere.. . ^ i want to leave this place.. Yoo Bin. Yoo Bin.. sitting on the bed, Hwanee glared at me with scary eyes. I dragged Yoo Bin outside.. ................. 37. "ah ah.. ^^ im.. im sorry.." "are you crazy??" he grabbed the firework i was holding and threw it far away.. . ^ hes really scary.. "i said.. im sorry." "ey. are you gonna say that after you kill someone too??" "sor. sorry.." dusting my clothes, i got up. he maddogged me and .. again, he just left.. . "ey. wait for me.." i lit the fireworks toward him. but i probably overdid it. one by one, the fireworks fell to the ground.. "ah shii. wait for me!!!!!!" the fireworks kept falling. "go with me.. . " i extinguished each of them.. i said i wanted to go together. suddenly i smelled that familiar scent.. . ^ that good, pleasant scent.. Hwanee came in front of me and helped me pick them up.. ^^ how helpful^0^ when hes like this, hes so kind... we picked them up.. and he left again.. "you're not gonna light them?? you're not gonna light fireworks??" "theyre all cooled down.." "what??" "never mind.. not today.. its cold.." " . ^ come on." "and im hungry.. make some food instead." "ey. am i your maid??? . ^ " "fine if you dont want to.. i can just eat out." he didnt look at me. "fine i will.. i will. so.. dont be mad anymore.. i really did fall asleep.. believe me..... . and i came as soon as i found out.." "...................." he stopped. looking slightly down, he glared at me.. "................" im kind of shocked.. . ^ "you. do you know how long i waited? you idiot!!!" "3.. 3 hours?? 4.. 4 hours?? . ^" "of the 18 years i've been living.. you're the first to come this late. this is the first time ive waited this long.. did you know that???" why is he putting me down.. if he says it nicely, will his mouth hurt?? "im.. im sorry.. ey. if i didnt come out, you should have come home.." huk.. did i say something wrong?? . "are you frkn kidding me?? come late again.. you'll die.. got it??" his voice is seriously loud.. . ^ thats why its so scary when hes mad... "ah.. i got it.." home.. he turned his music on loudly. and stayed in his room. "spicy.. ^0^;;" i was in the process of making kimchi fried rice... i just need to add salt and oil and then im done.. hoo.. it smells good. ^0^ "ey.. im done.. come out!!" ............. "i said im done.." he didnt say anything.. i went in front of his room. his door was slightly open and i saw that he was sprawled out on his bed.. . "......... ey.. im done.. youre not gonna eat.....????" he looks like he's in a deep sleep... hes flopped on the bed wearing the same clothes from earlier.. . ^ "..................." automatically, i sat next to him and looked at his face.. his white face.. large hands.. high nose.. those big eyes..and his small face and mouth.. .........i still cant believe... that this guy is my boyfriend.... hes so out of my league.. ...........................//// i stroked his face.. its so soft... >0< what do i do.. >< i feel like im becoming a pervurt.. . i quickly left the room why is my heart beating like this... it doesnt seem like my heart.. . ^ ................... so eventually Han Yeh Won becomes crazy.. crazy!!!!!!! the next morning.... ... this guy woke up earlier than i did... and he already changed too.. ........... "what are you looking at?" "huh?? no.. never mind." i hurriedly escaped into my room. my face is red.. and my heart is beating furiously... . ^ why is this suddenly happening? . . is there something wrong with me?? .............. i washed my face and didnt take one step out of my room. *boom boom* "ey. what are you doing?? your'e not going to school?" "huh?? you.. you go first.. im not ready yet." "fawk hurry and come out!!!!" "..............." did 15 minutes pass?? the house is quiet.. Ahjumma had already left.. did he leave? i opened the door and crawled out. but that jerk was sitting on the sofa.. .. "sh#t.. did you do something wrong??" "huh?? no. nothing like that.." "then why are you doing that?? do you like me??" Huk.. what kind of guy is that?. those kinds of words give me goosebumps.. and... doesnt he get annoyed? my hair was standing on end.. . "what­­am i crazy?" i put on my shoes first, and went outside.. the funnier thing is, my heart started beating faster after he said that.. is something the matter with me?? . ............. no. there are still many days left to live... i quickly ran to the bus stop. and waited but the bus didnt come.. . ^ i did get here a little bit late.. . im gonna get caught by the tardy police again... VRoOom...~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ screech!!* "................" its Jin Hwan... . having no choice, i got a ride from him to school. "............" "drive.. drive safely.." "ey!!!!" "huh??" "dont make it so obvious!!!" "what?" "that you like me.." vrooom~~~~~~ nodding and laughing, he left.. that guy.. . .. . ^ what the heck is he saying?? that i like you?? i like you?? his words kept replaying in my head... 'dont be so obvious! dont be so obvious!' "Yeh Won!!" "dont be so obvious!!!" "ehh??" i unintentionally concentrated too much on my thoughts... and i accidentally said it out loud.. without missing a single day, she came out to greet me.. Eun Jin.. ^^ "... whats wrong with you.. this morning. did you eat your medicine??" "ah. no!!!!" "you seem a little too sure about that.. what did Jin Hwan that jerk say to you?? . . ^ " "ah.. nothing!!.." "fine.. but why are you hitting me. it hurts like hell.. . ey!!! Yeh Won!! the festival is coming up.." "huh?? already?? its already time?" "what do you mean already?? i counted down to this day.." "you counted??" "my boyfriend said he would come.. i'll introduce you to him.. ^^ my boyfriend is frkn good looking.." "ah. that JJok Sae hyung nim guy?" [*JJok Sae is a bad nickname] "ey!! you're dead!!" "ah. okay okay.." our school started the festival one month and a few days after the beginning of school. the festival takes place in 2 days.. the first day is exhibition.... the next day is for reals.. each class presents something.. and there's a one day cafe... a contest.. and.. as the guest of honor, a celebrity might come.. ^0^ last time, a really popular singer 00 came... i wonder who will come this time.. . ^ .............. ............. in 3 days the festival will start. these three days are spent preparing for the festival.. all the classes will be busy preparing.. thats why our school is known for the best festival in Seoul.. if you say Boo Ja high school.. you think of a rich young gentleman... and the famous festival.. like that.. "ey.. Han Yeh Won and Eun Jin!! hurry and come inside" "huh?? okay.." everyone else was sitting at their desks... except us two.. . ^ "think of ideas for our class.. we're still contemplating.. anyone with a good idea raise your hand!!!" "me!! Romeo and Juliet.." "what!! so you can be Romeo??" kekeke "Cinderella.." "how come you guys only think of these things??" 30 minutes passed and we still didnt make a decision. aigoo.. this is dull. suddenly Han Yoo Bin stuck his hand straight in the air. everyone turned to look at Yoo Bin.. all their eyes are sparkling.. 0,.0 "i want to be Romeo!!!" the students were surprised... but gradually their eyes started to light up as they all realised the same thing.. jesus christ!!! Han Yoo Bin is.. i dont know when this moment will end... delighted, the class president decided on Romeo and Juliet. � aigoo i have no interest at all... im bored to death.. . im not good at those things.. i should.. just volunteer for a small role . "then Romeo will obviously be the best looking guy in our class.. Yoo Bin.. anyone object???" the guys looked slightly disappointed but. the girls seemed to like that idea a lot.. "then we need a partner for Yoo Bin.. we need a Juliet. who wants to be her??!!!" each girl observed the others and raised her hand. except for me.. even Eun Jin raised her hand.. . "put your hands down!!!" Yoo bin yellled!!! "why??" "im. gonna do it with Han Yeh Won!!!" what?? why did my name come up?? why?? everyone gaped at me. "Han Yoo Bin.. whats wrong with you??" "im. gonna do it with Han Yeh Won!!! if i dont, i refuse to be Romeo.. . &!!" 38. in the end, he became Romeo.. and i became Juliet.. this seems like such a long time ago.. . but there was a smile on Han Yoo Bin's face.. � . Hwanee can never know about this.. never.. cuz he will not leave me alone for sure.. for 3 days we got our costumes ready and scripts memorized.. we worked hard... ******************** the festival day.............. ... there were so many kids from the other schools... almost half the people were from other schools... "......................" whenever i saw kids from Jo Young Gong.. i checked to see if Hwanee was among them.. ........ " . ^ whats wrong with you??" "huh?? uh.. Eun Jin.." "ey. you still didnt put on any makeup.." "what happens if Hwanee sees me??" "dont worry!! who cares if he sees you??" ".. you dont know how mad he gets..." "you have a lot of stressful problems!! thats why you already have wrinkles around your eyes..." " . ^ " i applied my makeup. and was looking around outside.. its so annoying to walk around like this... it was really a festive atmosphere... but why does the sky look so bleak... the kids from other schools are looking at me.. ................. shii.. how embarrassing.. "its cuz you're pretty..." ­kind Eun Jin­ "ey. dont even kidd around.." "really. you look really good with makeup. very pretty.." "you dont have to say that.. but theres so many girls from other schools..." "you know the reason?" "what??" "the girls from the other schools.. do you know why they come to our school??" "why did they come??" "dont you know that they came to see Han Yoo Bin and Won Min Jae??? funny huh." "really?? hmm.. i guess so.." "and since Han Yoo Bin's from our class... you'll probably get dirty looks... " " . ^ " "dont worry.. i'll protect you.. ^^ huh?? Oppa.." she stuck her head out.. and Eun Jin ran somewhere... . and Eun Jin came back.. bringing a guy with her. "........who is that??" "my oppa!!!" "ah.. that Jjok Sae hyung...... hyung... hyung... ^^;;" i have to be careful.. be careful of what im saying.. "Oppa. shes the girl i told you about!!" "its nice to finally meet you!!!" "oh. yes.. ^^" wow. go Eun Jin!!! going out with a guy like that.. . ^ hes good looking. to tell the truth.. and.. his height.. his broad shoulders... sometimes when i look at him.. he reminds me of a gangster... . ^ "Oppa.. shes the girl thats with Hwanee!!" "ah!! oh thats who she is." he acted like he knew me... . ^ "^^" "you're going out with Hwanee??" "huh?? yea.." "why are you with that jerk?? you'll probably cry.. all the girls know this but they say they like him and follow him around.." "i see.. ^^;;" "Oppa whats wrong with you?? their love is still growing . ^ and that Jin Hwan jerk treats Yeh Won very nicely.." "in a little bit, Hwanee's coming..." "really?????" "of course hes coming.. everyone from our school is coming.." ".............." "what.. what do i do?" right then, a crowd of Jo Young Gong go kids came through the school gate... Hwanee stood out from the group. to my horror, those kids pointed to Jjok Sae hyung nim and headed this way. "................" and one guy from Jo Young Gong go took one look at Jjok Sae hyung nim and seemed surprised and came toward me. "oh. what do i do? Eun Jin!! Eun Jin!!!" Eun Jin was standing proudly next to Jjok Sae hyung nim... Hwanee kept looking at me while he came closer.. . "..............." "hello..." all the kids bowed to Jjok Sae hyung nim. it was really a 90 degree angle... Hwanee even bowed.. but as if his back hurt, he barely nodded his head.. . ^ he really stands out... "Jin Hwan!!! this girl is your wife?" i made eye contact with Hwanee. ah.. how embarrassing.. im wearing this.. and makeup too.. . ^ he looked at me for a long time. "yea.." "really?? ^^:; when did your taste in girls change??" ".............." "well good luck.. i'll leave you two alone.. i'll see you around. Eun Jin's friend!!" "ah. okay^^" and the JJok Sae hyung nim took Eun Jin somewhere. Hwanee stuck his hands in his pocket as he came to me.. . ^ "ey.. why are you wearing that??" "huh?? ah.. ah.. but why did you come here?" "what do you mean why... ?? i came to see someone!!!" "who??" "who do you think?? i came to see you." "what??" Huk. how can this be.. how can this be.. 39. 30 minutes after.. classrooms began competing in the talent show. the time for our class to present came closer... i was shaking so much.. Hwanee will probably be in front of the stage. and he'll glare furiously at me for sure.. "okay. Now the class who's presenting Romeo and Juliet.. please come forward." Yoo Bin grabbed my hand and dragged me. "Yoo.. Yoo Bin..my clothes.." "huh?? oh.. be careful.. ^^." our class went up onstage, bowed, and presented a short reenactment... the people in charge of lights kept shining the spotlight on me.. i was so nervous.. it was such a relief i couldnt see anyone's face.. . ^ after our presentation... i was coming off the stage when.. Hwanee was at the entrance... "Hwanee." "do you have something else to do??" "huh?? no.. no.." Hwanee grabbed my hand and pulled me somewhere.. Yoo Bin.. Yoo Bin was there.. "where are you going??" right then... a few rain drops splattered to the ground.... and just a few minutes later... it started pouring is this how our festival is ending?? . ^ my heart became uneasy and impatient... "uh. what do we do?" People were going crazy, trying to avoid the rain.. "ey.. come here." yea i think the festival will end right about now.. to avoid the rain.. we stayed under the shelter of a tent. ".. shhiii... my clothes are all wet.. what should i do??" for a long time... Hwanee mad dogged me... "what? is there something on my face?" ".............." "whats wrong with you??' "..... did you put on makeup??.............." "huh? a­ a little. is it weird?? is it really weird?? what do i do?? makeup gets wet huh? Ey!! ey!! whats wrong with you??" he grabbed my hand and kissed me, not on the cheeks but on my lips.... his strength is no joke.. i couldnt pull myself away.. he's like a crazy dog. why is he doing this all of a sudden?? . ^ "................." .................. his kissing skills arent ordinary... it makes me feel almost­­ obligated.. but of course. he must have done this a lot......... "EY!!!!!!!! ah!!!" he stopped kissing.. Hwanee looked at me dumfoundedly. "ey!! are you crazy?? whats wrong with you???" ­me­­ Hwak.. that jerk hugged me again.. "ey.. ey.. i cant breathe..." "just a minute.. just a minute..... Han Yeh Won.. im strange right now.. hold this.. hold this.. here.." "what???" "... i think im broken........" "what are you saying?" "you dont hear something weird?? when i was kissing you. why was i so nervous?? why do you look pretty all of a sudden?? am i going blind??? this never happened when i was going out with other girls." his expression looked slightly crazy.. he doesnt look like hes in his right mind.. a few drops of water fell from his hair. "Han Yeh Won!!!" "yea.. what??" suddenly grabbing his hair, he kicked a nearby trashcan. that trashcan really flew... "fawk its so weird!!! i feel stupid.. arg so annoying!!!" for the first time in his life, he cursed and walked around and around. he kicked this and that..... he must be crazy... "Hwan.. Hwanee!!!" "dont call my name!!!!" "huh????" getting wet, Hwanee left through the entrance.... whats wrong?? seriously, whats wrong?? and he didnt come back... it was raining on the day of our first kiss... to tell the truth, it kind of hurt... although it wasnt too bad... but Hwanee was really strange today. i got soaked as i rode the bus home... he was already there when i arrived.. "..........ey!! Hwanee!!!" can he not hear me because of his loud music?? "ahjumma!! Ahjumma!!" the dark room... "Ahjumma!!" Ahjumma's not home.. but there was a white piece of paper laying on the floor.. "a copy of a family tree???.........." i placed the paper on top and left.. ........... i took a shower, changed my clothes, and was brushing my teeth when. Click. did Hwanee get out of his room?? . ^ PAk. "you scared me!!! ey. knock next time!!!!" "Han Yeh Won!!!" "huh??" "am i crazy?? im crazy right?" seriously, why is he so weird today? whats wrong?? its scary.. Ahjumma isnt even home. is she gonna come home late??? . ^ 40. "Han YEh Won!!" "huh??" "am i crazy?? im crazy right?" " what are you saying all of a sudden??" "come here.." "huh?? why??" i went to him. Hwak. he hugged me tightly. "ey. whats wrong with you today??" he pushed me toward a wall. hes really scary... why is he doing this?? seriously, why is he doing this?? "ey.. whats wrong with you?? whats wrong??" "do you want to go out with me, for reals?" "what??" "you dont want to??" "what are you saying? we werent going out before??" "before i didnt really like you.. really.. really.. lets do this right this time.." "..............." "i'll only look at you.. and you wont even glance at another guy.. thats all i want. what you do doesnt matter.." "..............." ....................... i didnt say anything as i left but.. Hwanee is strange today. ......... starting from the moment i came down from the stage... did he change because he saw me on stage?? >0< no probably not.. . ^ i think im going crazy cuz of this idiot.. .... the next morning.... he was already ready to go. "you woke up already??" "yea..........' ////////////////// "lets go.." "my mom didnt come home.. today.." "huh?? really? i didnt know.." Hwanee quietly opened the bedroom door and went inside.. "why? she didnt come home??" Hwanee was looking at the paper i saw before. "what?? ey!! thats Ahjummah's. why are you looking at it without her permission??" "Han Yeh Won.. go by yourself today.. by yourself.. im sorry.." did i see wrong?? i was positive i saw tears forming in Hwanee's eyes. "where are you going?? Hwanee!!" he didnt even take his bag.. he just took the paper and went outside. i went outside too... Hwanee was already going down the building. "Hwanee!! Hwanee!!" ShOoOng. Hwanee didnt even look at me as he drove off on his motorcycle!!! "Taxi.. TAXI!!! ­­­­­­­­­ mister. follow that motorcycle please.." Hwanee maneuvered through the alleys. its really risky... ... please. be careful. be careful. "is that person crazy?? is he a gangster?" "huh?? ah.. no..." "he's trying to die isnt he. kids.." "huh?" the place Hwanee stopped is the broadcasting station Ahjumma works at.. "thank you.." i followed Hwanee. "............." Hwanee go in an elevator and left without me again!!! .......... ......... i flew up the stairs you dont know how much my legs hurt.. "............." .............. its really noisy... "student.. student.. you cant.." "its Hwanee.. Hwanee!!!!" "i said to shut up!! shut up.. Jin Mi Yun.. come out.. tell Jin Mi Yun to come out!!!!! Hurry!! let go!! i said let go!!!!" "Hwanee!!" i couldnt go to him.. i was too.. too scared... he's been angry at me.. and at Yoo Bin before but.. its the first time ive seen him this crazy with rage. "................Ahjumma!!" Ahjumma came out. wearing the same clothes she had on yesterday.. "Hwanee!! mister. thats my son.." "huh?? boss.. hes your son??.." "yes....." "ah.. really? i thought he was...." "will you please let him down??" scary Ahjumma!!! the men lowered him down. "Hwanee.. why did you come here?? is it because i didnt come home today?? ^^ is that why you came?" "dont laugh!! its distgusting.. i said it annoys me.." the sight of Hwanee crying.. he was in that much pain.. the sight of him crying.. its my first time seeing that. "Hwanee!!!" "how did this happen?? WHAT IS THIS!!!" he showed her the paper.. Ahjumma, extremely surprised, dropped the mug of coffee she was holding. "........... Ah.. Ahjumma!!!" "im sorry..." "HOW DID THIS HAPPEN!!! WHY ME.. WHY ME!!!!!!" "...................." Ahjumma is crying!!! "im sorry.. im sorry.." "dont cry!!! explain, not cry!!! why me.. why am i that bastard's son. i said to explain..." "Hwanee!!! forgive, forgive me.." i went to Hwanee and held onto his arm. "Hwanee!! Hwanee!! why is Ahjumma like that?? you shouldnt do this.." "let go!! go away.. i said to go away.." Hwanee pushed me away.. Hwanee.. is strange.. its like hes losing his mind... its so scary. why am i crying?? "Ahjumm!!! Hwanee!! whats wrong??" "im gonna confirm it myself.. how this happened!!! im gonna go confirm it." "Hwanee!! Hwanee!!" Hwanee kicked the door as he went downstairs.. "Ahjumma.. are you okay?" "Hwanee. My Hwanee.. stop Hwanee!! Yeh Won!! stop Hwanee." "huh??" she grabbed my shirt.. Ahjumma is crying and in pain!! "............." i followd Hwanee downstairs. ............ "Hwanee!! Hwanee!!" Hwanee left on his motorcycle.. and in that condition.. i dont know what will happen to him while hes in that condition.. "taxi!!!" Hwanee rode even crazier than he did before.. "Hwanee!!" this place is where the all the major corporations are in this country.. he got off his motorcycle and entered a building. "Hwanee.. Hwanee." "dont come!!" "Hwanee.. why are you doing this?? why?" "Han Yeh Won!! im begging you.. dont come!!" "Hwanee.. dont do this!! if you do. if you do this.." Hwanee went inside... ".................." "no.. he cant go inside.." a few men stopped Hwanee.. "Hwanee.. what's wrong?? Hwanee.." "Tell that Han Min Gi bastard to come down!! Han Min Gi.. where is he?" "is this person crazy?? hurry, call back up.." around 4 to 5 men blocked Hwanee.. "Hwanee!! mister. why are you hitting him!!! Hwanee. are you okay?" "Han MinGi.. tell that bastard to come down!!!!" ............ "why is it so noisy?" an important looking man wearing a suit said. "Ah.. boss, you've arrived!! just.. a crazy guy passing by.." "take him outside!!" "Ah.. yes.." ....... "HAn Mingi!! where are you going!! where do you think you're going?" that man turned to face Hwanee.. is that man Hwanee's dad?? "Jin Hwan!!! let go of him.." "huh???? yes sir...." placing the fallen hats back on their heads, the men went back to their former positions.. "..what do you want??" Hwanee went to that man. and threw the paper at him.. the man glared down.. and looked at that paper.. "how did this happen? how did this happen!!!!" Hwanee!!! "lets talk inside.. people are on their way home right now!!" "tell me right now.. how did this happen?" "hum.. its exactly the way you see it.. on that paper.. and in your blood.. you're my son.. as a matter of fact, i should take you right now.. whats wrong???.." Hwanee glared at the man... "who's your son!! who.. me?? enough jokes.." "this matter is finished with your mom.. in about 3 weeks.. or if it becomes late, 1 month.. im gonna come get you. just know that.. pack up.." "haha very funny!! who. who said." "lets go inside." Hwanee's dad left, with Hwanee and those men that dragged Hwanee.. There were tears in Hwanee's eyes. "Hwa. Hwanee!!" "........Han Yeh Won.." "huh?? " "i told you.. i told you not to come in here!!!" "s,, still.." "forget the person you saw here today.. forget everything up to this point.. what you heard, what you saw.. forget everything.." "................" a tear trailed down Hwanee's cheek. after seeing a distressed Hwanee. why did my heart start to hurt? how come i am so helpless??? 41. "kyaa..!!~~~~~~~~~~~" i'll probably break my neck too... this guy maneuvers his motorcycle so dangerously.. "EY!!!! im going crazy. EY EY!! JIN HWAN!! you jerk!! .. im gonna throw up on you.." does he not hear me?? right then SCREEECHH.............. Hwanee jerked to a halt... "KYAKK!!!! EY. its frkn scary.. whats wrong with you!! do you want to kill me, is that it?? cough cough." ".......did you do it?" "what.." "my motorcycle.. did you throw up on me. on my back.. aww shii.." "i didnt. you bastard.. is it your goal to kill someone? i dont really feel like dying right now. i said i dont want to die like this!!!!" "you dont like this?? then im leaving." "huh??EY!! Ey!! where are you going!!!!" i was standing in the heart of a highway... that guy did in fact, leave me here all alone... im all alone... crazy bastard.. what is he gonna do when i get abducted.. "ey!! Jin Hwan!! you evil bastard!!..ah sh#t." .......... .............. " . ^ evil bastard.. evil bastard.." hes really not coming.. hes not coming.. if you dont come when i count to 10.. im really really really really really.. gonna end things with you!! "One... twoo­...oooo... three.... four.. seriously not coming? five... six... ­­­­ ahem... you're really not coming? really.. if you dont come.. its the end of you and me... half of 9 1/2.. half of that half of that half of that... " half of that half of that half of that.. there was no end. because i dreaded counting to 10..... 15 minutes have already passed. "Fine. so you're really not gonna come right?? im going to count.. im counting. TEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you f#er.. thats it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" right then.. a lone figure walked through two towering trees... it was Jin Hwan.. "............." "ey. what are you doing there??" "you came?? you're the one that left me here!!!!" in the end.. he did come when i counted to ten.. im happy he came.. but the fact that he deserted me.. i was terrifed.. . "stupid.. thats why i came back!!" ".... why are you contradicting yoursef?? do you know how scared i was.. . . what if i got kidnapped!! what would you have done??" "thats why i returned. plus kidnappers do have eyes you know.. you dont have anything of value.. you look pathetic.. and not at all pretty.. who would want to kidnap you?!?!!!" shi... i feel like crap.. . ^ that guy can make any person feel this bad... what a skill... and lots of it too.. "..........but what happened to your motorcycle?" "i parked it." "where??" "geez, do you have to know everything??.." putting his hands in his pockets, Hwanee left once again.... "wait for me!!! where are you going!!" "why do you even have eyes?' i looked at the place Hwanee stopped at... "the ocean?? over there?? is the ocean...?? "..............." "reallY!!! i looove the beach.. and its been awhile, too..." "...........idiot......" " . ^ im telling the truth!! do you know how much i wanted to come to the beach.." .......... he stepped on the sand... and flopped into a sitting position. . ^ i dangled my feet in the water.. and found empty clams shells. "ey!! you should come here.. the water feels so refreshing!!!" "............" "EY!!!" can he not hear me?? what is he doing.. with his head bent low... hes engrossed in thought... .......i want to take a picture...... of him... of him right now... just like this.. horizontally.. no. maybe vertically... no. maybe a diamond??? hes so extremely good looking.. when hes not saying anything.. hes so mushesuh when hes motionless.. how sad.. to say that he looks the best when hes not speaking.. "........................" "ey!! stop posing.. and come play with me!!!" "^� � � � � � � � x » p ^" Jin Hwan looked at me and grinned sheepishly. "why are you smiling!! lets play." "keke your skirt turned around.... you call yourself a girl.. who would want to live with you.. i feel sorry for the person who ends up living with you!!!!!" " . ^ huh???" its true.. my pockets.. are all the way at my butt... my skirt.. did a full 180 degree turn. " . ^ theres a lot of people besides you. who want to live with me... . ^" i said, to save myself from utter embarrassment.. . ^ its so sad.. its pathetic. Han Yeh Won... when was your life more pathetic than right now?? "kekeke" ................. .......... i turned my skirt back and went to him... "........... look carefully..." i took out the clam shells i had in my pocket. and proudly displayed them on my palm... "no.. these are too small.. and this one is cracked.. . ^" with curious eyes , Hwanee stared at me. . ^ if you stare at me that hard.. everything becomes tense.. . ^ "huh? what are these for." three clam shells are left.... . ^ which one is the prettiest... "what???????" "no.. which one is the weirdest out of these three? i really cant tell..." a long time after... "this one.." ­he pointed­ "this one?? of course. you thought the same as me!! kekeke we have a connection!!!!" "its not even that funny!!!" its not?? fine Jin Hwan!! the god that gave his only son decided to give you a special talent!!!!!! you bastard!!!!!!!!!!!!! does it make you feel good to make others feel distgusted with themselves!??!!!! ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ i threw one clam shell away... and with the two that were left.. "okay.. this one's yours. this ones mine." "..............what are we gonna do with them?" "i read this in a book but.. you gather a lot of clam shells from the ocean.. and find two for two people.. the two prettiest shells throw the others away.. and then.. on the shell.. you write down the name of the person you like and throw the shell far far away.. if the two people write each other's names.. it is destiny that they will meet each other in the next life. ^^" "............. those are just superstitions.. superstition. . ^" "its true!!!!" "then..since its only you and me.. you write me.. i'll write you.. thats the only way right..." "huh??..... i dont know.. anyways just write.. j­ just.. i was just curious what kind of relationship you and i had.. . ^" why are there so many things he's curious about.. he should just do what i ordered him... "okay.." i took out two pens from my purse.. and gave one to Hwanee. "hurry.. ah.. write down the name of the person that first pops into your head!!!" "............" when i was going to write mine.. i heard a voice inside my head saying.. . Hwanee.. Hwanee.. i remembered the sight of Hwanee crying.. ............ 5 minutes later.. Hwanee looked at me.. "done??" "yea." "then go and throw it." "by myself?" "hold on.." i lowered my purse and walked with him... we threw our clam shells.. those clam shells flew far away.. ^^ well actually, they're kind of nearby.. "ey!! who did you write??" ­Hwanee­ ".............." "i said who did you write?" "who did you write?? ..^^" "dont worry!!!!! i didnt write you." suddenly it felt awkward. "you're not supposed to tell me.. then theres no purpose!!!!!" "liar.. theres no such thing as that.. sh­t. you didnt write me??? anyways.. its frkn annoying... annoying!!" what did i do?? on the sand. he layed down... he looks considerably annoyed... "what do i do since i missed school?? since the festival ended.. everyone is probably cleaning up....." ".............." Hwanne just continued gazing at the sky....... "..................................." ".................what are you looking at????.............." i layed down too.. the bright blue sky was not covered with any clouds... it must be because it rained yesterday... its clear and clean. the wind started blowing harder.. its starting to become chilly. i dont know if was the wind.. but the waves became stronger. "should i just go in and live?" "huh???" "with that person.. that bastard that abandoned my Ummah.. should i live with him??" "..............." why is he asking me that?? does he want to go?? i felt a lump in my throat. "you want to go?" "what do you think? if you were me.. would you want to live with the foulest person in the world???" "still he's your dad..." "dad??do i have one??? i didnt know.. kekeke... keke" ".......dont hate Ahjumma too much!!!" "i know.. my mom is a person to be pitied. that guy tried so hard to take me away before..." "you?? why??" "to take advantage of social welfare... and then he's probably going to abandon me like he did to my Ummah." "dont say that!!!.... why can you only think of those things!!!!" "because i saw it happen many times.." "........... so dont go!!! stay next to Ahjummah.." "dont you want me to leave?? you would probably feel better if i did.." right after he said that.. why does my heart feel like its breaking?? i want to tell him.. that what he's assuming is not true.. that its definitely not true.. "even if i didnt want to go.. he would do all sorts of things.. and i would eventually have to live with him.. because i am that bastard's son.." right after he spoke... why did my heart feel like its tearing?? i want to tell him. that its definitely not that.. 42. ".............................." "sh­t. i dont know.. im gonna sleep.. wake me up." and Hwanee closed his eyes. the wind is blowing.. what if he catches a cold? Bambararabambararara~~~~ Hwanee's phone, stuck in his pocket, started to ring. "..................ey.. ey.. your phone.." "................." i pulled out his phone and looked at the screen. it was Ahjumma. "Hwanee!! its Ahjumma!!! answer it." "hang up.." so he wasnt sleeping.. he should have at least said something............ "then im going to pick up..." i firmly pressed the SEND button. suddenly getting up, Hwanee stole the phone from me. "...............(dumfounded).........." "who told you to pick up???? i said to hang up!!!!" Hwanee was yelling at me... "then you should have picked up!!!! why didnt you!!! Ahjumma must be worried!!!" "..........what does that matter~~~~~" Bambarara Bambarara Hwanee's phone started to ring once again... Hwanee glared at me... and glancing at the screen, he hurled the phone in the direction of the ocean. "ey.. Jin Hwan.. are you CRAZY?? why are you throwing away an expensive phone!!!!" "ah sh_t.. be quiet.. let me sleep.." "ey @@ you.. are you.. really crazy??? what a waste." i went toward the spot Hwanee threw his phone... i gingerly stepped into the ocean.. its freezing.. "where is it?? where is it?? im positive he threw it somewhere over here.." ..................... ......i searched for a long time, but with no success... right then, i heard Hwanee's voice behind me... surprised at seeing me, he ran this way. "ey!! what are you doing?? arent you the one thats crazy?? do you know how strong the waves are right now?? hurry come out. if you dont want to drown. stupid!!! i said to come out!!!" "no.. let go!!! im gonna find it!!!" "idiot... i said to come out!!!" "no...." i bent down and continued seraching for that small phone. where is it!!!! "even if you drown.. im not going to save you.. no i cant save you.. why?? because i dont want to die.." that good for nothing boy... "who said i wanted to be saved by you??" right then.. wave met wave .... and covered my legs... half my skirt is wet... "what do i do.. m.m%" "i knew that would happen.. so.. hurry and come out." Hwanee grabbed onto my arm and pulled me. "no.. let go!!! im going to find it.." "ah.. you're so annoying..." again, i searched left and right for that phone. "im positive it's here somewhere..." "stupid!!! i didnt throw it over there.. i threw it alittle to the right.. you stupid!!! if you're gonna do something, you should do it right..." "ah.. really??" just like he directed me, i searched on my right.. even though i felt a little saddened because he called me stupid.. still.. im thankful he informed me.. ^^;; "ah sh_t.. ey!! even if you find it.. i probably cant even use it.. it's probably wet by now!! so come out.. i wont ask you to buy me a new one." ".. where is it??" i ignored him.. and kept looking for the phone. right then.. i saw something twinkle... i went toward it... it was a reflecting clam shell... i looked inside the shell. "did you find it??" Hwanee seemed a tad frustrated... "huh?? ah... not yet.." i turned the clam shell around..... inscribed on the surface.. was one word... scrawled on... "Han. Yeh.. Won..." it was. from before.... kekekek then that means Hwanee... and he said he didnt write my name.. ^^;; aigoo my stomach hurts.. why does my heart feel ten times lighter ???^^ "ey.. hurry and come out. the waves got stronger.. do you want to die?" "hold on.." the moment i lifted my foot and lowered it... some **** was beneath my foot.. � ^ "ow ow!!! whats this??" it was Hwanee's phone the phone was underneath my foot..... ...... "huh?? Hwanee!!! i found it!" "what?? you found it??" Hwanee came to me.. that moment, i hurriedly threw the clam shell far away.... [sohyun: lol­ prettttty slick =] ] and picked up the phone... shOoOOok~~~~~~~ CHAK.... the moment i was hiding the clam.. a wave plummeted me.. "HAN YEH WON!!!!" i heard Hwane's voice....... Hwanee is running towards me... "save me.." when i was about to be carried away. someone grabbed my arm. hard.... and so i was saved. "Crazy!!! ey!!! did you really want to die??" Hwanee was threatening me in his anger.. � ^ "i.. found it.. arent you proud??? ^^" my clothes.. my skirt.. even my hair.... im so cold i feel like im gonna die........ . why am i laughing in this kind of situation?? Hwanee kept mad dogging me. Hwanee's pants were were wet upto his knees. "why do you even live?" "huh??" "you're not pretty.. did you think you look pretty??" " � ^" "cant you speak a little nicer??" "dont try to act pretty.. then i'll respect you!!!" "fine.. im an idiot for expecting anything from you!!!" eventually, we rented a room from a motel near the beach. my wet blouse... my wet skirt!!! my wet hair.. in that state, we wented a room... Hwanee looks slightly angry.. because his pants keep sticking to his legs.. "ey!!! this phone doesnt work!!!" ­me­ "isnt that obvious?? stupid.. try using your brain for once!!!" " ,. ^ yea im sorry im a bit slow.." "you're an outcast right?? i can tell!!! do you think that's funny?? think of how other people would hate that" yea thats true... everytime i tried to be funny. Eun Jin hit me... she should just beat me up... is it really not that funny? "throw it away.. i can always buy another." "why would you do that?? you should just fix this one." "aigoo.... aigoo~~~!! how annoying.." � ^ Hwanee was sitting in the corner. but since my clothes were wet... my body started to shiver.. *shiver shiver*....... Hwanee kept looking at me. "take it off.." "what????" "i said to take off your clothes!!" "ey!! you wanna die?? do you think im that kind of girl?" "stupid!!! i said to take off your clothes.. before you get sick.." "its.. its fine.. i can stay like this." "ey.. want me to take them off for you?? you're cold, am i right?? you're freezing!!!" "ah.. im not cold.." "you're shaking!!! sh_t.... come here. im gonna take them off for you..." "its .. its okay!!!!" i denied strongly. he didnt give up.. Hwanee was coming near me!! "i'll.. i'll take it off.." ­i stammered­ "...... your choice.." Hwanee sat back in the corner. i said i would but. it's hard to carry out my words. why do i feel so uneasy?? how could i take off my clothes here. this is crazy.. i'd rather catch a cold and die!!! 43. but how can i take them off?? this is hard. if i go out and take them off, i cant come back in.... ......... Pak.. Hwanee threw a blanket at my head. "th.. thanks.." i covered myself with the blanket.. and took off my skirt.. and my blouse. "d.. dont look!!!!!" "im not.." "..........if you look im gonna scream!!!" "ey. theres nothing to see.." "� teacher said thats that pervurts say!!!" "ey!!! then am i a pervurt?? fine fine.. what is all this." "...... fine is fine, why are you getting mad??? .........." i ignored him.. and took off my clothes. i felt a little better. i was sitting, wrapped up in the blanket when.. what if he could see something?? i held my breath.. "ey. whats wrong with you?' "stupid!! dont misunderstand.. just go dry the clothes!!!" Hwanee left with my blouse and skirt.. "..................." .. was i too harsh?? after a long time.. Hwanee came back in. "..................." "sh_t........" "when are we.. we.. leaving!!" "early morning.." "ear.. early morning?? why??" "do you want to wear those cold clothes on my motorcycle?" "huh?? e.. even though.. Ahjumma must be woried.." "dont use my Ummah as an excuse!! im never going to touch you!!" "..........." i heard.. if a girl and a guy ... are in close spaces... its.. dangerous... Hwanee wont do anything, right?? right??? but why am i feeling so self­ conscious?? i looked at him. Hwanee had his eyes closed.. "ey!! ey!!!" "................" it looks like he fell asleep... with his chin resting on his knees... was he that exhausted?? i wrapped myself tightly in my blanket.. and laid him down. and covered him with a blanket.. (when he's asleep... he wouldnt have even noticed.. if someone took him away..) and i also. fell asleep. ..............PukPuk... "owow.. who's hitting me. save me. save me!! no.. owow!!" am i still dreaming???? my back really hurts.. whos doing what to my back... � "stupid!!!! wake up!!!!" "huh?? huh?? whats wrong with you?? im frkn sleepy." "do you even know where you are?? and look at yourself.. do you call yourself a person!!!" ^ "huh????? did.. did you see anything?? did you see me??" i quickly covered myself with the blanket.... "what is there to see?? everything is hidden.. hurry and get up!!!" "you really didnt see anything?" "are you gonna stay here all night? if you want to, why dont you??" "ah.. no!!!" i hurriedly hid myself under the blanket.. and after changing into my uniform, left the house.. the night is pitch black... i see the dark ocean in front of me... and hear the roaring waves.... "what time is it??" "3...." "3?? but?? you want to leave right now?? on your motorcycle?? can you do that??" "what other choice do i have??" its freezing outside... its probably cuz its near the ocean. i rubbed my body.. and began to walk when... Hwanee took off his jacket and handed it to me. "...............(dumfounded)" "wear it!! you're cold." ­he ordered­ "ah.. no no. im fine.. you're gonna get cold on the motorcycle!!!" "i said wear it.." "............." carelessly, Hwanee placed his jacket on for me... "..................." i kept looking at him. because it didnt seem like him.. it was so strange "what are you looking at?? hurry!!!!" .................... the road was very dark and quiet.. the streetlamps were not bright enough... we were walking as if a tiger was about to attack at any moment. "....................." (looking around nervously) "............what are you looking at???" "here.. its really scary.. if someone attacked us here.. no one would find out.. huh??" "ey!!! you sound like an idiot.. dont say that kind of stuff.. just follow me!!!!" ".................." shOoOook "kay!~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!! what do i do. what do i do!!!" i hurriedly entwined my arm in his and started shaking. "why are you going overboard?? its just the wind." "huh?? whew.. i thought.. it was a tiger...." right then, i looked at myself; i still had my arm in his. so i quickly removed it. "sorry.. sor.. sorry......" ".......oh yea............" Hwanee coughed dryly and left!! ............... so hes saying hes a guy?? fine.. you're all that.. � ^ right then, Hwanee held my hand!!!! "....................." i gaped at Hwanee.. "what are you staring at???" "huh??? ah.. nothing.... j.. just....." "whats wrong.. are you uneasy?? do you think you're cute when you do that??" "i.. im not doing that on purpose!!" "we're going out!!! why are you freaking out about holding hands???" ".................." we held hands for a long time before spotting his motorcycle. "........wait here. i'll go get it..........." "no!!! i want to go with you...." i went to his side. "no ones gonna take you away!! are you holding a mirror?? look at a mirror......." "..............." yea, so i look like this....... he's emphasizing how great he looks.. then why is he going out with someone like me??? "ey!! you're not getting on?" "huh?? yea.." i slid on the seat behind him his clothes are cold. "im not gonna worry if you fall.. or if your head breaks open.. or if you roll off.. pak!!!" Hwanee said, realistically... "ey!! your... your jokes are too harsh!!!!" "so hold on tight!!!!" that guy grabbed onto my arms and pulled them. naturally, my face fell onto his back. "ey!! dont fall asleep.. if you sleep im gonna hit you!!! just warning you." "ey.. im not gonna sleep. so stop!!!" "then we're leaving!!" Hwanee started his motorcycle!!! the ocean gradually disapeared.... could Hwanee and i come back another time?? i havent been to the beach in so long....... the events that happened with Hwanee cant be forgotten... the fact that my name was written on the clam shell!!!! and that i finally admitted to myself that iliked Hwanee.... also, when i was being carried off by the waves, Hwanee held onto my hands!!! ............i really cant forget them...... "....................." its brighter than before. how many hours did we ride??? "Hwanee.. Hwanee!!! his whole body was cold... but he kept riding.... "ey!!!!!!!!!!" i hit his back with my face. "ow!! what??" "stop for a minute!!!" "..............." screeeeech... Hwanee stopped abruptly again!! everytime i ride the motorcycle with him.. i have to be determined not to die... "annoying!! what??" i got off and handed his jacket back to him. "what??" "wear it!!" "no you wear it!!!" "its okay.. im fine!! you should wear it!!! your body is really cold..." to tell the truth, when he was riding his motorcycle. it wasnt cold for me because his body blocked the wind. he must be so cold huh?? "its okay.. hurry up and put it on!!!" ".............." i forced the jacket on him... his cold hands... stupid.. you idiotic boy.. you could have made stops along the way.. "..............." Hwanee started the engine again......... ........................... its warm. because he's blocking me......... "'ey!! are you sleeping again?" "huh?? where are we??" "home, where else!!!!!" "huh?? i must have fallen asleep..." "go inside and sleep!!!" "what time is it??" "6 30...." "already?? i have to go to school in 2 hours..." "just sleep.." "no. i missed yesterday already..." the minute i entered the house with him, i fell into a deep sleep. i must have been so exhausted...... i think he fell directly asleep too... "........................" next time, lets sleep again.. next time.. again....... 44. its already been one month since we went to the beach. he said that we would go to the beach whenever i wanted to. he promised. ^^ everyone at school is wearing their summer uniforms... its lighter. and way better... our school's summer uniform is really pretty... its a white blouse with a grey skirt... i dont know if its unhappiness or relief.. but Hwanee is still living with me.... Ahjumma also.. acts just like before. "ey!!! you're not coming out!!!!!!" "im.. im coming.." nowadays the situation is opposite. he's been getting up earlier than me... and yells at me in a loud voice.. 'why arent you hurrying??' like that.. ^^" "ey!! the weather today is hecka nice!! huh?" "yea right!!!" ".. . ^" this guy still. talks to me like that tho... rude bastard. "ey.. do you have time today?" "why??" "i want to go shopping." "nope.." he flatly refused.. . ^ "why not?" "stupid!!! why would a guy go in a girl's clothing store!!!!!" "ey!!! whats wrong with that??" "N.O." "lets go!! please??" i rode behind him on his motorcycle.. and pulled on his stomach. "stupid!!! stop it!!! ow ow!! you're dead!!! when you get off." the motorcycle lost its balance... he went to the forbidden area. "you're coming?? you're coming right?" "okay. sh_t!!! it frkn hurts..." was i too harsh?? outside the school.. i got off the motorcycle.. people in the viscinity looked at me jealously.. . ^ "then where should we meet?? ^^" "fawk. my shirt stretched!!!" "ey!!! are you gonna keep cussing at me?? . ^" Hwanee glared obviously at me... .................scared. "you come out!!!" "me?? to your school? shut up.." "you dont want to? then lets not go!!" "fine.. fine.. i'll go..." "what time?" "i'll call. ^^" "okay then." Hwanee got on his motorcycle again and put on his helmet. "im leaving!!" "okay ..^^" and like that, Hwanee left.. vroooom!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ nowadays, everytime he drops me off at school... before he used to just leave without a word. but now he says 'im leaving!!! or go inside!!' so thats why.. theres times when i get surprised.. the noisy classroom.. "......................." the kids are grouped together and are either laughing and having fun.. or getting pissed off. "............why is that??" PAkpakpakpak.. right then, she came to me and pounded her arm onto my shoulder Eun. Jin. "ow.. you hoe!!!" "hehehe does it hurt??^^ why are you so late?? your Unnie was bored..." Eun. Jin. said, chomping away on her gum. "kekek but why is it so loud?" "you dont know?? we're going on a field trip!!! the spring field trip!!!" "field trip?? but why??" "we're going with Jo Young Gong Go this time.. that's why they're making such a fuss!!!" "what?? really!!!" "yep.. i guess so!! they decided to go with us from now on.. anyways thats why i dont like poor schools.. . ^" "where are we going??" "that i dont know.. the homeroom teacher will probably come in and tell us.." as soon as Eun Jin said that, the tardy police came through the door... the kids all started to whisper. why is the tardy police coming in? glaring at us, the tardy police hit the teacher's desk. shocked, the kids became scared. "class president!! bow!!" "stand up.. bow.." [*the students have to bow to the teacher every morning. the class president leads it] "who is that rascal not bowing?? are you saying i should turn my head?!!!!!" why is he yelling as soon as he comes through the door?? he lectured this and that and we ended up bowing 6 times.. "since your homeroom teacher is sick.. im going to be your substitute for a week.. got it?" "yes sir!!!!" "what is this, no one ate their breakfast??? got it?????" "YES SIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!" the tardy police looked satisfied... "theres a few announcements!!" "................." "the first.. the day after tomorrow is our field trtip!!!!" "the day after tomorrow?" the day after tomorrow? why are we going so soon? "quiet!! quiet!! pak pak.." we're not deaf.. owww.. my ringing ears.. "why are you all secretly whispering. that we're leaving so soon!!!!! dont ask me anything about that!!!!" what the.. what kind of teacher is that!!!!! "also, this fieldtrip is the ... not just an ordinary field trip.. just like the rumours stated.. this field trip is combined with Jo. Young. Gong.Go high!!!" the cheering kids.. *nod nod* the kids are estatic.. "quiet.. if you are continually noisy, there's going to be punishment.." the quieting kids.. "but im predicting that its going to be very tiring.. if you do not obey the rules and decide to do your own thing, This is whats going to happen!!!!" gulp... *tension* that guy's specialty... "i might hit your head.. i dont know anyone who hasnt been hit like that.. and girls and boys.. are forbidden to mingle with each other.. because i am your temporary homeroom teacher!!! "awwww~~~~~~" "thats the limit!!!" and the tardy police abruptly left the class!!! .^ Huk.. how can this be... we're going with Jo Young Gong Go... and.. and with that tardy police.. Jo Young Gong Go is probably discovering the same thing right?? and theres a little.. fee.. the cost was 38000 Won ... [*around $36] a Hope farm in Ahn Sung... . ^ farm?? farm?? we're going to a farm??? Huk.. it's obvious whats gonna be there.. . ^ what is this?? we should go to somewhere nice.. a farm?? Ring~~! Ring!~~~ the phone Hwanee gave me. "hello!!" "ey!!" it was Hwanee.. but why is it so noisy??? something about a farm.. something about Boo Ja. "huh... what??" "what time are you coming again??" "huh?? after school ends.." "yea so.. what time??" "huh???? since i have 6th period.. maybe 3: 40.." "okay.." "Ow.. ey!!! fieldtrip~~" before i could finish what i was saying!! "sh_t. frkn pissing me off!!! with your school too... and what the heck?? a farm?? it's so childish.. ey that drives me crazy.. so dont talk to me about that!!!!" "huh?? okay." CliCk..... he hung up.. right after i talked about the field trip.... Hwanee was angry.. . ^ � does he think i want to go with his school??? .^ ".............." 45. we're going with Jo Young Gong Go.. . ^ Hoo.. please­ dont let me meet Hwanee there... . ^ hoo.. "Ey!! Han Yeh Won!! (mouthing)" with a weird expression and with weird gestures... "................." TAK. "OW!!!!!!!" the kids started to laugh . ^ "Han Yeh Won!! what are you daydreaming about.. dont you know that your teacher called you three times???" "huh?? ah.. i see.." "thinking about your boyfriend???" "huh???" "pay attention.. your exam is coming up. your exam!!!" . ^... but.. we have a year left till our test... .^ .... the bell rang.. the kids kicked their desks and yelled in their joy. "ey. arent you annoyed?? even if you dont tell me i know!!!" Eun Jin came to me and said.. "............" "arg how annoying!! Yeh Won!! want to go to karaoke??" "k. karaoke?? i. i cant..." "why??" "huh?? uh.. i .. i have to meet someone." " that Jin Hwan bastard??" "huh?? yeah... that.." "then you should have said so." "okay.." "shi­­.. then theres nothing you can do.. then dont plan anything for tomorrow.." "okay ^^" ... our class had to bow for 30 minutes.. the tardy police lectured about this and that.. he repeated himself like 3 times... its already 3 30. . . ^ im late again.. when i think of what that guy is gonna say. my head starts to ache. . "but why isnt this bus coming?? . " ........... ....... 5 minutes already passed. "Han Yeh Won!!" "huh?? oh.. hi.." its been such a long time.. since i've seen Min Jae's smiling face!!! "hey ^^....." "are you going to meet Jin Hwan??" "huh?? yea..." "okay ^^" ".................." "im going out with So Min.." "really?? with So Min??" "yea.. i havent gotten over you 100% .. no. i cant get over you.. but. if i make So Min cry, then im really a jerk..." "................." "so.. im trying as best i can.. ^^" "good luck.. So Min's so cute. and kind.. and pretty.." "............" Min Jae stared at me.. . ^ im sorry Min Jae.. im really sorry... forget about an evil hoe like me.. be happy.. you have to be happy... "Min Jae!! the bus is coming.. you're not getting on right?" "yep.. ^^" "okay then.. byebye..^^" ........... the bus pulled up.. right then, Min Jae grabbed my wrist. ".................." "thanks.. Yeh Won!! lets be good friends.." "sure...^^" Min Jae gently lowered my wrist.. waving, i climbed into the bus and sat down... Min Jae continued waving at me.. ...im going to regret this for sure.. regret losing a person like you... .......... ..... .. ===================================== ============= two more bus stops left... . right now its 3 55.... but did the bus stop?? its not moving. "mister.. why arent we moving??" "theres traffic!! cant you see??!!!" "huh?? . ^" did 5 minutes pass?? we're still in the same spot.. "mister.. then just let me off right here!!!" "i cant!~~~ we're in the middle of the street.." "mister.. i have an important appointment!!!" "................" the man quietly opened the door for me. "mister. thank you so much.." ........cough cough...the poisonous car exhaust... . i firmly covered my mouth. and beganrunning to Jo Young Gong Go... what would people say when they see me?? probably that im a crazy girl?? . ^ but.. when i think of how angry Jin Hwan is going to be.. >0< this is my only choice... ................. Jo Young Gong Go.. i see it.. i see it... ........... these kids must be on their way home!!! "....Huk.. Huk......" where is he??? where is he?? .......... right then.. the group of kids passing by said... ========================== =================== "ey. you didnt see?? it was so mushesuh!!!" "ey.. i know huh?? of course. thats what our school's known for.. but i heard he has a girl at Boo Ja.. its not a joke.. she goes around with Oppa even though it must be embarrassing.." ............. .. ===================================== =========== oh heck no, they're not talking about me right??????? ............ .. right then, in front of the Jo Young Gong Go gate was.. a motorcycle.. a familiar motorcycle.. Hwanee's motorcycle..� Hwanee was leaning on his motorcycle, smoking a cigarrette... "Hwanee!!!!.........." i ran toward Hwanee. .... "Hwanee.." "ey!! what time is it!!!!" "i know.. i know.. im really sorry!!! the bus didnt come.." "excuses excuses.. last time you said that your friend was holding you back.. and before that, you said your stomach hurt.. and your legs hurt last time.. do you not want to meet me?? and this time, you were the one that made the plans" "im sorry.. but im really not lying!!!" "i've had enough.. i've had enough.. its annoying.." "im sorry!!! . " ".........................." Hwanee got on his motorcycle and started the engine.. "......................." "stupid!! you're not getting on??!!!!!" "yea ^^" 46. ++++++ at Myung Dong +++++ "ey.. that looks good.." "then.. eat it!" "eat with me.. i'll buy it for you..." "i'll pass.." "just wait.." i quickly ran and bought two chicken kabobs and ran back to Hwanee. "here.. eat it.." "......................." Hwanee accepted the kabob... if he was going to eat it anyways, why did he not say so? . ^ ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ first, we went to a clothing store.. "how does this look???" "weird.." ... "how about this one then?" "its weird!!!!" . ^ they're all pretty to me... we went to several clothing stores.. "how bout this . ^ " "ey. i said they're weird!!!!" .............. its been 30 minutes since we've been like this. why is he saying they're all weird???? . ^ . ^ my legs are hurting.. and im starting to feel so downcast.... i saw on the sidewalk, in front of a store. "ey!!! get up!!!" "............." "its embarrassing!!! how annoying." "lets go..." "where?? home?? but you didnt buy any clothes.." "i dont want to.." "yea?? then lets go..." we went to the parking lot. we were walking through Myung Dong at night... when why did i see so many couples??? did all the couples in the world come out here today?? i saw guys that were hugging their girlfriends because the girls were cold... those people were holding hands so lovingly.. and those couples were carrying shopping bags in each hand... they look so affectionate.. how can they look so loving?? .................... i really dont like... that Jin Hwan... at these times, i lose all interest in him. to the extent that i dont want to be next to him.. would other couples date like us?? would people look at us and think we're a couple??? he cusses at his girlfriend.. and naggs all day.. and puts her down.. and gets angry all the time. why do i feel like a fool? why am i so idiotic?? ".................." "ah shii... ey.." "....what????" "hurry and buy..." "what?" "you came here to buy clothes!!!" what is he saying all of a sudden?? we're in the parking lot!!! "never mind, im not buying any." "................" he grabbed my wrist and pulled me to the clothing store we went to before.. "whats wrong with you?? i said im not going to buy anything!!!" "but you want to buy something!!!" "its fine.. no...!!!" "are you gonna keep doing this?" he let go of my hand.. and Hwanee entered the store.. he was searching for the outfit i asked him about earlier.. "............. was it this... and this?? this, right??" "............(dumfounded..)" ­me­ that guy took a bundle of clothes and went to the register.. "huh?~~~ what are you doing?" "what do you mean??im have to pay for these." "why are you buying them??" "....." he put his finger to his head and comtemplated carefuly.. "truthfully, you were mad at me earlier right?? you wanted to cuss me out didnt you.. this is for holding it all in!!!" "ey!! still!!!" "next time, dont hold it in and be stupid.. tell me!! dont just sit there. if you do that.. i get so frustrated!! got it???" "....................." we were leaving the clothing store when.. that saleslady was happy we were leaving.. cuz of Hwanee's yelling.. its bad for her business, why is she happy her customers are leaving.. ".................." "give it.." "what?" "i said i'll hold it for you!!" Hwanee took the bags i was holding in my two hands and walked away.. did this boy eat his medicine today??? as if he was carrying a big load.. he pressured me to walk home faster... . ^ helplessly, i was walking home... we decided to each hold half of the bags.. and were entering our neighborhood when.. Hwanee called me. "huh??" PAK.. still holding the shopping bags, he hugged me.. my face automatically went to his chest.. "what.. whats wrong with you?? what if someone see us.." "im sorry......" "huh?" "i said im sorry.. i dont even know why im doing this to you.. whenever i see you.. i just get angry like that.. lets not do that anymore.. lets not.." "..................." he held my face. and with two hands, covered my cheeks.. and with those big eyes, stared straight at me.. between his nose and my nose.. was it around 5 centimeters???????... he closed his eyes.. and his face was coming closer to me..... what should i do?? should i close my eyes?? in this situation??? "Hwanee?? Jin Hwanee??" he opened his eyes wide and looked to his side.. and very quickly let go of my face. "ohmygosh... Yeh Won was with you..." "ah.. Ahjumma!!!^^;;" she didnt see anything right?? right? "but.. what were you two doing?" "no.. she said she had something in her eyes.. so i was blowing it out for her.. Umma, why are you coming home now?" Hwanee changed the subject and entered the elevator first... and... "Ummah.. .hold on.." and Hwanee ran towards me.. "next time we will.. you know ^^" (he whispered) saying this, he went up the elevator first... next time?? next time?? . ^ why am i getting goosebumps and why am i blushing?? without bumping into Hwanee, i quietly entered my room. i really thought he was going to.. really.. ..... for the first time, he apologized to me.. i imagined that.. i would feel good when he said that but.. why do i feel so empty??? . ^ that guy got strange!!! ,. "sh_t..." Huk... because of him, im starting to cuss.. i shouldnt do this.. i shouldnt be doing this.. 'you shouldnt do this!! Han Yeh Won!!' why.... am i becoming strange??? its because of that guy.. its all because of that guy.. 47. morning.. Ahjumma.. and Hwanee were sitting at the table, eating breakfast.. . ^ he kept looking at me and giggling... because of what happened yesterday... i couldnt face him... "Ummah!!! tomorrow is a fieldtrip!!!" "field trip?? ah.. thats right.. your Ummah's been kind of hectic these days.. . ^ where are you going??" "to a farm.. . ^ sh_t its so annoying.. i might as well go and pull some weeds... Ummah!!!" Hwanee suddenly stared at Ahjumma... "its nice you're going there.. . ^ how about Yeh Won??" "huh?? ah.. we're going to the same place.. on the same day." "oh my.. is that true?? how nice..." "^^" Ahjumma pulled out twenty dollars!! "................." "buy snacks with this..." "ey.. give me 10..!!" "huh?? th.. that." "Jin Hwan!!! Yeh Won.. you might be uncomfortable but.. take him with you to buy snacks..^^" "huh???????" "Ummah!!!" "go together!!! he always complains that he wants more money to buy food.. so Yeh Won.. control him." "ah.. Ahjummah.." what a troubling and straining task.. . ^ how can i control him.. so she's saying i have full responsibility for him.. . &^ Ahjumma implored me and left!! how did this happen?? . ^ at the shoe rack.. . + "ey.. give me the money.." "what money??" "lets split it.. in half..!!!" "when did you ever give money to me?" "this girl.. just hurry and hand it over.." "no!!!! Ahjumma said to buy snacks with this money!!" "then you buy snacks!!!" "no..." "ey!! hand it over.." we were going down on the elevator when.. do you know how much this guy hit me on the arm.. it frkn hurts.. he must have given up.. . ^ he stopped asking me for the money.. "bye!!" "...y ou're dead!!!" "kekeke" shooong~~~~~~ kekeke .......... "Yeh Won!!" "huh?? Eun Jin!!!" "^^ you're going to karaoke with me today!!" "okay!! good!!" "kekeke" because we're going to the field trip tomorrow.. a lot was said in homeroom.. . ^ "wear conservative clothes.. conservative shoes.. and most importantly, if i catch anyone talking to a guy.. i will never forgive that girl.. thats what i imagine.." after the lecture, the tardy police left... how annoying... . ^ at break.. i was going out into the hallway when.. i saw Min Jae.. with So Min and Yoo Bin next to him.. those three look like close friends.. Min Jae was staying still but.. the other two were chatting away next to him.. i saw So Min trying to engage Min Jae in conversation.. "huh??!!! Unnie!!!" "huh?? hi.. So Min!!! hi.." Min Jae saw me and smiled.. and Yoo Bin.. "Unnie!!! im going out with Min Jae oppa!!!" "so i heard.. congrats.." "you already heard??^^;; news goes fast.." "yup ^^" So Min looked so happy... but thesedays, Yoo Bin is strange.. he used to always come up to me to talk and joke around.. but it seems like he's avoiding me nowadays.. >0< did i do something wrong?? "Yeh Won!!!" Min Jae was calling me.. but with an expression of dislike, Yoo Bin punched Min Jae on the arm... "............." "ah. never mind.^^;;" Min Jae looked surprised.. "o. okay.." i quietly entered the classroom.. from the hallway, i heard Min Jae and Yoo Bin's voices.. "stupid!! whats wrong with you?" "crazy. you know..." "even though, why are you doing that to Yeh Won!!!" Min Jae's voice.. why is Yoo Bin acting like that?? what would be the reason?? "which karaoke place is good??" "i heard Ggam karoke is good." "yea?? then lets go there.." "kay.." we entered Ggam noraebang.. its really noisy inside.. "mister. are any rooms availabile?" "theres one­ room 11..." "heres the money.. you have to make sure theres good quality!!!!!!!!!!" yelling, she dragged me into room 11... as soon as she entered the room, Eun Jin started presing numbers into the screen... "............" i quietly sat in my seat.. . ^ the sound of a guitar... right then.. "Okay!! Eun Jin.. is starting!!!!!!" she was shouting so loudly.. my ears hurt so much.. she chose the song 'the night was deep the day i cried!~~~~ "the night was deep..." like the lead vocal who sings this.. Eun Jin's voice was husky.. loud.. she sings so well... wow Eun Jin sings so gooood!!! so Eun Jin likes these types of songs!! ­­­­ dont go dont go dont leave me stay with me tonight~ like a red flower, i want to stay at your feet. smile, just once, for me. even if it's all a lie, i would get a star for you. in the morning, that star will disappear. i will leave you ~­­­­­­ "^^" singing, Eun Jin threw something at me.. a tambourine.. watching Eun Jin, i tapped the tambourine.. Eun Jin's voice is really loud... enough to ring in my ears.. after the first song. she started sing an oldies song next.. i didnt even sing one song.. but i dont think i could have taken the mike away from Eun Jin~~~ i just concentrated on listening to Eun Jin's songs.. Eun Jin stepped on the sofa and placed one foot on the table.. and started to shake her hair wildly... "ohmy.." i will never get used to the sight of Eun Jin like that.. . ^ since i wanted to buy a drink.. i stepped out for a minute. although i left.. Eun Jin had no idea.. i carried two drinks as i headed back into the room when.. in the room in front of us. i saw a guy and a girl making out. a guy was singing in front of them.. . ^ '......doing this stuff already~~!!! . ^ ' even outside, i clearly heard Eun Jin's loud voice.. i opened the door when.. i saw sweat droplets on Eun JIn's forehead.. she's singing. she's not supposed to sweat.. . ^ "lets go!!!" "huh?? you're done already?" "1 hour already passed.." "r.. really?? you sing so well!!" "that was nothing.^^" "keke but i saw a guy and a girl doing stuff in the room in front of us!! they're doing that stuff already.." "really?? where?" we went outside.. but Eun Jin pressed her face to the window and looked for the couple... she was watching with her eyes wide open when.. is she not embarrassed?? .............. suddenly, the kissing couple turned and saw us.. . ^ Eun Jin seemed slightly shocked. "sh_t.. where do they think they are? ..." she said, carelessly using big jestures. "Eun Jin.. lets go.. lets go.." i tried to push Eun Jin away from the place.. "Eun Jin. whats wrong?" "those two.. look like middle school students. who do they think they are?? this isnt right.. Yeh Won. stay here for a minute. i'll take care of it.." "Eun Jin.. why are you doing that??" that girl suddenly stood up.. "YEh Won!! let go.." she twisted free and opened the door.. Pak.. Eun Jin kicked the door.. Eun Jin.. cant we just leave?? . "whats this??" "ey!! you're middle school.. what do you think you're doing!!!! geez.. ey.. what school are you from?" "what is she saying?? crazy hoe.." that kissing­boy said to Eun Jin.. Eun Jin is finally angry. "ey!! crazy hoe??? Ey!!! your foreheads never been tainted with blood huh.. what is this.. say that again!!!" "i said you're a crazy hoe. what's the big deal!!!!" that guy's voice became higher... Pak.. Eun Jin kicked that guy's knee.. . ^ Eun Jin..he may be young, but he's still a guy. What do i do?? Eun Jin. lets just leave, im begging you!!! that jerk is a still a guy.. � 48. "Eun Jin.. EunJin.. lets just leave!!!" "ey!!! say that again!! do you want to get beat up!!!" right then, that kiss­girl came running over.. "why are you doing this!!!" "what is this mother f_cker!!" and Eun Jin... hit that girl's head.. . please.. someone help us.. "Eun Jin!!!" "Han Yeh Won!!! im sorry. you should go.. i dont want to show this side of me.. im sorry.. Yeh Won. i'll buy you dinner next time.." "thats not the problem!!!" the mister at the counter ran over to us.. "Han Yeh Won!! leave no!! if you dont. if you dont." Eun Jin yelled. "dont fight!!!!!!" the mister came.. and i became more worried.. and behind him were a few Oppa's wearing Jo Young Gong Go uniforms.. . ^ i left Eun Jin there and went home. it was so hard to force myself to leave.. ..... "is that jerk home?" i was opening the door when.. i heard loud music.. . ^ "ey.. lower the volume." "you're home?" is today casual day?? he had his hair gelled up and was fastening a watch on his wrist.. . ^ "where are you going?" ­i asked, curious­ "why do you care??" "where are you going?" he glared at me while putting on his watch.. . ^ "im going drinking. happy now??" "ey!!! we were supposed to buy snacks today!!!" "what snacks.. annoying..." "no.. we have to buy them.." "you buy them. im not gonna.." " . ^ you have to go with me.." he said that because it was embarrassing,.. he didnt want to go with me.. i followed him wherever he went and pleaded with him. "ey!!! you have to be here exactly at 7. got it???" "geez i got it.. how many times are you gonna tell me? huh???" " . ^" and he left... is he going to meet girls?? . ^ it was 7... and i was getting ready to go out.. but this guy is not home yet.. he never comes on time.. its 7 15.. hurry.. hurry... 7 30.. isnt this a little too much?? how can he be this late?? i changed my clothes and decided to wait for him outside.. i saw him on his motorcycle far away.. hes 45 minutes late.. . ^ hes dead "why are you so late??" "i was eating.." "you should have come earlier!!!" "youre not getting on??" "its right around the corner.. we dont need your motorcycle!!!" " . ^..." he got off his motorcycle and came next to me.. how much difference is there between us?? "how come you're dressed so bad??" "what??" "you should wear those kinds of clothes at home.. its embarrassing.." "we're going to the supermarket right over there.. you look more weirder wearing that!!!" "stupid.." ....in front of a plaza.. "why arent you coming???" "its embarrasing, why should i go in.. you go." "come here.." i grabbed his arm and dragged him inside.. .......... "hold this." " . ^" i carried a bright yellow basket and followed him. "should we buy these crackers?? . ^ no that's not enough.."­ i pondered­ is he picking snacks too??... Hwanee was looking at things on the top shelf.. right then, he threw several bags of crackers in the basket.. ".............." these are $2.50 each.. . Huk.. i would rather by 5 50 cent ones.. hold it in.. hold it in.. it doesnt matter. i grabbed shrimp crackers.. he had picked out more crackers in the meantime.. . ^ they're the expensive kind.. "dont buy the things on the top!! they're expensive.." "what does that matter..!!!!" i took out the crackers he chose and placed them back on the shelf.. and i got him the same crackers i got for myself. he kept putting in expensive crackers.. and i continued placing them back on the shelf.. . ^ the ones he chose are at least $2 each.. .^ "ey!! are you done?" "yea.." i was paying for them when.. "$8.50.." "ey!! where are my crackers??" "yours? i put them back.." "sh_t.. who said you could!!!" "ey!! think about it­ if you bought your crackers.. do you think we would have money left over??" "sh_t.. get them back.." "no.. i dont want to.. ey!! if we all spent money like you. our country would be bankrupt in a month.. do you know that?? people are starving in this country.. you think you can spend so extravagantly just cuz you have sume money.. you!!" "say another word. and i'll just­­! hit!!!..." " . ^" "annoying.. you eat it all. give me the money left over." "no. im gonna give the change to Ahjummah." "are you gonna keep doing that??" "dont yell!!!! its embarrassing.." i ditched him and went up to our house first.. grumbling, he followed me.. . ^ he just like a kid that throws a tantrum because he didnt get what he wanted.. .^ as soon as we went home, he went into his room with no sign of coming out.. "ey!! ey!!!" "WHAT!!!!" omygosh he scared me.. does yelling every word that comes out of his mouth make him satisfied?? i opened the door and went in.. "who told you you could come in @@!!!!!!" "we have to split the snacks!!!" i sat on his bedroom floor.. and took out the crackers that were in the bag "here.. i'll split it evenly.. this one's yours.. and this one's yours.." "i told you to eat them all!!!" "i got the same ones for you.." "pissing me off.. im not eating them!!" "yea?? fine then. i'll eat them all by myself.." i dumped all the crackers back in the bag.. and left. right then.. PAnG.. he threw a pillow.. i dont know if he was aiming at me.. but it hit the door... . ^ "keke.. (mouthing .. mae­ rong)" [* mae rong is like.. ha­ ha­ couldnt get me] and i escaped from his room. "ah f_ck!! ah.. annoying.." Pang Pang.. kekeke stupid idiot.. if he didnt want to eat them he should just give up.. its funny.. 1 hour later.. he came out. rubbing his eyes.. .^ "ey!!! feed me.." "feed you??" "yea.." he flopped onto the sofa and placed his feet on my knees. "make your own food.. . 6" "ah shii..." i thew off his feet and ended up going into the kitchen to make rice.. kimchi fried rice.. . ^ "..ey!! open the door!!' " . ^ you're ordering me to do pointless things.. . ^" ,,,,,,,cough cough. "ey. im done!!!!!!!" " . ^" he ambled over, grabbing his stomach.. .^ he sat at the table.. but just layed down.. "ey.. move your hands.. let me put this down.." "ah shii..." "okay.. lets eat!!! ^^" " . ^ why are you eating??" "because i made it. of course im eating it.." " . ^" grumbling, he started to eat the rice.. . ^ after gulping down all his water.. "ey!! why am i craving alcohol?? ey!! wanna go drinking??" "alcohol?? no.. i dont want to!! (shaking head)" "but why do i want beer all of a sudden?? Ummah got this from England.. lets drink a little." "drink it yourself.. i pass." "if i drink it by myself, you're gonna say something!!" he handed me a glass.. . ^ should i drink?? or not??? "lets just drink one glass.. oh.. this is 46% alcohol.." "thats so high!!!!" "just drink it!!!" he swallowed it all in one sitting.. . ^ "kya.. ey.. it tastes good. try it.." i took a sip.. the strong smell stung my nose.. . ^ fried rice and alcohol... unknowingly, i ended up drinking a whole glass.. it feels like my head is spinning.. "ey. i cant handle this.. im gonna go sleep.." he also had his eyes half closed.. .......... ........ we shouldnt do this.. tomorrow is the field trip.. . ^ .......... 49. ..."ahh shii..." Suddenly waking up.. oh no.. school.. i quickly turned to look at the clock on the wall.. what is this. what is this?? the hand of the clock pointed to 9. the bus was leaving at 7 40.. how can this be happening.. i ran into his room.. "Ey.. JIN HWAN!! Jin Hwan @@!!!" he was lost in a deep sleep.. . ^ "ey.. wake up.. wake up!! do you know what time it is??" ".............." "its 9.. its 9 o clock.. we have to go on the field trip.. we already missed our ride.." "good.. we'll just stay home then.. its no big deal.." wrapping the blanket around him, he went back to sleep. ". ey!! you're not gona go?" why am i getting so frustrated?? its all because of this guy. i shouldnt have drank yesterday.. CHAK. i hit his back with all my strength. "EY!! it's all your fault... its your fault.." "ah shi... it frkn HURTS!!" that jerk yelled while suddenly getting up... . ^ ", i told you i didnt want to drink yesterday.. its because you!!" "ah annoying!! lets just stay home!!!!" "do you know how much i wanted to go.. you know too well!!!" "ah!! annoying!! you're so annoying.. " abruptly getting up, he went into the bathroom.. "ey.. what do we do!!!" "stupid.. im getting ready.." . ^ . ^ no, how are getting there.. i followed him and washed up... "ey!! hurry and come out.." "huh?? okay.." i held the huge bundle of snacks and came outside.. "you're wearing your uniform to a field trip?" "so.. . ^" we rode the elevator down.. and he pulled his motorcycle out of the parking lot. "get on!!!" " . ^" i held the bundle of crackers.. and took a seat behind him. "do you know how to get there?' "yea.. i know.." . its a relief.. how many hours did we speed along?? soon, the towering buildings disappeared as we headed toward the mountains.. and we saw a sign that said "Hope Farm.." we came to the right place!!! and when we went inside, we saw the buses.. Boo Ja high.. and Jo Young Gong Go.. and other schools.. "wow.. its a real farm!!!" "then did you think we were going to a fake farm?" " . ^" "you're not coming??" ­i asked­ "its annoying.. it smells like crap.. ah sh_t.. . ^" "lets go.." but how come i didnt see our school's uniform? "huh?? its Hwanee.. you really came??" Hwanee's friends came over from where they were sitting.. "Hwanee you jerk, you really came. you havent been to a field trip in 2 years.." "and at this sh_tty farm too.." "shut up. ey. where are the kids from your school?" ­he asked me­ "my school?? im not sure.." "Huh?? Boo Ja is in that corner over there.." " . ^" he grabbed my hand as he headed to where his friend pointed. "its fine... you dont have to go with me.." " . ^ hurry.." ........did we walk for 10 minutes?? the kids from my school.. they were giving grass to cows.. ... right then Eun Jin came running over. "Yeh Won!! Han Yeh Won." "huh?? Eun Jin!!" "i didnt think you would come... (seeing Hwanee) why did you come with that old man??" old man?? old man?? "sh_t.. you're dead!!!" ­Hwanee­ "kekeke okay.. lets go Yeh Won!!" "huh?? okay.. thanks.." i was being dragged by Eun Jin when.. he grabed my hand.. "im gonna call you later.. so pick up.." "huh?? sure.." and he turned around as well.. "so things are going good between you and him?.." "huh?? uh.. yea.." "how did you get here??" "his motorcycle.." "ah.. that jerk's motorbycle is niiiiiice right?? .. its frkn expensive.. . ^ he would never give me a ride when i asked him.. sh_t. what a f_cker... hey why are you wearing your uniform?" "we're not supposed to?" "stupid!!! who would wear their uniform here!!!" "we're not supposed to??" "yep.. geesh.. stupid.. okay..come here.." "huh?? okay.." Eun Jin gave me her PE uniform.. "you want me to wear this??" "� . . . . . . . . . . " "wear it.. its better than a skirt.." "yea?? wait here.." i went to the restroom and changed.. "Eun Jin.. lets go feed the cows!!!" "no.. it smells like poop!!!!" "still.." right then. Ring* Ring*... my phone rang.. . ^ "hello!!!" "its me." "huh?? oh.." Eun Jin looked at me "is it the old man??" "ey! dont play with that hoe!!!" Hwanee heard her??? "Ey.. what do you want???" "come here." "to you? no.. im gonna go feed the cows!!" "loser.. ey... you better hurry!!" "no.." right then Eun Jin came to me.. and stole my phone. "hello!! ey old man!!! Yeh Won said she doesnt want to go!!" i heard Hwanee's voice, cursing at her.. and Eun Jin suddenly hung up. . ^ Eun Jin.. you know that guy's personality.. "ah shii. annoying.. what does he want you to do here!!!" " . ^ lets go feed the cows.." "feed what??!! i'm gonna lay down over here.. so have fun!!" "huh?? should i?? okay then im gonna feed them and come back..." "........." Eun Jin laid down. i fed a them a big fistful of feed grains.. the cows whined and groaned so much.. � i was feeding the cows when.. ......... i looked above me... and someone looked down at me.. Hwanee. "you scared me.. when did you come??" "ey! i told you to come where i was!!!" "huh?? t.that.. i told you i was feeding the cows!!" "ah annoying.." "come here.." "you feed them yourself.." i was diligently feeding them when.. i made eye contact with him. "if you're gonna do that, you might as well leave!!" he was lighting his cigrarrette.. "cough cough.. dont smoke!!" . ^ he continued glaring at the cows.. � is he playing a game with the cows? "..............." "hoo~!!!!" he blew a cloud of smoke toward the cow. "ey!! what are you doing?? are you crazy??" "*nod nod*.." that jerk kept laughing, as if it was funny.. again, he blew a billow of smoke.. "ey!! whats wrong with you? seriously." "hahaha.. ey.. look at that. isnt it frkn funny??" "ey!! whats wrong with you! geesh.." right then, maybe the cow was irritated.. but it turned around and pooped right in front of Hwanee and ambled away... "ah sh_t. what's this??!!! ah. that's frkn distgusting!!!!!!!!" " H A H A.. thats what you get. didnt i tell you not to smoke???!!!" "ah sh_t.. how annoying.. ARG.. it stinks.. the poop is so big too.." "ahhaha...." "stupid!!! dont laugh!!!" "who said i was laughing??" right then, a group of kindergarteners with yellow shirts came in. "wow.. they're so cute!!!" "stupid.. no they're not.. they're not cute!!!" ... "look at that.. the cow's nostril is as big as my fist.." "ey. look at his butthole! there's poop on it.." ... HUK.. they're as tall as my legs, what are they saying??? right then, a boy and crowd of kids came over.. "wow!! its an Ahjumma.. Ahjumma!! how old is that cow??" Ahjumma?? AHjumma?? HUk.. do i look like an Ahjumma to them?? "hey kid.. im not an Ahjumma!!!" "Ahjumma! how old is he!!!" "uh.. uh.. he's two.. . " those pathetic little kids.. "haha.. Han Yeh Won. good job.. Ahjumma.. Ahjumma!!! kekeke you should have treated kids better in the past!!!" right then, those little kids stared at Hwanee. "but you're an Ahjussi..." [*what you call a guy in his 30's] Huk.. . ^ little boy!!! you did good.. good job. his face suddenly became stiff.. Hwanee went to that little kid.. "what did you say? say that again.. you're about the size of a mouse.." "a mouse?? im bigger than you, ahjussi!!!" "you mouse.." Hwanee nudged that kid's head.. it must have hurt.. because he grabbed his head. and started crying as he walked in circles.. "hey.. are you okay??" "that Ahjusshi's the devil!!! everyone attack him.." a group of his little friends came running to Hwanee.. "that Ahjusshi hit me!! that Ahjusshi!!!" right then, those little kids got hit by Hwanee's fist, and like their friend grabbed their heads and started crying.. >0< "Okay. okay dont cry!! ey. why are you hitting little kids??" ­i yelled­ "how annoying!!!" "Ahjumma is a kind Ahjumma.. and that Ahjusshi is a bad Ahjusshi!!!" "you're right. that Ahjusshi IS the devil." "that Ahjusshi is bad!!!" "yea.. . yea.." where is the kind AHjumma?? "ey... hurry up!!!" ­Hwanee yelled­ "where are you going??' "Ahjumma!! where are you going?" "the kind Ahjumma is being dragged away.. by that devil!!" "uh. that is." "HWAK.. do you want to get hit again??" those kids suddenly quieted.. he grabbed my hand and pulled me somewhere.. "where are you going.." "who cares where i go?? just follow me!!" right then.. i heard a low voice calling me.. "HAn Yeh Won!! Han Yeh Won, right??" it was the tardy police.. what do i do?? what do i do? .^ what should i do?? this guy is pulling on my hand right now.. what do i do?? the tardy police specifically told us not to go around with Jo Young Gong Go guys ..... or else . ^ im dead now.. . .. 50. "Han Yeh Won right??" i instinctively let go of his hand... "teacher..^^;;" "HAN Yeh Won!!!!!" " � .. who's that??" "j.. just be quiet.." "but who is it!!!" "it's a teacher from my school!!" "a teacher??" "yea..." "Han Yeh Won!! i specifically told you.. you are not allowed to go around with a guy, especially not with a guy from a different school!!!" "ah.. but teacher!!" PAK.... the tardy police hit my head... . ^ it frkn hurts.. "ow!! teacher.." "Ey!! why are you getting hit, you did nothing wrong!!!!" this ignorant boy is getting mad for no reason.. . ^ just when i think he cant get any more idiotic.. he seriously amazes me... . "ah.. its .. its okay!!" "why are you getting hit!!! whats wrong with a girl and a guy going out!!!" "what school are you from!!!" the tardy police asked Hwanee. "Jo Young Gong Go.. why do you want to know!! are you gonna tell on me??!?!!" "how dare you speak to an adult like that!!!" "oh oh!~~ im so sorry.. ahh shii... he's the same as my _____!!!!" "what is your name!!!!" "Me?? im Jin Hwan from Jo YOung Gong Go!!! i am going to leave now..!!! so, excuse me... Han Yeh WON!! i'll see you later!!!" . ^ Ey!! where is he going?? leaving me alone.. where is he going??!!!! "Han Yeh Won!! follow me!!~~" i followed the tardy police.. and had to stand for a long time as punishment... for Jin Hwan too... "oh my.. my back!!!" "are you okay?? its all cuz of that jerk.. i knew this would happen!!!" " . ^ " we were heading home and Eun Jin continued massaging my arm... . ^ (house) "omy.. my back. my back.." i massaged my back by myself.. that jerk still isn't home yet... . ^ ding dong. ding dong!!! "oww my back.. who can that be?" rubbing my back, i went out into the living room.. "who is it!!!" "is there someone by the name of Han Jin Hwan here?" "he's not home yet.. who is it??" "will you please open the door??" "but who is it?" "its me.. Yeh Won!!!" "huh?? Yoo Bin??" i opened the door.. but i saw Yoo Bin between these strange men wearing suits. and i saw Hwanee's father. "ah.. Hello.." ".. you saw me last time right??" "ah.. yes.." Yoo Bin and those men came inside the house.. that man looked inspectingly at the house. "Yoo Bin!!" "huh??" "whats wrong?" "what?" "why did you come?" "ah..^^ to meet Jin Hwan.." "Hwanee?? . ^ he's probably coming home late.." "^^;;" because Yoo Bin is wearing a black suit and looking so proper.. it doesnt seem like Yoo Bin... he really looks like a prince... and around 30 minutes later, Hwanee came home. "ah shi.. ey. where were y......" "Hwanee!!!" "whats this?? why are those people here!!!" "Han Jin Hwan be careful of what you say!!" Yoo Bin nudged him.. "why did you come..???" "Hwanee..." "Han Yeh Won!!! go outside!!!" ".................." "please????" Yoo Bin also, asked me to leave... "!!! okay..." i went outside... .................what the heck could they be talking about? what are they talking about???? � what if Hwanee is hitting the men? probably not. probably not.. that cant happen.. but it is very possible.. . ^ no. Yoo Bin is there too... he would prevent that.. ...... but what do i do here?? what is there to do?? . ^ i have exactly $1... what can i do with $1?? ............ i took my $1 and went to a nearby PC bang.. ... but i dont do anything on the computer. what am i going to do.. . .... .. i played tetris­ the only game i knew.. right now im on the 2nd highest level..*^^* ho ho... only 30 more points , i'll be on the next level ^^ right then. i was watching the first place when.. my phone vibrated in my pocket.. . ^ what's this?? why is it calling now.. how annoying.. since it's on vibrate, i cant ignore it either.. "HELLO!!!!!!" ".............." "hellow.. say something.. dont play around.. ah fawk~! if you do this again. you di..." "Han Yeh Won.." "..... Jin Hwan???... ey!! i died because of you.." "come to me.. come.." "Hwanee.." why is he telling me to come to him?? why.. "please.. please.. please.. come.." Hwanee's voice.. is weird.. its strange.. its really strange. 51. "Hwanee.. okay. okay.." what the heck could have happened?? what is going on!!!! i dashed out of the PC bang and ran directly home.. right then, a car passed smoothly by me.. Yoo Bin was sitting in the back seat.. "...........Hwanee! Hwanee!!!" please. please... ...... ... ........ in front of the house.. i opened the door and walked straight in... .... Hwanee was sitting on the sofa... "Hwanee!!!" "............." he came to me. and hugged me tightly... "Hwanee...." "lets stay like this for a little.. just a little.." "Hwanee.. whats wrong???" i feel like im suffocating.. what could have happened?? "Hwanee. Hwanee..." Hwanee continued to hold me... ........... i... cautiously covered Hwanee's back... Hwanee was shaking all over... ... "Im sorry..." "its okay.. did something happen???" "no...." Hwanee's eyes are red... and hanging his head, he went inside his room. what could have happened?? .... at aroudn 9.. Hwanee appeared from his room.. wearing white athletic clothes.. and a cap... "where are you going?" "just outside for a second.." "at this time??" Hwanee patted my head.. like that, Hwanee left.. i should have held onto him.. i should have told him not to go.. ........ the next morning... "Ahjumma!! wheres Hwanee.." ".... he didnt come home this morning.." Ahjumma's face was stiff and expressionless.... i wanted to ask. what happened?? what could have happened to make Hwanee so sorrowful... "Hwanee cant take you to school today... so wait.. i'll drop you off." "ah. its okay.." "wait." "Ahjumma.. im gonna go now.." it's been a long time since i've ridden the bus. today i will ask Yoo Bin.. .i will ask him why he came yesterday.. and what happened... of course, that bus is crowded as usual... ".......huh?? Yeh Won!!!" "oh... Min Jae!!" "Jin Hwan didnt give you a ride today?jerk­­" "huh?? its not that.. Hwanee didnt come home this morning.." "he didnt come home?? really??" "yea..^^" "i see!!!" we got off the crowded bus and started walking toward school. "huh?? Yeh Won// where are you going?" "oh. you go in first.^^" and i went to Yoo Bin's hideout instead... ".........where is he?? where is he??" Yoo Bin must not be here yet.. so i ended up waiting for him at his spot. "..............." the bell for 1 period rang. should i go inside?? i kept waiting for Yoo Bin to show ... a solitary male was walking through the back gate, with a bag slung over his shoulder... it was Yoo Bin... Yoo Bin saw me and seemed slightly surprised.. "Yeh Won!!! how come you're here??" "i wanted to see you..." "me?? really????" "yea.." Yoo Bin walked up to me. "........talk.." "Yoo Bin!!" "yes?" "yesterday.. why did you come yesterday?" "i told you. i went to meet that jerk Jin Hwan.." "Jin Hwan?? so what did you talk about???" "Yeh Won.. i cant tell you, im sorry..." "please tell me.. you have to tell me.." "im sorry..." "tell me..." "ask Hwanee..." "he didnt come home today.." "are you serious??.... well he'll probably come home today.. just wait for him.." abruptly getting up, Yoo Bin went back through the back gate.... ".............." why am i so idiotic?? why... What kind of burdens is Hwanee carrying?? that jerk wont be crying by himself, right?? he must be upset and in pain... he probably wont need me right?? probably.. Hwanee wont... why am i feeling so indifferent today. Eun Jin, determined to cheer me up, dragged me someplace... its a rock cafe... you had to pay to get in.. the moment i went in, i felt doubtful about the whole thing.. loud music .. (louder than Hwanee's) the muffled noises of a crowd of people... people were dancing like crazy and shaking their heads... i couldnt adapt to this place even if i tried... "Han Yeh Won!! Yeh Won!! come here.." "huh?? okay.." i slipped between the dancing people and went to Eun Jin ... Eun Jin handed me a shot glass. "drink.." i couldnt hear correctly.. because our surroundings were so loud.. "what???!!" "i said to drink!!!" "this?? i cant drink.. alcohol gets to me too easily... . ^ " "drinK!!!! im gonna drink first then!!" Eun Jin drank her shot in one gulp... tipping back her head to empty the glass.. she grinned at me.. Huk...thats shocking... if she does that, then i cant possibly NOt drink... . Eun Jin kept teasing me.. so i squeezed my eyes shut and drank it... my head feels like its spinning... how many glasses did i drink?? right then Eun Jin grabbed my hand and dragged me to the front. "no.. Eun jin!!! i cant dance.." i stared at the people who were madly dancing... Huk.. how can you do that... "Eun Jin!! Eun Jin!! i really cant.." but... Eun Jin's so strong, its not even funny.. ...... . "Eun Jin!!!" "okay now.. dance.. ey.. Han Yeh Won!!! dont just stand there.." "im not.. i really cant dance.." "^^" Eun Jin began to dance.. i saw her at karaoke last time but this is the reason Eun Jin dances so well!!! i kept watching Eun Jin.. its no joke.. she really dance like a pro.. she's so good... 52. ­­ "retch.... cough cough..." "Han Yeh Won!! wake up. how much did you drink.. huh??" where am i?? im outside somewhere.. Eun Jin was patting my back.. and getting angry... . "Eun Jin!!!" "you hoe, get back to reality...." "it hurts... *retch*..." "ohmy... stupid.. . ^ Han Yeh Won!! you didnt even drink that much.." "i told you.. i cant drink... *retch*!!!!" "Ah. this is crazy.. ey..this is not working" Eun Jin was rummaging through my purse.. "what are you doing.. ??" ".............why isnt it answering?? Hello... ah. How are you doing. I'm Jin Hwan's friend.. is Jin Hwan there?? hes not?? could you tell me his cell phone number?? okay 011­0000000000000 thank you." Jin Hwan?? what about Jin Hwan... ......... my head is going in circles.... "Han Yeh Won.. just wait a little.." "ey. i dont have a lot of minutes!! . if you use it too much, its going to turn off automatically.. *hiccup*..." my eyes are closing.. what do i do? "Hello.. ey!! where are you?? you bastard.. do you know how Yeh Won is doing right now!!! dont get mad!!! you old man!! okay.. ow my ears.. where am i???............" .............. ........ ..... .. "Han Yeh Won!! Han Yeh Won!!! wake up!!!" "ey. then im leaving.. take care of Yeh Won for me!!" "okay then." "old man.. dont do anything weird to Yeh Won.. or you die!!!" "do you wanna die!!" ..... ............. .............. why do i see Hwanee??? why is Hwanee here???? "ey.. Han Yeh Won!! wake up.. how much could you have drunk.." .... hes floating... is he flying?? when i got back to my senses.. Hwanee was piggy backing me... "Hwan............ keke" i woke up from my sleep but.. i stayed still... he heaved me because he knew i was awake right??? "....................." was his shoulders always this wide??? .... since he's carrying me, he must be pretty strong... ".....cough cough...." what do i do?? what do i do?? .......please...please.... "are you awake??" "huh?? yea..." "since when??" "huh? ri.. right now." "..............." why is he not saying anything?? if he was like before, he would have put me down right away and cursed at me.. its weirder because he's not doing that.. "HAn Yeh Won!!" "huh??? yea??" "how much do you like me??" "huh???" why is my throat so itchy?? "for me..." ­his voice trailed­ "........" "i like you a lot..." "cough cough.. what?? what did you say??" ".............." what did Hwanee just say?? what did he say?? of all things, why did i have to cough at that moment... . ^ "what did you say??' "i didnt say anything?? ah shii.. Han Yeh Won.. why are you so fat.. my arm feels like its going to fall off.. hurry and get down.. you dont even have a conscience do you.." that bastard is getting mad at me all of a sudden... of course.. there's no problem making a person feel ashamed... "huH?? ey. im falling.. i'll just get off whats the big deal!!!" "..............." evil jerk.. he was doing just fine.. then he goes and says something like that... ........ he held my hand.. his large hand, big enough to cover my own.. ".................." is it too awkward?? i cant face him... "why did you drink??" "drink?? because of you.. you jerk.. you make my head hurt... and you stayed out all night.. did you know how worried i was?? you bastard???" "keke" "why are you laughing??" "...cuz its funny.. you were worried about me.. Han Yeh Won!!!........ dont drink from now on!!!!" "...... you're saying that to me.. do you think you have the right to say that?? you drink a lot yourself..." "but you cant drink... and when i drink, im tolerant to it. but not you!!" "............" "you drink a little and cant even stay awake.. some strange guys could have done stuff to you... what if i wasnt there?? what would you have done if i didnt come?? what if i didnt come when you were searching for me..?" ".........ey!!! you're getting ahead of yourself.. you didnt exactly save me.. . ^ hey hero.. you only carried me once..." its strange.. Hwanee is strange.. he isnt cussing at me.. and he seems really sincere.. and he is concerned about me.. its really strange.. after our conversation, we silently walked home.. Hwanee is seriously strange.. he's acting like he's never going to see me again.. like a person leaving, never to return.. why is he like that?? i dont understand.. why did he change all of a sudden?? 53. "Yeh Won!! Yeh Won!!! you're not getting up??" "uh.. Ahjumma!!!... what time is it??" rubbing my eyes, i got up.. "7:40.. you woke up late today.. so i thought there was no school..." "40???" i rushed to get ready.. the quiet house... "Ahjuma!! what about Hwanee??" "Hwanee?? i dont know.. it looks like he went out.." "huh??.......i see.." its really strange.. Hwanee is becoming strange.. why is that??... all by myself, i waited at the bus stop.. ...... did i do something wrong?? no that cant be it.. yesterday was fine.. ................ i was tardy so the tardy police made me run laps and pull more weeds... . ^ "Han Yeh Won!!! Yeh Won!!!" without failure, Eun Jin saw me from our classroom and came running over. "^^" "what happened yesterday?? did anything happen between you two?? that bastard didnt try anything did he??" ".......no..... nothing happened.." "really?? that jerk didnt do anything??? thats not right..." "what isnt??" "a long time ago, his nickname was casanova... [*a guy who supposedly had 122 women] he seriously didnt do anything???????" "no, i told you.. why dont you believe me??? . ^" "really?? liar... that old man???" "......ah.. it was a little strange.. Hwanee, i mean.. he changed.." "what changed??" "he changed.. whenever he saw me, he used to nag me.. and cuss.. he was that kind of person.. but yesterday he was werid.. he didnt smile much. and he didnt cuss either.. plus he was concerned about me.. it was really strange.." "......isnt that usually what he did??? . ^" "no... no.. he was never like that!! nowadays, he keeps staying out.. and he hasnt been going to school with me.. he doesnt try to meet me.. im telling you, its strange. it seems like he's avoiding me.." "i guess he really did.. why is that jerk like that??" "this isnt working.. after school i'm gonna go see him.." "where?? at Jo Young Gong Go???" "yea.. where else.." "want me to go with you?" "no... i want to go by myself.." "yea?" "if you see Hwanee by any chance.. contact me as soon as possible..." "sure.." .^ it seemed like class would never end... 5th period.. *creak* the back door opened. it was Yoo Bin coming in.. ........ everyone turned to look at Yoo Bin, and immediately faced the front of the classroom again.. ......... he rarely comes to class and listens to the lectures how does he do so well in school??? . ^ maybe its because he's a rich ... after class ended... i quickly packed my bag and left through the back door... right then, Yoo Bin grabbed onto my arm. "huh?? Yoo Bin!! hey..!" "Yeh Won!! where are you going??" "huh?? ......to see Hwanee..." "why??" ".....there's something i want to talk to him about..." im in a hurry, why is he trying to make conversation.. >0< even a minute and one second is too long... "dont go!!!" "what???" "i said dont go.." what the heck is this?? "Yoo Bin!! i have to meet Hwanee." "dont go.. that bastard's not in his right mind..." "what are you trying to say!!" "dont go!!! after you see that jerk.. after.. you'll only get more hurt.." i stared directly into Yoo Bin's eyes.. his eyes didnt quiver.. Yoo Bin was serious.. he didnt let go of my arm. Yoo Bin was not about to let me leave... but... but... "Yoo Bin!! i have to meet him.. i have to meet Hwanee.." "Yeh Won!! Yeh WOn!!" i teared myself away from him and ran to Jo Young Gong Go.. what could have happened.. what could have happened.. please.. dont let anything bad happen.. dont let anything happen.. 54. what did Yoo Bin witness that made him say that to me?? i saw Jo Young Gong Go in the distance.. .... it looks like Jo Young Gong Go just ended right now too.. ".........." VRoOOM... VRoOom.. the sound of a far off motorcycle.. motorcycle?? what if it's Hwanee.. i thought, as i ran to Jo Young Gong Go... ".............." if i run any longer.. i think i'll go crazy.. i saw Hwanee's motorcycle... Hwanee with his helmet on.. i could spot him from far away.. ........ but Hwanee had girls on both sides of him.. ".........." this feeling.. how can i describe how im feeling??? ".................." sitting a girl behind him, Hwanee started the motorcycle.. and Hwanee left... smiling gleefully, that girl encircled Hwanee's waist and rode behind him.. "Hwanee!!!" Hwanee sped right past me... "............" "Hwanee!! Hwanee!!!" i chased after the departing motorcycle.. but it was a futile attempt... Hwanee's motorcycle went farther and farther way from me... Huk... Huk... i dont seee him anymore... ......... is this why Yoo Bin warned me not to meet Hwanee?? is it?? ............ no.. no... that girl could just be a friend.. i have to have faith in Hwanee.. i have to trust him.. it's probably nothing... i arrived at my house... i held onto my cell and the earpiece... when the phone rings, i jump in surprise.. because it could be Hwanee... but its not him.. RinG....Ring... "Hello. Hwanee!!!!" "Yeh Won!! its me, Eun Jin.. you didnt meet Hwanee??" "Huh?? no...." "about.. about that!! Hwanee's at our family club right now..." "Hwanee is ?? where?? where is he???" "but Hwanee's a little strange right now!!" "where is he?? where is he.. Eun Jin.. where is the club??????" "remember .. the Shin Chon night club we went to before...." "i got it. Eun Jin... thanks.." i hung up.. and ran to Shin Chon night club... i hoped with all my heart that nothing bad happened to him... ".............." i was going to enter the club when.. the older body guards blocked me.. "show me your id..." "huh?? uh.. my friend is inside." "if you dont show me your id, you cant enter.." ah. are you serious... why are these men doing this.. before, they just let me in... . ^ Hwak. i'm gonna tell on him... "uh.. i said my friend is inside!!!!!!!!!" "without your id, you cannot enter!!!" "seriously!! i left it at home.." without a second thought, i lied.. as soon as i replied.. it looked like i had a chance.. but those bastards snorted in laughter... . ^ "really!! i said i left it at home.." i tried my best to enter.. but those men just pushed me aside.. they are a little too strong for me.. . ^ "Ahjusshi.. let me go in!!!" was it because i called him an Ahjusshi? but those guys pushed me even harder .. . ^ helpless, i paced next to the entrance.. i took out my cell phone. i was about to call Hwanee when.. underneath Hwanee's number was Eun Jin's.. .. . ^ did she put herself in yesterday? i called Eun Jin. "....please..please........ huh? Hello!!!! EUn Jin!!! i..... where am i?? those bodyguards wont let me come inside.. huh?? okay................" Eun Jin said she would come out.. >0< did 1 minute pass?? Eun Jin came up from the lower level, chomping on a piece of gum "Eun Jin!!!!" those Ahjusshi's turned to look at Eun Jin. "OPpa!! this is my friend!!" "your friend??" those guys looked at my face and my clothes.. i feel a little embarrassed... . ^ "keke you have these kinds of friends too????????????" "OppA... will you shut up??? plus this is the old man's wife!!! whats wrong with you!!!!" "Hwanee!!????????? really????? did he change his taste in girls???????" those Ahjusshi's looked at me, completely in shock to the end, i glared at those Ahjusshi's. "hurry, take her and go away.." that fat guy.. lets see you do that again next time.. i will kick you.. holding onto Eun Jin's hand, we entered the club. "ey.. Han Yeh Won!! what do you think you're wearing!! you should have at least changed.. or brushed your hair." "what?? Ey!!! theres no time for that!! i ran like crazy over here.." "................." to tell the truth, when Eun Jin said that to me.. i was a little ashamed... i was wearing a long grey skirt.. and a jean jacket.. and one house slipper... my long hair was tangled, with only one pin stuck in it... i searched for Hwanee. "....where is he?? where's Hwanee???" "huh?? th... that is....." Eun Jin stared straight ahead of her; she seemed shocked while answering me.. "..............." i looked to where Eun Jin was staring at.. it was far away so i couldnt get a good view but.. it was Hwanee.. Hwanee... with girls on both sides of him....... Hwanee was drinking....... 56. "Yeh Won!! Yeh Won!!" shes calling me.. EunJin... "Han Yeh Won!! Yeh Won!! why are you crying??" "Eun Jin!!" "yea/// tell me.." "Hwanee.." "yea. Hwanee.... what did that stupid old man say??" "Hwanee.. Hwanee. said he doesnt like me.. he doesnt like me.." Eun Jin looked at me with sympathetic eyes.. and then she hugged me.. ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ for a few days.. Hwanee didnt come home.. .. "Yeh Won!!" "huh???" Eun Jin grabbed onto me.. and touched my face. and she randomly looked at this and that.. . ^ its embarrassing.. "Han Yeh Won!! your face looks so gaunt and tired.. and you dont even have any blemishes.. what should i do.. . ^ " "it.. its okay.^^;;" "okay? whats okay?? is this unshapely figure a human?? what will you do if you die like this?????? . " "why would i die???" "this isnt working.. i'll introduce you to someone.. oh thats right.. i know a decent guy. why didnt i think of him sooner??.." "ah.. its okay.. im fine.." "whats okay?? how can i just stand here watching you be like this?? want to meet him tomorrow? no. how about right this minute???" "i said its okay.." at that second, she took out her phone and recklessly started pushing buttons.. ".................(dumfounded)" "this bastard isnt picking up!!! hello... huh?? Jong Min!!! what do you mean you dont know me!! its Eun Jin.." "........" "Hyun Jong Min. are you busy today?? you're going drinking?? what do you mean you're drinking!!! okay, i'll probably buy you a drink..." "Eun Jin!!! EY!!!!" i twisted Eun Jin this and way and that. but Eun Jin didnt move at all. "okay then.. today.. it has to be today!!! yea you jerk!!! okay.. come to Rock Cafe at 7 today!!!!! bye!!" "ey!! whatswrong with you.. why are you doing whatever you want to do!!! i said i didnt want to meet someone!!" "Han Yeh Won!! i told you.. how can i live, knowing you're like this!!! you still havent forgotten that bastard.. so.. meet this guy.. he's really a good guy......!" "!! NO!!!!!!!!!!" "ey. the bell's about to ring.. lets go inside.." Eun Jin dragged me into the classroom. without hearing properly what i think! .... why is time going so fast?? . ^ its 6 20.. i wrapped myself in my covers and pleaded.. prayed. but ding dong!! ding dong!! "................ euk... no!" "ey.. Han Yeh WOn!! you're not gonna open the door?? i know you're in there.." .......... "HAn Yeh Won!! open up the door this instant!!" i kept the door closed. it became quiet.. 'did she leave?' i quietly opened the door to make sure.. "euaaaaaaaaaaak..." "Han Yeh Won!! you hoe. hurry and come out." Eun Jin was waiting quietly next to me.. . ^ i was helplessly dragged to Rock Cafe.. i knew Eun Jin was frkn strong.. >0< if Hwanee saw me right now, he would probably think that i was a pushover right?? ............ this Rock Cafe is noisy without failure.. ......... now im going to be reminded of Jin Hwan.. Jin Hwan.. the last time he was good to me.. "huh?? Hyun Jong Min!!" "ey!! why are you so late?? huh?? this is the girl???" "yea.. shes pretty, huh?? this is my best friend Han Yeh Won!! say hi!!" "hi..." "............" "hello????? . ^" Jong Min's face was twisted in confusion.. "ey... !! she cant talk?? is she mute??...." why is he saying that so sincerely?? "Han Yeh Won!! talk!!" "i said i didnt want to come!!" . ^ Huk.. did i say that out loud??? what do i do?? what do i do?? i shouldnt have said that.. "Huk... Jjok Sae's wife!! so this girl doesnt like me, is that it?? is that it?? ." his facial expression looks like he's about to cry. "ah.. no its not that!!" "but it is!!!" this guy is really weird.. his face is really cute though.. but his personality.. his personality.. . ^ "ey. its too loud here.. so lets go outside.." strong Eun Jin dragged both of us out of the Rock Cafe. "..............." and.. as soon as we came out "ey.. then im gonna go.. have fun!!" "huh?? Eun Jin!! Eun Jin??" ........ ............... evil hoe. how can she just leave me like that??!!!! "my name is Hyun Jong Min!! ^^ what's your name??" "huh?? Ha.. Han Yeh Won." "HAn Yeh Won?? ah.. your name is pretty.. one of my ex's was named Han Yeh Won...^^;;" "y. yea...???" is that something to brag about... . ^ "you.. go to the same school as Jjok Sae right??" Jjok Sae?? Jjok Sae= Eun Jin?? is that what he's saying?? "huh?? yea..." "ah... i live in InChun..." "InChun?? what school??" Huk.. did i ask a question??? . ^ "what school?? i dropped out a long time ago..^^;; Jjok sae didnt tell you??" "huh?? i see..." he doesnt go to school??? . ^ then.. isnt that a little strange... . ^ "you're 19 right.. because you're the same age as Jjok Sae... . ^" ­ he said­ "huh?? im 18.." "you're not 19???" "no im 18... � " "ah.. you didnt get held back!!" "what?? what... what are you saying??" "JJok Sae got held back a year!" "WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!" what a shock.. why didnt Eun Jin tell me this?? . ^ "you didnt know?? seriously?? seriously????????? dont tell Jjok Sae that you know!!! got it? if you tell her, i die!!! . my life is in your hands.." "ah.. okay.." i really cant get used to him... . ^ "what should we play??" "hey...." "huh??" i have to tell him.. before. before.. "hey." "say it..^^" that pureand angelic laugh. how can i , after seeing that.. . my heart hurts... "hey.. so.. i came here against my will.. i came because Eun Jin dragged me.. im sorry." ".........." he stared dumfoundedly at me.. . ^.. what do i do??? what do i do? "oh i see!! anyways.. that Jjok Sae. i knew she was like that... i got it.. ^^ owell.. cant do anything about it.... okay then..." "................" "then we can just play together.. see.. Jjok Sae called me to make you have some fun.." "what???" "lets go.." "w.. where??" "do you like amusement parks??" "huh????? yea....." "yea?? then lets go. right now.. wow.. we still have time to ride some rides.." without knowing where i was going, i was dragged to some place by this unique person. this place.. this place is Wol Mi Do.. "this place is called Wol Mi Do.. its a little dirty huh??? but i dont have a lot of money on me right now... so lets just play here ..^^" "huh??..............." "okay.. stay here.." and that guy ran over to where they were selling tickets.. and came running back to me. "lets ride the Disco and the Viking.." "....................." right.. right.. this place.. this place... this was where i was beat up.. and where Hwanee saved me right? where was that again?? i looked about my surroundings.. oh right.. that place over there.. . ^ why am i going to all the places i went with Hwanee.. why do i keep thinking about Hwanee?? i feel so stupid.. "................." "why are you crying?? are you hurt? you dont want to ride??" "huh?? im.. im sorry.. i .. i dont want to ride anything..." "why?? i already got tickets.. it seems like a waste if we dont ride.." "im sorry.. im sorry........" ".............. its okay.... you dont like Wol Mi Do??" "huh?? ah.. no.. ..its nothing like that... im sorry..." and i ran away from Wol Mi Do and saw that it was in the distance. why do i miss Hwanee so much? why do i want to see him so badly... . what the heck could he be doing right now?? is he eating right?? is he sleeping in a comfortable place??? does he miss me??????............. 57. ............ "Yeh Won!!!" "..........." Jong Min is running toward me. "dont cry!! dont cry!! you cant cry.." and he wiped the tears from my face... he really is a special person.. im so idiotic.. yet he makes a person feel so comfortable.. "thank you.." "no need to thank me.. this is something any person would do.. but, you dont like Wol Mi Do huh!" "no. its not that!!!!! oh yea. what do we do about those tickets??" "ah. im going to ask for a refund.." "a refund??" "yea..^^ im friends with the workers..^^" ".. keke........." "wow~!! you smiled.. you smiled.. its the first time ive seen you smile..^^" "...................00.." what the­ this is nothing... along with Hyun Jong Min, who ive met for the first time, we ate ramyun.. and talked.. and walked together.. it feels like it's been a long time since ive last laughed.. "so what do you do since you dont go to school??" "me?? i do a lot of things.." "like what??" "I take pictures.. and i learn about photography.. and i work.." "photography?? photography? you take pictures???" "yea ^^ mushesuh huh?? hot..?!!!!^^" . ^ Huk. if he didnt say that, it might have been mushesuh.. but my interest went way down... . ^ "wow.. mushesuh.. you wanted to take pictures so you quit school??" "yup.. it didnt seem like i needed school.. i thought it was more useful to take pictures.. then to memorize some english words.. i didnt feel like i accomplished anything.. and .. and...." "wow.. mushesuh.." "do you wanna drop out and take pictures with me??" "what!!!!!!!!!ah.. no thanks..^^;;" i felt guilty for a second... . ^ tch..drop out of school... ^^ | | liar..^^ should i take your picture next time????" "huh???? really?? would you?? aish.. no.. you cant.. im ugly.. and i cant hide it in pictures.. . ^" "no!!.." he ran over there and sat.. and stood back up. and he started posing .. keke he's so fun.. "next time i'll go visit you at school.^^" "my school??" "yea ^^ i'll take pictures of you then.." "yea?? okay then... ah. here's my house.. im gonna go now.." "here?? wow nice house!!!" "ye. yea??^^ then bye.. thanks so much for the great time.." "i had fun too.^^ bye..." "kay." he's really a fun guy.. there was no awkwardness between us although i had just met him. i went up to my house... "..........the door is open..... Ahjumma!! why is the door..." ................ .......... ....... there was Hwanee. and a distance away from Hwanee, Ahjumma was crying while looking at him!!!! "............." Hwanee was packing his stuff in his room. ".. Ahjumma...." "Heuk.....Heuk..." Ahjumma gingerly leaned her head on my shoulder.. "Ahjumma!! whats happening...???" "Heuk.......heuk..." Ahjumma didnt say a word.... Hwanee came out, with a bag slung on his shoulder... "im leaving...." ".......heuk.......heuk.." Ahjumma secretively leaned on my shoulder and started crying harder. "why are you crying?? im not even leaving permanently.." .............he's leaving?? where??? "................" and Hwanee shut the door as he left.. hes leaving..... but where is he going?? "Ahjumma... i'll be back." i flung open the door and ran out of the house. the elevator was on the 6th floor. "........Hwanee!!!" i ran like crazy down the stairs. i was on the 3rd floor when.. the elevator was already on the 1st. "HwAnee!! Hwanee!!!!!!!!!!" ............. .......... ...... when i arrived on the 1st floor. Hwanee was in a strange black car. "Hwanee!!!!!!!!!!" and that car passed right by me.. ..."Hwanee.. Hwanee!!!!!!" "..................." again, Hwanee only showed me his profile.. will he always show me the side of his face.... after seeing how hurt Ahjumma was, i couldnt bear to ask any questions. holding onto my mom's picture, i cryed continuously.. when i woke up... my eyes were puffy and swollen.. "Ahjumma!! i'm awake ^^" i got up before her and started preparing breakfast.. "you're making breakfast??????" "yes ^^ but i dont know if the seasoning tastes right.." ........ we ate breakfast like that and i rode the bus to school.... hoping that Ahjumma will have peace of mind.. ........ my swollen eyes.. . ^ someone might see me.. so i lowered my head as i went toward school. right then... "ey. i heard Han Yoo Bin is going out with some girl.." ........... Yoo Bin?? "ah.. that Kim Ji Min girl?? the one that used to follow Jin Hwan around???" "yea.. it's not even funny.. Han Yoo Bin is ill again.." "kekekke its not even funny!!" Yoo Bin is going out with Kim JI Min???? really?? really?? dazed, i got off the bus.. Yoo Bin is going out with Ji Min?? is that right?? "Yeh Won!!!!" "huh?? Min Jae..." "^^ why are you eyes so puffy????" "huh?? ah.. dont look at them!! its embarrassing..." "keke its cute ^^" "ey!! dont make fun of them!!" i was chatting with Min Jae when... ........ there was a girl with long hair, wearing a Jo Young Gong Go uniform, standing at the front gate.. who is that?? Min Jae's expression became slightly stiff. "Han Yeh Won!!" "......." shes calling me again?? ­00­ "Hi Min Jae..??" "hi... Ji Min.. how have you been??" "fine.. Han Yeh Won!! i have something to say to you..." "to me?" "Min Jae. go in first.. i have to talk with her.." "Yeh Won!! okay then bye.." "huh?? okay...." we sat on a school bench. "so what happened??" "with what??" "what happened with Hwanee!!!" "what do you mean what happened???" "i heard Hwanee moved into Yoo BIn's house.." "what?" "you didnt know?? i heard you and Hwanee broke up?? and Hwanee was the one to do it???" ".........i forgot him... no, im in the process of forgetting.. so..." "you idiot !!! do you know how hard it is for Hwanee right now??" ".................." "its because of you, stupid!!! because he's living with Yoo Bin.. he cant protect you.. so... thats why he broke up with you!!! so that would be less tiring for him.. that bastard.. that bastard... is hurting right now.. by himself.. and he doesnt even try to hold onto me.. he just let me go.." "............what... what are you saying??" "you still didnt know anything!! you fool... aish. stupid!!!!! that jerk was afraid of leaving you so that's why he ended the relationship.. that cowardly jerk.. that guy is afraid of a lot of things.." "Hwanee is??? Hwanee said that?" "what, are you stupid?? you didnt know that?? so when Hwanee said he didnt like you anymore. you believed it when he broke up with you??" "i.. i............" "hold onto Hwanee.. Hwanee still likes you.. so. dont let Hwanee go.." "me... me?" even if i held onto Hwanee, what can i do for him? i cant do anything.. i want to know too.. the thing i am able to do for him......... "okay......." dazed, i got up from my seat..... "where are you going??" "to school......" "what are you gonna do about it!!!" "im sorry.. i i... cant do anything... i.. am hurting too.. and i dont even know what i can do for Hwanee.. Hwanee was the one that chose this..." "........... Han Yeh Won!!!" "i heard you're going out with Yoo Bin. congratulations.. i hope it works out.." Ji Min suddenly became silent. i went to school... scaredy cat Jin Hwan.. why are you pointlessly worrying about someone else... we didnt even fight yet.. im okay.. but.... he gave up­ all by himself!! that guy, seriously.. what a wuss.. a wuss!!!!! "Han Yeh Won!!" Ji Min was calling me. "its because of you that Hwnaee gave up!! its because of you!!!" ".............." im sorry Ji Min... i really dont know.. what i can do for him. i dont know what im supposed to do... i want to hold onto Hwanee too... 58. ".....Yeh Won!!!" "you.. you're dead!!!!!" evil Eun Jin hoe.. i want to ask her this minute. about her beng held back... and why she never told me... "did it go well?? how did it go with Jon Min??? Jon Min is pretty decent huh? huh????" " . ^" "that jerk thanked me.. because he likes you." "dont kid around!!!" "Yeh Won!! whats wrong with you??? . ^" and she suddenly hugged me.. "ah. i cant breathe.. if you do that again. you die!!" "i got it. i got it.. because.. you guys are good together.. today im buying you and Jon Min dinner!!!" "really!! im gonna eat a lot!!" "dont worry!! dont worry~!!!!" how much is she going to spend.. im expecting a lot.. Eun Jin ^^ throughout class, Eun Jin kept sending text messages on her phone. getting annoyed.. and cussing.. she was almost caught three times in an hour but.. but to my relief, she was not caught. break time... "ey.. we have to go out right after school.." "to where??" "to Shin Chon.. i told you im buying you dinner!!" "ah. oh yea.. okay then.." "kekeke you guys are caught red handed!!!" and she slowly disappeared its shocking.. if i tell Eun Jin that Jong Min told me all about her, she will probably kill me... "Han Yeh Won!!!" kicking the door, Yoo Bin entered. everyone turned to look at Yoo Bin. ............... Yoo Bin looked very excited "..................." "Han Yeh Won!! so what happened??" Yoo Bin asked, holding onto both my shoulders. "with.. what???" "what happened!!did you seriously break up with Hwanee!!" "yea... Yoo Bin...." "evil bastard.. mother f_cker.. i should beat his a$$.." "Yoo Bin........... Yoo Bin." Yoo Bin hugged me. he shouldnt do this.. he shouldnt do this.. he's with Ji min!!!! "Yoo Bin!! everyones loking!!" "what should i do?? should i kill them all?? or.. do the same to theM?" "what?? NO.. NOo!!!" "you're so idiotic and kind­hearted.. im sorry for not protecting you. im sorry!!" "ey.. Han Yoo Bin.. you're going out with Ji Min!! everyone knows so let go!!! when im saying it nicely...." Yoo Bin looked at me, surprised.. ".....................0" "im going out with her because of you!!" "good excuse!!!" "for reals!!" "no. its okay.. whatever.. good luck with Ji Min.." "Yeh Won!!" like that, i moved out of Yoo Bin's way and went to my seat.. Whew.... ­00­ why am i feeling so bitter ??? . ========================================= ========================= "Han Yeh WOn!!!!" "huh??"" "hurry and come over here.." "huh???? okay.." i ran with Eun Jin to Shin Chon. knowing that Jong Min was already there waiting for us.. ".. that bastard hates waiting.." "really?? but we cant do anything about it!!" ....... we hurriedly ran along.. Jong Min was standing blankly in front of the movie theatre.. "Jjoe deng!!!" [*just a nickname] "ey. Jjok Sae!! why are you so late??? you know im a busy person!!!" "im very sorry..." "hi Yeh Won!!!" "hey.. ah.. Hello.." Eun Jin lookes a little angry.. . ^ "Yeh Won!!! lets take pictures!!" "huh???????" "ey.. Hyun Jong Min.. do you not see me???" ­Eun Jin, offended­ "you were here too?? do you want to take pictures?" "^^;;" "ey. Hyun Jong Min.. you have no frkn manners!! you jerk!!!!!!!!!!!" "i got it. Jjok Sae Hyung.. should we take pictures over there???" [*talking in honorific form] "okay. even if you told me not to take pictures i would!! dont think about it!! jerk!" and Eun Jin went into the photo booth.. "ey.. lets take this dollar one.." "no. im gonna take the 3 dollar one!!!" ...........i wonder how this is going to end .. . ^ bending to Eun Jin's will, we took the 3 dollar picture. ........... there was that time i took pictures with Hwanee mental patients running away "okay now smile.. we're taking it now.. Yeh Won!! smile.." "huh??" Flash.. "ey. smile!!" right then, Jong Min touched my face.. >0< Flash.. "ey.. lets get this one.." "no.. i came out weird!!" "no.. that one over there, i didnt smile so my eyes are looking downward!!" "still..." Click.. Jong Min immediately pressed the button.. . ^ 10 minutes later, our picture came out.. my expression looks so overjoyed.. and Jong Min looks so happy too... but Eun Jin looks a little pouty.. ......... .................. 59. we left the sticker machine.. "ey. its weird!!!!!!" "what are you talking about!!!!" laughing, the three of us went to eat dinner. the food Eun Jin said she was buying.. was BBQ chicken...>0< i love BBQ chicken so much.. "Yeh Won!! eat a lot and have some strength." Jong Min said, as he placed a huge piece of chicken on my plate "huh?? s.. sure.." Eun Jin's glare is sharp.. >0< why is this guy doing this? ...................... "Yeh Won!! eat this too." again, Eun Jin's eyes shot darts at me. "sh_t.. im not gonna eat!! im not gonna eat !!!" ............. then Eun Jin stomped out of the room!! "ey. Jjok sae. why are you saying you're not eating after you just ate a lot?? you have to pay and then leave!!! Yeh Won!! stay here.." "huh?? kay.." Jong Min chased after Eun Jin. and Jong Min came back in. his expression looks bright. "Yeh Won @@ come out.. Jjok Sae gave me money.." "huh?? okay .." im so servile.till the end.. . ^ i followed Jong Min outside. "Eun Jin!! Eun Jin!!!" i chased after Eun Jin. "let go.. i shouldnt have brought that guy.. that bastard pisses me off.." "ey. what did i do??" near us, a huge crowd of people were forming. making a lot of noise too.. "you said it before.." again, Eun Jin walked away at a fast pace.. "Eun Jin!!" "Jjok Sae!!" right then, the sticker picture that we took fell on the floor. "Hold on!!!" i was about to pick up the picture when a guy's foot.. and a group of people's legs. Eun Jin looked at that guy with a shocked expression.. "...... Jin Hwan!!!!!" "............." faltering, Hwanee picked up that picture.. it's really Hwanee.. its really... really Hwanee. "................" did he drink?? i smell the strong aroma of alcohol.. Hwanee continued staring at the picture. his expression looks angry.... "................" ...............Hwanee turned to look at me. ".. will you.. please give me the picture?" unknowingly, i used formal language.. if i said 'give it to me" then.. then. it would have sounded stranger... Hwanee looked at me with cold eyes. "will you please give it to me?? (with a sarcastic tone) will you please.. haha.." now i feel horrible.. that tone... i saw a smile on his lips. his eyes arent smiling.. only his lips that fake laugh Hwanee again, looked at me with cold eyes. ".................." "it must be nice.. that you're living so freely.. it would be so great if i could live life like you do. arent you thankful that i dumped you?? you look so happy.. you look so joyful.. you must be grateful huh?? am i wrong??" again, that tone of voice.. >0< tears.. tears are on the verge of falling. i cant cry.. but why am i feeling so guilty? its a misunderstanding. .a misunderstanding.. theres no one but you.. i still cant forget about you. "yea.. thanks. im so thankful.. to you.. thank you so much.." i said something that was so far from the truth.. with his lips trembling, Hwanee quickly grabbed my wrist it really hurts.. it really.. really hurts.. "dont ever come in my sight again!!!" Hwanee threw the picture that was clenched in his hand. and he left.. ........... "ey!! Han Jin Hwan!! you evil bastard!! how about YOU try staying away Yeh Won!!! he.. he.. he was the one that sent Jong Min.. he was.." Eun Jin yelled at Hwanee, who was walking away. the crumpled picture. crying, i picked up the picture from the floor.. why are tears coming out?? i smoothed out the wrinkled picture.. drop.........drop.. drop............. "Yeh Won!!" Jong Min called me quietly.. evil bastard.. evil bastard... im going to get over you.. you jerk. but i dont even believe myself.. does that jerk think im like that?... ..............why does my heart hurt so much? i watched Hwanee's departing figure walk farther and farther away ... ............... even now, i should run after him.. no.. no.. theres no one else but you.. i still am not over you. i dont think i ever could.. it is too hard to bear.. i want to run after him and hug him... ........... "Yeh Won..." "whats his problem?? whos does he think he is!! he. he.. what kind of jerk is that??? Heuk.. Heuk........." tears carelessly poured out.. Jong Min carefully hugged me.. thanks Jong Min.. i even showed him my disgraceful side.. but.. ............... "you two were like that?? it was like that??" patting me, Jong Min muttered to himself what is he saying?? "i didnt even know anything.. i was so stupid.." "Jong Min!!" what the heck is Jong Min talking about ?? my head hurts.. it feels like its spinning.. >0< 60. "lets go.. sh_t. i'll pay.. drinking comes after eating.. do you wanna drink??" Eun Jin yelled in a loud voice.. "............" Jong Min and Eun Jin grabbed both my hands and dragged me to a bar.. "okay now.. drink!! Ahjumma.. over here!!!" "..............." .... in a short moment, the beers came out.. it looks like there's over 10 bottles.. "Han Yeh Won!! you drink this one.. if we need more, we'll order more. im gonna buy a lot of food for you today!!" "whoa... how long has it been??" drooling, Jong Min opened a couple of bottles. "okay Yeh Won!! eat this. and drink a lot­ try to forget Jin Hwan.." "................" how does Jong Min know Hwanee?? "................" "okay... come on.. usually, Eun Jin wouldnt pay for anything, even if a knife was at her throat.. but because of you, she's buying this for us." "okay..^^ i'll drink thankfully.." squeezing my eyes shut, i drank a gulp.. from my feet to my head.. should i say that i felt static electricity?? its hot.. my whole body is hot.. ">0<" "Han Yeh Won!! that jerk is nothing.. he is nothing.. he's hurting you?? but you're my friend.. you're my friend.." "Eun Jin.. you're already drunk??" "what do you mean, am i drunk?? . ^" shes so drunk.... . ^ "pathetic old man.. . ^ pathetic old man.. . ^ he should have just gone out with you.. hes so stupid.. he's like a fool.. he still likes Yeh Won.. he cant even forget her... � .. *hiccup*.." "you're drunk.. Jjok Sae. dont drink anymore!!" "Ey!!!!!!!!" Eun Jin yelled.. she's definitely drunk. "ook....ook.." Eun Jin grabbed her mouth as she ran out the door. she's staggering.. she looks like a drunken man. right then. CRAsH!!!!!!!!! Eun Jin fell onto her back... it must hurt a LOT..>0< "what happened?" "ow... ow.. my head!!!!" "Eun Jin!!!!" Eun Jin ran into the people that were coming in and hit her head. "ah sh#t.. what jerk did this.." Eun Jin stood up as she rubbed her head and with a loud voice.. "uh.. Han Yoo Bi.... ooh. retch*.." grabbing her motuh, she ran out again. sometimes when i watch Eun Jin ,its so fun... "Yeh Won!!" "oh.. Yoo Bin.." "what are you doing here?" "me?? im drinking ^^" ".............." Ji Min was also standing in front of me.. so they really are going out!! they are a suitable couple.. they look like they're made for each other.. she's pretty.. and he's good looking.. when i went around with Hwanee.. what did other people think? keke im so stupid.. im so stupid.. Ch.. . ^ he said he liked me.. and then he turned around and got with Ji Min?? this is why i cant trust guys.. >0< wait a minute, what am i thinking about!!! am i drunk too???? ".................." Yoo Bin stared grimly at Jong Min and me. "Han Yeh Won!!!" "huh?? what..^^" ............ Yoo Bin grabbed my wrist and dragged me outside ....... Ji Min was right there too.. "ow!! it hurts........." "what about Jin Hwan?? what about that jerk???" "what about him? kekeke" "Han Yeh Won!! tell me correctly.. how much did you drink!!!" ".. i didnt drink very much.. i didnt drink.. Eun Jin was the one that drank a lot..^^ kekeke" Yoo Bin held tightly onto my shoulder.. it hurts......... "Han Yeh Won!! is that all you can do??? why do you think i gave you up.. what happeend with you and Jin Hwan!!! what happened??????" "with what?? huh?? what about him??" angry, Yoo Bin shook my shoulder.. im really dizzy.. a bird is flying around my head... . "Han Yeh Won!!! get back to your senses.. this is not a time for you to be doing this.." "......................" i sat on the stairs.. drop... drop... my tears wet my pants.. why am i crying?? why.. "Han Yeh Won!! please get back to reality.. you have to.." "i.. i.. what should i do??? im clueless.. about what i should do... Yoo Bin!!! will you let me know?? what i should do??? i really.. seriously.. dont know.." drop. drop... seeing my tears.. Yoo Bin listened to me and seemed surprised he slowly released the hand that was on my shoulder and hugged me tightly.. "........................" i cant push Yoo Bin away. we shouldnt be doing this.. "Heuk.... Heuk.." why do i want to keep leaning on him?? " you idiot!! you stupid fool.. you have to hold onto him.. you cant let him get away.. do everything to hold onto him.. you fool!!!!! you didnt know that??? you're so hurt... you're so hurt by yourself.. why did you choose such a difficult road... stupid!!!! if you came to me.. if you came to me, none of this would have happened!!!" "............heuk.......heuk.....is that right?? did i make a mistake??.........." "its not too late.. dont let him get away.. hold onto him.." "but.. but Yoo Bin.. but i have no motivation to do that.. what do i do?? i shouldnt be feeling this way.. i like that jerk soo much.. but.. i have no courage.. am i making any sense???" Yoo Bin continued to hug me.. he must have read my heart.. because he didnt say a word.. ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ "go inside.." "thanks...." i feel wide awake... "okay.. go inside.." "okay...." i went throught the entrance.. "Han Yeh Won!!" "................" "be strong.. if its too hard, you can always come to me.." "^^.......... � " thanks Yoo Bin..^^ .......... the next minute i cant concentrate.. my head is spinning.. i was taking off my shoes when.. Hwnaee's room caught my eye.. ................ i quietly entered Hwanee's room.. ................. like the first time i came into the room, it's just as clean... ............ was it always this empty with Hwanee gone?? i quietly laid on his bed.. ................ i smell Hwanee's scent....... the soap only Hwanee is allowed to use.. last time, i used it once and he was so mad.. keke Hwanee used to always sleep wrapped up in his blankets... keke he's a hilarious person.. he's such a fun person to be around... ".............." did Jong Min get home okay?? and Eun Jin too??? ............ 61. today is saturday.. cheerful saturday.. i have to be strong... yesterday, Yoo Bin told me.. to hold onto him. that's what i have to do.. ".................." i woke up early this morning and decided to walk instead of taking the bus.. how long did i walk?? slowly, my legs started to ache.. "aigoo my legs.." i rested on a bench near the sidewalk.. "whew........" drrrrrrr ...drrrrrrrrrr my phone's vibrating.. . ^ it feels so weird. "hello.." ".............." "hello??!" "................." why isnt that person saying anything?? this is a prank call.. a prank... "hello!!! Hwanee??? Hwanee!!.. Hwanee, right??!!" "...................ah..." CliCk..... beep... beep.......beep......beep....... "Hello!! Hwanee!! Hwanee!!" no matter how loudly i yelled.. i only heard an echo of myself.. that person didnt say anything.. it could have been Hwanee. i want to believe that it was Hwanee.. Hwanee... during that short period of time, tears started to come out. drrrrrrrrr...drrrrrrrrr... "HellO!! Hwanee!! dont hang up!!!" "Yeh Won!! its me, Jong Min!! . ^ " "ah. Jong Min!!" "Sorry... that im not him." "ah.. no its okay ^^" "." "oh yea.. Jong Min. did you get home okay yesterday??" "huh?? yea.. where did you go?? when i got up.. you were gone. do you know how long i looked for you.. . ^ " "oh.. about that.. i .. i left early.." "yea??" "Yeh Won!! can i visit you at school today??" "my school? why??" "lets play today.. and take pictures ^^" "pictures.. okay ^^" "so around the time school ends.. like at 12, i'll meet you at the back gate..^^" "sure..." "okay.. then bye!!!" "huh?? keke okay.." "bye..>0<" "huH?? bye.." "kay.." "for reals!!" "okay." CliCk... i quickly hung up..^^;; Hoo.. there was no reason for Hwanee to be calling me.. i got up again and went toward school.. at 9 i stood at the back gate and went inside when the bell rang. i avoided the tardy police's eyes.. "Han Yeh Won!! what happened to you yesterday!!" "what do you mean??" "where did you disappear to??" "huh?? that.. i just.. went home because i was drunk." "do you know how much i looked for you??" "^^;;" 3rd period.. Yoo Bin came in.. now i've gotten used to it.. his half closed eyes.. did he not sleep well?? was it.... beacuse of me?? . .............. "okay. turn in the correspondence i gave you yesterday.. quickly.." "oh yea." im positive.. i stuck it in here.. i rummaged through my bag.. "im so sure. i left it in here.." flutter*... ............... something fell from my bag.. i lowered my head and picked it up. .......... the sticker picture i took with Hwanee at the hospital.. "mental patients escaping.. keke" we look so joyful.. we looked so happy.. why are we like this now??? why....... "Han Yeh Won!! why arent you turning it in?? you're the only one who didnt." "ah. i.. i'll turn it in now.." at the last minute, i found it and turned it in. and looked at the clock.. 11 50. i walked toward the back gate.. "..........." its noisy here.. . ^ ............ "Yeh Won!!!" of course, it was Jong min.. this is why. this is why i dont like.. good looking people. how nice would it be if he didnt act like he knew me?? >0< "Yeh Won!!! i waited for 15 minutes.." "y.. yea???^^;;" .......... Jong Min and i went to the botanical garden in Seoul.. theres seriously nothing but flowers.. mostly flowers i had never seen before. i only recognized the lily and the tulip. and roses.. oh yea.. white roses too.. there's so many flowers in this world... "..............." "Yeh Won!! look over here.." "..............." Click. "good.. ey.. smile once.. i want to take a picture of your smile!!!" "ey. who told you to take my picture!!" "kekeke smile!! hurry." "if i catch you, you're dead!!!!!!!!" Jong Min continued to take pictures of me.. . ^ ............ Jong Min and i were eating lunch when.. "hey.. want to go to Wol Mi Do??" "Wol Mi Do?? but Yeh Won, you dont like Wol Mi Do." "when did i say that!!" "� " "i'll pay for.. the tickets.." "no.. a guy should always pay." ">0< i said i'll pay for them.." i barely got Jong Min to go to Wol Mi Do.. ............ maybe it was because it was Saturday, but there were so many people. "stay here.. i'll get the tickets.." "Okay.." Jong Min ran to where they were selling tickets. "............" over there on the bench, there were people wearing identical uniforms they were pointing and looking at me.. with naseauted expressions.. they stepped out their cigarettes and came to me. "..................." those kids glared fiercely at me. they look familiar.. they do... "its been a while!! why did you come to Wol Mi Do again???" "are you here by yourself this time?? without your scary boyfriend??" those kids nudged my head. oh right.. those kids that beat me last time.. but this time, there are only guys.. "where did he go?? b_tch!! because of that bastard.. do you see this?? this??" "idiot.. its been only 2 weeks since ive completely recovered!!!!!!!!!" "what are you gonna do about it?? what are you gonna do for us??" ­ they yelled­ "...................." they're terrifying.... terrifying..... ".............." right then, Jong Min waved at me as he ran over. "Yeh Won!! i bought them. i bought them.. the nuna gave me a discount.. good huh.." ..........you cant come here. you cant come here... Jong Min!!!! 62. "dont come here!!!!!!" "Yeh Won!!" the kids all looked at Jong Min. "huh.. who's this?? Hyun Jong Min??" "you're right.. the guy that dropped out of school... are you doing good with your pictures??" "................" they know each other?? but the obvious thing was that they were on good terms with each other. i cant keep up. "did you recover from when we beat you?? f_cker.." those kids nudged Jong Min's head and came to me. "lower your eyes.. you're frkn rude!!!" " shi.... you already changed boys??? but why change to this boy?? to some weak bastard.. keke............" ­those boys said­ "ey... we need you to come with us.. lets go." those kids grabbed my arm and dragged me "no.. let go!! let go!!!" "you hoe.." "let go of that hand!!!" Jong Min said from behind us. "that bastard's confidence is coming out." "dont even touch a hair on Yeh Won!!!" he said as he suddenly grabbed my hand. "im holding her.. what are you gonna do about it?? huh?? haha.." the kids started to laugh no.. dont do this! dont do this.. Jong Min!! "let go of that hand.." "you f_cker.." those kids let go of my hand and went towards Jong Min. "JONg Min @@@@@@@@" as soon as they were close enough, they kicked his stomach.. "JOnG MIN!!!!" ".........huk......" "JoNg MiN!!!" Jong Min's legs.. arm.. his chest... head.. those kids continued to recklessly beat him Jong Min fell to the floor. "JONg Min!!!!" "son of a b­tch.. stop talking.. got it??" those kids nudged Jong Min's head with their feet. and i ran to Jong Min. and pushed that foot away.. "dont do this!! dont do this!! look at what you did!!" "you hoe.." the hand that was about to hit me was blocked by Jong Min. there was blood trailing from his head.. and he could barely open his eyes. "dont mess with her!!!" "............" "sh_t... this is why i dont like you.." ­one guy said­ "............" "i said not to look at me with those eyes." Jong Min glared at the kids without blinking.. if a stranger saw this scene. he would have looked at us strangely.. "..............." "you have problems.." those kids spat and left "Jong Min!! JOng Min!! are you okay??" "^^ ow.." "dont smile!!" but Jong Min made an effort to smile. "Yeh Won!! arent you proud of me." "Jong Min!!" with a pained face, he twisted around and pulled out something from his pocket. and handed it to me.. "...whats this??" "fi.. film.." "film???" "the ones we took before.. de.. develop them please.." "Jong Min!!!" "^^.........thud......." Jong Min let go of my hand. "Jong Min!!! JOng Min!!!!" ......... hes not dying, right?? he's not going to die.. he's not going to die.. i quickly dialed 119 [*911 in korea] "..............." my clothes, my skin.. and my hands.. were stained with blood........ how much blood did he lose... what a fool.. he's really a fool... "............" ........ i dashed to the hospital...... why are my hands shaking so much... please.. please dont let anything bad happen!!! "hello.. where is Hyun Jong Min.." "room 302." "ah. thank you..." this is the first time i've ran in a hospital.. i dont know how much i ran... room 302.. Hyun Jong Min.. and some other people.. "Jong Min!! Jong Min!!!" i opened the door and went in when.. the first thing i saw was a person with bandages all over his body. iits not.. its not Jong Min is it? 63. "Jong Min!! Jong Min!!!!" i ran towards him. ............ ....... . ^ "im sorry.. im so sorry.. . " "Yeh Won!! what are you doing over there???" did i hold onto this person and cry for a long time?? i heard Jong Min's voice behind me. "....................... . ^ " "^^ keke" "ah.. im so sorry.. ^^;;" this is so embarrassing. i hid my face as i ran to Jong Min. what am i gonna do with myself!!! "..............." "Ey!! so what happened!" Jong Min was grabbing his stomach and rolling around!! "kyaaa.. you're frkn hilarious.. h a h a h a ^^" "dont laugh!!!" "ow my stomach.." "you're dead.." i hit that guy's back as hard as i could. "ow.. ow.." "ah. sorry." "but still, i broke two ribs you know.. . " "im sorry..." he had bandages wrapped around his head. it was still seeping blood. he also had bandages on his chest. its because of me right??? how annoyed must he be?? i know from my past experience as a patient. how uncomfortable will his head be???? "why did you fight?????? because of me.." "i promised.. that i would protect you...." "what?? with who?" "thats a secret! ^^" Jong Min laid down on his bed. ".................." is it Eun Jin??? . ^ "the next time you visit, bring some comic books.. and buy lots of food!! okay??" "..........okay..." "^^ im so bored here.. i usually dont like being cramped up.... . " i understand.. when i was stuck in the hospital for two days, i was tempted to run out of the room . ^ "but you're already awake???" " . ^ is that bad?? huh?" "no... no way.." "they were going to give me an injection in my butt.. so i woke right up.^^ im not even hurt that badly.. although my two broken ribs are a problem.." ".................." "aigoo... my ribs.." "but still, its a relief you're not hurt terribly .." "^^" when Jong Min lowered his head, did i see wrong??? there were blue bruises over his body.. and knife marks... did i see correctly? "and dont forget to develop those pictures.." "kay.^^" "im really curious how those pictures turned out..^^" i played with Jong Min for three hours before heading home. i promised i would visit tomorrow.. i crossed the street........ and i was getting closer to my house.... right then, i saw.. a photo shop... i went in and dropped off the film.. "hoo........." why is it so hard to walk..... and why are my shoulders hunched over? why does my reflection look so pitiful???? Ding.. Hoo........ i was unlocking the door when... is it already open?? "............huh?? Ahjumma!" Ahjumma ran over to me in a hurry!!! "Ahjumma..." "i called your phone for a long time.. why didnt you answer?" "huh?? ah. i turned it off." "Yeh Won!!! do you know a Gong Yoo grandma??" "huh???????? yes... what about my halmoni?" [*halmoni is grandma] "i just found out that she stepped into a puddle on the way to work and fell..." "....................." Halmoni?? my Halmoni?? seriously????? ................ 65. Beep.......... the voice mail got cut off. what the heck is he saying? i hurriedly pressed '2' "wow it gets cut off quickly.. . ^ i was talking for awhile.. last time, Hwanee did something for me.. and now Jin Hwan asked me a favor.. he asked me to stay next to you.. because you were hurting.. at first, i didnt know what he was talking about so i just did as he asked. because i dont like ripping people off.. but.. i met him last time. and. Jin Hwan really thinks about you a lot.. and he only worries about you.. he said that if you met with me, you would forget him easily.. ... he said you wouldnt be hurting.. but now when i look at you.. and i look at Hwanee.. .......its not that at all... you two love each other so much.. .................." Beep......... tears began forming in my eyes.. i quickly pressed '3'. "you're a really good person.. and he's a decent guy as well.. i never knew you two liked each other this much.. wherever we went, i saw you cry.. and i only saw Hwanee drinking.. and i thought to myself, that this was not right. i thought, 'what am i doing?'......... Yeh Won!! im sorry. im sincerely sorry.. i should have told you this sooner. if i knew this was going to happen, i would have told you sooner.. hurry and hold on to him.... because its not too late.. hurry and hold onto him... you cant lose him.. you love him. as much as he loves you.. no.. he loves you even more.. ..........so........." .................. Beep~~~~~~~~~~~ a tear fell. stupid.. bad Hyun Jong Min.. evil person. evil person.. if he was going to do that.. if he was going to do that... ..... idiotic.. he's so idiotic........ i want to meet Hwanee right now but.. but we are too distant from each other.. i cannot leave Halmoni by herself.. ........ ..................... "Halmoni!!~" "Yeh Won!!! you're back?? ^^" "Hal moni.. dont be sick anymore.. if you get sick... i'm going to come visit a certain someone in this town.." "^^" with a warm hand, Halmoni stroked my hair..... "where did that kid go???" "huh??? who??" "that boy you came with last time..." "oh.. .Hwanee." "yes.. you didnt come with him?" ".......no........he was busy........" "really?? so my Yeh Won came by herself?? huh???" "yes.. Halmoni, he's mean.. he's a selfish person.. hes a stupid and selfish person.." "huh???????" "he.. always... alwyas.." "...................." with crinkled eyes, Halmoni gazed at me. she looks very curious... "he never comes to school with me.. and he doesnt try to meet me.. and gets annoyed all the time.. and he's an idiot....." "really? he did that to my Yeh Won?" "yes....." "when he comes next time, Halmoni will punish him.^^" "okay..^^" i carefully leaned my head against Halmoni's knee.. "............." why do i miss him so much??? why do i miss him so much?? why do i miss Hwanee so much??..... that stupid and retarded Hwanee... . 66. ............. im dreaming.... where is this place? above the clouds?? yes, im above the clouds... below me, i see huge cities.... and the mountains.. "............." but above the clouds, i am alone "where am i?? where am i?" "Yeh Won!!" i hear Hwanee's voice ringing in my ear "Hwanee!!~~" i called out to Hwanee in a pitiful voice.. "Yeh Won!!" Hwanee reached his hand towards me. his eyes are so loving.. "....Hwanee.." i ran to Hwanee. surrounding Hwanee was Min Jae.. Yoo Bin.. Ji Min.. Eun Jin.. JOng Min.. Halmoni... and my mom. "Hwanee.." .."grab my hand.." "Hwanee.. eeuuuuuuuuuak" Hwanee became farther and farther from me.. i fell from above the clouds...... Hwanee pushed me.. their laughs.. i hear their laughs... my heartbroken figure ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ "euuuakkkkkkk.." ".............." "........huh?? Halmoni.. . ^" there was sweat trailing from my head. Halmoni was wiping away my sweat "what did you dream about??" "huh??? .. oh..." "are you okay?" "no.. it was scary.." " " Halmoni hugged me....... "go outside and get some fresh air.. if you go around the back.. the scenery is nice.. and theres a fountain too. go and cool your head..." ".........then i'll be back in a few minutes...." "^^" wiping my head, i headed outside. "hoo~~~~~~~~~" its refreshing... ".............." the city is the opposite of the country side. it seems as if im a in a different world...... ..........the air is nice.. and the water too... "..........." i walked on top of the grass. what was my dream about?? what was my dream about?? Hoo... i still felt dizzy. that nightmare.. how many minutes did i walk?? i sat in front of the fountain. "............" ............... near the hospital's entrance.. people were being noisy.. i noticed clothes that i usually dont see in the countryside.. semi­hip hop style.. . ^... a tall guy.. were there kids like that in the countryside??? "..................." that guy.. is looking at me from far away.. "who is it?" since my eyesight is nearsighted.. i cant see very far. ".............." that guy is glaring at me. "............" does he know me?? "................" he took one step.. and another. that guy is coming towards me. he is becoming larger. at one glance, i recognized him. that guy is... that guy is Hwanee... "..............Hwanee.." with sweat dripping on his head.. and with his sleeves pushed back.. Hwanee came to me.. "Hwanee." Hwanee stared at me dumfoundedly.. "................" he left 10 steps between us.. and he stopped walking towrads me. "................" unconsciously, a tear fell.. "..............." why isnt he coming?? why?? i want to run to him.. i want to run to him and hug him.. i want to run.. and hug him tightly. because.. i havent hugged him... for countless days.. countless days. unknowingly, i ran to Hwanee. ".............." its really a scene from a movie.. i never knew i would have this kind of love.. i never knew this was love.. "............." i leaned my head on Hwanee's chest and i hugged him tightly... and cried.. "i missed you.. i missed you so much.. do you know how much i missed you.. why are you coming now.. why..." and then.. Hwanee covered my face with his hands.. "................." "stupid... why did you come now!!! do you know how long i waited for you.. do you know how much it hurt.. why are you coming now!!!" Hwanee hugged me even tighter. did i want this arm this much?? did i want this person this much?? "where are you going?? where are you going!! fawk.. i thought i would go crazy because i wanted to hug you so much!!! so where do you think you're going!!!" "Heuk..........Heuk............" "..............." "..........." how many minutes did we stay like this? we really hugged for a long time.. but to me, it was too short.. i felt Hwanee's wide shoulders once again. my love for Hwanee.. Hwanee's love.. i wanted him this much.. 67. ........ Hwanee touched my face. "............" Hwanee has really pretty eyes.. ......... without saying a word, Hwanee and i looked at each other for a minute... "............." and Hwanee pulled me into a hug once again.. ....... this is so comfortable.. if i died like this i wouldnt have any regrets.. ^..........^ "ahh!!!" " ..what?" on Hwanee's wrist.. was a blue bruise. "i got hit from that halmoni.." "Gong Yoo halmoni??" "yes!!" "why??" "i dont know.." .............. not very exciting.. but why did he get hit?? it must really hurt. my Halmoni is a pretty strong hitter.^^ "pack. lets go back.." "back where??" "Seoul..." "no.. i have to stay by Halmoni." "i came all the way here to take you back!! how are you going to live here by yourself???" "i have Halmoni!!" "� are you going to live without seeing me??" "what??" "i said, are you going to live without seeing me?? can you live like that??" "(i shook my head)" "then hurry and pack.." "still... i have to stay by Halmoni's side!!" "she has no son? and how are you going to live forever in the middle of nowhere??? do you have money? do you have a house?? do you have a family?" ".....no.... but im only staying for a week.." " A WEEK??" surprised Hwanee.. "yea.." "you're not living here??" "who said i was living here!!! since Halmoni was in the hospital, i was going to stay until she got better.." ......Hwanee gaped at me.. "what is this!!" "whats what?" "Ummah said that you were going to live here." "me?? i told her i would stay only for a little bit.. . ^" .............. we stared dumfoundedly at each other.. Hwanee's eyebrows slowly relaxed.. and a smile formed on his lips. Hwanee and i looked at each other and laughed. Ahjumma's joke.. . ^ but if its this kind of joke.. i wouldnt mind having this joke played on me a hundred.. a thousand times. i would like this joke everyday.. .............we went inside the hospital room. "Halmoni^^" "Yeh Won!!! i hit that guy.. arent you proud?? ^^" "what?? why??" "because he made my Yeh Won cry.. see what happens when he makes her cry again.. because then i will break off his limbs!!" .............. Hwanee stood blankly at the door, pleading for my help kekeke Halmoni was released from the hospital. and we're leaving tomorrow.. "ey!!! light the furnace!!" "ah sh#t. why are you asking such a big favor!!" grumbling to himself Hwanee lit the furnace kekeke because he had no clothes. he went to town and just bought a few athletic pieces of clothing and lived in that.. amazing.. that guy.. we were buying clothes. when i couldnt believe what kind of clothes these were � we argued for around 20 minutes.. and finally bought it.. i really cant tell that he's a guy.. because what kind of guy is that tenacious.. . ^ i feel pity for the girl that ends up with him keke "ey.. its not lighting!! annoying. lets just buy one.." "try fanning it. and blow on it!!" why does he have so much to say.. . ^ he interrupted me. "cough... coughcough.. cough." Hwanee's strained voice.. "................." i ran to him. "whats wrong!!" "cough cough... coughcough." Hwanee cannot even properly speak. he went to a corner and just started coughing. "ey!! what kind of guy cant even do that." "cough cough.. sh#t. then you try." "sheesh. unbelievable!!! just look at your face!!" "..............." and Hwanee ran inside the room.. � 68. .. i knew it.. its exactly the same as raising a kid.. . ^ for a few days, all Halmoni did was lie down saying that she needed to lie quietly.. so � everyday, Hwanee and i prepared food, did the dishes, and cleaned.. � ... "Halmoni have dinner!" "you're all done??" "yup..^^" i propped Halmoni up and we ate together.. i dont know if it was because he didnt like the side dishes. but Hwanee ate with a frown upon his face. he did that everyday.. he should just eat what is on his plate.. at times like this, i feel terribly sorry to Halmoni.. "are you going back home tomorrow?" "huh?? yes.." "you're going to come next time right??" "of course i will come." "with that bachelor??" "huh????????? (shocked Hwanee) yes..." "how about next time? are you going to come.. married..??" Halmoni kidded . ^ ".................." "..................." "Halmoni!! what are you saying!! we're only 18 years old.. . ^ " "when i was that age, did you know i already had a baby??" "Halmoni!~~~~" Hwanee hung his head and did not say a word his face looks like a red radish.. "that was then.. that's not how it is now!!! * . *" i cant believe Halmoni!! >­< "............i'll be back..." Hwanee hid his face as he opened the door and left Thud. "are you okay?? you should be more careful." he hit his head. because he is so tall.. . ^ even yesterday, he would have cursed but today, although he banged his head, he just stormed out.. he has an 18 year old body but.. but he has the soul of a 10 year old kid. "Halmoni!! whats wrong with you!!" "^...................^" ".........." we ate dinner.. and prepared to sleep.. i slept next to Halmoni. and Hwanee slept in the small room.. "............." today is the last day!!! i held Halmoni's hand tightly and slept next to me, i heard snoring. from Halmoni's nose.. ^^ she must have been exhausted.. ........ i closed my eyes.. and was about to sleep when.. i heard creaking next to me.. who is it?? is Hwanee going to the bathroom?? unconsciously, i slipped out of my blanket. i opened the door, and stepped outside. and was surprised. Hwanee motioned for me to be quiet.. . ^ where is he tiptoeing to?? "where are you going??" "to the restroom.." Hwanee said the bathroom here was filthy so he always went to the restroom at the nearby liquor store.. "want me to go with you??" "if you want.." we left Halmoni's house and went to that place.. "wow!!!!! look at those stars!!" it looked like the sky was pouring with stars.. "................." "after being in Seoul.. it seems like im in a different world!!" "really?? should we buy a house here then?" "do you have that kind of money?? . ^" "if you like it here .. then.. money isnt a problem!!!" .............. i felt my heart jump..>0< *^^* once in awhile, this person makes me like him all over again.. i was holding hands with Hwanee this is the best feeling.. >0< "the bathroom is over there.." "payphone." "payphone???" Hwanee went toward the payphone. and he inserted a few coins.. "who are you calling???? Ahjuma????!!!" "............" Hwanee pressed a phone number... "who are you calling?" "be quiet!! hello.." "............." "is there someone named Kim Ki Jong there???" Kim Ki Jong?? who's that?? "you're him??...." suddenly he covered the mouthpieece.. and Hwanee called me over "ey... what is your Halmoni's name?" her name?? is Halmoni like.. his buddy??? "her name?? i dont know.. other people just called her Gong Yoo Halmoni, so thats what i call her.. . ^" "sh#t.. stupid!! ahh how annoying...." and again, Hwanee spoke.. "ey.. you're Gong Yoo Halmoni's son right??" her son?? seriously??? is Hwanee crazy? "yes.. you jerk!!! what??? so what?? ey.. listen carefully!!! do you know that Halmoni was in the hospital??... did you know!!!!" what a jerk.. that ahjusshi.. i have more experience than him.. ignorant jerk.. what kind of trouble is he trying to cause.. . "ey.. so you're saying that you dont care !! listen carefully!! you better be here by 9 tomorrow.. or else i will go looking for you.. and i dont know what i will do.. got it?? you bastard!!!" then Hwanee slammed the phone down.. because he couldnt control his temper, he yelled to himself and kicked a nearby trashcan.. "ey.. whats wrong?" right then, a grandma came out of the store "what do you think you are doing!!!!" ....................... 69. "............" with wide eyes, Hwanee looked at the Halmoni. "what are you doing.. aigoo.. look at this." the Halmoni said as she looked at the trashcan Hwanee kicked. he had a blank look.. maybe because he was surprised.. but Hwanee kept looking at the Halmoni "ah.. let me do it." i quickly placed the trashcan where it was. "what kind of person are you!!!!" Halmoni went inside and came back out with a broom. "is it you?? that made my trashcan like this??" Halmoni looked at me!! . its not me.. its that guy. that guy "m.. me?" she looked at Hwanee.. and went and asked him "i... i..." "you!!!!!!!" "..............." that Halmoni raised her broom to hit him but lowered it "..............." "you're not supposed to do that.. especially if you're a guy.." "yes.." yes a guy.. that guy still receives special treatment....... discrimination... discrimination.. in the countryside theres still a severe discrimination between males and females.. even when we get money on new years whenever something goes wrong the female gets a harsher punishment.. this is already the modern century. its a society where men and women are equal!!! . ^ the Halmoni went inside and Hwanee began walking to someplace.. "where.. where are you going??" with quick steps, i chased after Hwanee's long legs. ".................." Hwanee looked at me.. ".........(with a blank expression)...." he extended his hand towards me.. "..............." does he want me to hold it?? i quickly ran to Hwanee and held his hand. "..............." for a few meters we walked distantly from each other.. there was a light nearby. we went to a field with an old hut.. "..............." and sat quietly at that place.. Hwanee laid on his arm. ".................." for a long time he was quiet then Hwanee heavily opened his mouth. "why did she have a kid??" "huh????????" "why did she have kids.. if she was going to be abandoned by them when they got older.." "......we dont know because we never had kids.. every person is different." ".......people.. are all the same.." "then are you going to do that to Ahjumma??" "are you crazy?? i wouldnt even do that if i died!!!" "see.. its different for every person...." "no.. i dont like it." Hwanee looked at me. its a little embarrassing. because he's staring straight at me. "if we get married.. lets not have kids!!" "married?? who said i was going to marry you???" i was totally surprised.. before i knew it, i had said this. "what?? you're not going to marry me???" "yea........im not going to get married!!!" "unbelievable!! then im going to have a show by myself!!!" suddenly, Hwanee got angry... � ^ "................." � "im single... i do anything i want to do.. if theres nothing lacking.. and he has a lot of money.. he's good looking.. he has abilities.. hes smart.. and only loves me.. when i find a guy like that.. then, i will get married." "stop dreaming.. why would a guy like that want to marry you??" "............" "think about it.. just like you, that guy will want a girl that's pretty.. cute.. has lots of charm.. ability.. a lot of money.. is smart.. and a devoted dandelion.. he'll want that kind of girl!!!: is that true?? what he's saying is right.. hes a guy. why is he bringing such a good argument!!!! . "................." "if you dont hold onto me, you're going to regret it.." "...i will??? .......why?? what would i be lacking????" "because i fit into those requirements that you just said.." ".......you do?? how??" "im good loking.. i have ability.. i have money.. and when im with a girl.. i dont look at other females.." "................" ...... wow theres really nothing he's lacking. when i went out with him.. he never cheated on me.. and its true that he's good looking.... ability??? not that... but he's someone who protects me.. . ^ � i shouldnt do this.. if i do.. "are you going to marry me?? or not!!!" "..........." "answer!!!" "i dont know.. i'll think about it when the time comes.. . ^ " how can a person say something so romantic so easily??? =============================== "if we get married.. should we get a house and live here????????" "here??" "yea.. we can make a big garden.. and plant trees. flowers.. this and that.. with a 2 story house.. make a fountain... and make a pool in the front.. and you and i alone will live comfortably.. how does that sound?????????" how did that come out of his mouth?? its so amazing. the house i want to live in. is exactly the same as he described... "ey. do you think that kind of house will be suitable for the countryside?? and you dont have that kind of money!!!" "you dont know!!! how much money i have.. since i have 2 motorcycles.. i will sell them.. my desk.. my bed.. and ask Ummah for installments.. and.. the apartment i have in America.. if i sell this and that.. i end up with a lot of money.. whats wrong!!" "you have an apartment in America???" "isnt that obvious??????? ^­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­^ since i have a lot of money.. do you think you want to marry me now??" "............." how can he ask something like that??? "what.. seeing your money, i could marry you.. i have to think it through though.." "...keke... keke" "................" we sat there and talked about this and that. and a little after 2 in the morning, we fell asleep... ........................ .............. ........ the sound of birds... and the sound of dogs.. . ^ oh yea, this is the countryside right?? i rubbed my eyes as i got up. "what time is it? Halmoni??" "right now?? its 8.. 30.." "really??" i rubbed my eyes.. "i woke up late..^^" "...........(shakes head).." Halmoni's eyes are red. did Halmoni cry as she changed her clothes??? "Halmoni.. i'll be back after i wash my face.." "okay.." i went outside and washed my face with refreshing water.. yup... the countryside is the best!! .................... "is that jerk not awake yet???" ............ "ey.. get up!!!!!" ......... .... there was no retort. i abandoned my towel and was entering his room when.. that room was already neatly cleaned up. ....Hwanee wasnt there. where did he go? "Halmoni.. have you seen Hwanee???" "hes not in his room???" "nope.. where did he go??" i closed the door.. and searched for Hwanee.. but he was nowhere to be found. where did he go?? at this time.. he should be sleeping.. . ^ 70. i was eating with Halmoni when. *creak*... i heard the front door open.. who's here?? "is that you, Hwanee??????" .............. it's someone that looks familiar.. who is it?? ".....who are you?" "huh?? i dont know.." Halmoni lowered her utensils and got up. and with a shocked expression, her eyes began to fill with tears.. and a tear dropped.. "Halmoni.." "............." "Ummah!!!" that Ahjusshi dropped what he was holding .. and went to Halmoni.. "........(dazed)......" "......Gi Jong!!!" without putting on her shoes. Halmoni ran to that person and hugged him. .................. ............ Halmoni and that Ahjusshi are chatting. and crying.... aigoo... my legs.. my legs fell asleep... . but where did that guy go!!! "ah fawk!! that bastard is dead.. lets see what i do. AIGOO!!!!!!!!" Hwanee's voice.... of course, his voice projected loudly... . ^ "ey!!! where were you.." "fawk.. yesterday i called that bastard...." "ey!!!!" dazed.. Hwanee said with wide eyes.. "Kim Gi Jong!!??" "..........." "ey!! whats wrong with you!!!" "you came???" everyone sat inside the room... i cant stand it­ my legs are still asleep.. . that Ahjusshi was ruined in his business and now, he's being chased. his present state now is not very good either.. how sad... that's why he couldnt go to Halmoni.. sitting nobly, Hwanee looked at that Ahjusshi with distasteful eyes "thats why you didnt come??" "i didnt think it through..." what is wrong with Hwanee?? . ^ Halmoni did not say a word; she sat with her head hung, wiping her tears... "thank you.." "for what??" he said with an attitude.. whats wrong with him?? i was annoyed.. "i thought about it too.. i didnt think this was right... thank you, boy, for changing mind..." "you're thanking me?? isnt that obvious?" i pinched that guy's arm. "ow!!!! whats wrong with you!!!" "Halmoni.. we'll leave now...." "right now???" "yes..^^" "eat lunch before you go!!" "no.. we'll be going now.. we have to leave now in order to reach Seoul.." "really?? hold on.." "no.. Halmoni.. we're leaving..." holding the various dishes Halmoni gave to us, we left. till Halmoni's figure disappeared she smiled and waved at us. "..........." like that, we left the country. there were many here incidents.. and this was the place Hwanee returned to me.. 71. "ey.. where are you going?? we have to ride the bus" "motorcycle" "you came here on your motorcycle??" "yes.." ......... ...................... "i want to ride the bus.. i already got my ticket.." "come here.." Hwanee grabbed my arm and pulled me.. "ow...ow..." "..............." "get on.." helpless i held onto his waist.. and rode behind him... Hwanee started the engine and immediately departed.. .......... we didn't rest once.. and arrived at Seoul... "we're back.." Ahjumma looked at me with concerned eyes.. "is Halmoni okay??" "yes.. she got a lot better.." "wash up.. and rest.. you must be exhausted.." "okay..^^" Ahjumma looked at Hwanee.. "i'm leaving." "where are you going????" "i'll come tomorrow to pick you up.. come out early.. dont be late.." "but where are you going.." "to rest..." "Ahjumma. i'll be back." that guy entered the elevator.. "ey!! where are you going.. how come you're not coming in?" ".......hooo..." Hwanee sighed deeply. "i'm.. going to Han Yoo Bin's house.." "what?? why???" "i told you.. there is no other way.." "then.. you're going to live there completely????" ".........." Hwanee smiled slyly.. and he stroked my hair.. "Hwanee!!" "you're going to cry again.. annoying.. stop being such a cry baby!! my body is going to be far from you.. but my heart is right here!! got it??" Hwanee said, as he poked my face.. "..........." "dont cry.. i'll come back tomorrow. its not as if i'm leaving forever.." "............" "geez.. really. if you cry again. im going to kiss you.." "..........." i quickly wiped my tears.. "i'm leaving.." "what time are you coming tomorrow?" "7 20.. if you're late.. you die!!" ".. you dont be late!!" ...^^ the elevator door closed.. and Hwanee left. now we dont live together!! i liked it.. it was comfortable living together. .. ".............." ........ i washed and was ready to sleep when. i suddenly remmebered Jong Min "................" "where are you going??" "huh? to meet my friend for a little bit..^^" "..its past 9..." "i'll be home early..^^ i'll use the key when i come in.." "then. be careful..." "okay ^^" i rode the taxi to the hospital Jong Min was in. "............" i was riding the taxi when.. why do i feel like im missing something??? "Ahjusshi.. stop here!!!" "here?" "yes.. thank you.........." i ran into a store and came out with something to eat in one hand and a comic book in the other. i went towards the hospital... "............." since it was late. the hospital was quiet. ...knock knock.. "............" i was opening the door when. the hospital room was noisy. maybe it was because many people used the same room.. "............" the bed was in the corner. Jong Min's place looks lonely. Jong Min was reading something. His solitary figure ".................." although i got closer to him, Jong Min didnt seem to notice. "Jong Min........." "............" Jong Min glanced at me. "Yeh Won!!" "^^" "so you'll forgive me??????" "yes......." Jong Min's face became bright "thank you.. thank you..and im sorry.." suddenly Jong Min pulled my hand and abruptly hugged me "ey. whats wrong with you?? theres a lot of people in here.." "i didnt think you would come!!" "...ow... ey.." .............. ................. ............. "what book is this???" "Good thoughts ^^ this is hecka fun......" "^^ really?? when are you getting out of the hospital??" "the day after tomorrow.^^ ey.. whats wrong with this comic book?? i like Soon Jung comics.. . ^" "Soon Jung comics? i heard guys liked this so i borrowed this one.. . ^ " "but i like Soon Jung comics... . " "tomorrow i'll borrow Soon Jung comics.." "you promise??" "okay.. . ^" i chatted with Jong Min about this and that.. and i got home a little past 11. ............ the quiet house.. why do i miss Hwanee all of a sudden?? i quietly entered my room and pulled out my phone and called Hwanee.. 72. ring... ring.......ring Click. "hello.." "Hwanee!! ^^ its me.." "who???????" " . ^ " "i know.. Han Yeh Won!!" "^^ what are you doing??" "hold on!!!" i heard a female voice in the background "you're not going to leave???"­­Hwanee.. "no!!!! play with me!!"­­ a girl's voice "fawk!! go away. you hoe!!!!"­­Hwanee's voice "Oppa whats wrong with you?? ow ow!!!"­­a girl's voice it became deathly quiet.. it seems like that girl left but who is it? who is it? "Han Yeh Won!!" "............." "Han Yeh WON!!" "what!!!!!" "bye.." "what??" "i said bye!!!" "fine!! bye!! bye!!" i hung up and threw the phone. i called because i thought of him.. . ........ Ring.............Ring....... my phone is ringing. should i asnwer? or not? "Hello!!!" "its me.." "who??" "you're dead.. . ^ " "why did you call??" "why are you getting mad!!!" "you got mad first!!! because i was being nice by calling you!!!" "you called my cell didnt you??" "yea.. . ^ " "stupid. ey. i dont have a lot of minutes!!!!! thats why i hung up.. i have more minutes here. i called with this phone. okay????" "...thats why???" i got worried for no reason. but who the heck is that girl?? "dont assume anything!!" "......what??" "before.." "........after i think about it...." how can that guy read my mind so well?? "dont assume anything by yourself!!" ".............." "stupid!! i said not to assume!!!!!!!" "why are you yelling?? im not deaf!!!!!" "shi........." hes getting angry for no reason.. i shouldnt have called.. "is Ummah sleeping?" "Ahjumma??? yes......" "kekeke" "why are you laughing?" "ey!! do you know how many days we have left??" Hwanee said while he laughed... "what???????" "our 100 days..^^" Hwanee said in an excited voice. Huk.. how many days has it been? how many days? i quickly went to my desk and spread my calender out. 2...3...4 "you're looking at a calendar right now, arent you????" "huh????????huh?? n.. no.." "you are !!" "............" "are you sure you're a girl????" "..........." "gawd.. really.. we have exactly 5 days left.. stupid!!!" ­he said­ "yea.. you're right.. 5 days......" is it really 5 days?? 5 days?? . i didnt know......... "ah... you're annoying..." "s.. sorry!!!" "whatever........" i talked with Hwanee for over two hours but.. everytime i said something, Hwanee got angry. until we fell asleep.. we stayed on the phone. at the end, as i rubbed my eyes i didnt comprehend what Hwanee was saying my eyes were slowly closing... . and i dont know when, but i fell asleep. when i woke up. my phone was not even closed and it was laying next to me.. "Ahjumma!! what time is it??" "right now?? 7......." "7????????" "didnt Hwanee say he was going to come in 20 minutes??" "you're right!!!!!!" Hwanee doesnt live here anymore as quickly as possible, i got ready without even drying my hair.. ding Dong.. Ding Dong "i'm coming!! im coming.." "stupid!!! hurry and come out!!" "im coming." "Ahjumma, bye.." "okay ^^" "^^" "sh#t.. i told you not to be late.." "we talked too long yesterday so.. oh.. yea... my lunch!!" "where did you leave your brain???????" "........hold on..........." i opened the door, grabbed my lunch, and came back out..... Hwanee was grumbling ^^ im slightly sorry... slightly.. "i wont be late anymore.. . " "be late next time.. then you'll really die!!" "i got it.. . " "huh?? what about your motorcycle??" "i didnt bring it....." "why??" "that frkn hoe.. always whines for a ride!" "............" is he talking about that girl from yesterday?? "dont assume anything!!" "...im not!!" "stupid.." Hwanee pulled both my cheeks "whats wrong with you??" "i said not to assume anything by yourself!!!" "i got it.. it hurts" Hwanee let go then. my cheeks were as red as a tomato. it was a while since we both went to school on the bus. Hwanee didnt get off at Jo Young Gong Go. he dropped me off.. he called some guys who were younger than him.. and left on a motorcycle. "Yeh WOn!!!" "Eun Jin!!!" "is Halmoni okay?" "yea ^^" "did you know how bored i was??????" "sorry.. ^^" "............" ...break time..... arranging her hair, Eun Jin talked to me. "what did the old man say?????" "What???" "when he got there.." should i play around?? nod nod "keke he wanted to get married......." "really??????? he proposed???" "he was kidding.. duh.." "ey.. amazing. i never thought i would hear that from that jerk's mouth.." "whats so amazing?? . ^" "he was always a bachelor.. he would die before he would think about getting married, and he would play with different girls his whole life.. and then he said that to you.." "really??" "what else did he say??" "he just.. said he wanted to build a house in the country side.. and live there.." "really??????? wow.. lucky..." Eun Jin hugged me should i not have told her?? i told her just for fun... . "ey... what are you going to do??? you have no skill. and no money.." Eun Jin suddenly slapped my back "ow!!! whats wrong with you!!!" "hold onto him!!! he's frkn rich. he has a few houses in the U.S... and just look at his dad.." "thats what i heard too... ey... but a guy needs to have skill at least!!" "whY????????" "he goes to a reform school.... do you know how.. dumb is head.." "ey!! whats wrong with a reform school??? that guy always goes to this country and that country so he cant stay at one school!! thats why..!" ".............." "thats why he enrolled in that school!!! and his friends were there too.." ".....ey.. im kidding! @@ why are you taking it so seriously????" "still. ey.. and.. that guy speaks english frkn well!!!" "english???" "you didnt know??? he's so good in english!!!" "seriously?? i always fail in english." "kekeke that guy... ever since he was little, he lived in the U.S... of course he's good in english.. he should be a tutor.. or do something related to english.. no. no. that old man's personality wouldnt do that........" ".............." so that's what i never knew about Hwanee.. . ^ ...........today, because of Eun jin i found out a lot about Hwanee. but how come Eun Jin knows more about Hwanee than i do??????? .^ 73. "whew... im frkn sleepy.. . " "you didnt sleep since you got here from the countryside, huh???" "nope... . im so sleepy.. . " "tsk.. tsk.. � " grumbling to herself. Eun Jin mumbled something incomprehensible when she does that.. its kind of. cute.. "Yeh Won!!" everyone's eyes turned to Min Jae and Yoo Bin.. "huh?? Min Jae.. ^^ huh?? Yoo Bin too.." "Han Yeh Won!!! did you have fun in the country?" "dont mention it.. im dead tired... . " "are things going well with Hwanee??" "huh?? yea..^^" "i was worried.." Yoo Bin stroked my hair when did we have this kind of relationship??? but this relationship is more comfortable; i like it.. "Yoo Bin... i have something to ask you..." sitting crosslegged next to me, Yoo Bin looked up at me from my Korean text book... "what's that???" "ah.. never mind.." that girl who i heard from Hwanee's phone.. if i mention her, he'll probably think im a ho.. � "uhh... . ^ " "^^" till break time ended, Min Jae and Yoo Bin stayed by my side Yoo Bin's probably going to his hideout.. lucky... . .................. ....................... i was diligently working in class when. i felt my phone vibrate. from my skirt pocket. what do i do? what do i do? Eun Jin looked at me with concerned eyes.. � "hello..." i cautiously picked up.. "its me.!!! kekke" "what!!!" "sh#t. shut up.. shut UP!!! (Hwanee was.. talking to someone next to him)" im really... going to go crazy.. "ey!!!!!" "Han Yeh Won!!! guess what we're doing right now??" "ah shi... ey!!!" "what??" of course.. this jerk.. if he hears how hushed my voice is, he should be observant and do the same!!!! , "how would i know??" "we're ditching!! ^^ the teacher said that his stomach hurt.. so he went to take a crap.. hilarious huh?? huh???" its not funny at all... . "ey.. but..." "just tell me whats so urgent.. im in class right now.." "you're in class????" "yea. you jerk!!" "at 6, come to Shin Chon.." "got it. got it. hang up.." "ey!!!" "what!! . ^ ' right then, i saw a dark shadow. its my teacher.. . "Han Yeh Won.." "yes?? yes??????" "^^" that murderous smile.. . because of that GUY..... "e y ..........." i heard Hwanee's voice through the phone this is why the teacher found out... . "..................." silently... the teacher did not say anything but just listened please.. please... . this jerk cant say anything weird. "hello???" the teacher quietly said. "..............." "Hello??? hello??" the teacher shook the phone that jerk must have hung up... . ^ but still, its a relief to my terror, the teacher glared at me... "Han Yeh Won!!" "........yes.........." "later, come to the office........" huh?? this is the last period... � "me???" "yes.. who else??" "ah. tea...teacher." PAk. the teacher hit my head with a book;.. � it frkn hurts...... but i feel worse emotionally then physically.. and i got hit with a book... . i knew it.. that Jin Hwan fool. you're dead....... . ­­­­­­­­­­­­­ "Yeh Won!! you're going now??" "yea.." "of all people.. why did you get caught by that old grandma? do you know her history... . ^ and that old guy is so tactless.." "." "that teacher.. is harsher when she sees good looking people or couples. so... aish... stupid.." "." Eun Jin... you know that your words are not helping, right?? i went toward the office. its already into 5th period... . "t... teacher.." "................" the teacher raised her glasses and looked at me... . ^ >0< please... . "Han Yeh WOn!!" "yes??" "who was it?" "excuse me?" "the person who called you during class...!!!" "................" "answer me now!!" the teacher suddenly raised her voice.. " � .. Hwa.. Hwa.. Jin Hwan... . " "Jin Hwan?? whats his last name?" "huh??? thats all..." "eum.. ahem.. really?? what high school does he go to??" "th.. that..." "Han Yeh Won!!!" that teacher hit my legs with a cane... . "Jo Young Gong Go, maam!!" unknowingly, my voice came out loudly. "Jo Young Gong Go??? . ^ Han Yeh Won!!! bring that boy here..." "huh???????" "i said to bring him here." "no!!!!" "no??? you want to bring him after getting hit???" "teacher.. i really cant!!!" im positive that if Hwanee came.. he will fight with the teacher.. . no. never. that guy's personality... "Han Yeh Won!!" "yes........" "hurry and bring him. call him..." "teacher, i really cant!!" "............." till the end, i refused to bring him so i got hit on my butt too. my head... for cleaning punishment, she is going to make me clean the 2nd floor bathrooms alone.. . ^ "...........cough cough........ that poop is big. shii what is this?? how can you not aim?? gulp... its coming up..... . " "....................." i was wearing my PE uniform. and it took me over 1 hour to finish it. why are these bathrooms so filthy. one of my pant legs had crawled to my knees and half of it was wet...... . ^ my hair was a mess. but... i dont feel like fixing it... . to tell the truth... i didnt have any strength to do that.. "teacher..." "..............." the teacher, infuriated, glared at me.. "what is this smell??????" "......smell???" "cough cough.." "ah.. its because i cleaned the bathrooms so well ^^" ".........follow me.." "^^" i followed the teacher right at her heels and went toward the 2nd floor bathrooms. "^^" "if you didnt clean it well. know that you're going to be hit twice as much.." "^^ okay.." i scrubbed the bathrooms!!^^ i followed the teacher when. i saw a guy at the end of the hall. its not our school uniform.. and its not a uniform from another school.. . ^ its formal... the guy was wearing civilian clothes... seeing me from far away he motioned and yelled.. "Han Yeh Won!!!!!!!!!!" 74. Hwanee.. its Hwanee. oh yea!!! we were supposed to meet at 6.. i quickly hid. although i was a little late. if he sees the state im in right now. he will for sure.. for sure.. . "Han Yeh Won!!! you're not coming????" "no!!!!!!!!!!!" i clenched my teeth and ran but... this guy's legs are too long.. Hwanee grasped my shoulder. "..................>00<" "why didnt you come????" "huh?? th.. that. ey!!! you called during class.. so i got caught!!!!!!!!!" "sniff*.. ey... whats that smell???" "huh?? ey. let go!!!" "it smells like poop... . " " . ^" right then, gasping, the teacher came to us "who are you, student??" "whos that???" looking at me Hwanee used disrespectful language. . "ey! its a teacher from my school!!! (i mouthed)" "the person who took away your cell???" ")0(" this jerk.. this jerk... "are you Jin Hwan??????" "so what if i am!!! ah.. hello!! nice to meet you.. im Han Yeh Won's boyfriend.. im Jin Hwan.." � whats wrong with him?? . the teacher lifted up her glasses and looked Hwanee up and down. . ^ "follow me.." "huh?? me?" "not you.." .... what is she going to do.. with Hwanee? did i clean for nothing? he came on his own will.. . "Han Yeh Won!!" "what!!!" "you smell like crap... hurry and wash­ change your clothes too!!!" " . ^" laughing, Hwanee ran after the teacher. please be safe. ............ i went to the restroom and looked at myself. who would look at me as a person on a day like this.. . "he saw how i looked.. but do i really smell like poop???" i dont smell like anything... i tied my hair and changed into my uniform. Hwanee didnt come out of the office.. � how many minutes passed? Hwanee came out cheerfullly from the office. "what happeend?? huh?? huh??" Hwanee placed my cell in my hand and put his hand on my shoulder "whats wrong!!!" "stupid!! geez. i should just..!!" "ow.. why did you do that??" "you should have just called me dont you think?????" "ey... its easy to say it but.." "fool!! do you have a head just to show off?? oh yea, theres nothing to show off...." "ey!! whats wrong with you??" "^^ kekeke that teacher's frkn hilarious..." "huh?? what is??" "she asked if i was going out with you and... she said i could do better. and... she asked all kinds of personal questions.. like a person who never got married." "thats right.. that teacher's an old maid.." "im right right???!!! i knew that at first glance.. who would marry a person like her??? kekekek" "...................." what the heck happened in there. "ey. did you clean yourself off?? smelly??" "yea. i cleaned myself well!!!" "kekeke ah shii.. i should have taken a picture of you.. what a waste.." "............you're dead!!!!!!" "kekeke" i went with Hwanee to Shin Chon and heartedly ate bibimbap. "ahh im full..." "ey.. come here." "huh???"" Hwanee grabbed my hand and went inside a photo shop what is he going to do now... 75. . ^ "whats this???" "Ahjusshi, can you give me change for a five.." "................" "why???" aimlessly, Hwanee held my hand and went to a place to take full body shots "..........you want to take this????" "so.." he suddenly took out his sunglasses and put them on "................" hes trying to look cool, i tell you. "ey... here." "huh?????????" "here.. come here..." Hwanee pointed at his waist. "you want me to hug you?????" "yes!!!!" "no. why should i?????" "hurry and come here.." .................. i stayed where i was. its slightly embarrassing.. . then he took both my arms and enclosed his waist "huh???????ey!!!!!!!" "kiss.. here.." "ey!! whats wrong with you????" "hurry.." .^ "no." "hurry!!!!!!!!!!" ... one.. two.. three the machine said.. then he pulled my face and put my lips on his cheeks "ey.. whats wrong with you????" ........... the pictures came out. Hwanee was satisfied i quickly stole the picture from him and looked at it. "ey!!!!!!" he is.. so stubborn. will another person be as stubborn as him in this world? it looked like i was the one that encircled his waist and kissed his cheek and Hwanee covered my head with a contented expression on his face "ey!!!!!! this.. throw it away..." "whats wrong??" "ey!! you........" cutting it out with scissors Hwanee stuck it on the back of his phone "ey!!! what if someone sees it..." "sh!!!!!" and then Hwanee grabbed my hand and went out of the shop Hwanee kept giggling. and said "next time, lets take professional pictures.." ......Huk. im speechless. "............" right then, an arcade caught my eye.. one guy was dancing like crazy on PUMP was PUMP still a fad? didnt it fade awhile ago.. . "ey... do you know how to do that??????" "what?" we crossed the street and went in front of the PUMP machine. Hwanee stared straight at that guy on PUMP people in the area started to surround him excitedly. kekeke you cant do that huh? "you're crazy!!!" "............." "oh yea.." "ey!!! you cant even do that!!" "why should i do that?? he has no life...." and Hwanee spit before going inside just because he cant dance like him. he said those things his personality was always like that.. kekeke if he cant do something, he treats the people that can do it well with scorn. he's a ssagaji to the max. . Hwanee entered 50 cents and started to play a motorcycle game. "............." "look carefully!!!"! and Hwanee began to move his body this way and that. Huh????? hes.. actually pretty good........ he looks like a pro. oh right.. that guy owns a motorcycle right?? "you saw me right?? did you see me??" "see what??" "stupid!!! i won first!!!" "i didnt see anything.." "ah shii.." Hwanee nudged my head "whats wrong!!!!!!!! i really didnt see you.. . " "look carefully this time... try NOt seeing!!! then i will kill you.." Hwanee pushed in 50 cents again "hold my phone........" "Hwak..." the phone that had the picture of us on the back.. ; bastard.. . this guy is really good at .. this.. . right then, people in the area began to crowd aroud.. kids wearing the Jo Young Gong Go uniform "hi Yeh Won!!^^" it was Gyoo Hyun.^^ "hi..???" "^^" how many people is this??? do they actually want to walk to around in a big group??? "isnt this fool frkn good at this???" "huh?? i dont know...": "Han Yeh WON!! you're dead!!!!!!" "ey!! if you're going to play a game, just concentrate on one thing!!!" "ey!! Han Yeh Won!! open your eyes and just watch!!!" "ah shii." "huh?? what is this???" Hwanee's friend spotted Hwanee's phone. "huh??" unconsciously, i handed him the phone "huh? you took this with Hwanee??? he yelled at you to take this picture huh????" "kekeke" his friends all looked at the picture Hwanee's face looked contented.. "idiots!! did you see me?? did you see me?? i know.. its hard to believe" if that guy plays a game. he should just concentrate on one thing.. . ^ "sh*t... yea. you're right.. you're right.. but it came out really well.." "what did ???" i mustered up my courage and asked those kids. "huh?? no.. this jerk said that after seeing him, we would start chasing after you so.. thats why he took this picture." "hehe oh yea..this is his proof.. he really went and took the picutre??" Hwanee suddenly became angry "sh*t.. Han Suk Joo.. your'e dead!!!!!!" "ow.. i got it.. kekeke we got him mad.. because he said we would chase after you... like dogs... kekeke" "sh*t.. you're gonna die.." Hwanee suddenly jumped off the motorcycle game as soon as he got off a male student from Jo Young Gong Go quickly got on that one guy, with a shocked and mischievous look ran away. "..............." "sh#t. you're not coming?????????" these kids are running around in this crowded arcade.. . "this.. no. this is what Hwanee ordered me to do!!" ­i said­ "Hwane did???? really????? I knew it........." Hwanee's friends said "i knew that he would do that. thats right. jerk" "kekeke" from behind us, Hwanee returned. a bead of sweat dropped. "whats right????????" he asked, looking shocked... "ah. nothing.." Hwanee's friends replied and Hwanee's friend followed him from behind; the guy called Han Suk Joo.. kekeke his gelled hair was a mess. kekeke how much could Hwanee have grabbed.. "Han Yeh Won! lets go." "huh????? go where??" "you cant stay with these bastards!!!" "Jin Hwan!! whats wrong with you???" "stupid, shut up!!!" Hwanee's friends kept following us kekeke they're really interesting kids. right then... directly in front of us were other kids wearing the Jo Young Gong Go uniform a crowd of guys came in. only the name tags are different.. Hwanee's was green these people have blue... .............. suddenly, spotting these people, Hwanees friends all respectfuly bowed who are they????? are they seniors from Hwanee's school??? 76. "kekeke" disregarding the bows, those people brushed right past them they look like they're older than Hwanee... they shortened their pants so much... . 6 in this world, some people walk around without bags. "Han Jin Hwan!!! come here.." right then, smoking a cigarette a person with a big build called Hwanee "Han Yeh Won.. go outside..." "why?? i dont want to!!" "if i tell you to go outside then go outside....." "why arent you hurrrying???" ­ the guy said to Hwanee Hwanee looked at me and kept telling me to go outside... ., "go to the second floor shop......" Hwanee's friends are all standing in a straight line.. i went outside. ............... the people that were older than Hwanee blew smoke into Hwanee's face among them, i recognized JJok Sae hyung nim.. [*hyung nim is what guys call other males older than them] that Jjok Sae hyung nim was with Hwanee's friends, laughing....... but.. Hwanee's friends held hardened expressions. right then, the person with the big build hit Hwanee's cheek. "Hwanee!!!!!!!" .......what do i do? what do i do?? with shaking hands i pulled out my phone and unconsciously called Eun Jin. "hello.." "Yeh Won??? whats up????" "Eu.. Eun Jin. where are you??" "me? Shin Chon!!" "r.. really?? can you come here.." "where are you??" "thearcade in front of the theatre..." "whats wrong?? did something happen???" "please hurry.." "i got it. hang up.." Hwanee got hit again from a different guy. Hwanee kept glaring at them.. . you have to ask for forgiveness!!!. you jerk!!! . not even five minutes passed before Eun Jin came. "whats wrong? Yeh Won!!!" "Eun Jin.. help Hwanee..." "Hwanee??" Eun Jin saw Hwanee through the window "its because of the old man??" "yea......" "go inside.." i followed Eun Jin and went inside the arcade. i was really lucky in finding a friend like her.. . "Oppa!!!" "Huh?? Eun JIn!!" the Jjok Sae hyung nim said "Oppa.. what are you doing??" "huh? right now?? im teaching these kids.." with scary eyes Eun Jin went next to Jin Hwan but one guy in the very middle.. ... one guy looked at Eun Jin in a shocked expression after seeing her "OPPA!!!!!!!!!" "Ey.. why did you come???" "Oppa what are you doing!!!! im going to tell Ummah everything!!!!!!!!!!" thats Eun Jin's Oppa? wow.. hes really good looking. Eun Jin is pretty too.. no. no.. i shouldnt be thinking of that right now.. >0< "ey.. go away. dont get into my business!!!!!!!!!!!" "Oppa, seriously!!! Han Yeh Won!! come here.." me? why me?? I quietly came inside. all the guys' eyes fell on me. "..ey .. just because i let you slide on some things, you're crawling all over me..????????????" "Oppa.. do you HAVE to hit Jin Hwan in front of his wife?????" "........thats his girlfriend??" Eun Jin's Oppa looked at me dumbfoundedly.. "Yup!! Oppa.. how can you not have a brain???? ..in front of Hwanee's wife..." "Ey.. Jin Hwan! is she right??????" wiping the blood from his lips Hwanee glared at me "ey!!! why did you do something i didnt ask you to do!!!!!" "Ey.. Jin Hwan?? i asked you if she was right???" right then, the Oppa with the big build yelled.. "what if she is!!!" that boy. is really crazy. crazy. he needs to be hit some more!!! i called Eun Jin because i was thinking of him!!! "ey. old man.. shii. Yeh Won! take him and go outside!" "huh??????? okay." i ran over to Hwanee. "look at that f_cker.. ey!! you come here.." "..........." "Oppa, seriously, whats wrong with you!!!" i didnt look behind me as i dragged Hwanee outside. im so thankful.. Eun Jin. i wont forget this.. then Hwanee slightly pushed my head "ey!! why did you do that????" "yah!! then you were going to just get beat up????" "sh*t.. ey!! geez. i should just not talk.. . ^%" ".................." why do i feel so weird after seeing Hwanee's busted lip?? he always hit other people but he never got beat up himself.. � "stupid.." Hwanee stroked my hair and put his hands on my shoulders "ey!! whats wrong with you??? why were you getting hit???" "there was just.. something." "what?? what???" "you dont have to know!!!" "............." stupid jerk... � "..............." it looks like it stings. because when he was wiping the blood off his lips his face scrunched in pain. this feeling is really strange. i pulled out a handkerchief from my bag "here.. face.." "im fine.. i'll do it myself..." "come here..." because of our height differences i dragged Hwanee to a nearby bench "hurry!!!" "i said i can do it.." "no!!!!!!" why does my nose sting??? � "ah shi.." after seeing tears form in my eyes Hwanee leaned his face to me. i carefully wiped Hwanee's lips with my handkerchief.. "ow.. ow.." "then why did you get hit???" ".............." hurt Hwanee. and he only tore his lips.. . "wait... i'll get some water on here.." i was trying to stand when Hwanee held onto my hand.. "What????????" Hwanee held my hand as he sat me back down. "what......" he stroked my hair and kissed me. "ey!!!!!!!" theres so many people. everyone is looking at Hwanee and me. . ^ some girls looked at us with envious eyes. �� i hit that guy's back. "ah sh#t." and he released my lips. "............" "oh.. sorry.." "it frkn hurts.. it looks like i wont be able to kiss for a few days.." "what??????????" "ow sh#t.." Hwanee's lip began to bleed again "who told you to kiss huh???" "fool. how can i help myself when i want to???" "............" "..............." why is he so honest??? to the point where he becomes idiotic but im not complaining... i actually like it.. am i the weird one?? .......recently, because of him im not in my right mind. im positive im becoming crazier.. . 77. "....................." "...................." Hwanee and i held hands tightly as we went home.. "dont fight anymore!!!" ".......i didnt even fight!!!" "you're getting hit though!!" "what are you talking about !! when!!!" this jerk, really!!!! "you got hit so your lip burst!! jerk!!" "lips?? its like this because i kissed you..!!!" "Ey!! you be quiet!!" . ^ seriously.. this guy!! i should know when to speak. this guy doesnt know how to hide things.. .^ thats why from time to time, when im with him my heart gets choked up. "ey.. cant you give me a tour of the house you're living in??" "what do you mean tour.. i dont want to.." "why.. whats wrong with that?? if you say yes.. i always wanted to see a house like that.. is it really the same as the ones i saw on tv?" "ey! stop thinking about it... its just the way you saw it!!" "ey!! give me a tour!! . ^" "Han Yeh Won!! thats not my house.. how can i bring you to a place like that??" "� ch..." "why are you saying ch.!! even if you do that i wont let you!!" "fine. dont!!! you're so shameless.. whats so bad about letting me see your house!!!" "kekke" he didnt say anything. i even told him i was offended by the way i replied.. . ^ ..........why is it that everytime im with him does time pass so quickly?? ........... "Jin Hwan!! you.. next time dont kiss on the street!!! and dont say anything weird either!! . ^" "whats wrong with that?? other people usually like it." what a lie.. . ^ "well i dont like it!!!" "keke i dont know about that.. i dont even know what i am going to do.. keke" "ey!! sheesh.. seriously!! what would people passing by thinnk of us??" "who cares about other people? as long as we like it right??" and then Hwanee placed his arms on my shoulder.. .^ "..................." "go inside!!!" "when can we live together again???" "um........" Hwanee sighed deeply. "i dont know... he [*his dad] will have to let me go sometime.. dont get your hopes up!!^^" when you say things like that.. why do you smile at me!!! ".............." "ey!!! im there but. we meet each other everyday!! dummy.. do you like me that much??" "wh.. what are you talking about!!! why.. why would i.." "............." suddenly Hwanee's expression hardened his personality could never tell the difference between jokes and the truth so he always believed both.. . ^ "im leaving.." "eat before you go!!" without me knowing it, those words came out of my mouth.. "eat??" ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ Hwanee sat in front of me eating rice.. his expression is strange.. does it taste bad?? . ^^ "ey.. why is this so salty..." "salty?? ey. whatdo you mean, salty???" "..........i cant eat it..." "ey.. i made so much.. eat all of it!!!" "no!!! you eat it by yourself.." "ey. how can i eat all of this by myself????????" placing his silverware down Hwanee went and sat on the sofa.. that bastard doesnt even know how hard other people worked.. . "........you're really not going to eat it??" "no!! ey.. look at that.. its frkn funny.." " . ^" "come here..." "no.. im gonna eat this all by myself!!!!!!!!!" i ate everything, even Hwanee's portion. you dont know how full i am. . ^ did 5 minutes pass???? my stomach is weird.. it feels like someone is poking it with a knife.. . cough...>0< crazy. why did i eat all of that?? "owww.. my stomach.." "whats wrong????" "i dont know. my stomach hurts...." after glancing at the table, Hwanee yelled "stupid!!!!!!!! you ate all of THAT?????" ================= "bye.." " you have to buy medicine.." ­Hwanee instructed me­ "no... i dont have any energy to leave..." "then hurry..." "i said i cant.." holding onto my hand... Hwanee pulled me out... . ^ "oww.. my stomach." "stupid. so why did you eat that!!!" "i dont know!!! its all your fault!!!" "what do you mean its my fault??" i went to the pharmacy with Hwanee and ate medicine... i feel a bit better now. "go inside.." Hwanee dropped me off at the entrance. "be safe.." "close your mouth.." " . ^" "if you're late tomorrow, you're dead!!!" "kekkeke after i think about it..^^" Huk. what did i just say? "what????? are you playing around right now?" Hwanee walked back to me. he pulled both of my cheeks.. . ^ "owow!!! ey.. its so painful.. ey. my cheeks are going to stretch!!!" "say that again.. what??" "ah. .i get it.. i wont be late.. . ^" "kekeke ey. when you're like this.. i cant recognize you.. how do you look like this??? a human?? kekeke" "ey!!!!!!!!!!!!!" right then i heard footsteps . ^ Hwanee was laughing after he saw how i looked when he pulled my cheeks. "ow ow .. . ^" right then.... "Hwanee??????" ........when i turned around i saw the person that called Hwanee. ".............." "who is that???????" Hwanee also turned around "Ahjumma!!!!!!!!!!" "Ummah!!!!!" a little surprised. "Hwanee! Yeh Won!!!" "Ah.. Ahjumma!!!!!!!!!" i quickly pushed Hwanee's hands aside.. "................" what do i do?? what do i do?? . 78. "Hwanee.. Yeh Won???????" Ahjumma came to us with shocked eyes i quickly moved Hwanee's hands­ the very hands that were pinching my cheeks. "Ummah you're home already??" he's acting like nothing happened.. or he really doesnt think anything happened.. "Hwanee!! are you going out with Yeh Won??" "with Han Yeh Won?? yes.." Ahjumma stared at Hwanee and me with round eyes "Ah.. Ahjumma!!!" "Since when.." "its our 100 days now.." "why didnt i know????" "thats your affair . ^" Hwanee said to Ahjumma, as he spit i pinched Hwanee's arm. "OW!!!ey!! why are you pinching me.." "..................... � " "in my head, i didnt even think.. i'm gonna go inside first!!!" .. and then Ahjumma went inside the elevator!!! . Ahjumma!! "ow. it frkn hurts. why did you pinch me!!!!!" "ey.. why did you tell Ahjumma???" "its okay!!" "what do you mean its okay?!??!!" "kekeke go inside.." "ey. where are you going??" he stroked my head once and predictably stuck his hands in his pockets as he left.. . ^ "ey!!! what am i going to do by myself!!!" ................... ........... like a burglar i slowly crawled toward the house. "Yeh Won!!!" "scared me.. yes????" "so its almost you and Hwanee's 100 days, correct??" ". yes..." "why didnt anyone tell me???" "huh???? ah.." "kekeke" Ahjumma began to laugh!! "i see.. kekeke i feel like a fool." "............" "i .. will buy you both something delicious for your 100 days.. come out holding hands!!" "huh???????" and then Ahjumma went into her bedroom!!! "..........." what the heck happened.. . my phone is ringing. "hello." "i was right, right??" "about what??" is this guy a ghost?? "you didnt get punished.. right?? i was right??" "................" "keke i knew it... then hurry and sleep. dont be late tomorrow.. if you're late you're dead!!" "i got it..." "im hanging up.." "Kay.." Hwanee hung up. ............. what is this... . the next morning. i was afraid to look at Ahjumma's face. "Yeh Won, you're awake??" "huh?? yes..." "wash up.. and eat!!!" "okay.." nothing changed from before. .......... "i'm leaving now.." "keke okay.. Hwanee must be waiting.." "..........." "keke Yeh Won, your face turned red.." "good bye.." i held my cheeks as i left. Jin Hwan was waiting for me atop of his motorcycle. "sh#t. why are you so late!!!" "what?? im 1 minute late. exactly 1 minute.." "get on.." " . ^" holding tightly to Hwanee i arrived at school. "Yeh Won!!!!!!" Eun Jin came running to me.. "thank you so much for yesterday.." "stupid.. you're a friend. it's the least i could do.." "^^" im so glad she became my friend.. ^^ "ey. we have to form a group" "what group???" "...we're .. going to eat bibimbap in our class.." "really?" "yea.. its all settled.. you, me and Yoo Bin." "us three?" "the three of us are outcasts ^^" right then, Yoo Bin slammed the door as he came in. "take me out of it" "huh??? YOo Bin.." "am i an outcast??its only because i choose not to make friends" "exactly... okay. who's house do you want to meet at??" "we have to meet?? why do we have to meet to make bibimbap?" "ey. we have to met.. who's house is the biggest?? Han Yoo Bin. you're the winner.. we're going to your house." "ey!! we're making bibimbap. why do we have to meet??" Eun Jin placed a hand on my shoulder and dragged me outside. "ey!!!!" i heard Yoo Bin's melancholy cry from behind us "Eun Jin. why do we have to meet at someones house to make bibimbap??" "keke i always wanted to visit Han Yoo Bin's house. i waited so much for this day..^^" "why?????" "if you go to his house.. i heard the maids give you so much food to eat^^" "ey!!!!!!" Eun Jin is really quite strange. the more i think about the stranger she really is.. kekeke if.. i go to Yoo Bin's house.. i could probably see Hwanee.^^ ======================== ========================== "okay then... the three of us are a group.." "teacher.. i want to change groups!!" Yoo Bin yelled. "Han Yoo Bin.. you're dead!! teacher, never mind!!^^;;" of course, it was Eun Jin.. all day today, Yoo Bin kept following Eun Jin, asking why we had to meet at his house to make bibimbap. "ey!!! why my house!!! why do we have to meet to make bibibmbap!!!" "thats my decision.." "ey!!!!!" "okay okay!!! its because i want to go to your house!!! happy now??????!!!!!!!!!!!!" Eun Jin yelled at Yoo Bin and then left. Yoo Bin's vacant expression.. . ^ "ah... heh ^^;;; ey!! wait for me!!!!!!" i quickly followed Eun Jin.. "Eun Jin!! i dont know where Yoo Bin's house is.." "oh yea you dont know.. hold on.." pulling out a piece of paper and a pencil from her bag, Eun Jin scrawled something down and gave it to me "here.. dont get lost.. its frkn hard to find his house.. okay????^^" "hUh????????sure..^^" Eun Jin ran to the end of the hallway. as if she had an important engagement to go to .. when i go to Yoo Bin's today.. will i be able to see Hwanee?? will he not like seeing me????>0< i was crossing the street when.. i met Jong Min. while he was with another girl. "ah. hello........" this girl... this girl is.. when Hwanee and i were avoiding each other .. and we met at the club. is this the girl that hit me??????? the girl Hwanee was kissing.. . ^ [*if yu dont remember, go back toCh.55 ] "where are you going??" "huh??h.. home.." "^^ really?? ah.. say hi.. this is Choi Min.." "its not our first time meeting right..???????" chomping on her gum, that girl answered rudely. "yea..." "annoying.." "whats wrong?? Choi Min Young?? why to Yeh Won..." "ey. Hyun Jong Min!!!.." "Yeh Won!!! please forgive her.." "..^^" "Yeh Won!! lets not do this. we havent seen each other in a while.. lets talk somewhere." "huh?? s.. sure.." along with Jong Min and that Choi Min Young girl we went to a quiet cafe. "that must be a camera!!!" "huh?? yea. this is really nice one. i just bought it!! ^^" "really??" "yup.. im working two jobs..^^" "kekee^^" "Yeh Won!! did you develop those pictures we took last time??" "huh?? yea.. its at home.." "really? you should have shown me!!" "huh?? i'll show you next time we meet.^^" "sure^^" that Choi Min Young girl kept glaring at me. "Choi Min Young, your eyes are going to pop out.. why are glaring at Yeh Won like that?? . " that tone only Jong Min could pull off.. "what does Hwanee like about that brat???" "huh???????" "annoying!! Hyun JOng min!! dont you have any resentment?? Hwanee used both of us????" "ey.. Choi.. Choi Min Young!!!" "even though its Hwanee!!!! how could he­ and for that girl too.. he used me... f_ck." that Min Young girl gulped down her water. "............." "you fu.. ah shi.. . ^ what can Hwanee possibly see in that girl!!!!!!!!" "this isnt working.. Yeh Won. lets go outside!!^^" "huh????????" "Hyun Jong Min!! where are you going?" "if you're going to keep doing that to Yeh Won, then leave!!" "Hyun Jong Min, you're seriously going to do that to me????!!!!!" "thats right!!" "fine. have fun together.. im leaving because im annoyed." is she really going to leave?? she got up. "Hyun Jon Min.. dont be too late!!" "i got it!!!!!!!!!" and that girl left. "Yeh Won!!" "huh??" "are you doing okay with Hwanee?" "huh?? yea..^^" "arent you curious?" "about what??" "what Min Young said.." "... to tell the truth, im very curious.. but.. when i think about it.. i end up thinking about that time before.." "^^ Jin Hwan that jerk.... he really likes you." "yup.^^ Jong Min!!! will you tell me something??" "..............." "when Hwanee and i broke up..." "a.. about that.. ask Hwanee himself.." "............." "i dont know that much either... i just know that Hwanee did that for you.." "...^^ for me???.." "lets meet next time.. i'll take pictures ^^" Jong min changed the subject. i shouldnt ask Jong Min this right??? "really?? you want to?? you promised." "yup..^^" "huh?? its already 5 30???? what do i do!!!!!!!!! i.. i have to go to Yoo Bin's house.." "Yoo Bin?? the guy who's going out with Kim Ji Min???" "huh???? yea.." "ah.. then hurry.." "okay.. i'm leaving first. i'll see you later.." "kay." i took a taxi toward Yoo BIn's house. "............ Ahjusshi where are we??" i dont see anything except for a high wall. "this is the place you told me to go... walk straight along here. i dont know the place inside..^^;;" "huh?? okay..." without any plan, i got out of the taxi and went toward Yoo Bin's house. what in the world.. there were houses like this!!! but where is his house!! . all the houses were so big i tried finding Yoo Bin's house with only that slip of paper. did i search for 15 minutes?? right then, this girl came toward me. "what are you doing there???" "huh??? oh.. th.. that is.." "are you a burglar???" that rude tone.. it reminds me of someone. are all rich kids like that?? . ^ shes just like that Choi Min Young girl... . ^ "im not a burglar!! here. i'm going to my friends house.." after giving me a glare she look at the paper. "here?? who are you going to meet?" "Ha.. Han Yoo Bin!!" "Yoo Bin Oppa?? Yoo Bin Oppa's going out with Ji Min Unni..." "do you by any chance know Yoo Bin?? then tell me the way.." "are you stupid!! its right behind you.. . ^" "what?" i must really be stupid. how embarrassing for me.. . ^ how many meters is it?? this high wall.. and this tremendous front door. "this is Han Yoo Bin's house?" "yea.." "thanks ^^" "will you move!!" why is she talking so casually. Hwak. "what?" "i said to move.. im going inside.." "huh?? sure.. so.. sorry.." after mad dogging me "Ahjumma!! open the door!!" "yes..." Click. the door is opening. this huge front door. that kid glared at me and went through the open door i followed her inside. this garden is so huge.. you could play soccer here. "Ahjumma!!! wheres Yoo Bin Oppa?" "hes on the 2nd floor.. with his friend.." "friend??" "yes maam.." "how about Hwanee Oppa??" "Hwanee is not home yet." right then.. CRASH.. BOOM "Yeh Won!!! why did you come now!!! you tardy king!!!!!!!!" "huh??^^" "huh?? its Han So Young.." as soon as Eun Jin opened her mouth. that So Young girl's face suddenly turned red with fright!! "Eun Jin Unni!!! why are you at our house!! Han Yoo Bin.. you're dead!!!!!!!!" and then that So Young girl raced up the stairs.. . ^ what is going to happen.. . ^ 79. "Han Yeh Won!! come up..." "huh???" "ah shii... . ^" annoyed Yoo Bin. "whats wrong????" "nothing. annoying." and then out of all the many many rooms, Yoo Bin entered one.. . ^ "Eun Jin!! where are you going??" "come here.. keke i'll show you something fun.." "................" Eun Jin went into some room on the 2nd floor. "whats this?" "look here..." there were scattered photo albums.. "this is Yoo Bin. isnt he frkn adorable??" "huh??????????" i examined the photo. "....wow.. hes really cute.." "keke right?? look. i think they're all chairmen.." "really?? wow... it doesnt look like our country.." "its no joke......" i was looking at Yoo Bin's pictures when. holding one man's hand.. Yoo Bin was smiling brightly... i know who that man is. its Yoo Bin's father. but next to him was one guy glaring fiercely "whos that???" "huh??? ah.. i dont know.." i could recognize him at one glance. that kid is Hwanee... Hwanee... next to cheerful Yoo Bin was the opposite of him.. Hwanee's expression looked very annoyed and unhappy.. "ey! put that back!!!" "huh?? kay.." "!! Han Yoo Bin. let us look a little bit more!!" "shut up.." Yoo Bin stuffed the photo albums under the bed.. kekeke "lets hurry and finish!!" "hold on." suddenly standing up, Eun Jin sat down at Yoo Bin's desk... kekeke "EY!!!!!!!" "Yoo Bin! im hungry." "sh#t. i knew you would do that." "hurry.... . " "ah shii.." "Yoo Bin!!! a lot. bring plenty..^^" kekeke Eun Jin was sitting at the desk, concentrating on something and noting stuff down. "what are you doing??" "huh?? Bibimbap.." "..............." spinach.. Chinese bellfllower.. cucumbers.. hot sauce.. Eun Jin wrote down this and that.. "^^" but where is Hwanee's room?? without Eun Jin knowing.. i searched for Hwanee's room. ".................." theres so many rooms.. . "what is this????" a room filled with only books... not here. this is. a restroom.... ............. when i opened the 4th room. there was barely anything in it­ the room was almost chilly because it was empty.. "..................." ......its Hwanee's room....... i carefully opened the door and stepped inside. its really an empty room. "...stupid............" but.. in the corner there were a lot of clothes.. jerk. he left clothes at my house too.. how much clothing did he buy?????? .....the desk is lacking somthing.... there were books but. they were all english books.. and they were not normal books. American newspapers.. and books normal Americans would read. my eyes are getting sore.. . ^ "................" in front of the desk.. was a small frame....... "..whats this?????" it was a picture of me. "..............." when did i smile like this????? this picture.. was from the field trip... Hwanee never took a pictuer of me.... ........... i placed the frame back and looked around his empty room. "..............." stupid...... this is really just a place to sleep.. � he should just live with me...... how tiring must he be? next to his bed was yet another picture frame. it was me again... the picture of mental patients escaping.. when Hwanee and i were in the hospital together.. keke why does he have this picture here!!!!!! ............. Hwak. "what are you doing there??" TAK. that So Young Girl opened the door slightly and stared at me with terrorizing eyes.. i dropped the frame. "what are you doing in Jin Hwan Oppa's room????" "huh?????????' that girl looked at the fallen picture frame. there were glass shards everywhere.. her greatly astonished expression..... "ey!! who are you!!!" "huh????.." she picked up the frame.. "Oppa doesnt even show ME this.." after seeing the picture. So Young's expression hardenened.. "...this................" she looked alternately from the picture to me. "you.. are you this person??" "huh?????????" "i asked if you were the person next to Hwanee Oppa!!" "y.. yes i am.." that girl threw the picture frame.. "why did you do that!!!!!!!!!!" i picked up the picture frame from the floor. there was a tear on the edge... "Yeh Won!!" yelling my name, Eun Jin and Yoo Bin came running over and looked at us with surprised expresssions. that So Young girl was crying. "whats wrong? Yeh Won!!!!!!" "huh??" ".................." "Han So Young... what did you do to Yeh Won????" "That hoe.. that hoe... and Hwanee Oppa..." "Ey!! what do you mean hoe? shes not one year, but 3 years older than you..." "why do you say that only to me!!!!!!!!" and then So Young dashed out of the room. "Yeh Won!! are you okay? are you hurt anywhere??" "huh?? im.. fine.." i held the picture. and placed it where it was before. Hwanee will probably get angry after seeing this right??? � what will Hwnee say when he sees me????? and what will he say when he sees the glass shards and the picture???????? 80. "Han Yoo Bin.... but why is your house so lonely????" "what is??????" we have nothing to do... we already finished our project.. Eun Jin was not going anywhere. she was doing pretty much nothing in the room... kekeke "i said, why is your house so lonely.. . ^ theres no one here except the maids..." "whats wrong with that..." " . ^ where is your mom!!!!!!!!" "why are you getting mad!!! you're the one asking the question.. you're incredible.. . ^" "............" "she went on a trip.." "a trip?? what kind of trip??????" Eun Jin's eyes became round.. they're enormous.. "really. why is it your business!!!!!" "� " after glaring at Yoo Bin.. Eun Jin comfortably lied down. Boom.. Boom.. .............. "what was that sound? is it an earthquake??" "..............." Yoo Bin had a bitter expression... ".............." "is it that Han So Young brat????" "............." "yup... her personality was always nasty. i have to teach her a lesson.. � she always had no manners.." .............. "Han Yoo Bin... is it nice to have a house this big???" i asked Yoo Bin. "whats so nice about it???"­he answered­ Eun Jin abruptly sat up... "what????? if i lived in this house.. i would live like a noble woman.... should i just marry Han Yoo Bin??? / ^" "ey. who said i wanted to marry you??? .. i should just tell Jjok Sae hyung nim.." "tell him..ch.." Eun Jin stuck out her chin "did you fight again????" "fight­ hah... its a total separation now.. its game over!!!!!!!! . ^ . ^" "whY?? why did you fight??" ­ i asked­ " dont worry!!! they're always like that...^^" "............." ............its not serious?? "aigoo.. im gonna go to the bathroom.." "bathroom?? you know where it is right??" "i saw it before.><" "kay.." i left the room and went to the restroom.. ........ i saw Hwanee's room in the corner of my eye the door was tightly shut.. . � aigoo i have to go..its urgent. with quick steps i went to the restroom. Hwak........ the moment the door opened.. ".........cant you see a person is in here!!!!!!!!!!!!" i heard a guy yelling in a loud voice.. Its Hwanee.. Hwanee was washing his face.. after saying that, Hwanee looked at me, completely surprised.. "Han Yeh Won!!!!!!!!" "...........00000000..." "stay there.." he finished washing his face at an amazingly fast speed.. and walked to me as he wiped his face.. � its so urgent tho.. >0<.. its gonna come out. come out. . � "Han Yeh Won.. why are you here??????" "huh?? dont worry... i didnt come to meet you.. >0<" "how did you come here???" >0< this bastard, its really urgent.. . "Han Yeh Won!!!" Hwanee poked a finger at my head its really gonna come out.. ,. "Hwanee.." ".............." "i really have to go.. � " its so. extremely embarrassing.. but. its less embarrassing then wetting my pants. Hwanee looked at me with strange eyes. i made.. the most urgent expression i could muster. "................" without a word, Hwanee came out of the restroom thanks.. . "................." aigoo refreshing.. . ^ ............. i did my business.. Hwanee stood about five paces away when i came out.. "....^^;;" "how did you come here??" "� .. i came to do a group project with Yoo Bin!!!" "group project??? are you an elementary student?? why are you doing that?" "why not?????????? and dont worry.. because i didnt come here to see you... � " "Han Yeh Won!!!" "what!!!!!" "come to my room.." "............." abruptly getting up, he entered his own room. 'SLAM' that scared me.. � but why is he telling me to go in?? i hesitated.. before going to Hwanee's room.. "..................." he had his rock music on loud of course.. Hwanee was lying on his bed.. ............ was he tired? he was lying with his uniform still on. is it.. is it possible.... >0< no probably not.. � theres no way that can happen.. HUK.im the one thats hesitating.. "Hwanee.." "..............." "Hwanee...." ".................." Hwanee did not reply. ...................... i moved closer to Hwanee's side. 81. "ey........." i went to Hwanee because he was on his side, i couldnt see him very well but. i saw his profile. he was secretively closing his eyes.. he was sleeping.. im sure he was sleeping.. . ^ what kind of guy is he?? he was the one that told me to come in and it hasnt even been 5 minutes.. "................." but what is this?? i didnt see this earlier.. there were bruises and scars on Hwanee's face.. why are they there?? and on Hwanee's left arm was a serious looking bruise. "................." "Hwanee!!!! Hwanee..." "Han Yeh Won... you're dead!! dead!!!!" "..................." what kind of sleeptalk is he saying.. . ^ hes going to kill me? how did he become like this!! . and i cant wake Hwanee up and ask him.. � i gazed at Hwanee. his incredibly long legs... � and his large hands.. those broad shoulders. that small face... long neck... and from his face, his pretty mouth and eyes.. aigoo.. my head.. ...................... why am i so sleepy?? why am i so sleepy? i shouldnt sleep.. .. without knowing it, i fell asleep... how long did i sleep? when i woke up. the room was pitch dark with no sunlight whatsoever... and with a hand on my head.. Hwanee was in Dream Land. what time is it?? "................." HUK..... its past 9.. its 9 o clock. what do i do? "Hwanee!! Hwanee.." i shook Hwanee's body this way and that. getting annoyed, Hwanee rubbed his head on the blanket. " ,. ........" "................." suddenly, Hwanee opened his eyes widely and stared at me.. it might be because he just woke up.. but his eyes seemed even bigger.. and his hair was a mess.. "Han Yeh Won?" "yea..." "is this a dream?" "its not a dream." "then why are you here??" "stupid!! its about time you woke up.." i said before i could think. im really becoming like Hwanee.. .............. "ey. what do i do? its 9 oclock.." "9?? why didnt you leave?" "i dont know.. i must have fallen asleep.. � " "stupid.." suddenly getting up.. he draped a sweater over himself. brushed his hair.. and pulled out a key from his desk drawer. "hurry.." "huh?? but. there's adults downstairs." "so?" holding onto my wrist Hwanee went downstairs.. "where are you going??" "im just going outside." Hwanee spoke coldly and heartlessly. the woman didnt seem like a maid.. "but in a little bit your father is coming home." "............i wont take long..." and grabbing my wrist harder he dragged me outside. "^^ good bye..^^" "bye.." the Ahjumma was really friendly.. and her face was just as pretty as Hwanee's mom.. but Hwanee's mom looks arrogant. this Ahjumma looks like she is very dedicated to her husband.. we were walking through the garden when.. "Oppa!!!!! Oppa.........." So Young ran out from the house.. "Oppa......where are you going?" "why do you want to know??????" "just.. are you taking that girl home?" "why is it your business??" "................" "Han Yeh Won.. hurry.." "Oppa.... Oppa.. you cant take this Unnie on the motorcycle.. okay?? you cant. give her a ride.." "if i give her a ride, what are you gonna do about it??" "OPPA!!!!!!!!! but you dont even give me rides...." "Thats because you're you. i'm not going to give you rides.." "........." i feel embarrassed because im right next to them.. "Oppa!!!!!" Hwanee smoothly got on his motorcycle. "Han Yeh Won.. hurry.. get on...." "............" "OPPA~~~~~~" the SoYoung girl sobbed to Hwanee. i felt sorry for her Hwanee handed me a helmet. small chicken poop like tears began falling from So Young's face.. drop drop.. [*chicken poop? lol*] "..................." Hwanee and i were soon riding on the highway.. � in no time, we crossed the river.. and reached my neighborhood. "bye.." "Han Yeh WOn!!" "Yea??" "i'm going to call. so pick up...." "When??" "whenever....." " � ^" Hwanee lightly touched by cheek and quickly sped off. "................" of course. home is the best.. there is no other house as comfortable.. � oh yea!! i didnt get to ask Hwanee.. about his arm. and his face.. . ^ stupid of me. that guy will probably not go to a hospital too... ....... i washed up and ate.. and was watching TV when.. my phone rang.. "Hello.." "its me.." "yea.." "what are you doing??" "right now?? im watching tv.." "?" "............." "................" for a long while there was silence.. � this guy really makes a person feel embarrassed "oh yea.. ey. what happened to your face and your arm?" "what?" "i saw it before.. whats wrong?? really??? did you fight again??" "no. dont worry about it." "what do you mean, dont worry??? hurry and go to the hospital.." "hah­ hospital...." "ey.. you have to go........." "im capable of doing everything so its okay!!! ^^......." "hurry and go!!!!!!" "its fine.. keke" why doesnt he want to go.... he was hurt seriously.. "huh???????" Hwanee suddenly yelled. "whats wrong??" "my picture..." "what???" "no. a picture frame....... the glass broke......." "seriously?????" i was so nervous.. my heart prickled.... "wha... what picture is it????" i made a big effort to pretend to be indifferent. "sh#t... its just a picture. my favorite picture." "........." then that picture. that picture of you and me ... is the one you treasure the most?? "sh#t... what bastard... ey. hang up..." "oh.. okay........" i wanted to hang up too.. � "sh#t... Han So Young is dead. hang up." "eu........" the phone abruptly hung up... what do i do????? if he knew i did it, he'll probably kill me. 82. i dreampt a strange dream that night.. ......i cant even remember much of it... but it was a really strange dream.. "..are you awake????" "ah... yes..^^" "tomorrow is.. your 100 days.. keke" "Ahjumma.. � " "hurry­ wash up and eat.." ever since Ahjumma found out, every morning she looks at me and laughs.. . ^ � ^ "i'll be leaving now.." "sure..^^" "� " today Hwanee is late.. i waited in the direction Hwanee came in.. � ............. VRooOm..~~~ a motorcycle was speeding towards me. but. it wasnt Hwanee's motorcycle.. guys with girls wearing uniforms sitting behind them sped~~ away.. do i look like that in other people's eyes?? . ^ "................." but why is he so late??? . ^ Screech... a taxi stopped in front of me. "................" Hwanee appeared from inside. "Hwanee." "heres the money.. i dont need change.." "yes sir.." "you didnt come on your motorcycle??" "that?? its just happened.. � " "why??" "just did.. want to ride a taxi?" "......lets ride the bus.." "okay then.. � " weird.. he would die before he would ride the bus.. Hwanee's face did seem a little awkward. is it because of his scars??.. did the scars become worse from yesterday..? � "whats wrong with your face???" "� its fine. im okay." "come here.." i went closer to Hwanee and took another look. i touched Hwanee's arm.. and Hwanee looked pained "ow... ow...." "ah. sorry...... oh.. oh my.. whats this now??" when i saw it yesterday, it wasnt this bad.. � there was a red bruise and his whole right arm was swollen.. it looked twice its size. "ey. you cant just leave your wounds like this." "its okay.." "come here.." "Where are you going?" "we have to go to a hospital!!!" "i dont have to go to a hospital.. hurry.. the bus is coming." "its okay.. i can be late to school.. � hurry up.." "i said i dont want to.." i pulled Hwanee's arm and went towards the hospital. even till the end, he said he didnt want to go.. . ^ because i pulled him against his will, it took well over 15 minutes.. � im crazy for doing this.. � Hwanee is being checked up right now.. . ^ ................. ........................ Hwanee quietly came out.. he appeared with a cast on his left arm.. "what did the doctor say??" "i dont know.. he said it was fine." "really????" "yea.." "then what happened to you?? did you get hit by someone???" "dont worry about it..." "............" ....... is it possible..... "is it possible.. you got hit by those seniors??" "..............no..." "im right!! right?? how did you get hit to end up like this??" "i said no!!" "im right.." HWAK.. gripping my hand tightly.. Hwanee left. "ey!! tell me..." "its fine.. im okay.." "............." ....................... "ahh fawk.. how can i walk around with this? its so embarrasing � " "is being embarrassed the problem here??" "kekeke" Hwanee tussled my hair again.. we were riding a taxi to school when.. Hwanee did not say anything to me.. .......... "Yeh Won!!!" "^^" "you know we're eating bibimbap today right??" "yup..^^ i brought plates and utensils..^^" "now only Yoo Bin needs to come.^^" Eun Jin said as she rinsed her mouth.. "...Eun Jin.." "yea??" "hey... remember at Shin Chon.. why was Hwanee being hit by those seniors?" "Hwaneee? ah.... about that.." Eun Jin looked like she knew something.. "what was the reason??" "that.. about that..." "..........." "its because of that bastard's personality.. � " "????????????" "there was a drop out student in the old man's class.. a guy one year older than him.." "a student who dropped out??" "yea... but that dropout wasnt a regular student.. � he came from In Chon... and he knew a lot of people." "and?" "but the old man and the dropout started to quarrel..." "and..." "they fought.. he shouldnt have ever done this but.... Hwanee won... . ^ " "what????" "and then... that dropout ordered some kids to teach Hwanee a lesson.." "seriously?????" "yea. if the old man would have lost.... he would have been hit less.... is the old man's face okay???" "Huh?? yea.." "it wasnt a joke at all.. but... that old man got on the senior's nerves.. and he got hit on the forearm with a metal pipe. frkn hard... . ^ " "really??" "yea.. i heard it was no joke.. that jerk... got hit with a metal pipe. he was half unconscious.. it was crazy.. . ^ " "really???????..what do i do??" "why?? is his arm weird??" "yea.... its swollen badly.." "must have gone out.. . ^ " "what????" "oh.. ey. Han Yoo Bin is coming.. Han Yoo Bin.." looking at me, Eun Jin ran towards Yoo Bin ........ so thats what happened?? what kind of mess did he make.. � stupid. really. there is no one as stupid as him in this world... .................. ........... Class. POKE. a paper came flying over.. ".................." ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ lets go to Hwanee's school later­­ ­­Eun Jin­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ "............." i looked at Eun Jin.. and she smiled cheerfully. im so thankful. ive been getting so many favors from Eun Jin these days.. im so grateful and sorry.. 83. ........time to eat Bibimbap.. Eun Jin and i planned to eat quickly and leave for Jo Young Gong Go. "Han Yoo Bin!!! how can you not bring the gochoojang? [hotsauce]? stupid!!! whats the point of eating bibimbap without gochoojang.." "ey!! then why did you ask me to bring it???" "YooBin. still, this was going too far.. bibimbap.. without gochoojang.. � " "i dont know.. we'll just borrow some.." "then go borrow.." "no. why should i go???" "because you're the one that forgot to bring it.." "no. its embarrassing­ how can i borrow some?? � " "whew..." i went around with a spoon, borrowing spoonfuls of gochoojang "Yeh Won to the rescue!! Han Yoo Bin. you're not allowed to eat!!!" "stupid. i brought everything." "shut up......```````````````" "you're unbelievable. you... " well, Yoo Bin did bring everything. we made four portions of bibimbap and ate it. it was so good.. after we ate it all, we kept sucking on our spoons and ate the leftovers.. kekeke "ah.. im full." "cuz yu frkn ate a lot.. � " "ah... in a little bit we have a physical checkup.." "oh yea.." how much did we eat.. � i felt nauseous... "Eun Jin... are you able to go to Jo Young Gong Go?" ".........i have to go.. i have.." suddenly standing up Eun Jin grabbed my hand and pulled me Huk.... where does she get all this strength .. � "Yeh Won!!!" "Yea??" "how many days has it been with Hwanee??" "Huh????" since tomorrow is our 100 days.. today is our 99th??? "99 days.." "really?? really?? wow.. then tomorrow is your 100 days. its already been that long???" "huh?? yup ^^ why????" "huh?? ah.. nothing.." "^^" "but shouldnt you subtract the days you were fighting???" "yea... thats what i think too.. � want to.. but Hwanee said he didnt he said we were still going out during that time.." "seriously????? what kind of stubbornness is that?" "i know huh... � his stubbornness is not normal.. . ^%" "yea. that old man is like that.. . ^" "keke" "but what do yu think the old man will do for you??? � " "im not even expecting anything.. � " "old man.. we have high expectations.. � " "^^" in front of Jo Young Gong Go.. "..........hurry." "..............." "hyoo... i cant let this go.." Eun Jin held my hand and went to Jo Young Gong Go.. ........... kids wearing the Jo Young Gong Go uniform appeared out of the back gate in a line.. "..............." "where is that jerk??? whew.." "Eun Jin!!!" one guy began talking to Eun Jin. "Huh?? Hyung Chul..." "^^ how come you're at our school???" "stupid. i came to see you..^^" "stop lying you hoe." "what do you mean, lying....." .......... How many Jo Young Gong Go guys bowed to Eun Jin?? of course... Eun Jin knows a lot of people!! � "ey. where is that old man???" "........(shakes head)........." "this isnt working. Ey!!!" "..............." Eun Jin called a girl wearing a Jo Young Gong Go uniform ".............me????" "Yea. you!!!" "............" "run over here!!!!!" "..............." that Jo Young Gong Go student came running to Eun Jin... "do you know old man.. i mean, Hwanee??" "Hwanee?? Jin Hwan???" "Yea..." "i only know his name and his face...." "ah shii.. okay." "..........." "leave!!!!" "yes maam.." .......... Eun JIn is scary.. � "whats wrong??" "huh?? ah..^^ sorry..^^" "^^" even though i know Eun Jin, i dont know her completely.. she has too many secrets.. and her personality is unique. although we spent a few months together.. im not altogether sure what kind of person she is.. "this isnt working.. Yeh Won. lets go." "huh?????"" "lets go.." "go where???" "what do you mean where??? school???" "school?? here??" "yea." "i.. i dont want to.. am i crazy???" "then what are you gonna do? hes not coming.." "no. still. i want to wait here.." "hurry.." "no..." Eun Jin grabbed my hand and went inside Jo Young Gong Go "no.. � " "this is frkn tiring.." i couldnt win with my strength. Eun Jin is so strong. "are you gonna keep embarrassing me like that???" "..........i dont want to.." in no time, we were inside the school. the first floor. Jo Young Gong Go freshmen kept looking at us weirdly "sh#t what are you looking at??" "............." the quiet atmosphere "Eun Jin!! whats wrong?" "................." are we on the 3rd floor now?? "Eun Jin.. i have to go." "what??" "i have.. to go bathroom.." "Ey!!!!!! ah shi. in a place like this.." "................" "ah shi.. hurry up.." Eun Jin and i entered the Jo Young Gong Go bathroom. ".........." the bathroom was really wide and clean.. and the juniors (on the 3rd floor) even had shower stalls... what the heck. i dont know whats better about it than our schools. if its good its good... its not a bad quality at all i was doing my business in the bathroom when. i noticed the writings over the door. 'Hwanee ♡ **" 'Hwanee Oppa's mine~~" all this nonsense was written on it.. i didnt know Hwanee was this popular.. � what am i??? why am i thinking these things?? "Han Yeh Won??????? what are you doing?" "Eun Jin!!! give me a sharpie...." "sharpie???" "yea.." Eun Jin threw me a sharpie over the door in front of the bathroom door i wrote ­­Hwanee is mine... Hwanee's my husband!!! ^^000000000 .................................... ........why does my heart feel tight..... 84. "Han Yeh Won!!! hurry­ come out!~~~" "huh??? kay..." i quickly went to Eun Jin. "lets go.." "sure..^^" i was tightly holding hands with Eun Jin when.. from the stairs.. a Jo Young Gong Go teacher was coming down.. "Eun Jin!!!" "ey. hurry, lets hide.." " � ... hoo.." why is it so suspenseful? . ^ "Hurry lets go.." "kay." Eun jin and i went to the 3rd floor together. "ey.. do you know Hwanee's room number?" "huh?? no..." "sheesh.. you dont even know that?? wait here.." Eun Jin lowered her head deeply and went somewhere. and then she asked a male student what Hwanee's room number was.. .. � why am i shaking so much??? , "student~~~" "................." "student~!!!" "yes?? euaaak~~~~~" a pervurted looking teacher was directly behind me and was calling me.. � on his face was a huuge mole. ....... smiling strangely, he called me. because i was so surprised when i saw him right behind me, i fell down. "Eum...." "ah.. ak.." my butt.. . ^ why me. why my butt.. � "will you get up?!!!!!!!" "yes??" "................." that teacher glared at me. i rubbed my butt as i got up. "follow me!!!~~" "...............okay... � " i looked behind me. Eun Jin was still taking to that guy. � good bye Eun Jin... � the place that teacher went to was the couseling office.. "student..." "yes????" "who did you come here to meet?" "huh? th.. that is.." "who were you planning on meeting?" "yes..?? ..... i .. i just came.." "from what high school?? Boo Ja??" "yes..........." i talked to the teacher in front of the office. this teacher... is really scary.. . his face is smiling but.. only his mouth was. and his weird tone of voice.. � "why did you come here?" "............." "why did you come here?? � " ............. "im asking you, why you came here.........." the teacher's voice quickly increased.. � "i came to.. meet a friend." "who is your friend??" "teacher.. i made a mistake.. � " that teacher hit my head with a cane.. � "ow..." "does it hurt??" "yes.... � " "should i hit you more???" "huh?????? no...." "then answer my questions.." this teacher is really strange.. � "who did you come here to meet???" ".............." "are you not going to answer me??" "huh???? Hwa.... Hwa.... Jin... Hwan, sir." "Jin Hwan?? Han Jin Hwan??" "yes sir....." "kneel here and keep your hands raised.." "yes sir........." clasping his hands behind his back, the teacher went inside.. "tea.. teacher...." "................" that teacher looked at me. "what????" "can.. can you.. not tell Hwanee about this.... � "why??" " "why?? because i dont want you to.. � " "okay then.." and the teacher went back inside. i misjudged the teacher­ he was unexpectedly nice... . ^ Jo Young Gong Go students looked at me weirdly and giggled as they passed.. � what a disgrace... what a humiliation.. � .. how many minutes did i stay like this???? slowly, i started to lose feeling in my legs.. "ow.. ow..... � " i heard that if i licked my nose and my mouth, my legs would be less sore. "ow.........ow....... � " "Han Yeh Won!!!!!!!!" "..............." i saw a crowd of over 10 people near the stairs.. among them, Hwanee called me while licking an icecream cone. he had a cast on his arm too.. the once pure white bandages turned dark.. how much did kids write on there.. . with huge, round eyes.. . � "Ey!!! Han Yeh Wo??" "huh?? its Yeh Won.. Hwanee's wife^^ nice to meet you!!" "what the fawk!!!!!" i lowered my head.. "shii......" Hwanee walked in front of me. HUk.. my embarrassing state.... .................. please. dont come here!!! 85. "ey.. why are you here??" . ^ you cant come here~~~~~ "i dont know.. . ^" right then, at the end of the hall, i heard chatter "sh#t.. Jin Hwan jerk. where did Yeh Won go??" it was Eun Jin. she saw me and quickly ran over "Han Yeh Won!!! what are you doing over here?" "huh?? i got caught... . " "what??? you stupid... Jin Hwan jerk..." Eun Jin looked over at Hwanee and went to him. "you bastard!!!! where the heck were you??? . ^" "stupid!!!! none of your business.." "what?? you jerk.." Hwanee's friend spoke next to us. "huh??? its Eun Jin Nuna.." Eun Jin looked surprised.. looking alternately at me and him she socked his stomach. "huh?? you're dead.." "Jjok Sae hyung nim... go to him.." "what?" "where is he??" "JJok Sae hyung nim.. is on the 5th floor... in the T­shaped classroom!!!" a short kid next to him said.. how is that kid so short?? and since he's next to Hwanee, he looks even shorter. � he looks like a girl.. "hurry and go.." "huh???" Eun Jin glanced at me.. "go.^^" "sorry. Yeh Won!!!" Eun Jin gave me a quick hug and ran up the stairs.. � and Hwanee came towards me. i raised my eyes and made eye contact with him... sucking on his ice cream.. "Han Yeh Won!!! why did you come here?" "huh???" "did that hoe tell you to come with her??" "huH?? ah.. no." "Then why did you come??" "i .. dont know.. � " "stupid.." Hwanee nudged my head. "who did you get caught by??" "huh?? umm.. his eyes are folded.. and theres a huge mole on his cheek.." "the hot teacher??" "huh???????" "you got caught by the hot teacher??" that short guy next to Hwanee started to giggle.. "he said hot teacher..hot teacher.." "ey!! dont go overboard!!" "kay.. sorry.." that small kid quickly shut his mouth.. � "get up.." "huh??" "i said, get up.." "that.." Hwanee abruptly pulled me up and dragged me to the right. "ow..ow.." Hwanee had me trapped. "whats wrong with you?? you want to shoot a bed scene??" "shut up. who wants to with you.. � " � "stand straight.." "my legs are asleep!!! . ^" "what?? anyways... you do everything weird.. � " " . ^" "ey.. little kid.. come here.." that short guy went to Hwanee. he's smaller than me... � hes seriously short.. . ^ he's a junior too.. its kind of pitiful. "hold her here.." "kay.." that short guy held my arm. and Hwanee entered the office. ............ "Yeh Won!!! why are you here??" it was Gyoo Hyun. "huh?? here??? i just ended up here. ^^;;" "really?????" all these kids travel in big groups.. there were more people than the time they went drinking. how many people is this. wow.. � "Yeh Won!!! tomorrow is your 100th day with Hwanee right??" "huh?????? yeup..^^;" "really?????" "yea.. how did you find out??" "Hwanee told me.. to buy a present.. . ^" "what??? kekek its okay.." "what do you mean its okay... its okay for you. if i dont, then that bastard will probably kill me.. . ^" "^^:;" right then i heard voices coming from the office Hwanee's voice. "................" everyone turned their eyes to the office. "whats wrong??" "huh?? when the hot man and Hwanee meet, they're always like that.. but it seems like Hwanee is pestering him more than usual today..^^" "................." "kekeke our school is known for Hwanee!!! his face is like that.. and he fights well but.. his tendency to annoy.. kekeke thats why he gets talked bad about.." "............really? if Hwanee didnt have his face and his house then he would be expelled. keke?" "dont worry!!!!!!!! in a little bit, he'll come out perfectly fine.." "really?????" as soon as he said it the office door oppened with a cast on one hand, Hwnaee strode out victoriously "get up..." "huh?????????" " i said get up.. little kid.. move.." "kay.." and then Hwanee grabbed my arm. "what happened??" "he said to leave.." "seriously??" "then am i not serious???" ".... . ^" "i have to get my bag.. wanna stay here??" "huh??????? no.. i want to go with you.." "shii..........." and with a cast on his hand, he helped me walk along with Hwanee, we went to the 4th floor. seeing this school again, i have to say that its a really nice school..... the facilities are good. and its clean.. . ^ his classroom is on the junior floor.... and is the 14th room!!!!!!!!.. "come in.." "kay.." there were a few girls in that classroom. "Hwanee!!!!!!!" "shut up....." "whats wrong with you??" "thats Hwanee's wife.." "what?" those girls looked at me.. "thats her??" after looking at me, they suddenly glared "frkn weird.." "you wanna die? you hoes??" "i got it.." � because he had the cast on his left hand he grabbed his bag with his right and came to me. "lets go.. ey!! we're leaving.. if you dont buy it and bring it tomorrow, you're all gonna die!!!!!!" "i got it.. jerk.." Hwanee's friends made a commotion. "if you were gonna come to my school, you should have let me know... stupid!!!!!!!" ".... � " "and yu get caught too??" "i dont know. how was i supposed to know.. the teacher was standing right be hind me??" "anyways... why do you have so many weak points .." "why are you getting mad at me???!!!!!!!" "kekeke" Hwanee placed his hand on my shoulder.. "� " im telling you, he does soemthing good and then turns around and says something bad... he always does this. "ey.. but the guy next to you.. is he really a junior???" "who? ah. little kid?" "yea.." "what about him?" "why is he so short??????" "whats wrong with being short???" "no... i dont mean it like that.. im just saying he's shorter than me!!!" "its cute.. kekek" ".............. � " "that boys my b_tch!!!! ekkeke" "what?????" "never mind!!! why do you want to know???" " . ^" b_tch? we left the school and took the bus we sat in the very last seat.. .......... we were sitting there. am i the only one that feels like this? why do i have the feeling that everyone's eyes are on us????? "i dont think i can give you rides on my motorcycle anymore.." "� so who told you to fight??" "..i'm gonna be fine in a little bit.." "yea. in a little bit..... isnt that obvious???" "i should just­ Hwak!!!!!!!!!" . ... Hwanee's arm has to get better so we can go on trips together and he can give me rides on his motorcycle. 86. ................. " � " i see my apartment..... because Hwanee and i wanted to be together a little bit longer... .......we went to the korean river......... the sun is setting....the sky is turning black....... ......the wind is also blowing.. ................"cough cough...." "...................." Hwanee was smoking... he took out something from his large bag and draped it over my shoulders. "whats this??" it wasnt a school uniform. it looked like a PE uniform.... an athletic jacket.. "my workout jakcet.." "your workout jacket??" "its my PE uinform.." "this is how your PE uniform looks like??" "what about it?" Hwanee said to me, as he bit his cigarette "its frkn good... ours is blue... wow this is frkn nice........." "kekeke blue?? are you Dong bang shingi fanclub?? kekeke" " . ^" why is his school so nice??? � seriously. anyways, all of Hwanee's clothes have the same scent. it seems like cologne.... but at the same time it doesnt... its all the same scent... its really pleasant... "heu..............." "..................." why is the wind blowing so hard... its the same weather as the time when i got dumped by Hwanee.. "Hwanee.." "................" Hwanee blew out smoke while he glanced at me. "what??" ".......why did you break up with me last time??" "..........why do you want to know????" " I was just.. curious... its strange..." "my head was confused..." "what??" "................" "..............." after a long moment of silence Hwanee opened his mouth with difficulty. "im not sure....... i felt these feelings for you for the first time......... and if i left to go live with my dad.......i couldnt see you anymore....so....... you would be hurting....... and i had no will to treat you well...." ".................." "im like that.... im either reluctant or... i tend to just give up when there are problems... � " "................" "but it was the first time i held on...... who knew i would do that.. kekeke" Hwanee smoked as he looked far off in the distance. .............. i went next to Hwanee.. and carefully leaned my head on his shoulder. "............." after glancing at me.. Hwanee covered my shoulders... � "then... dont do that anymore!!" ­ i said­ "...........dont do what????" "dont say that you dont want to meet me......and dont say that you dont like me...... dont do that........ dont go anywhere..." "im not going anywhere........now............" "^^" Hwanee promised he would not leave my side.... ever....... ================================== "be safe.." "okay.. bye.." "kay^^ you should go inside and tell Ahjumma hi..." "its okay... Ummah must be sleeping.. i dont want to wake her up.." "okay.. bye....." "^^" Hwanee waved behind him as he left. that cast on his hand... why do i feel so awkward???............ i washed up and fell asleep immediately.. you dont know how tired i was ..... � ­­­­ i woke up.... and Ahjumma was already eating breakfast.. � "Yeh Won!!!" "yes???" "today.... i will buy you dinner... so will you come to the station with Hwanee??" "huh???" "today is your 100 days ^^" "oh..^^" today is my 100 days!!! i forgot.. ,� i ate my breakfast and quickly entered my room. "how much money do i have??" well it is our 100 days... i should do something for him too... � ".............. $14.......50 cents.... � " what can i buy with this??? � first things first. i placed the money in my pocket and went to school... "..................." "Yeh Won!!!!" "huh?? Eun Jin!!" "today's your 100 days right??" "huh????? yup...^^" "heres 100 cents. .^^" "100 cents??? � thanks.." "what did you buy for Hwanee???" "huh??? i didnt buy anything yet." "you didnt buy anything?? do you have money???" "i have around.. $14 dollars... � " "wha?? ey. what are you planning on buying with that??" "i have no idea.. � " "sheesh... hold on...... i have $20.... i'll give it to you... .but hurry and pay me back.." "Thanks. Eun Jin.... � " class time... what can i buy with $30?? i was thinking when........... the door creaked open from behind me. its probably Yoo Bin right?? "is there someone by the name of Han Yeh Won here??" me? i turned around. "Han Yeh Won. are they talking about you?' ­the teacher asked­ "yes??" "go outside.." .......i walked to the back.. that man gave me a basket the size of my body filled with roses. "what is this???" "here......." and he also gave me a small letter. "sign here.." i signed at the place.. and went inside. the teacher and my classmates looked at me strangely i carefully read the letter i had snuck in my pocket.. ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ its me Hwanee... happy 100 days... were you surprised?? you liked them right?? keke lets meet later. you will be even more surprised. im such a genius... have high expectations.. kekeke ­the awesome Hwanee­ ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ whats this??? . ^ i wonder how much those roses would cost???? after listening to the teacher's lecture after class... as soon as school ended. Eun Jin and i decided to go to the plaza to buy Hwanee's present. i feel more burdened after receiving Hwanee's flowers.. . ^ ring ring. ring ring. Hwanee is calling me. i shouldnt answer..... i turned off my phone... "hows this?" "that? how much is it??" "$30.... � geez... ey. what are you gonna buy with that?? � " "� P (+ � � � � � � � � � � " ".......hows this cologne??" ­ i asked­ "cologne??? heuk.... heuk...... ey.. the scent is too strong.." "really??" "Hwanee doesnt use cologne.." "he doesnt use cologne?" "yea.... he has an allergy to it... � " he doesnt wear cologne?? then..... what is that scent i smell from Hwanee?? . ^ "Yeh Won!!! come here.." "yea????" i went to Eun Jin... Eun Jin was looking at a few watches "they're expensive." "no... they're about $35.." "really???" "i'll spot you a little.^^" "thanks........." the watch glittered.. "wrap this please.." "sure...." wrapped prettily, we were walking on the street when... my phone. i turned my phone on. missed calls......9.... � right then, my phone rang. it wasnt Hwanee's number.. "Hello...." "hello???" its some guy... someone i dont konw.. "who is this??" "hello?? its me, Gyoo Hyun." "ah.. whats up??" "come to the bar ­ the one in the plaza." "huh??" "hurry........" ........... Gyoo Hyun abruptly hung up. "what? whos it?" "Gyoo Hyun..... he said to go to the bar we were at before." ................ Eun Jin stared at me vacantly "he must have planned some kind of event. lets hurry." Eun Jin rushed me. event???? what event. � ............ but really, why is he calling me there????? Eun Jin and i hurried to the bar..... .................. 87. "its here right?" "yea.." Eun Jin and i opened the door to the bar.. it was a total party atmosphere BOom... Crash..Boom.. fireworks exploded over my head. "whats this??" ..... there were candles on both sides of me ............... ".............." i looked in front of me. there were over 10 of Hwanee's friends. they were surrounding... Hwanee.. who had his head lowered and was holding a cake.. "ey.. Jin Hwan!! what are you doing??" "............" Hwanee's friends pushed Hwanee towards me. "...get away." Hwanee was forced .. to me what is happening. "blow..." "huh????" "blow the candles out.." with a red face.. and without looking at me in the eye.. Hwanee stood there with his head lowered. .^ "blow.." "kay.." the candles blew out.. and everyone cheered and clapped.. � this is the first time in my life ive had this kind of party. who would have thought that i would get a party like this? and then some person pushed my face into the cake.. � "eub............" "sh#t. what is this??" Hwanee wiped my face.. "you're dead... i'll see you outside later.~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!" � cough cough.. "euak!!!!!!!!" yelling something strange, Hwanees friend came running like mad to hwanee. and he threw the small cake he had in his hand at Hwane's face... � PuK. "...................cough cough. what bastard did this!!!!" Hwanee couldnt open his eyes properly all the kids started to giggle and laugh. i wiped the area around Hwanee's eyes.. "................" "................" Hwanee looked at me why is this so funny?? the two of us looked at each other and laughed awkwardly. we played for a long time with the cake.. to wash off the cake, Hwanee and i went to the restroom.. ...........this gross smell......... � but this fishy smell is second of my problems... how can i go back in like this?? � "shii..." i dusted myself off.. and was opening the door to leave when.. Hwanee stood next to the door. "ah. you scared me... what are you doing here??" "................." Hwanee stared intensely at me.. ".................." "happy 100 days.." "huh??? y.. yea.." what is he saying.. � "Han Yeh Won!!" "huh???" "i love you..." "................." what is he saying right now. he loves me?? he loves me. he must have felt shy after he said it. because his face turned as red as a radish and he lowered his head.. "..................." since he did that, i felt myself grow hot... "................" "i love you............." "........why.. why are you saying that??" ­i stammered­ "................." he grabbed my hand. and he pulled me to him. and then he hugged me tightly. cough cough.. aigoo. i cant breathe. i probably smell....... "lets stay like this for awhile.." "huh???" thats not the problem here.. >< we stayed like that for a long time. from his jacket pocket hwanee pulled out a small box. "................." "give me your hand..": "my hand??" "yea..." .............i extended my hand to him.. "..................." a sparkling, twinkling ring. Hwanee slipped the ring on my finger.. "..................." no words came out of my mouth. my body was frozen.. is he really making everything i dreamt about come true ?? "..................." Hwanee carefully hugged me again. "..................." "woo hoo~!~~~~~~~~~~~~~" i hear a guy's voice next to us.. "Hwanee's..trying to get her to like him...." then the kids started to come out and they looked at us with wide smiles "wow... you guys look perfect..." "sh#t head. get inside.." "woo hoo~~~~~~~~~~" all the kids nudged Hwanee's head before going back inside. i admired the ring on my finger. "................." ................ because my body was frozen.. i stood like that for along time.. Hwanee told me that he loved me.. he loves me... he loves me.. ............... at around 7, everyone said they were going to do something afterwards so we all left the bar.. how much did it cost to rent the whole bar??? holding the presents that Hwanee's friends gave to us. Hwanee and i had our hands full.. � but Hwanee's expression was bright.. ^^; "ey... i'll give you money so... you guys play by yourselves." "what?? ey. how can the host leave the party??" "stupid.. dont yu get it?? its the start of achieving his goal!!!!" [*saying, he's trying to get yeh won to like him] "ey.. youre dead" "ah~~~~~~~~ you should say. you're seducing her. Hwanee.. you can only kiss.. only kiss!!! thats your limit!!!" "sh#t­ leave!!!!" ........... � why are they saying that to him?? .......... "lets go.." "huh?? where??" "home.." "oh yea!!!! Ahjumma said that she'll buy us dinner.. and she told us to come out together.." "she called.. she said something urgent came up so she couldnt.." "really??" "yea.." "..............." Hwanee held my hand tightly.. and we headed home.. we decided to watch videos together so we entered a video store. "............" "what should we watch?" i remember last time... i remember how much Hwanee and i fought here.. "what do you want to watch??" whats this all of a sudden?? � "me?? promise.." "promise?? the one Jun Do Yun comes out in?? ey. you know how long ago that came out.. � " ".............." "then lets just watch this.." "what is it?" "the Bizarre Girl.." "that?? thats from a while ago too.." "fine... lets borrow this. Jun Ji Hyun looks hella pretty in here.. keke." Hwanee said as he looked at me.. i feel bad now... you jerk!!!!!!! but im relieved, nevertheless. we got home, opened bags of crackers and turned on the video.. ".............." ...........kekeke its my first time seeing him laugh so much.. did we watch half of the movie?? then Hwanee didnt say a word.. "................" "................." Hwnaee was quietly sleeping next to me.. Huk.... i knew this would hapen.. seriously.. this guy.. Whew.. how long do you think he planned our 100 days to make it really special? from this head of his too.. � to tell the truth, i felt so much emotion towards him.. i never imagined he would go through so much trouble.. 88. its already been 20 minutes since the movie ended. Hwanee was sleeping innocently on my lap. "ey... wake up.." the clock pointed to 11. "ey.. wake up. you have to go home!!!" "eum..........." "� � wake up... � " my legs started to fall asleep. look how adorable he is if he just sleeps and doesnt talk.. � but when he opens his mouth.. im telling you, i lose all interest in him... ............. ....................... the more i watched him sleep the sleepier i got as well.. im reallycrazy.. im really crazy. i fell asleep next to Hwanee.. "...................." its warm. ............. ............... ............... how long did we sleep?????? i hear rain outside... its already 7... covering me was Hwanee's blanket.. "..................." why is this on me? i was going to wash up so i abruptly began to walk when. CRASH. "ow..........ow..........." what did i trip over? it freakin hurts... ow.... my knee. i was holding my knee when. i saw Hwanee curled up below the sofa... "......................." why is this guy sleeping here?? "EY!!! wake up!! wake up.." "..............." "YA!!! wake up." "10 more minutes." "ey.. we have to go to school. this is not your house!!!" Hwanee rubbed his eyes and opened one with difficutly wow.... he formed a double eyelid.. >0< amazing. ) “ since his eyelid is thin, double eyelids form!!!! "ey!!! wake up. you have to go to school!!" "Han Yeh Won??????" "yea.." "why are you here??" "omy... its so funny i cant speak... my question is why are YOU here.. � " ".............." Hwanee looked at his surroundings.. "..................." ".............Han Yeh Won??" "what???" "so we're past our 100 days????" is this guy still sleeping?? � "yea..." "kekeke" "� whats so funny????" Hwanee pulled me into a hug. this pose is really funny..... Hwanee was still lying down while he was hugging me.. � "Ey!!!! whats wrong with you????" "its nice......" "What is!!!! ey.. im tired.." "Han Yeh Won!!!" "What!!!!!!!" "do you want to get married???" "are you crazy!!! why are you talking about marriage... we didnt even get our highschool diplomas yet.." it might have been because i was tired or...because i actually wanted to. but i just stayed in Hwanee's embrace. "then do you want to get married right after graduation????" "stop playing around!!!" "we'll wake up together.... and from breakfast.....to dinner....... we'll eat together........and sleep together........." "ey!!! you're going too far with your imagination!!!" "and............" "......................" "we'll have a kid......" what is the reason for feeling goosebumps from my head to my toes??? "Ey!!!! let go.... pervurt.... shii......." i hit him as i suddenly stood up..... "Kekeke" Hwanee grabbed his stomach as he smiled and began to laugh. "dont imagine weird things by yourself!! now i know why people call you a casanova... anyways... who said i wanted to marry you??" ".................." "and who said i would give you a child!!! should i tell you again??? im single. you jerk!!!" and for the finale, i kicked his leg. Hwnaee suddenly stopped laughing.. "Han Yeh Won!!!" "..............." why is he glaring at me like that??? its scary..... � "you're dead............" Hwanee suddenly stood up and ran to me. i quickly dashed to the restroom. "Han Yeh Won!! open the door!!!" "no. do you think im crazy???" "then are you gonna take back what you said? or not??" "no... im not!!!!" "open the door! when you come out, you're dead!!!!!!!" "you can kill me or let me live i dont care.. � " Hwanee yelled as he kicked the door how can a person change so quickly into an ignorant boy.. � he's really a stupid person... and his personality is pretty crazy too. � Huk. i shouldnt be saying this.. "ey!!! are you taking a crap!!! are you gonna stay in there????" "..................." it suddenly became quiet... anyways... he must have calmed down.. or become really idiotic. � i washed my face and was wiping it as i left.. ".................." where did that jerk go?? "ey!! Jin Hwan!!!" ".............." "so............" since i was going to change, i opened my door when Hwanee was sitting in the room "ah. you scared me......... why didnt you answer me when i called you!!!!!!!!" "................." ".d.. dont look at me like that!!!!!! really........... and i was just kidding when i said that earlier. why are you taking it so seriuosly??" "you were kidding???" "yea. Kid. Ding. ey.. get out.. i have to change.." "what if i kiss here.." .......Hwanee pointed to my lips "Ey!! get out... am i your slave? do i do everything at your command???" im telling you, the first few minutes he's awake, hes not in his right mind. � "yea??" "..............." Hwanee abruptly stood up and came to me while dusting off his butt "you're really not going to right?" "yea.. im not!!!!!!!!" "................" SmOOCh.. ".............." "..........^� P ( + � � � � � � � ^" "Ey!!! Jin Hwan!!!!!!! you're dead!!!!!!!!!" "ch no ones gonna die!! so........ who told you to do it?" "Ey~~~~~ ey~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!" "the next time you do that, im not gonna play around like this.. kekeke" "ey!! you.. you..........ahh annoying.." ................. i lost to that jerk. although we kissed...... still. still... � he was so great yesterday.. � he's starting this again right?? � 89. .................. a surprise kiss. from him...... no is it a kiss?? he's crazy... � hes really crazy he's walking with me to the bus stop.. and his lips are parted in a wide smile. why is this sudden misfortune happening on such a nice satuday.. and why is it raining again?? "ey. are you really not going to talk????" "................." "Han Yeh Won!!!!!!!" ".................." "Han Yeh Won!!" "...................." "fine. so you're going to keep doing this!??" "................ � ^" i glared at him. "ey.....your eyes might pop out.. stop mad dogging me.." "Ey!!!!!!!! whats wrong with you?? i dont like it. why do you keep doing things i dont like??" "you might not like it.....but i like it... kekeke" "hoo. annoying.." the bus was coming in the distance. i ran toward it. "uh. ey!!!!!!!" Hwanee chased me of course, the bus was crowded again.. and because it was raining my clothes were damp and musty.. � i slipped through the people and reached the back of the bus.. did he not get on?? screech.............. the bus suddenly stopped. and my body lurched forward.. � angrily, Hwanee walked over to me from the front. "sh#t... its frkn hard to stand in this bus.." the kids wearing Jo Young Gong Go uniforms next to us bowed to Hwanee.... "................." "okay. okay.......... Ey. Han Yeh Won!! you're dead!!" ............ the Jo Young Gong Go kids looked alternately at Hwanee and me.. ".............." always.. hes always like this. "since you ran ahead, my pants got wet!!!!!!!" "so what do you want me to do about it.. � " "aish.. you...." "come here........" ­he commanded­ "i dont want to...." "do you know how many pervurted bastards are in here..." ".......... is there one more pervurted than you?" "youre really dead!!!!!!" there were so many people in here yet he pushed a few to grab my wrist and pull me to him "ah. im so sorry.. pardon me.... ey!!! whats wrong with you?? annoying!!!" "then listen to me when i say it the first time!!!!!" "................" we arrived at Jo Young Gong Go... a lot of kids got off. "Why aren't you getting off??" "i have to drop you off!!!!!!!!" "you dont need to.. am i a child??" "be quiet ... come here......" Hwanee sat in the last row. "come here............." "� " unwillingly, i went and sat next to him.. "today is saturday right.." "so.." "should we go play??" "its raining.. � " "theres still lots of things to do when its raining.." "� " "should we go drinking???" "what are you talking about.. you should stop drinking and smoking.." "what should we do??" that bastard interrupted me.. � sheesh. seriously.. "� " "what should we do... should i ask the other kids????" "................." Hwanee pulled out his cell phone from his pocket. "................" ";................." "what is he doing­ why isnt he picking up his phone??? � " "hes not picking up??" "nope... hold on..." Hwanee called another person.. "frkn funny... is it cuz they all drank too much last night??" "he's not picking up??" "nope. who cares... lets watch a movie.." "a movie??" "yea......." "..............." "i'll call.. so dont move from your house.." "i got it.. � " and then i headed for school... ".........hoo........." why is it so noisy??? � our room is especially loud.. "............" "Yeh Won!!!!" "Yeh WOn!!!!!!" the kids in my class ran over to me.. and swarmed around me..... "what.. what happened??" ­ i asked­ "you're going out with Jo Young Gong Go's Jin Hwan??" "huh???????" "i heard it was your 100 days yesterday.." "..............." "how was it??? is he as good looking as everyone says he is??" "be quiet~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!" yelling from behind Eun Jin walked over to me "who said that??" "????????????????" "Yeh Won's going out with old man..so why is it your business!!!!!!!!!!" "............." "Yeh Won come here.." Eun Jin and i put our arms around each other's shoulders and walked to my desk... "..........." the kids in our class glared at us and whispered secretively to each other.. "Yeh Won!! how was it yesterday? how far did you go?????" Eun Jin always outsmarts me.. � i forgot she was like this.. i feel idiotic for not remembering.. "huh????? � what are you talking about.." "did you .. you know??" "what are you talking about!! � thats slutty.." What is Eun Jin talking about.. seriously.. , � "that jerk did that?? im amazed.." "� shush. go sit in your seat.." "aww look at how red your face is.. you're blushing.. keke" "be.. be quiet!!!!!!!!!!" "............." i yelled at Eun Jin.. now i feel stupid.. on my left hand was the ring Hwanee gave me.. the ring...... ".................." i examined the ring.... theres h.y.f. inscribed on it.. what is that suppoesd to mean?? � all through class i pondered... Hwanee.. Yeh Won.......is that it?? � "Han Yeh Won!!!" Yoo Bin called me.. , "huh?? Yoo Bin ^^" "so i heard it was your 100 days with that jerk??" "huh?? yea..." " " "why???" "just.. its already your 100 days??" "^^;;" "...here.." Yoo Bin handed me a small package "whats this??" "a present.." "present??" "yea.. open it when you get home.." "th.. thanks.." after i received the present from Yoo Bin.. i had a strange feeling.. ............ how do i describe this feeling????? 90. "i dont have a gift for that bastard. because he stole you away..." "^^;;" everytime Yoo Bin says something like that.. my heart beats loudly... and my conscience pricks.. "but that bastard is staying out today..." "huh??? that is.. i .. i dont know either..^^;;" "really?? you came together?? to school..?" "yea.." "its not strange??" "what is..??' "no never mind.. that jerk hurt his arm huh???" "yup.." "did i not see correctly yetserday??" "see what??" "no.. i was walking with Ji Min today.. .. and i saw Jo Young kids fighting.... so i was just wondering.." "really??" "its okay... if that guy's fine.. i must have seen wrong.. ^^" Yoo Bin stroked my head.. did he really see something else?? "� " "Yeh Won!!" "yea??" "do you have time today??" "why??" "no .. its just.. its just.." "why??" "its Kim Ji Min's birthday.. and i dont know what to get her so.." "oh.. its her birhtday today?!" "� �" "yup.." everyone else is in love too.. it seemed just yesterday that he liked me.. � "time?? i have time.. ^^" but im supposed to watch a movie with Hwanee today.. � after school, i went with Yoo Bin to buy Ji Min's birthday present. "................." "hows this??" ­ i asked­ "what is that??" "perfume.." "come here.." "huh??????" i went to Yoo Bin. "what size do you think Ji Min is??" "huh??" this is the lingerie section!! crazy.. he's crazy.. the lady who worked there looked at me strangely.. "ey. come here~~~" "whats wrong with you!!" "lets. lets not buy her that!!" "............" "............." i thought i would burst from anxiety.. "what did that jerk buy you?" "me?? a ring.." "a ring?' Yoo Bin looked at my hand.. "i want to buy a ring too.." "huh???" Yoo Bin entered a jewelry store.. ".............." it didnt even take one minute to buy a ring... "� " "you pick one too.. i'll buy you one.." how can i buy something that costs some hundred dollars.. � "its okay..^^;; its okay!!" "hurry and pick.." "no.. its okay.." "im telling you to pick one.. because you came along. want this one??" "ah.. no.. ^^;; juts buy me some dduk bokgi.." "hurry and choose one.." "i said its okay.." it took a lot of strength but i dragged Yoo Bin out of there.. i ate the neng myun [*a type of cold noodle] that Yoo Bin bought me.. and began walking home... "..................." "go inside.." "okay.. bye.." ".......its a relief that you look alright.." ­he commented­ "huh????" "nothing.^^....... now i should forget all the fantasies i had about you huh???" "................." "if you're with that bastard... and you look so happy.. i would be the evil one to try and approach you right??" ".................." "go inside. im just kidding!!^^" he nudged my shoulder once.. and Yoo Bin turned around.. � what the heck was he saying?? .........im not sure........ seriously.... � ............ i got home and washed up.. and was on the computer when.. the gift.. the gift that Yoo Bin gave me.. i ran into my room.. i tore open the gift Yoo Bin gave me.. that small package.. ".........Huk................" it was a twinkling watch... ".............." "whats that???" it looks really expensive even at first glance.. is it really okay for me to accept this?? � for a long time, i thought about it.. until the watch pointed to 3. its saturday... why isnt he calling??? � � i was waiting for his call when. he did not call... ............. .................. ................. ......... "....................." ring. ring... Ring...Ring....... "hello.." "hello.. ah.." the person took a short breath.. its not Hwanee.. "who is it??" "um. ah... um. Han Yeh Won!!!... right??" "yes?? it is she." that person's voice sounded very deflated.. "who is this??" "its Hwanee's friend... will you come out here please??" "Hwanee?? what happened to him.." ....... "Hwanee.. Hwanee. is a little hurt.. ah........." "Hwanee is??" "yes... will you please hurry??" "Where is he?? where are you??" "we're at Boo Young Gong Go High school.. the construction area behind it... AH...." the phone got cut off with the guy's shout.. ".................." what the heck happened.. tears began forming. what could have happened.. what could have happened.. to Hwanee.. as soon as i hung up.. i left. it is pouring harder than it was this morning. ............... its raining too... what could have happened.. please.. please.. just. please... dont be hurt.. please be safe. safe.. please be safe....... 91. its raining unusually hard today... why is this happening on a day like this?? ".................." my clothes are already thoroughly soaked.. even my underclothes.. Hwanee.. Hwanee.. � "Ahjusshi.. do you go to Boo Young Gong Go?" "sigh..*" "................" that taxi just left why???? because my clothes were drenched. no one would give me a ride.. "............." i got on a bus. ".............." everyone looked at me strangely.. but i dont have time to worry about that right now. please.... please just be safe..... ............ Boo Young Gong Go... I ran toward the back of Boo Young Gong Go. "............." where is he?? where is he?? ............ "................" i went further inside.. theres wooden clubs lying here and there.. ......... they're scattered about. i have an idea .. of what kind of situation it was.. where is Hwanee?? where is he??? "over here....." ............. bloody, and lying in the rain, a few kids wearing Jo Young Gong Go [*Hwanee's school] uniforms called out to me.. "ah~~~.. are.. are you okay??" "Han.. Han Yeh Wo.. right?" "ye.. yea..wheres Hw.. Hwanee??" "Hwanee... Hwnaee.. is there.. in the warehouse.." "................." the warehouse. the ware house... i was about to leave when.. "no..........." that kid called to me... "...........what???" "no... if you go now.. if you go now.. you cant... Boo Young Gong Go kids... they have Hwanee.." "WHAt??? what are you talking about!!" "Hwanee... Boo Young Gong Go kids are guarding him..." "then. then what do i do?? should i .. contact the police??" "you cant do that... Hwanee was the one that came to Boo Young Gong Go.. ow...." "then what do i do!!!!! what about Hwanee.. ha..." ".........the kids from our school... the kids.." "................." PUK... that guy fell unconscious.. why do i feel so helpless?? i hate that i have no strength.. i hate how idiotic i am.. without any plan, i pulled out my cell phone.. who should i call?? i dont know anyone from Hwanee's school. Ring.. Ring... Ring... Ring.. Eun Jin.. please pick up.. please pick up.. CLICK. "hello." "Hello.. Eun Jin!!!!!" "yea.. Yeh Won?? whats wrong.." "Eun Jin.. Eun Jin.." "Han Yeh Won!! why are you crying?? ey!!!!" "Hwa.. Hwanee.. Please save Hwanee..." "Han Yeh Won!!! what happened???" "Hwanee.. Hwanee.. fought with.. Boo Young Gong Go.. and hes taken by them right now.." "what?? the old man is?? really??? with people from Boo Young Gong Go??? thats serious. im in In Chun right now.." "what?????" "i got it... i'll leave straightaway.." "hurry. please hurry.." "dont do anything!!! and dont think about anything.. and dont cry either!!" "o.. okay..." ........... the call with Eun Jin got disconnected. why does my heart fell like its being squeezed?? � right then, i thought of someone's face.. Ring.. Ring... Ring.... "Hello.." "Hello??? is.. is this Yoo Bin's house??" who am i calling right now?? Yoo Bin.. im calling Yoo Bin.. i shouldnt be calling Yoo Bin.. 92. "is Yoo Bin there??" "Master Yoo Bin??" "yes... is Yoo Bin home right now?" "yes.. one moment please.." ".............." "hello.." "Yoo Bin!! its me Yeh Won.. help me.." "what happened?? are you crying???" "Yoo Bin.. please save Hwa. Hwanee... save Hwanee.." "what are you talking about?? dont stutter and speak correctly." "Hwanee fought with kids from Boo Young Gong Go.. but they're holding him captive right now.. please please... help me.." "where are you?" "Boo Young Gong Go..." "dont cry.. stay there.. okay??" "okay.." CLICK.. ................. im so selfish.... i dont know anyone but myself... i knew that if Yoo Bin came, he would get hurt too.. but.... ............... im so wicked... ............. why do i feel so uneasy? why do i feel so anxious?? the sky paid no heed to my heart. as the rain kept pouring... .................. ".........................." why am i crying so much?? seriously... im an idiot.. ............ how many minutes passed? VrOoOm...... the sound of a motorcycle.. "................." i turned toward the noise. ........... a guy took off his helmet. "Yoo Bin!!!!" "what happened so far ??? where is he??" "Yoo Bin!!!" "dont cry... stupid... where is he??" "over there.. � " "....................lets go.." "Yoo Bin...." unconsciously, i pulled on his shirt tail. "what??" "what.. what am i supposed to do??? heuk.... heuk....." "stupid..." he stroked my hair once.. and grabbed my wrist... "................" "you miss Hwanee rgiht??" "..........(nod)" "you're worried about Hwanee right??" "(nod nod..)" "you love Hwanee right???" "................." "..............." "(nod nod)" "^^ then thats that.." Yoo Bin wiped my tears... and held me as we went inside. "clench your teeth..." "(nod nod)" "as soon as we get in... go to that bastard.. and pull him out.. .got it??" "what about you??" "im fine!!! ^^ im invincible you know..." what do you mean invincible!! seriously!! "..............." "lets go.. one... two.... three..." PUk..... he kicked the door open and went inside "who is that... bastard..." PUk... PUk. "euaak...." Yoo Bin punched the Bo Young Gong Go kids. "Han Yeh Won!! what are you doing????" "huh?? oh right.." where is Hwanee?? Hwanee...... "...........Hwanee.............." Hwanee was lying unconscious in the corner.. the arm with the cast was bleeding brightly... "Hwanee!!!!!!!!!" "...................." Hwanee had his eyes closed.. he was unconscious... � "Hwanee!! wake up...." ".............Euk........." Hwanee slowly opened his eyes... it looks so painful.. he looks so hurt...... "Hwanee!!!!" "Han Yeh Won???" "Yea... you jerk... you evil .." "................." Hwanee wiped away my tears... "Why did you come?? how did you get here???" "stupid!!! why are you getting hit. thats so idiotic... you jerk!!!" "^^" "dont laugh!!! its making me emotional.." ".............^^" "stupid. stop laughing.. it hurts you when you smile!!!" "................." "how did this happen!!!" "^^ how did you get here??" "Yoo Bin helped me.." "that son of a ??" Hwanee looked at Yoo Bin.. "........Yoo Bin!!" five Boo Young Gong Go kids were hitting Yoo Bin "Yoo Bin!!!!!!!!!!" my heart is slowly starting to hurt... when i think or worry about one person i end up hurting the other .... i didnt want this.. but... "^^ Huk........Huk............." "Yoo Bin!!!!!!!!!!!!" "......................." "Han Yeh Won!!!!" "................." "leave while you can.." ­Hwanee said­ "what??" "leave now... those bastards are gonna come here.." "no.. im not going to. i wont. if you die, i die too..." "why am i going to die???" Hwanee softly stroked my hair.. "Heuk.....Heuk..............." "did the rain get you wet?? you might catch a cold.." "heuk........heuk.......stop playing around!! i said stop playing around!!!" "................." Hwak.. Hwanee grabbed my arm and pulled me into a warm hug. "Heuk... Heuk........." I silently stayed next to Hwanee's chest... ............ ................ Yoo Bin was getting hit by the Boo Young Gong Go kids.. Hwanee was lying next to him... "..................." ... im sorry.... Yoo Bin... Yoo Bin im so so sorry... dont forgive me!!! im sorry... 93. "...................." ".............." "Hwanee!! Hwanee!!!" Hwanee closed his eyes.. "Hwanee!! open your eyes.. i said open your eyes!!!!" "..................." Hwanee held my hand tightly "...................." "why do i like you so much?? i really must be crazy.." ­he spoke softly­ ".......Heuk.........Heuk..........." "I got hit.. and im bleeding.. but your face is the first thing i think of..." "........Heuk........Heuk..........Heuk............" "how did i become like this...... i must be broken........." with his large hand, he held mine.. and Hwanee placed it on his heart... "do you feel it???" "ey!!! im like that too!!!!!!!" "^^" "so get up... dont do this!!!! only people who are dying say that... why are you saying these things.. Heuk....Heuk..........." "Han Yeh Won!!!!" "yea???" "dont cry!!!" "huh??" "dont cry!!!!" "no.........." "you dont believe me??? why would i die!!!" "..................." "..............i.............i.............i............" ............... ............... Hwanee closed his eyes.. .............. he released my hand.. thump. "stupid... i love you this much but.. but.......... Heuk...Heuk............... open your eyes~~~~~!!!!!!!!!! Hwanee~~~~!!! Hwanee!!!!!!~~~" i grasped Hwanee's hand tightly.. Hwanee's hand, however, was limp. "Heuk.......Heuk.............." Pak... "................" what is this sound? i turned around.. "Yoo Bin!!!!!!" ".............." Yoo Bin slumped to the ground. blood trickled from his head and he looked at me with mournful eyes.. "Yoo Bin!!!!!!!" "....................." ............ Yoo Bin was lying on the floor.. "Yoo Bin......" "..............." "fawk. this bastards hella strong.." three of Boo Young Gong Go kids were unconscious as well.. "..............." "..............." "sh#t.. ey... finish that bastard..." "lets.........." "HEuk.....HEuk.............Heuk..........Yoo Bin!!! .... HEuk.. Hwanee..." those kids looked at me "..................." "keke is that Hwanee's... girl??" ".................." "it looks like it... kekeke ooh... her clothes are all wet......" "dont come near me!! dont come near me!!" i held Hwanee's hand tightly... "if you tell me not to come then that makes me want to come even more!!!" "kekeke" "dont come!! dont come near me!!!" "keke" "Yeh Won!!!!" "................." Eun Jin ran in from the door. "Eun Jin.. Heuk.....Heuk..........." "now who's this??" ­one of them yelled­ "what? f#ckers.. you're all dead today...." "huk... first time seeing a hoe like that...." "its my first time seeing a bastard like you too.. Oppa hurry and come in here!!!" "...................." "..................." from behind her, these senior Oppa's from Jo Young Gong Go entered. "whats this.. you're all done fighting??" "frkn disapointing... i thought i was gonna get a workout today... who's this bastard.." "its Han Yoo Bin from Boo Ja High..." "you called him??" ­one of them asked me­ "huh?? yes..." "keke should we work out today?" "Kya~~~~~~~~~~~oH~~~~~~~" One Oppa yelled something strange and ran toward the pervurted looking Boo Young Gong Go kid. Puk...Puk... "............." "Hwanee... im so relieved.. im relieved..." "Yeh Won!!! is old man okay??" "huh??? no.. he wont open his eyes.." "hurry and call.. 911....." a short moment passed and the ambulance came.. it took Hwanee and Yoo Bin... and the Boo Young Gong Go kids.. im not in my right mind.. "Yeh Won!! are you okay??" "...........Heuk.............HEuk.............." "Yeh Won!!!" i sobbed next to Eun Jin....... i dont know why im crying... but... from the bottom of my heart i felt emotion... ........... "Yeh Won!!! what happened??" Ahjumma hurriedly arrived at the hospital. "Ahjumma!!" "your face doenst look too well..." "im okay...." "what about Hwanee.. is Hwanee okay??" "he will be ...." "you must have worried a lot!!!" "^^:;" Ahjumma went inside and touched Hwanee's face.. does Hwanee know? that Ahjumma loves him so dearly... that so many people love him.. "..............." a few of Hwanee's friends came to visit him in the hospital room. "Yeh Won!! is Hwanee alright??" "yes..." "its a relief. we're going to kill those bastards~!!!" "But what happened?? why did they fight????" ­ i inquired­ ".....that...." "what happened???" "that is. to tell the truth.... after you and Hwanee left... there was a conflict with the Boo Young Gong Go kids.. even though we werent originally on good terms with them..." "................" "so a few of our kids got seriously hurt.. and had to go to the hospital... Hwanee was half dillusional.. and went to look for the Boo Young Gong GO kids­ even though he had a cast. its crazy.. how he went by himself.. those bastards are seriously... sh#t..." ".................." "im sorry.. im really sorry...." ­he said­ "..........why are you sorry to me............." "im sorry... for making you worry about Hwanee..." "no. dont be..." "you look tired.... go and rest..." "kay..." ............. Hwanee's friends stayed by Hwanee's side for a long time. and they left. stupid... does he think he's invincible or something.. so stupid... today i cried so much.. and my head hurts too.. im sick as well.. the true stupid one is me.. the helpless one is me.. 94. "..................." why am i so exhausted?? im so tired but i cant sleep.. "..................." on Hwanee's face and body were blue bruises.. stupid.. he thinks he's the best fighter... hes so stupid.. he thinks he has a duty to his friends, a pledge of brotherhood... what duty... � .........seuuk.......... "....................." gasp.. "Hwanee!!!!!!!!!!" "..................." Hwanee's eyes look so exhausted... "are you awake? are you okay!!!!" "yea....." ".........heuk...........heuk......." "why are you crying??" Hwanee pulled on my hand i forcefully pulled away from his grasp. ".......you're not gonna hug me???" "why would i hug you­ you didnt do anything to deserve one!!!!!.. whats wrong with you!!!! do you want me to die??? you get hurt everyday.. and you never. tell me... and you say you dont like me and you leave me.. why do you do that.. why.." Puk.. "ow.. ey dont you see the bandages on me??" "..............." "............." Hwanee stroked my head.. evil jerk... jerk.... if you do that, then i start crying.. "Heuk.... why do you only think of yourself!! why do you always think of yourself!!! why dont you think of me!!! when you get hurt everyday... and you're in pain.. how.. how do you think i feel... heuk......." "keke stupid." Hwanee wiped away my tears with his strong hand.. "..............." "come here, i'll give you a hug.." "i'll pass.." "come here.." "its okay..." Hwanee pulled my hand and forced my head to his chest. i stayed with my head leaning on his chest and hugged him tightly... ".... you're totally falling for me!!" "... what????..........." "keke i knew this would happen.... you always played hard to get.." "EY!!!!!!" "dont worry!!! i wont.. i wont do that any more okay..?? for you.. okay??" "promise!!" "promise??" "yea..." "what do you mean promise.. do you think we're little kids??" "pinky promise!!!" "......shi..........." Hwanee extended his long pinky and we made a promise.. ....... "what will you do if i dont keep my promise?" "if you dont?? what do you think will happen??" ....eum.......if you dont keep your promise.. if i dont keep your promise.. i'll leave...??" "you'll leave? go where??" "far far away...." "stupid.... shut up!!! you wouldnt leave.." "................." "................." Hwanee whistled.. "dont argue!!!" "...okay. how many times do i have to say it!!! � " "................" "^^" "you get into other people's businesses when its not your business." "ey!!! a guy has to be loyal... do you think i can just back down on my friends??" "stop saying you have to be loyal and do your duty!! do you think you're a superhero!!" "Ey!!!" "so you're not going to keep your promise?" "ah.. no.... ey!! for instance, if you got hurt then those bastards would be beaten so badly... okay???" "� " "kekeke" � it sounds weird but.. but.... i like what he said.... if i hear things like that a hundred times.. .and thousand times... i would still like it.. i stayed in Hwanee's embrace and stayed up all night.. � i really dont want to go to school... Hwanee was sleeping tranquilly on the bed. how does this guy always end up under the assistance of a hospital?? � "...................." i quietly slipped out without waking Hwanee. i was opening the hospital room door when.. with her long hair... and without any strength... Ji Min was crying.. "......ah......hey.." "..............Heuk.........." Ji Min looked at me through her tears "................" ".................." "im.. im sorry..." "is Hwanee okay??" "huh??? yea....." "Heuk........Heuk.........." "................" "go to Yoo Bin..." Oh right... Yoo Bin... i had totally forgotten about him... ".............." "Yoo Bin was looking for you...." "me????" "yea... hes in room 303....." "................" ".............." "Han Yeh Won!!!!" "............." her red eyes.... with tears falling, Ji Min slowly looked at me.. "what... whats wrong??" "heuk........heuk..........." "..............." did something happen?? "why?? is... Yoo.. Yoo Bin hurt badly???" "heuk..........heuk..........Yoo Bin is... Yoo Bin is...." "................" "Yoo Bin's right eye.... his right eye is.....heuk......heuk........" "why??? whats wrong with his right eye???" "Heuk.......heuk........his eye......heuk........heuk......." Ji Min began sobbing loudly.. "............." my heart is thumping wildly... what could be wrong with Yoo Bin's right eye.. please.... please... ".................." i ran to room 303.. "huk. Huk.......Huk.........." i unexpectedly slammed the door open. "Huk.......huk........Yoo Bin!!!!" "..............." Yoo Bin's right eye was bandaged.. "Yoo Bin........" surprised, Yoo Bin looked at me cheerfullly.. ".................." Yoo Bin's eye... Yoo Bin's eye... ............... 95. its so hard to breathe..... "Yoo Bin..........." "Yeh Won!! come in..." "Ahjusshi, i have to talk to Yeh Won." wearing a dark suit... a slightly old man... looked at me and said. "sure...if you need anything. please call me..." "i will..^^" and that Ahjusshi walked out. Yoo Bin and i.......were the only two left.. "................." Yoo Bin's face... i couldnt look at Yoo Bin's face.. "...........heuk........heuk.........." "whats wrong???" dont smile so affectionately... everyday. everyday you do..... "im sorry.... im sorry. Yoo Bin.... heuk.....heuk........." "whats wrong??" "im so sorry... im sorry.....im sorrry.... because of me.. because of me..." "what is because of you... you didnt do anything wrong..." "dont say that!!! dont.. dont just say that to make me feel better!!!" "im telling the truth...." "what .. what do i do .. your eye... im sorry.. so sorry..." "my eye?? oh.. this." "heuk.....im sorry." "i got hit on an odd place on my head so i just lost my sight temporarily... what... you're crying because of this??? � " "...........heuk.............." "i can get my sight back... i can eat a lot of radishes.. and get medical help...^^ then im okay..." Yoo Bin covered my head... "im sorry... really... im so sorry........" "i said im fine. seriously... wow.. Han Yeh Won you're a crybaby... � ~~~~" "................heuk........" i did something to Yoo Bin i shouldnt have done.. really.....i shouldnt have done this.. "im hungry. should we go eat something???" ".............." "lets go.. i'll buy you lunch..." so Yoo Bin and i went to the shop... "........look at my face!!!" ".............." "i said look at it.." im sorry.. Yoo Bin. really, i am... i dont have the courage to look at your face. im so ashamed.. "sheesh. really... this is nothing.. how many times do i have to tell you?? � and since my face is handsome.. even if i put this on, it doesnt really matter.." "..............." "im telling the truth!! � " ........ "Ahjumma... two sullung tang's please!!! ^^" "yes sir.........." "Ahjumma..." ".............." "do you sell cigarrettes here?? ^^:;" "what do you mean cigarettes... you look like a highschool student.." the Ahjumma looked at me. and abruptly left.. "................" "oh... its cuz you're wearing a uniform. we got caught... � " "............." "^^ i looked cool yesterday huh??" ­he said­ "..............." "since i havent fought in a long time. my body wasnt used to it.. shi..... they would have all been down if i was.. � " "^^" "you smiled..^^ look how pretty and how nice that is.." ".............." its really awkward. Yoo Bin's face. that bandage.. "your order's here..." "wow~ it looks good..^^ lets eat.." "kay..." it was already past 9 30... "it looks so good.... *blow*... oh... smells delicious.." "its good. try it.." "kay...." Yoo Bin's awkward acting.. because if me... because of me.. "Han Yeh Won!!!!!!!!!" "................" "huh?? why is that bastard here??" "huh??" "Han Yeh Won!! i was wondering where you were.. you were eating with this bastard??" "dont call him a bastard!!!!" "^^ be quiet!!!" "why are you here??" "i came to eat.." "really?? then go eat.." ­Yoo Bin snided­ "that bastard..." "come here... eat this..." Hwanee rubbed his stomach as he came to me "whats that??" "sullungtang..." "sullung tang??" Hwanee glared at Yoo Bin.. "this?? oh you didnt hear about this!! kekek this is my honor scar *^^*" "dont go overboard!!! it doesnt suit you! why are you doing that??!" Hwanee's tone became serious.. "................." ".................." suddenly Hwanee looked at him angrily... "its really my scar of honor.. huh Han Yeh Won!!! i got like this after rescuing Yeh Won!!! why are you getting jealous over nothing...." Hwanee glared at Yoo Bin. smiling Yoo Bin's expression hardened. "*spit..*" Hwanee lowered his head and spit on the floor.. "is it good??" "yea..." "ey!! Jin Hwan!! dont eat this!!! this is Yeh Won's!!!" "shut the hell up... � " and Hwanee continued eating.. "..............." "Han Yeh Won.. you're not gonna go to school???" "i have to..." ".............." after eating... Hwanee and Yoo Bin went back to their hospital rooms. and i went to school. why does my heart feel so heavy? is Yoo Bin... in a lot of pain? its all my fault... i shouldnt have called Yoo Bin. class was starting.. "....im sorry.." "sit in your seat.." ­the teacher commanded­ "..............." .......... Poke. a paper flew at my head.. "......^^" it was Eun JIn. ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ hows the old man doing?? ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ "....^^ hes okay.. (i mouthed)" "^^" the bell rang and Eun Jin dashed to my desk.. "Yeh Won!! should we ditch???" "what?? we cant ditch!!" "come on.~~ yea???" "no we cant.. i just came right now.." "lets ditch at 2..." "no.. ey. if we ditch.. we have to clean the bathrooms for one month!!!" "ey!! i'll clean them.. kay???" "no....." ................. ..................... "ey. be careful!!" "thats why i told you we shouldnt ditch!!!" "^^" Eun Jin and i are in the process of jumping the fence.. "one.. two..." PUK... "ow... ow... im bleeding.." "Han Yeh Won!! why are you so clumsy?? you have to jump at three!!" "ow............" "you have no logic whatsoever.. � " "� " "ey... if i dont bring anything for him, the old man will kill me for sure.." ­ Eun Jin said­ "^^" "should we buy an apple then??" "okay.." Eun Jin bought exactly one apple and we went to the hospital. PAK. "old man!! your nuna came.." "..............." "where did the old man go??? � " "...................." where is he?? "theres no reason for that old man to stay here.. � �" "he might be at the store.." "the one downstairs??" "yea..." "lets go see.." we went to the store.. "................" Hwane was in the middle of a crowd of little kids. with Yoo Bin too. Yoo Bin was laughing and playing with the kids. but Hwanee had a bored expression and was smoking a cigarette. "Han Yeh Won!!" "Yeh Won..." Yoo Bin and Hwanee called me at the same time.. � "yea.. you guys are ignorant huh?? im just a picture.. right?? you jerks??" � Eun Jin's offended.. this is crazy~~~~!!!!!!!!! �^ 96. Yoo Bin saw Eun Jin.. "huh?? JJok Sae came too.." "thats right.. so old man, you're not gonna say hi to me?" "shut up. why are you here!!" "you bastard.. i rescued you.. did you forget!!!!" "Han Yeh Won!! how did you get here?? arent you supposed to be in school!!" he completely ignored Eun Jin.. and spoke to me instead... � Eun Jin huffed and glared at Hwanee. without noticing, Hwanee looked at me.. >0< what should i do.. � "huh?? Eun Jin kept begging me to ditch.." "Ey!! JJok Sae... why did you drag her out when she was studying???!!!" "okay... Yeh Won... lets go!!" "Han Yeh Won.. come here.." ".........why do you keep making a fuss!!" .......... ................ Eun Jin opened her eyes widely and came near us.. "Huh?? Han Yoo Bin.. whats wrong with your eye???" surprised, Eun Jin looked at Yoo Bin "i dont know. be quiet... im going in!! ah shii...!" "Ey.. tell me..:" "...no... im gonna go inside.. Yeh Won!! im going.." "where are you going!!" some bald boy grabbed onto Yoo Bin's shirt tail... "where are you going?? Hyung??" "im gonna go back in.. if you're bored, come to room 303.. and dont forget to bring food.. ^^" "okay..^^" "bye.." "ey.. Han Yoo Bin.. lets go together. Yeh Won, i'll be with Yoo Bin.." ­Eun Jin said­ "kay.." "............." again, Hwanee and i were the only two left.. "Should we go inside too??" "if you want.." "when can you take off your cast???" "i dont know.. sh#t.. if those bastards leave. they're all dead!!" "� " "im freakin bored to death. if i stay here." " " "should i show you something hella funny??" "what??" "i can show you upstairs.^^" "................" i held Hwanee's hand as we went back to the hospital room. ".....who are they?" three Ahjusshi's in dark suits were standing in front of us. "who are they? do you know them??" ".............." Hwanee's expression suddenly hardened.. ".............." "do you want to stay here for a minute??" "huh?? why???" "stay here..." "kay.." Hwanee opened the door and went inside.. ........... ................ loud voices... Hwanee was fighting with someone inside.. what is happening? .......... the voices gradually got louder.. i became.. anxious.. "Hwanee!!!" ".............." "Hwanee!! im coming inside.." "..............." i quietly opened the door and slipped in. "are you gonna keep making a big deal!! huh???" ­ the man yelled­ "it doesnt matter what im gonna keep doing.." "Hwanee.." "you bastard..." PAK.. "ow~~~~~~~~" ............ "Han Yeh Won!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Hwanee covered me. what was that? there was blood on my face. it feels like it was scratched. looking on the floor.. it was a picture frame. that Ahjusshi gasped in his anger it was Hwanee's father... ".............." "Han Yeh Won!! are you okay?' "Huh?? im.. im fine..." "why did you come inside... i told you not to.. (standing up abruptly) what is this!!! if you were going to do this, then you shouldnt have come!!" "This girl is the girl right?? before.. how many times did i tell you.. to break it off.. how long ago was that!!!!" "please be more quiet.." "if you dont, it just becomes harder for you. Han Jin Hwan!!! dont you understand??" "i said to please be quiet!!!!!!!!!" "............. spoiled brat..."" "...........not her.... not her!!!!!" "hurry and break up.. i dont want to fight with you anymore.." "................" what is he saying!!! seriously, what is he saying!!! "i said im not breaking it off with her!!!!" what is everyone talking about!!! why are they talking about me.. "i dont want to break up with her.. not her!!!!" SLAP... "ah... Hwa... Hwanee..." that Ahjusshi slapped Hwanee's cheek... "get back to reality... you ignorant child.. what do you think you can do... you have to learn more. and you have to listen to what i am teling you!!!!!" "............." that Ahjusshi lifted his head and glared at Hwanee.. "i'll see you next time.." "what???" "heum......." that Ahjusshi slammed the door and left.. Hwanee's dumbfounded eyes.. i dont know where to begin.. ..... break up with me??.. what is that!!! Hwanee.... 97. "................" "................" ..........>0< he's not saying anything.. Hwanee stood there with a dumfounded expression.. i continued waiting... for him to calm down... until he talked.. "Han Yeh Won.." "yea??" "what happened today.." Hwanee said with difficulty.. "wh... what happened today??????" "what you heard.. and saw today... you are to forget it..." "im.. im okay...*^^*" "................" he lifted his head and looked at me without any strength. "^^ ow..." "................" suddenly Hwnaee's eyes became large. "ey. whats this??" "Huh????" "stupid!!!" he's examining my face.. "im.. im fine. i just got a little scratched..." "this is getting a little scratched??" Hwanee showed me a mirror " " what is all this... theres a red scar. and surrounding it was a blue bruise.. "why is it like that!!" "thats what im saying.. sheesh.. you fool... you just stood there while you bled? why are you so clueless??" "........ � � " "stay here...." suddenly standing up... Hwanee quickly opened the door "oh my oh my oh my....." CRASH what is this... � a nurse carrying an injection needle tripped... because Hwanee opened the door too widely. "ow ow...." "are.. are you okay??" i asked that nurse as i ran over. "ow ow...." "ey. hurry and apologize (i mouthed)" "why were you there???" "why are you asking me that??? look at the time.. i have to give you a shot right now.. � " the nurse said as she rubbed her knees... "then you should have come inside quickly.." ­he said­ "but you opened the door so abruptly.. � " Hwanee started to touch his stomach. "oh.. im thirsty... � " "..................." "what do i do if my face starts bleeding???" ­he asked­ "you have to put on medicine.." "but its not a regular scratch.. theres a blue bruise next to it.." why is he acting so cute right now.. i dont know if that Unnie liked it, but she accepted his behavior.. "where?? where did you get hurt..." that nurse extended her hand to touch Hwanee's face but he coldly brushed it away.. "............." that nurse looked slightly surprised.. � "what do i have to do??^^" "� where did you get hurt???" "Han Yeh Won.. come here.." "huh?? me??" "yea.. " i went next to Hwanee. with his large hands, he covered my shoulders and pushed my face towards that nurse Unnie.. "ow.. ow..." "look look... my wife is hurt!!! isnt it frkn serious??" "eum........" why is she clearing her throat?? "how did you get this??" "huh?? i .. i hit something..." "what did you hit to get this mess??" "why?? is my wife hurt badly??" a shii... whats wrong with this boy?? � "eum.... it'll be fine if you put on some medicine..." "0 Hwanee.. you have to take your shot.." "shot??" Hwanee looked at the nurse with surprise.. ............... "^^ come here.." a devilish laugh.. shocked, Hwanee said "shot.. she said shot.. shot.. ^^" "keke" the nurse pinched Hwanee's ear and laid him on the bed. "Hawn Yeh Won... turn your head.." "Huh?? kay.." "ah shii... if it hurts.. no.." "when did i ever let it hurt?? ^^" "ah sh#t..." the sound of skin being slapped... CHAK CHAK CHAK. "ow...." Hwanee cryed out and that unnie laughed and left. "are you .. okay??" "ah. that freakin hoe... � it hella hurts...." Hwanee touched his but. "whats wrong??" "sh#t... that hoe likes me!! that piggy..!" "What???" "from the first day, she looked at me strangely.. sh#t. i knew this would happen.. � " "............." "ah. you saw too. she put it in hard on purpose.. it freakin hurts.. 0 " "keke" Hwanee and i joked around for a long time. its already dark outside.... "you should get going.." "yea.. i should.." whOoosh.. "thats the wind right??" "yea. it sounds like it." "if you look over there.. open the drawers.. theres a black sweater.. drape that over your shoulders.." "im fine.." "if i tell you to wear it, then wear it.." "� " i wore that sweater and left Hwanee's hospital room.. i was waiting for the elevator when. "ey!! Han Yeh Won!!" ".............." Hwanee ran over to me.. "huk.. Huk... i must be getting old.." he grabbed my shoulder.. and Hwanee gasped for air "how did you get here?? go back inside.." "i'll drop you off... � " "you'll drop me off? its okay.." "lets go.." when the elevator came.. Hwanee grabbed my hand and pulled me in "you dont have to ... � " "shush!!!!" "0" we got off the elevator. like we heard inside, the wind was blowing extremely hard. "theres a taxi over there.." "its fine.. i'll just take the bus.." "what do you mean the bus!!! come here.." i got inside the taxi.. "Bye!!" " � kay.." Hwanee stroked my hair and then waved. "^^" i dont see Hwanee.. we already left the hospital.. why do i keep thinking about that?? about what Hwanee and his dad talked about.. 0 break up with me.. what is that.. im going crazy these days.. 98. ....... for a long time, i stood there dumfoundedly.. i couldnt be the first to speak up.. i waited there for Hwanee to speak first.. "Han Yeh Won..." Hwanee called my name softly.. "huh???? yea...." "just pretend like you didnt hear anything.." Hwanee said with an expressionless face.. "what.. what are you talking about??? ^^;;" "the thing you saw.. today... everything you heard..." "me...?? i.. i didnt hear anything..." why do i keep trailing off like an idiot? "...................." Hwanee turned his head.. did i see wrong?? it looked like a tear fell from Hwanee's left eye.. Hwanee coughed and cleared his throat.. and without turning his head back, he covered my head.. "lets pretend you didnt hear... im sorry..." "wh.. what...!!! i didnt hear anything.. nothing..." we stayed like that for a while.. it was noisy inside the hospital room.. it looks like Hwanee's school friends came to visit... >0< geesh i want to go... "ey.. whats this?? you're playing a game??" "ooh... you even have cards.. it looks like you live here.. kekeke" "kekeke" ............. "you guys leave!!!" "ey.. Jin Hwan... we came to visit you!!!!" "its okay.. dont come!!!" "ey!! do you know everytime you do this, we lose all feelings for you?" "i dont need you guys!!!!" "ey!!!" "shut up!!!!!!" ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ how long did Hwanee and his friends fight?? kekeke Hwanee's a guy too.. but he's so good at coming up with comebacks.. 0 i lose to him. is there something in my eye?? "are you sleepy??" ­ i asked­ "huh?? not.. not really..." "go inside.." "its okay.. i'll stay for a little.." "its fine... hurry and go inside..." "� " "go..." "okay okay... i'll go inside then!!!" Hwanee yelled "oh??? Jin Hwan where are you going??" "none of your business.." ".............." Hwanee left the hospital room with me. "why did you come out??" "i'll drop you off..." "you'll drop me off???" "yea.. � " "you dont have to do that..." "follow me..." "............" Hwanee stood at the front before me.. � "okay... take care.." "*^^* kay..." i turned around to leave when "Han Yeh Won!!!" "yea???" "you're so tacky..." "what.. what is??" what nonsense is he saying now!!! � "whats wrong with your uniform?? its flapping... and whats with the hair?? are you an Ahjumma??" "� why are you bagging on me!!!!" "^^ im just playing.. bye.." "..........its not funny when you do that..." "kekeke.." i was going to take the bus but that boy said it was too dangerous so he stuck me in a taxi... 0 why am i so exhausted?? as soon as i got home, i passed out. ".................." how long did i sleep? the sun is already in the middle of the sky.. ^0^ ".......Ahjumma!!!!!!!" "...............Ahjumma!!!!!!!!!!" is Ahjumma not home?? i searched everywhere but i didnt see Ahjumma.. "................" i went into the kitchen.. on the table was.. money.. $70 and a piece of paper. Yeh Won!! i have a shooting that's out of country for 2 nights, 3 days... i doubt i'll be able to get home!! i left money but.. if its not enough.. take out what you need from the drawer.. .......... ..........for 2 nights and 3 days?? then i have to be alone for that long??? � whys that?? its so terrifying being home alone at night... � i got ready.. and cursing, i waited for Hwanee 5 minutes outside like a fool. Hwanee is in the hospital.. it was obvious he wasnt going to be able to take me to school.... 0 like me... � ^ theres no other idiot "..................." i was going through the school gate when... the tardy police looked at me strangely.. "..............." whenever he looks at me like that, i get a weird feeling.. � MinJae was going to the tardy police with a name tag.. and the two of them whispered secretively Min Jae came to me. "Min Jae!!" "Yeh Won!!!" "i need to talk to you.." "talk to me?? about what???" "it'll only take a few minutes!!!!!!" He grabbed my arm.. and took me to a vacant area.. "whats wrong??" he had a serious and very very sincere expression.. "Min Jae!!" "Han Yeh Won!!" "yes??" "what.. what happened to Yoo Bin!!!" "Yoo Bin?????????" .................. ....... gulping air and with trembling lips, Min Jae asked me.. "what happened to Yoo Bin??????" Min Jae asked me again.. his eyes are very still... 99. "............." he must be talking about Yoo Bin's eye!! how should i say this?? ... "did someone do it?? did someone make Yoo Bin's eye like that!!!" "Mi... Min Jae..." "Yeh Won!! tell me.. please.. its urgent. its very urgent!!!" "im sorry... im sorry!~~~ i made Yoo Bin like that... im the one that did it!!! its all my fault.. i only thought of myself.. so thats how Yoo Bin got to be like this!!!" "........how did this happen???" Min Jae's chin began to quiver.. im afraid to look at Min Jae in the eyes.. what am i supposed to say to Min Jae?? ......... "tha.. that..." why am i beginning to cry?? i shouldnt do this.. sweat dripped into Min Jae's eyes . I have to tell Min Jae though... "................." "i only thought of myself. thats why..." "why did you do that?? you had to have a reason!!!" "Hwanee.. Hwanee was taken by the Boo Young Gong Go kids.. and so .. i called Yoo Bin.. it was a terrible mistake to call him... i should not have.. i didnt think of what this would do to Yoo Bin.. i only thought of myself... i was not thinking correctly.... i didnt see anything else in front of me.. so.. so... what do i do!!!! heuk......heuk........." Min Jae's lips trembled... ".......so thats what happened???" "im sorry...." "you shouldnt be sorry to me.... if i were you... i would have called Yoo Bin too....!!! i would have.." "Im sorry... heuk......heuk........" hes not smiling.. Min Jae continued looking at me with an angry expression... why do i hate myself so much?? i did something to Yoo Bin that he should never forgive me for... "lets go inside.." "im sorry... Min Jae..." "you dont have to be sorry to me......" "........what should i do?? i wont be able to look at Yoo Bin's face again... i dont want that but... i cant ask Yoo Bin for forgiveness... ..............." "................" he started walking.. then he stopped.. he didnt look at me.. he clenched his fists in anger and abruptly left.. Min Jae must be furious!!! he must be so angry!! to tell the truth, its my first time seeing Min Jae so angry.. ............... why am i so idiotic?? for a long time i crouched at that spot and wept.. "Yeh Won!!!" "Eun Jin!!!" "that bastard wont tell me.." "tell you what??" "Han Yoo Bin wont tell me why hes getting an eyepatch" "............. 0 ........." "jerk........and i thought of him all this time..." .............. "should we visit the old man today??" "Hwanee??"" "yea..." "sure......." Eun Jin and i arranged to go to the hospital.. and i went to class. everythings a mess in my head.. seeing Min Jae's trembling lips.. seeing Yoo Bin with one eye covered.. seeing stupid me.. one by one... i thought of each person.. ".............." ........... after 2nd period.. the class president took a piece of paper and posted it on the bulletin board.. the kids in class began to gather around it. "whats that??" "what?? we have a test coming up!!!" "Ey... what kind of test is coming so soon?? ey.. ey!!! its in a week!!!!!!!!" "ey. what in the world..." "frkn hilarious..." "..............." we have a test in a week?? ... 0 why do all these events pile up?? i took my agenda as i walked to the bulletin board.. and i wrote down the details.. "Yeh Won unnie!! Yeh Won unnie!!!!!!!!!!" it sounds like someone is calling me!!!!! hurriedly... a girl ran towards me.. "Unnie!!!!!!" "So Min!!!!!" her eyes were bloodshot... and she was crying.. "whats wrong!!! did the kids bother you again???" "no........no........." suddenly, almost choking on her tears....... So Min continued to cry. "whats wrong!!!!!" "Min Jae Oppa's being strange... Oppa... OPpa..." "what about Min Jae???" "right now, Oppa's not in his right mind!! hes being weird.. Oppa's not himself right now!!!!" "why!!! what happened??" "he was carrying a wooden stick.. and his mouth was shaking.. he went somewhere.. what do i do.. what if something happens to him... heuk......heuk......." "what????? what are you saying!!!!" "i dont know either!!! Oppa's strange.. like he will kill a random stranger... it was sort of like that atmosphere.. its my first time seeing an expression like that on Oppa's face... Unnie, you have to help me.. unnie!!!" what if.. what if. what if he went to find Boo Young Gong Go kids?? that cant happen!!! i have to stop him.. its suicide if Min Jae goes by himself!!!!! "Where is Min Jae right now??" "hes leaving!!!!!!" "..............." I quickly dashed to the first floor. ........... everyone is peeking outside the window and whispering to each other ... 0 "hold on... hold on......" i have to find Min Jae quickly......... but theres too many people crowding around!!!!! "Min Jae!!! Min Jae!!!!!!!!!" Min Jae was carrying a stick and was passing through the doorway "no!!!!! Min Jae!!!!!!!!!!" I grabbed onto Min Jae's shirt.. "................" "Min Jae!!! no.. dont do this!!! where are you going right now!!!!!!!" "let go.. Han Yeh Won!!!!!" "Min Jae!!!" "i told you to let go.. Han Yeh Won!!!!!!!!!" Min Jae's voice began to increase... its really the first time Min Jae's been this frightening.. "Min Jae... dont think about useless things!! you cant do this.. you cant do this.. heuk........heuk..........." Min Jae brushed my hand off and was about to pass through the door....... i quickly ran after Min Jae.. i had to catch him. "Min Jae!! no............" Hwak.......... right then, in front of my eyes.. i saw the stick Min Jae was holding.. Min Jae glared at me....... he lowered the stick in front of me.. ".... Mi.......Min Jae!!!!!!" "dont hold onto me.... im not in my right mind.. im half crazy.. dont touch me!!!!!!!" "Min Jae!!!!!!!!" "this is your last warning!!! if you touch me one more time.. i might not leave you alone..........." ".........Mi........Min Jae........." ".................." he grabbed the stick again and clenching his teeth, Min Jae left. i have to hold on to Min Jae... i cant let him leave like this... what if something serious happens....... although i knew i shouldnt just stand there... my feet refused to move from that spot. i must really be a selfish egoist. one who only cares about herself and no other... how many minutes could have passed???? wearing the stick... Min Jae got on his motorcycle... and left. unknowingly, my cheeks were wet from my tears.. "Unnie!!! Unnie!!!!!!!!" So Min ran towards me. "Unnie!!! wheres Min Jae Oppa??? where' s Min Jae Oppa??" "im sorry...... So Min!!!!!" "you let Min Jae Oppa leave like that???" "im sorry.....im sorry......heuk........heuk............" "Unnie!!!!!!!!!!" "im sorry!!!!!!" "i seriously think Min Jae might kill someone!!! those eyes.. .those eyes.. before, those eyes were the same...." "............." "This is not the time to just stand by!!! hurry and get up!!!! we have to hold on to Min Jae Oppa!!!!" "So Min!!!!!!!!" "Unnie... hurry...." "i....i....... i...... i dont have the motivation........." "Unnie!!!!!!!!" ........... So Min dragged me to Boo Young Gong Go 100. "So Min!!!!!" "Unnie. we have to hurry and find Min Jae Oppa...": "Min Jae......." ............... wheres Min Jae???? Puk.... Chak... Chak..... right then i heard people yelling and something breaking. So Min and i looked at each other with wide eyes and ran toward the sounds. please be safe. 0 you have to be safe... Min Jae. be safe........ i was going to go inside when.. 4 Boo Young Gong Go kids were lying on the floor already. "Min Jae!!!!!!!" dripping with sweat, he swung the club in front of the Boo Young Gong Go kid's face. "Oppa............" so relieved at seeing Min Jae alive, So Min called out his name in a joyous tone. the way Min Jae's holding his club... looks like a kumdo professional.. Min Jae's arm was bleeding but.. he did not let go of his stick.. "................." "you cant fight!!!!!!!" was it because of what Min Jae said before?? but my legs refused to walk toward Min Jae.. Punch... Punch..........Punch.........Punch......... "Min Jae!!!" Min Jae charged toward the Boo Young Gong Go kids like a crazy person... theres 2 people left... and both of them became unconscious. those Boo Young Gong Go kids look so sad.. "which bastard did it!!!!!!!" "..............." "which bastard made Yoo Bin's eye like that!!!!!!!!!!!!" "ow.......ow.....i do... dont know............" Min Jae swung at that kid's back with the stick. ­0­ "euak~~~~~~~~~~~~" that guy yelled. sweat dripped from Min Jae's forehead.. drip..drip.. "which bastard!!!!!!!!!! i said which bastard!!!!!!!!!!" "me.. it was me!!!!!!!!!!" one guy raised his hand. looking half psychotic.... with the focus gone from his eyes.. Min Jae glared at that guy. its really scary.... really.......... the first time seeing Min Jae's face like that.. "you.. you made Yoo Bin like that???" "so what...." "so WHAT!???? i'm going to do the same to you.. so just wait ....." he loosened his tie.. and threw it on the ground... "Oppa!!!!!!!!!!!" "euak~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~" Min Jae yelled as he charged powerfully toward that guy. "Min Jae!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" with all the strength i had, i ran to that guy before Min Jae. ">0<" i stood in front of that guy and blocked him. "...............Han Yeh Won!!!!!!!!!!" Min Jae glared at me threateningly. ".. Min Jae!!! you cant do this!! if you do.. if you do this, you will be the only one getting hurt!!! you really cant do this!!!!!!!" "move!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" "no !!!!!!!!!!!!!" "Han Yeh WoN!!! you might get hit too!!!!!" "Min Jae!! you cant do this... heuk....heuk... Yoo Bin.. Yoo Bin wouldnt want to see you like this... arent i right!!!!!!!!!" "Han Yeh WON!!!!!!!!!!!" "please im begging you .... think about it....." "i cant hold it any longer. if this guy doesnt die... i will hate myself forever!!! i will always live with the guilt!!!!!!!!" "still this is not the right thing to do!!!! this is not it!!!!!!!!" "Han Yeh Won!!!!!!!!!" right then, sobbing, So Min pulled on Min Jae's arm "Oppa.. you cant do this... Oppa if you do this, what will happen to me?? what will happen to me!!!!" "heuk...........heuk............." Min Jae ripped off a few buttons.. and then he said "bastard.. know you were lucky today... dont ever let me see you again!!! because that day will be the end of you..." that Boo Young Gong Go guy trembled... "Oppa!!!!!" "get out of my way.." "Oppa............." So Min became babyish and pouty. "..............." an hour passed already.. Eun Jin and i had decided to go to the hospital.... � So Min and Min Jae rode his motorcycle.... and i took a taxi to school. ".............Eun Jin!!!!!!!!!!!" Eun Jin was crouched in front of the door "Han Yeh Won!!!! where were you???" "what about you... arent you supposed to be in class!!!!!!!!!!" "its okay!!! ey!!! why are you coming now??? i waited for an an hour!!!" "stupid!!! who told you to wait!!!" "� " "hurry and go inside!!!" "its okay!!! i told the teacher... that you and i were going to see Hwanee at the hospital... and she let me go. that old maid... � " "the old maid did????" "yup..^^" "................" Yoo Bin's name kept floating in my head. ............. Eun Jin and i went towards the hospital... ............. "Ey!! where are you going??" "i.. im going to visit Yoo Bin for a little.. go to Hwanee's room... � " "kay...." i walked toward Yoo Bin's hospital room. "................." crash... crash.. what is that sound??? it sounds like something is breaking.. 'Yoo Bin.........." CHANG. as soon as i opened the door, a plate came crashing down next to me.. "....................... � ^" Yoo Bin did not see me.. and he continued to cover his bandaged eye and turn this and that, seemingly miserable.. ".. Yoo... Yoo Bin....." a corner of my heart ached. Yoo Bin is that miserable because of me.... "Yoo Bin.... Yoo.... Yoo....." "huh.........huh.........huh............." Yoo Bin sighed deeply and looked at me... "Han Yeh Won!!!?????" "Yoo Bin... heuk........heuk.....i made a mistake... i made a mistake..." "Yeh Won!!!!!!!!!" "im sorry...its all my fault!!! i made a mistake.. really.. it was my fault.............." "no ....." "Yoo Bin!!! even if i was born again, i dont think i would deserve your forgiveness.. that was my crime... really... really... i.... i.... heuk.......heuk........." without even putting on shoes.. Yoo Bin slid off the bed and came towards me seeing Yoo Bin's face and the hospital room... i could understand how miserable he was.. "Yeh Won!!!!!!!!!" "Yoo Bin... im sorry.... im sorry.........." Yoo Bin touched my face. it was like Yoo Bin had already forgiven me.. i pushed him away....... "dont do this!!! you cant do this.. you know what i did to you.. dont do this!! it would be better if you got mad at me... it would be better... you dont need to smile for me!!!! dont do that!!! Yoo Bin!!!!" "^^ Yeh Won!!" Yoo Bin continued to smile brightly at me seriuosly... its bad... bad. i even begged him.. if he got angry at me.... my heart would hurt less. "Yeh Won!!!!! im fine.. since you came to my hospital room... im okay now..." "dont say stupid things like that!!!!!!!!" Yoo Bin grabbed my shouldrs and carefully hugged me.. "................" i couldnt leave his grasp.. ............... "Han Yoo Bin... you jerk!!!! what do i do now!! your eye is like that.. but... really.. really.............." i sobbed into Yoo Bin's shoulder.. because Yoo Bin hugged me gently.. because.. "heuk.........heuk.........heuk..........." click........... the door opened and................. "...................." Yoo Bin looked up. ................... it was Hwanee and Eun Jin. Hwanee's expression was stiff and Eun Jin's looked like she couldnt believe it.. why do these things keep happening.... why........... 101. ............... .................. i stared helplessly at Hwanee.. he had one eye brow up "Hwanee...." CRASH.. Hwanee slammed the door and left.. "....................." "Hwanee!!!" i quickly got up and was running for the door and grabbed the knob when. Yoo Bin.. Yoo Bin.. what do i do?? should i just leave Yoo Bin like this??? i looked at Yoo Bin. Yoo Bin's head was lowered. "...................." ..... i let go of the door knob.. and sat in front of Yoo Bin again. "................." Yoo Bin looked at me with round eyes.. "^^" "........why didnt you leave??" "just... why?? i cant stay ??.." "that bastard will start assuming things.." "..................." "go... i wont hold on to you..." "^^ no its okay.." to tell the truth, my heart was frustrated.. i want to grab Hwanee right now.. Hwanee is assuming things for sure... ­0­ and hes probably mad.. "go.. before.. before i hold onto you..." "i said im not gonna go..^^" "............." so i stayed in front of Yoo Bin and forced myself to smile.. , � what is Hwanee doing right now?? ... if i apologize, he'll probably accept.... � ^, he might be a little offended.. but it probably wont last that long.. � ^ "what time is it right now??" "10. hurry and go.. its late. i lost track of time.." "its already 10????? then Yoo Bin, im gonna leave.." "sure..." "......im sorry.........." "i said it was okay... � " "............im gonna go.." i grabbed my bag and was walking toward the door when.. "Yeh Won!!" "............" Yoo Bin called me. "its strange.. you werent happy today.. you forced yourself to laugh.. and you forced yourself to look like you were having fun.. even though your heart was thinking of that guy.. so.. why didnt you hold onto him?? do i look that pitiful??? was it that?? if you didnt want to, then you shouldnt have... dont force yourself to do this... its weird.. " i couldnt face Yoo Bin.. right now.. "its not that... Yoo Bin.. im gonna leave... take care..." ".................." i tiredly opened the door and left.. my legs were shaking.. and i collapsed onto the chair next to me. "..............." why are all these things piling up????????? "..............." ........... i was walking down to the first floor.. when i remembered.. Hwanee. "..............." i should go see him.. no. i will apologize tomorrow.. no... 0 unconsciously i arrived at Hwanee's hospital room. � ^ "huh?? Yeh Won!!" "Eun Jin...." she didnt leave yet?? Eun Jin was coming out of the restroom.. "yea.. you hoe.. i couldnt just leave.. its no joke. that bastard..." "why? is he furious??" "stupid!! furious.. hes freakin mad... 0 why didnt you come out of the room?? why didnt you hold onto Hwanee!!" "because of Yoo Bin.." "Hwanee waited for you to come out.. he kept standing in front of the door.... stupid!!! but you didnt come.." "really?????????" ...........stupid.... really... stupid.. he waited for me in front of the door?? when he walked out so coldly.. "you know how much that old man hates it when his girl is with another guy... and you... you were hugging Yoo Bin.. he's managed to hold it in . i thought about it.. and why did you do that!! Han Yeh Won!!! dont you know thats the old man!! dont you know how jealous he gets!!!!!!!!" "the.. then... what do i do?" "...what do you do.. try apologizing.. anyways, Han Yeh Won.. i know you~~~" "what do i do?? if he's that mad... shi... � ^ its really scary when he gets mad.. � " " � ^ you guys work it out.. hurry and go to him.." ".............kay............." "im gonna leave first..." "thanks Eun Jin!!!" "sure... good luck.." "kay........." ............... i grabbed the door knob.. and hesitated for a long time.. finally i opened the door.. ..........the hospital room was dark.. "Hwanee... Hwanee!!!!!!!!" ".................." i turned on the lights.. "Hwanee.. are you sleeping???" the room was bright.. "Umma!!!!!!!!" [* korean girls yell umma when something scares them] Hwanee was casually sitting on his bed smoking a cigarette.. 102. i was really surprised.. if he was there, he should have said something. � ^ "ey... why didnt you say anything!!!" should i not have said it like that??? � ^ ".................." "ey!!!!!!!" "................." Hwanee didnt make eye contact with me.. "Hwanee..." "why did you come?? you should have stayed with that bastard .. why... did that jerk tell you to come to me?? huh???" Hwanee's sarcastic tone.. "................" "................." Hwanee put out his cigarette.. ".... sorry...." but.. i want to say something more.. i cant say anything else.. "you said you're sorry??" again, Hwanee spoke with sarcasm.. everytime he does that i just want to .. "im sorry... i really couldnt leave in that situation...." "be sorry.. keke in that situation.. cuz you were hugging that jerk?? you wanted to keep hugging so you didnt want to leave?? is that what you're trying to tell me???" "Ey!!!! why are you saying that!!!!" "why, im wrong??" i never imagined a situation like this.. ..........in this situation... if i tell Hwanee.. will he believe me?? but im too sorrowful... Yoo Bin and i did do something that could be misunderstood.. but.. but i know Hwanee will believe me. ".................." Hwanee lit another cigarette.. "......i dont want to see you right now..." Hwanee said quietly ".........im sorry............." "now.. its hard..... i have my limits.. im a person too!!!!!!!!!" Hwanee yelled.. "................" "i dont know what you're thinking but.. everytime you do this, i go crazy!! i feel like beating something!!!!!" ".................." "it might be because my personality is crazy... if something thats mine.. especially if that person was my girlfriend.. and she was with a another guy.. and hugging too?? if i did that, would you like it?? would you like it............" "its not like that!!!!!! its not like that!! i..." "yea.. im crazy... a person like me hasthis kind of personality.. ... so i dont like it.. since we've gone out... how much longer do you think i can hold it in??? but i dont think i can stand it any longer.. im tired!!! Han Yeh Won... i really dont want to see you right now...!" "......................" ".................." i turned off the lights.. because i didnt want Hwanee to see my tears.. .......... just a little... not a lot.. just a little.. if he trusted me just a little.. if he.. trusted me..... i saw the cigarrette light from Hwanee's end.. "........i didnt know that... i didnt know you would hate it that much.... but... but... really, today.. today...." i swallowed my tears as i spoke... "really... today... about today.... im sorry.........." i couldnt hold it any longer.. i opened the door and ran out.. ............ "...........Han Yeh Won........" did i hear something?? i thought i heard Hwanee calling me... no. i doubt that would happen... ............. ......... as i wiped my tears, i ran out of the hospital.. ".............." why am i crying so much?? is it because im so sorrowful.. im so mournful... ".............." i was riding a taxi home when.. the taxi driver kept sneaking looks at me.. ........ of course he would... i couldnt stop crying... and my long hair was a mess.. because i was like this.. "............" why arent we going?? "mister.. why arent we going???" "we've arrived at your destination.~~~~" "oh.. i see........." i paid him and walked toward the house.. that Ahjusshi looked at me for a long time. is he a pervurt?? suddenly, he came towards me. "miss!!!!!" is this a weird person?? i heard there were a lot of girls that got harrassed in taxis.. "........................yes??" "even though you're stressed, you cant do suicide~~~ just because things seem impossible..you shouldnt die... those bad girls.. your parents will feel guilty.... be optimistic~~~ there isnt only one guy in this world!~~" weird ahjusshi with an accent.. 0 suicide?? what do you mean suicide?? im gonna do suicide??.. do i look that odd???? "huh?? ... sure....." "okay~~ go on inside~~!!~^^" and with that, i ran home.. he was really a weird ahjusshi... i was opening the door when... the house was pitch black.. oh yea.. Ahjumma said she was going out today... "................" i feel gloomy already... 0 ^ i flopped down in my room and cried... i sat and cried... i thought of Hwanee.. why do i resent Hwanee?? ring~~~~ ring~~~~ ring~~~ my cell phone rang.. "hello........" "Yeh Won!! its me. Eun Jin!!" "yea..." "what happened with the old man!!!!!!" "............nothing really... i dont know......." "he must not have forgiven you!! that jerk... i knew he would do that!!!!" "........ � ^" "want to come out here?? i'll make you feel better!!!" "yea???" "im at my night club!!^^ lets dance!!" "what????????" "Hurry and come out.. i knew that old man would do that... hurry... i'll be waiting for you outside.." "Eu... Eun Jin!!!!!!!" "you.. cant come out looking like you did last time!!! this time, the body guards wont let you in.. 0 " "Eun Jin!!!!" beep beep bepp~~ "Eun Jin!! Eun Jin!!!" Eun Jin hung up.. which nightclub... oh gosh.. � ^ .......................hoe... � should i go out??? 0 103. i thought for thirty minutes in my room.. in the end.. i changed and left for the night club.. ".................." of course, this place is dizzying.. � ^ ........... where was it again?? these bright signs.... you cant tell where you are 0 ^ right then, a body guard caught my eye. that ahjusshi that wouldnt let me in last time.. 0 that rude bastard.. ^0^ "excuse me!!!" without a doubt that ahjusshi looked me up and down.. "0 <a little shocked...^^;;>" "..........where did i see you before???" is it possible he might remember me? "Eun Jin!! im Eun Jin's friend!!!" "oh yea... that tacky girl.... � .... what are you doing here.." he glanced at me. 'keke what did i wear last time kekeke?' "hey... Ahjusshi.. where's Eun Jin?" "Eun Jin should be inside..." "..............^^" i gave that ahjusshi my prettiest smile. just in case he wouldnt let me inside. "keke your expression is distgusting.. i wish i could take a picture and post it on the yupgi site... *^^*" [*yupgi is kind of like mashimaro's expression] "................... 0 " try as i might, i couldnt like that rude Ahjusshi.. sheesh... and i cant hit him eiether.. "kekeke go inside!!!" crash boom* i walked proudly inside. crash boom* "................." unconsciously, i tilted my shoulder to one side and brushed that Ahjusshi's shoulder as i entered. "oh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~" he seemed surprised.. and he yelled. "....................." "ey!!! did you hit me intentionally????" "euak~~~~~~~~~~~~~" with his coarse face, that Ahjusshi ran after me.. 0 "euak.. .ah... no, sir.........." i quickly ran down to the basement. is he following me??? whew. i'll be thankful for ten years.. 0 what kind of pig is that fast.. � "oh?? Yeh Won!!!!!" "Eun Jin!!! ^^" she was with a guy ive never seen before.. and she was drinking is it okay for her to do that?? what about Jjok Sae.. [*her boyfriend] "come here..." "Eun Jin!!!!" "yea?? come here.. ey... move a little!!!" ........... Eun Jin made space for me and yelled at me to come over. � ^ "EY!!!!" "sit here!!!" the guy wearing formal clothes next to her motioned to me. "yes?? okay.. okay..." i stuck right by Eun Jin and whispered in her ear. "ey.. what about Jjok Sae???" "JJok Sae?? what abbout Oppa........" "ey!! why are you talking so loudly!!!" "what about Oppa??" i watched that boy as i talked to her.. carefully. � "ey... you were going out with that Oppa.. how come you're with this guy now???" "What?????????" she looked at me with confusion.. "keke dont worry!!! Oppa wont say anything!!! i always do this.. and Oppa does the same.." " � ^" are they really going out?? whenever i see Eun Jin's she's always with a different guy.. 0 some guy ive never seen before. now that i think of it... "� " Eun Jin looked at me and laughed!! "Ey!! Han Yeh Won!! not all couples are like you and old man!!!!" ".............." ".... keke that old man has a lot of jealousy.. it might be because he wants a lot of things... but we're not like that.. theres a lot of people like us... the old man's just a little different.." and then Eun Jin began drinking straight from the bottle.. ".................." "that old man was always like that... (she burped) he hated it when someone took something of his.. and he disliked it when people he didnt like touched him.." "................" "he gets jealous pretty easily...keke there was someone that liked Yoo Bin.. and did you know he took her in less than a day??" "really???????" "yea. especially between those two.. just think.. kekeke ...that jerk... of all the girls he went out with, they never lasted very long. there was no reason to.. ... you're the very first.." Eun Jin drank from the bottle again. "................" "and all those girls, when they were going out with him. do you think they thought of any other guys?? they were happy to just be going out with him.. is he good looking? 0 and theres so many peopel that like his personality too.. i did as well..........Huk..........." "what???????" "uh?????? ah...." what is she saying?? Eun Jin liked Hwanee??? is she telling the truth? "did you.. like Hwanee??" "Yeh Won!! i didnt.. mean to........" "so thats why you knew so much about Hwanee!!!" "ah.. no its not that..." Eun Jin drank some more. keke shes so cute.. i always wondered.. but it really was true.. keke "im gonna go to the bathroom.. i have to go.." and then Eun Jin ran to the bathroom "kekeke" ".............." "............." i looked around me and... those two guys looked at me strangely.. ......... "i .. i have to go too.. Eu .. Eun JIN!! wait for me!!!!" i quickly followed Eun Jin. Huk. � i was so scared.. i was gasping for breath when. PUk........ "ow........whats this????" it was that bulletin board.. ............. the spots where Hwanee and Yoo Bin's pictures were was now covered. they were both covered with "hot" stickers.. 0 "................." are they really that famous?? more than i imagined.. a lot more.. 104. "im crazy. crazy.. i said that in front of Yeh Won..." in front of the bathroom, a girl hit her head loudly and mumbled to herself .. kekeke it was Eun Jin. "Eun Jin....." "...........euak.........." she looked at me in shock. "its.. its okay..." "ow... my back.. � " "kekeke" "Yeh Won!!! that is...." "its okay... is it wrong to like someone?? why are you doing this over nothing?? do i look like the type to stress over this??" "^^" Eun Jin finally smiled brightly "you're my friend, no doubt!! my eyes dont lie!!!!" "what?????" she said that again. "lets go out and dance!!!!" she did the disco poise and raised one hand up proudly.. ^*^ "ey!! i dont want to.. i cant dance....." "come on.." "i really cant dance........" Eun Jin's always so strong!! � i hate that im so weak. 0 BbaramBbram. Bbararararam... noisy music and lights. "..................oooh~~~~~~~~" people clapped and looked at me. what?? what???" "...........Eun Jin!!!!!!!!!" crazily, she shook her head to techno.. she started freak dancing too. Eun Jin let down her hair and danced like crazy in my 18 years, i really havent seen anyone that danced as well as Eun Jin. "Eun JiN!!!" why next to me of all people.. 0 i quickly moved out of that spot. i joined the clapping crowd and hiding my face, began clapping myself "................." but Eun Jin really does dance super well.. she has a nice body.. and her face is pretty too.. plus her personality is great. why would Hwanee have rejected Eun Jin? "..................." after the song ended.. a sultry song played and strange boys began to approach Eun Jin.. "...........Eun Jin!!!!" "i told you.. every time i dance, guys cant control themselves.. keke" "what??" "i'll be back after i dance... who's the best looking?" "HEY!!!!" "^0^ ho ho ho ..." she grabbed hands with the tallest guy there and went back on stage >0< im going crazy.. right then.. one guy tapped my shoulder. "ohmy.. yes??" "do you.. want to dance with em?" "huh??" he doesnt look above 170 cm.. he has a mole above his lip... his eyes are unusually small.. and you can see up his nose.. and his voice is weird too.. 0 � he wore strange shiny, golden pants. and extended his hand to me i really want to cry right now.. 0 why do i attract these kinds of guys!!!! "yes??" "yes???? ah. . im gonna go in to drink...." "just one song." "no thank you.. whats wrong with you!! i dont dance..." sheesh.. gross... call that a face.. i hurriedly walked to a table.. if i show you Hwanee's face i bet you would faint!! 0 Hwanee.. Hwanee.. what am i doing here??? i shouldnt be here.. "....................." that ugly guy kept standing at the corner of the stage sneaking looks at me.. oh gosh. distgusting.. im going crazy.. after that strange song ended.. Eun Jin laughed and said goodbye to that guy she was dancing with and came inside. "^0^. the people here are great.... right?? right????" "great, what do you mean great!!!" "why not?? look!!? look at those hot guys. all ar.......... ah.... ak........." Eun Jin's mouth opened. she pointed to a corner of the stange.. where that ugly guy was.. she suddenly closed her moth and quickly turned her head... "anyways.. theres always someone thats a party pooper .. annoying!!!" and Eun Jin drank again.. � whats so wrong wtih being ugly!!!! "Eun Jin!!! lets go.." "already??" "yea..." "im tired..." "you're drunk.."­ i said­ "what do you mean drunk!!!! who's drunk. 0 kekeke should i tell you more about old man?? kekek old man.. old man........" "...........Eun Jin!!!!!" "that guy... is a jerk!!! do you know how much i liked him........." "what????" "that bastard... i confessed to him three times.. and he rejected me each time... bastard... that jerk... self­ centered!!!" Eun Jin's really drunk.. 0 "kekek you know that guy.. that guy.. that guy... he's a strange one...." "Eun Jin!!!!!" right then, i heard a group of guys come in.. they were all dressed nicely and looked at me and Eun Jin. that person is Eun Jin's boyfriend.. Jjok Sae hyung nim.. right?? he looks so mushesuh... even more so now that i see him like this.. ^0^ "what?? Han Yeh Won!! right??" he came towards Eun Jin and me.. "oh. hello........" "hi.. ^^ Eun JiN!! what are you doing here??" "that old man... is really a bastard!!!!!!" Eun Jin!! you cant say that.. right now Jjok Sae is...... "she's starting this again.. again..." laughing, Jjok Sae looked at Eun Jin. those eyes are not a joke.. like a loving puppy... Jjok Sae propped drunk Eun Jin up.. 0 ".................." Jjok Sae carried Eun Jin on his back.. truthfully, he's really mushesuh. "she's always like this... when she gets drunk... she doesnt talk about any thing else but Hwanee..^^" "............and you're okay with that??" "keke because she doesnt like me bringing her stuff... because i have no choice, i let her do as she pleases.. but on the inside, i hurt alot ^^ she is still my girlfriend..^^" ".. Eun Jin plays with other guys... dont you care??" i was curious so i asked him. "*^^* she doesnt like it when i say something... if she isnt able to do what she wants... she will leave.. anything is better than that...." "what???????" Huk... why am i prying so much. � ^ "^^ to tell the truth, i hate it... but for the 4 years she liked Hwanee.. it was a one sided love with her ..^^ i told her to stay by my side even though she didnt like me. that that would be enough....." looking at unconscious Eun Jin he began to stroke her hair. why do i feel jealous??? "what am i saying!! to her friend too... its a secret!!!" "what?? okay............." "do you want a ride???" "oh... its okay.." "no. its really dangerous at night.. no matter what im doing, i always take this girl home at night!!!" "its really okay....." "Seung­ Chul!!!! give Yeh Won a ride home!!" "yes sir.." "im gonna leave... this girl's a little heavy!! ^^" "sure.........." "old man!! are you that high and mighty?? is that why you rejected me?? bastard." what kind of drinking habit is that?? kekeke but Jjok Sae looked at Eun Jin adoringly. to tell the truth, hes really mushesuh. he knows how to look out for Eun Jin.. he must love her a lot!!! does Eun Jin know that????? im jealous of Eun JIn... really... he thinks of Eun Jin unconditionally... does Hwanee think of me like that?? ............. ..... piggy backing drunk Eun Jin.. piggy backing mumbling Eun jin... Jjok Sae left with some trouble.. how drunk could Eun Jin be.. she kept grabbing onto JJok Sae's head.. and kicked his legs. 0 .......... ................... she really is adorable.. Eun Jin.. 0 105. # at school. "man my head hurts..." i shouldnt have drank so much yesterday... 0 "................." during 2nd period.. i thought i was going to die from my headache. and since Ahjumma wasnt home, i didnt eat breakfast either.. � ^ life is so difficult..... � ^ ".................." Eun Jin didnt come to 2nd period. during 3rd period... i heard the back door creak. its probably not Yoo Bin either.. � Eun Jin hit her head in frustration as she walked in through the back door. "why are you coming now??" "i overselpt.." "you overslept this much?? why didnt you look at a clock.." "............... � ^" Eun Jin looked even more frustrated.. � ^ and like a stone falling BOOM.. Eun Jin hit her head on the desk.. and flopped down. "tsk tsk...." the teacher clucked his tongue.. "turn the next page!!!" ".............." the teachers usually dont bother Eun Jin. because she's a scary kid. 0 the bell rang.. and i went towards Eun Jin.. Eun Jin was rubbing her head. "Eun Jin!! are you okay!!!" " i dont know!! my head hurts!!" "its okay!!" Eun Jin suddenly stood straight up. she scared me.. "Yeh Won!!! what did i blurt out yesterday?? did i say anything to you.. or Oppa (Jjok Sae ^^;;) .. hmm????" does she really not remember anything?? kekeke should i tell her?? should i tell her that when she was drunk yesterday she mumbled some secrets to Jjok Sae and me.. � ^ "no.......why????" "i didnt??? really?????????" "nope!!! Jjok Sae just came and carried you home... and said hello to me!!" "is that really all? there wasnt anything else??" "nope!!!" "� ^" "Eun Jin!!! be good to that Oppa.. he's truly a good person!!" "why do you say that???" "really... he must sincerely love you.. he's happy just looking at you.. dont let go of him!!! he's seriously a good person!!" "................" Eun Jin turned to me.. "� " "Yeh Won!! ow!! ow!!!!" Eun Jin yelled!! "whats wrong??" "my head hurts.. ow!! ow!!!" "ekkeke you shouldnt have drank that much yesterday.." "what do i do. it really hurts!!" "do you want to go to the nurse?" "i want to eat Hae­Jang soup!!" "Hae Jang souP??" [*you're supposed to eat it when you get a hangover] "yea.. 0 " "kekeke" its really shocking. but so cute. "i'll buy you some afterschool!!" "seriously?? seriously?? you're gonna buy it for me?" "sure!! i'll buy.." Eun Jin and i made plans and went to eat Hae­ Jang soup after school. . ^ like someone who hadnt eaten for a few days.. Eun Jin shoveled in the food. ......... "wow~~~~~ i feel good!!" ­Eun Jin yelled­ "� ^" "should we visit the hospital?" "the hospital??? no!! i dont want to...." Hwanee said that he didnt want to see my face.. he told me to leave. how could i go visit Hwanee.. "lets go!!!" ­she yelled­ "no!!!!" # at the hospital. "ey!! why dont you want to go to Hwnanee!!" "i dont want to!!!!!!" "oh right... you didnt resolve your fight with that jerk. 0 " "............" "then you go visit Yoo Bin.." ­Eun jin told me­ "okay.." "sheesh!! i just have to tell that jerk something.." "okay.." i walked towards YooBin's hospital room. seeing just Yoo Bin's face makes me feel guilty... 0 "......................" "euak~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!" ".............00............" from inside Yoo Bin's room i heard screams and things breaking... "Yoo Bin!!!!!" "................." i saw Yoo Bin's helplessness.. its really hard for me to watch.. its all my fault.. he's like this because of me.. "maam, you cannot enter!!" an elderly man grabbed onto me. "i have to go in!! i have to see Yoo Bin!! 0 " "master Yoo Bin said he did not wish to see anyone!!" "Ahjusshi!!!!" "you cannot!!!" what kind of man keeps ignoring me!! seriously!! "Ahjusshi!!!!" .......... without any definite plan, i opened the door.. ................ Yoo Bin looked at me.. he didnt have his bandage on.. and various things were scattered on the floor.. the bandage too.. its hard to believe a person made this mess.. "Yoo Bin!!!!" "Yeh Won!!!!" one eye is clear and distinct... the other eye has no energy. i thought it was strange.. "Yeh Won!!!" "you're in pain!! you're in pain because of me!!!!" "Yeh Won!!!" everytime i see Yoo Bin like this.. tears keep falling.. because he's miserable... .. and its my fault "Yeh Won!!! how.. how did you get in here!!!" Yoo Bin seemed shocked and he kept stuttering. "hol... hold on. i...i dont want you to.. see me like this..." ­He muttered­ Yoo Bin bent down and tried to pick up the bandage. "...........hold.. hold on..........." ...........what is he doing right now?? Yoo Bin didnt reach for the bandage but groped around the air. "YooBin!!!" it was much more serious than i imagined.. if this .. if this happens.. "ow.. my.. my eye.. theres...." Yoo Bin's hands and voice shook... "................" Yoo Bin looked at his hand. in astonishment.. "euak~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!" Yoo Bin pulled his hair and yelled. "Yoo Bin!!!" "Euak..... heuk........heuk...............heuk......heuk.......heuk....." "Yoo Bin!!" Yoo Bin began to cry.. why do i feel so helpless?? why do i feel so.. sorry?? how much pain must he be in ?? to lose sight in one eye.. but.. i picked up the bandage and placed it into Yoo Bin's hand. "Yoo Bin!! Yoo Bin!!! here.. here.. dont hurt alone dont be in pain alone!! im so sorry.. its my fault!!!" i hugged Yoo Bin tightly.. tears fell onto my cheek. Yoo Bin continued crying too.. "Yoo Bin!! im sorry.. im so sorry!!! you're hurting this much.. and you're in this much pain.. why are you doing this by yourself!! why didnt you say something.. heuk.....heuk.........." for a few minutes i cried with Yoo Bin. ......... ................. ................. i bandaged Yoo Bin's eye again.. and i picked the things off the floor. "i'll do it Yeh Won!!!" Yoo Bin bent down and began picking up trash. "Yoo Bin!!" "Yoo Bin!! go back up.. i'll do it.." "NO!! i have to do it.. i made this mess.." "no...." "sit here!!!!" he took the trash from my hand and threw it away 0 "YooBIn!!" i held Yoo BIn's hand. ............ ................... ........... Yoo BIn looked at me...... "Yoo Bin!! i'll help... i'll help you !!" ".................." "its not like you have no other choice!! just until your sight comes back.. i'll help you.. i'll stay by your side!!" "................." Yoo Bin lowered his head. "you're going to help me?? its fine.. you dont have to.. what about Hwanee... if you do this for me then..." Yoo Bin looked up at me.. "if you keep pretending to be happy at my side.. im going to start thinking differently.. and i might hold onto you!! really.. i ...........you......." ".................." .......Yoo Bin.......... 106. Yoo Bin!! Yoo Bin!! how could i possibly do that. when you are so miserable by yourself. and so hurt.. how can i just leave you.. "but i still want to help you!! just until your sight comes back!! i'll stay by your side.. heuk... heuk........" Yoo Bin carefully hugged me.. ".............." "heuk..heuk.......im sorry..."" "i really think i will hold onto you.. to use this.. as an excuse so you dont refuse me.. i might hold onto you so you cant go to that jerk!!! you dummy!!!" Yoo Bin.. im sorry.. "............" Yoo Bin held my face and looked at me and his face got closer and closer. ........... what am i doing right now? Hwanee.. Hwanee. at that moment, i remembered Hwanee's face.. "you cant do this Yoo Bin!!!!" i pushed Yoo Bin away. "this is not right!! Yoo Bin!! you cant do this!! if you do...." "leave!!!" "......................" "i said leave.. Han Yeh Won!!! dont come near me again!! im turning into a bad person.. so.. leave..........." "........................" why is he doing that!! what in the world.. Han Yoo Bin.. but... if i stayed in this spot. it wouldnt be right. "then. i'll come tomorrow............" ".......no.....dont.............." "im going to come.. im going to come everyday!!!" i quietly opened the door and walked out. "huk......huk..........huk........." why do i feel so helpless? i went to the restroom.. and washed my face. stupid Han yeh Won!! you stupid. dummy. why do you keep giving Yoo Bin pain!!!! you stupid!!! to tell the truth,i was worried.. during that short period of time.. what would have happened if Yoo Bin held onto me? if he did... would i have gone to him?? i have Hwanee though.. but i did something to Yoo Bin that cant be forgiven.. i washed my face... and my shoulder became damp.. i was waiting for the elevator when.. why do i feel so helpless?? Ding...... the elevator arrived. i lifted my head to enter when.. "................." Hwanee stared at me stiffly... "................." for those few seconds.. i hesitated. should i get on that elevator? or not... "............." Click.. the door closed.. i didnt get on the elevator.. ".................." "...................." did i do the right thing?? i saw Hwanee's seemingly angry face.. but i cant look at Hwanee's face right now. if i see Hwanee then.. i might run away.. but.. why do i feel so rotten?? � ^ i walked down to the first floor.. and was leaving the hospital when.. Hwanee was smoking.. and was walking my way. "................." what do i do? what do i do?? "..................." i was uncertain of what to do so i hesitated and stopped in my tracks... SWAK.. Hwanee blew out smoke and passed directly in front of me.... "..............." my heart stopped... Hwanee just passed right by me.. i thought he would try to hold onto me.. but.. if i created this then.. why do i feel like i cant breathe?? "............." i turned around.. Hwanee put out his cigarette with his foot and without looking back, simply left. "................" i felt tears beginning to form.. i quickly grabbed a taxi and headed home. ".............." my head was in utter confusion.. it really hurt.. why does it have to come to this? Han Yeh Won!!! who are you.. giving pain to everyone you met!!! who do you think you are!!! ........... ".............." # the next day i went to the hospital to see Yoo Bin. Hwanee.. i want to see Hwanee though.. "..............." around Yoo Bin's hospital room were five men in suits.. "................" i was trying to make eye contact as i walked in when. those ahjusshi's suddenly grabbed onto me. "what are you doing!!!" "master Yoo Bin doesnt want you in his room!!" Yoo Bin?? me??? what is he saying? he doesnt want me!!!!!!! 107. "what do you mean he doesnt want me!!!" "Master Yoo Bin does not wish to see anyone!!!" "no you're wrong!! i promised him yesterday~!!! i'm going to come back tomorrow!!" "please leave!!" "Yoo Bin!! Yoo Bin!!! its me!! Yeh Won!!! whats wrong with you!! we made a deal that i would help you!!" "..................." its quiet... never mind its not quiet. why isnt he replying!! Han Yoo Bin!!! why are you doing this!!! "Yoo Bin!! YooBin!!!" "im sorry, miss!!" those ahjusshi's plopped me onto the chair. "Yoo Bin!! open the door...' no matter how hard i tried.. the door did not budge.. ............... i kept wondering if Yoo Bin would come out.. with that glimmer of hope i waited for him. but 3 hours passed and he did not show. ............. the next day and the day after that. i visited Yoo Bin's room for four days... it was futile. but there was a possibiilty that he would open his door.. so i waited for him for a few hours.. ............. ".................." we start our tests today... "............." "................" the four hour test.. i didnt study at all and i didnt even go to class.. i wanted to cry but i held it in and tried gussing on each problem.. 0 heuk... heuk... please just get at at least 50 problems right. � ".................." .......... .................... getting 50 problems was hopeless.. i did not study at all.. the test ended. my classmates had mixed feelings of joy and sorrow. >0< "Yeh Won!!! the test is over!!!!!" "� i bombed the test!!!!" "so what!! the important thing is that the test is over!!!" "� " "today lets go to noraebang~~ and go eat.. and go to a club.." "im sorry. Eun Jin!!" "why...." "i have to go to Yoo Bin today..." "Han Yoo BIn?? you said he didnt even open the door for you!! why do you be a fool and go everyday?? i dont think he would open it today...." "^^ still... i cant give up!! i have to go continuously... untill i succeed!!" "geesh. you are Han Yeh Won!!" "................" "im sorry... EUn JIn!!" "its okay... but you have to succeed!!! *^^*" "kay..^^" i ran to the hospital. "................." its already been a week since ive seen Hwanee!! ............. ................. i want to see him so badl. i really really miss him. but. ........... i took a deep breath and got off the elevator. "................." today those men in suits weren't there. they were there yesterday.. 0 "................" i grasped the door know when.. what?? the door was unlocked. "Yoo Bin!!" "....................." "................" the bed was made neatly.. the room was organized.. right then a nurse walked past. "excuse me. where is the patient that was here??" "he checked out a while ago!!" "he checked out??????!!!!!" "yes....." "............." he checked out.. ..........is this really happening!! Han yo Bin?? i.. i did all this though.. <> 108. i went toward Yoo Bin's house. the place i've gone exactly one time.. Yoo Bin's house.. that huuuge house!!!! "..............." of course in this neighborhood... im in awe.. "..................." where was it again?? since it's the house with the tallest gate.. it's over there!! "............." whew.... what should i do?? should i ring the doorbell? what should i say?? 'is Yoo Bin there??' 'im Yoo Bin's friend.. Yoo Bin.. or is it master Yoo Bin??' whew... first things first, i rang the bell. Ding Dong~!! Ding Dong~!! "who is it!!" scared me!! "hi.. im Yoo Bin's friend. is Yoo Bin home??" "master Yoo Bin isnt home right now.. who is this!!" "oh.. im Han Yeh Won!!" "no.. Master is not availabale!!" "..............." ........... where is he!! seriously!! ............... i was pacing in circles when. at the end of the street.. i heard a Vroom.. the sound of a motorcycle.. the motorcycle stopped right in front of me.. this motorcycle.. and the person with the helmet.. is Hwanee.... the face ive missed so much.. Hwanee.. "............." its been a really long time!! its been a .. really really long time!! i missed him so much.. ".................." with a cold breeze Hwanee passed right by me.. Ding Dong.. "who is it.." "its me!!" Ding.. the door opened.. "hey......" i called Hwanee. why did i do that?? "............" Hwanee stopped and turned around. ".............." "whew...." i sighed deeply.. "will you call Yoo Bin for me????" "................" he looked down for a second.. "that bastard isnt home.." CRASH.. Hwanee slammed the door shut. "................." how did we end up like this. how did we become like this?? "................." ........ with no more energy left, i turned around to go home when. sHoOoon~~. a black car.. "................." i looked behind me. ".............." out of the black car came a Ahjusshi and Yoo Bin, wearing a white eye patch "YooBin!!" i ran to him. "Yoo Bin!!!!" "................" the ahjusshi looked at me. "arent you the girl from before??" "....hello!!!" "..............." "Yoo Bin, do you know this person??" "huh??? i dont know her..." "did you come for Hwanee?? its good to meet him.. that boy has no hope!!!" ­that ahjusshi commented. i didnt know what he was talking about.. that ashjusshi rang the door bell and went inside.. Yoo Bin followed right behind him.. he was wearing a black stuit... he really looked mature. "Yoo Bin!!" i held onto his shirt tail. ".................." "let go..." Yoo Bin looked at me.. "why are you avoiding me!!! i told you i would help you!!" "i dont need any help.." "Yoo Bin! whats wrong!! why are you doing this!!! let me just know the reason.. i really want to help you." "why should you?" Yoo Bin interruped me coldly "you're hurt right now.. and you're in pain.. and its all because of me.. i made you this way..." "no thanks.. if its because of that.." Yoo Bin cold heartedly brushed me off and slammed the door!! "Yoo Bin!! Yoo Bin!!" i kept shaking the door but. the door did not have any notion of opening. "................" ...why is he doing this!!! i really want to help him.. Hwanee and i made eye contact.. "................." from Hwanee's room.. as soon as Hwanee and i made eye contact through the windoow he quickly shut the curtain.. "..................." "Hwanee!!!" which problem should i solve first.. ................. ................. ......im going crazy from my frustration.. why am i so helpless.. really... i called Eun Jin. ring... ring "hello!"" i heard Eun Jin's bright voice "its me.. EUn JIN!!!" "Huh?? Yeh Won!! where are you?? did you meet him???" "no... he already left the hospital.. and he doesnt want to meet me.." "what?? you should just hit him!! geesh..." "..............." "where are you??? do you want to come to where i am??" ­Eun Jin asked. "where are you??" "im at the bar... ah. Oppa what are you doing!!!! (i heard a voice next to her.. a male voice)" "who are you with?" "huh?? my Oppa. Jjok Sae... do you want us to pick you up???" "oh.. no... no its okay.. have fun together." "why?? Han Yeh Won!!!! where are you!! i'll go...." but shes with Jjok Sae.. how could i intrude.. "Yeh Won!!! its not just us two anyways. im with his friends. 0 " "...................." "ey... you know right?? its on the second floor of the arcade we went to..." "...........i got it........" "hurry... if you dont come. im gonna go to you!!!" "oh. okay!!" i hung up with Eun Jin.. and i started to go to the bar in Shin Chon. that bar... is the one Hwanee and i used to go to.. and where Eun Jin and i almost got drunk. it might not be a good thing but... � ^ ........... the loud music.. i opened the door and entered. "huh?? Yeh Won!!!!!!" Eun Jin really was with Jjok Sae and his friends.. "sit next to Oppa!!" "no.. 0 " "hurry!!!" Eun Jin huffed in a cute way... Jjjok Sae moved over one seat.. Huk. . ^ why do i have to sit there... "its fine. Oppa. you can sit here..." ­ i stammered. "no... Eun Jin will hate me..." "what are you doing?? Han Yeh Won!! hurry and sit down.." Eun Jin grabbed my wrist and forced me to sit down!!! "okay now.. drink.... that bastard.. Han YooBin.. lets see next time. i'll take your dumb head and..." "Han Yoo Bin?? that freakin rich guy????????" Jjok Sae asked. "yup. Oppa, you know Han Yoo Bin right??" ­Eun Jin said ooh... i drank straight out of the bottle. "what did that guy do??" Jjok Sae asked. "Yeh Won went to visit him everday but he didnt make any move to see her!!! money isnt everything!!! .... and neither is his face.. geesh i dont know!!!!" Eun Jin drank a shot... "i heard that guy.. is going to America..." "America??" "what?? America??" Eun Jin and i asked simultaneously. 109. "Oppa, what are you saying?? that bastard is what??? where is he going?? America???!!!" "you didnt know?? i thought you knew already.. because his eye is not healing... he's going to get treatment in America!!!" "................." "i pity him.... and from those Boo young bastards (the ones that beat him up) ... tsk tsk.. that guy was originally psycho !!! but to see his perfectly good eye go like that..." "Oppa, is that the truth!!!" "i dont know... i just heard!!! was it from Min Jae?? i heard he went to beat up those Boo Young bastards... keke that brotherly love.. cough cough.." Eun Jin held onto Jjok Sae Oppa's neck and shook him.. "Oppa is that really the truth???? Han Yoo Bin.. is moving!!!!!!!???" in a moment, my cheeks were wet from my tears Yoo Bin. this is what he was going through.. and he didnt say a word to me!!! really... everyone's eyes turned to me.. 0 round eyes too.. i felt almost burdened by them.. "Yeh Won!!" my lips trembled. and my hands began to shake.. ............ "Yeh Won!!!!" ".....heuk.............heuk........heuk............." "Yeh Won!!!" "heuk...heuk.......euang......euang........" i couldnt hold back the river of tears... and in that joyful atmosphere... i wept.. "Yeh Won!!" "its.. its all my fault... its my fault Yoo Bin became like that... its all because of me!!!!!!!!!!!!" "what are you talking about!!" "i shouldnt have called Yoo Bin that time... i shouldnt have called him..........." for a long time, i cried in Eun Jin's arms . "................" right then i heard a noise... the door opened.. and i saw a dark shadow.. a crowd of over ten people came and bowed respectfully to JJok Sae and the Oppa's One person glared at me. except i did not see him. "What do i do!!! Eun Jin!!! if.... if something terrible goes wrong with Yoo Bin... i... might just die!!!!!!!" how loud did i cry out?? the people at the other tables turned around to look at me. "dont cry!! Yeh Won!! you did nothing wrong... its all the Boo Young bastards' fault.." "heuk.....heuk.........." but.. why is the top of my head so warm?? ........ "heuk....heuk...." "What?? Old man!!!!!!!!!" "i called him...." Jjok Sae answered next to us.. Hwanee?? Hwanee??? i was afraid to look up... i was afraid to look at Hwanee's face.. "Eun Jin.. i.. i have to go to the restroom.." i rose from my chair to leave when.. my legs almost gave out. "Huk..." Pak... a tall male assisted me up.. Hwanee.. why here, of all situations.. it would have been better if we were somewhere else.. "............." "im... sorry......." i pressed my hand tightly to my mouth and ran out.. "Han Yeh Won!!!!!!!!!!!!" i heard Hwanee's resonant voice.. "Han Yeh Won!!" i opened the door to go up the stairs when.. my legs gave out and i was forced to sit down. "Han Yeh Won!!!" Hwanee gasped as he called out my name.. "................" "................" Hwnaee extended his hand out to me.. ".................." with brimming eyes, i looked at Hwanee. to tell the truth, i was so grateful.. that Hwanee spoke to me.. i was so thankful.. "......................." "................." "you dont want to stand up?? or you dont want to hold my hand??" "<< shakes head>>" "or... should i sit?? ...........i'll sit..." Hwanee sat so his eyes were level with mine.. "................." Hwanee stared straight into my eyes.. i still held my mouth.. if i let go of my hand... i might sob.. "Han Yeh Won!!!" "...<< nod nod>>>>" "say something...." "<shakes head>" "move your hand and talk!!!" getting frustrated, Hwanee yelled. and moved my hand.. in that time, tears began to fall... "..............." Hwnaee sighed deeply. "you..........you............." "................" Hwanee had trouble speaking.. "do you..... want to end things with me?????!!!" "....................." no... no. of course i wouldnt!!!!!!!! i really did not. but my lips.. did not move.. i love you.. i love you too much... "is that it?? is that why.. you never came to my hospital room.. and you went to visit Han Yoo Bin.. fawK.... did that jerk hold onto you?? is my personality still retarded?? is that it??????" "<shakes head>" i shook my head and continued to cry. please. please dont do this now!!! "or!! or what!!!!.. i dont know anymore.. if its my personality.. or.. or if you're just acting weird..." "heuk...heuk..........." "stupid!!! dont just cry.. what is that bastard to you... why are you.. why are you.... ah fawk*.." "................" ".... so you wont talk anymore!! fine... lets just quit!! quit everything..." "Hwa..... Hwa.............." "........i really dont know.. really... because of you... my head is in a mess... i only see you.. and i only have feelings for you... was i wrong?? is it that?? if you like me.. if you like me.." "Heuk......heuk.............." ".....i really dont know how you feel... i thought as much as i liked you, you liked me the same. was i just assuming?? if you only liked me half as m...... fine....." "................" Hwanee opened the door and was going to enter the bar . "Hwanee!!! Hwanee!! heuk... heuk... Hwanee!!!!!!!!! Hwanee...i... i love you ... im sorry...... but. right now.. right now.. heuk...heuk............" i tried holding it... but the words spilled out as soon as Hwanee went inside i pressed my face to the wall and cried.. it was the worst .. ..................... ...................... ..................... ............................. ..................... how many days passed?? it has been three days since i've last seen Hwanee.. ".............." Yoo Bin did not want to see me as well.. .................. with a heavy heart, i went toward school.... ".................." i boarded that crowded bus... and arrived at school.. i heard a female scream.... a crowd had formed.. what is this?? was it a celebrity?? i was passing them when.. "Yoo Bin Oppa!!! what is wrong with your eye??" "do you know how much i missed you.." Yoo Bin?? Yoo Bin?? i squeezed my way through the crowd of girls. "..............." with a bandage on his eye.. YooBin looked at me with a hardened expression. he was wearing glasses that were awkward for his face.. "Yoo BIn!!" "^^" it was then that i saw the expression i hadnt seen for so long.. Yoo BIn looked at me and smiled.. # at a cafe i didnt enter school. but i went to a cafe with Yoo Bin instead. "how.. how have you been??" "good..." "..............." "..................." for a long time, no one spoke.. i opened my mouth with difficulty. "why... why are you meeting with me now???" "i thought for a long time..." "why did it take so long to think??" "i didnt know whether to hold on to you.. or let you go.. but now i figured it out.." "...................." "im going to America.." "................" tears started to form in my eyes again. "......... i told you i would help you.. i ..." "my eye... its not like theres no possiblity of recovering.. ^^ but its hard to get the treatment in Korea.. but you know who my dad is. keke" Yoo Bin sipped his juice. and then.. he sighed deeply "................." ".................." again, there was a silence.. i dont like this... "i dont want to deceive my emotions again... going out with Ji Min... i dont want to do that a gain.. truthfully, i want to hold onto you.." "................." Yoo Bin reached inside his tux jacket and placed something on the table. 0 what is it?? it looks like a long paper.. "whats this??" "its yours... the choice is yours..." "but what is it???" i looked at that paper again. it was a plane ticket.. to America.. i turned to Yoo Bin. "i want to hold onto you.... i thought about it a great deal.. if you stay by my side... i know that i would get better faster...." "Yoo Bin!!!" "this was a hard decision for me too... but.. i wont talk any further.. the choice is yours..." "................." "........................" ........................... 110. he wants me to choose? me?? 0 ..... Yoo Bin's words.. made me more nervous.. "in three days..." "what?????" "in three days.. im leaving in three days...... tell me your decision tomorrow." "Yoo Bin!!!" "the decision is yours to make... if you want to go with me.. go with me... if not... dont......" "Yoo Bin!!! but..." "i'll call tomorrow..." Yoo BIn suddenly stood up.. "..................." and he left like that.. ......for a long time.. i sat at that spot and stared at the plane ticket.. "...............three days?!?!?!???????" its too short... my head hurts... its in confusion.. i momentarily rested my head on the table.. and i thought.. how long did i stay like that?? i went towards school.. "Yeh Won!!! Yeh Won!!!" Eun Jin ran towards me.. right now.. i dont even want to see Eun Jin.... "Han Yoo Bin... i heard he visited here.. what happened?? what did he say???" "huh?? he.. he didnt say anything... 0 " "what did he say..." "hm?? just. he just came to visit..." "really?? did he say if he was going to America??" please dont ask anything.. Eun Jin.. 0 "huh?? yea.. ^^;;" class started.. throughout the hour, i stared at the bag that held my ticket and i kept thinking. if... if i chose Yoo Bin. then.. would Hwanee miss me?? would he be sad?? if i follow Yoo Bin then.. would Hwanee cry for me?? would he be in pain?? i'm really a bad person.. � ^ what am i thinking about right now!!!! "Han Yeh Won!!!" "................." "HAn Yeh Won!!!" "yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!" "0 concentrate.. concentrate" "what???okay.............. 0 " ­ i stammered­ the whole day. i got caught by every teacher.. "..................." #at home. should i say something.. should i tell the whole story to Hwanee... or not... i dont have much time left.. but.... how long does it take to go from korea... to america?? doesnt it take half a day? its so far. its so far... what if i want to see Hwanee.. i wont get to, right? i wont be able to come back to korea right?? .... why are tears forming? in my head i saw the plane ticket and Hwanee's face.. and Yoo Bin's face. ....................heuk...heuk.............. # the next morning.. "..............." when i looked in the mirror, i saw that my eyes were swollen. this is why i shouldnt cry myself to sleep. 0 # school "Yeh Won!!!" "yea??" "why dont you have any energy!!! smile.. smile!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *^0^*" thats right. i always had Eun Jin by my side.. "^^ Eun Jin!!" "yea??" "say.. i go somewhere far.." "go somewhere far?? you?? where.. where!!!" Eun Jin looked uncertain as she yelled. "sh.... i just thought of it right now!!" "Why are you thinking of that all of a sudden? no matter where you go in this small world.. its not too far from me 0 " "^^... if... if i go somewhere far.. and i dont know when i would return.. then..............." "................?????????????" "*^^* im just saying this!! ^^" "then....." "if i really... go somewhere really far. and i dont tell anyone.. if i just leave like that.. who do you think would cry the most?? who would miss me the most??" "why are you so serious!!! isnt it obvious!!! it would be me!!!!!!!!!!!!" Eun Jin poked my shoulder as she yelled.. "� P ( + � � � � � � � � " Eun Jin suddenly became serious.. "but.. it would probably be Hwanee..." "..................." my heart stopped.. Hwanee.. Hwanee.. "that boy loves you too much!!! if you leave without telling him.. then.. you are a bad person.. you have to tell him first. 0 " Eun Jin said as she poked my forehead this time.. Hwanee.. Hwanee... of course... Hwanee doesnt know anything.. Eun Jin brought me back to reality.... ".................." "Han Yeh Won!!!!" "Yea?? " "you're really acting suspicious!!!" "i got it.. ^^" because Eun Jin didnt take this any further.. the moment just passed.. "...................." "......................" i should tell Hwanee.. right? if i do go to America... would Hwanee hold onto me? no. right now our relationship isnt that... but. but.... i should tell him.. i have to tell him... i was determined.. i am going to tell Hwanee... and if he.. if he will hold onto me.. then. ... i will stay by his side.. as soon as the bell rang i ran to Hwanee's high school.. "...................." my heart was set... i waited for Hwnaee by the front gate.. "......................" on the path.. there were a lot of Jo Young Gong Go kids coming out. wheres Hwanee?? where is he?? everyone looked at me strangely..... but i did not care.. and continued waiting for Hwanee.. did 30 minutes pass? slowly, the kids began to leave.. right then, a crowd of guys was approaching the gate. "huh?? Yeh Won!!!" Gyoo Hyun was calling me.. *^^* it was Gyoo Hyun.. [*one of Hwanee's friends] "oh.. hey...." "hi... what are you doing here????????" "where is.. Hwanee????" "he hasnt been to school for a few days.. are you and Hwanee not getting alon... cough cough." Gyoo Hyun covered his mouth with his hand and all of Hwanee's friends laughed.. "Hwanee's not here today....^^" "where is he??" "i dont know!!!" "oh.. okay......." this really sucks... i dont have time... i dont have time... really.. i only have a few hours... i went to Hwanee's house. and the arcade.... and the bar he often went to.. but.. Hwanee was not there... i really have no time... why isnt he helping me!! Jin Hwan!! you evil bastard!!!! how much did i run?? my legs hurt.... so so much.. the sun's already setting... i was supposed to tell Yoo Bin today.... i turned off my phone.. because Yoo Bin might call. and.. i need more time~!!!!!!! drip.. drip...drip... right then, a few drops fell on my head. and suddenly the sky started pouring. 0 "......................." i went to the nearest shade... 0 what do i do.... all my clothes are already wet... 0 i was running on top of the heater.. when i heard a male laughing. >0< what a loud nosie.. ....... "embarrassing.... whats 1 point? 1.. even if i press randomly with my hand, i would get over 1.. kekeke" "i beat Gyoo Hyun again." "son of a b*ch shut up!!!" "anyways. you're always embarrassing" Gyoo Hyun?? Gyoo Hyun??? could it be.. i went towards that males' voice. it was in front of the arcade.. they were in front of a punching game.. >0< i saw kids wearing the Jo Young Gong Go uniform ­00­ they were wet from the rain but they were laughing and punching.. there were 5 guys wearing uniforms and 4 wearing regular clothes out of the group, one guy wearing a white suit came out holding a lighter.. >0< Hwanee?? Hwanee??? Hwanee smiled as he bit the cigarette between his teeth and began punching. ".................." Puk.. Deereereereereereereee... the sounds from the punching game "wow~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!" "man. you're the best!!" "wow... thats a new record!!! ..." "i knew that would happen. freakin­ a... here!!!" "................." "....................." im positive its Hwanee.. Hwanee.... i searched for hours and i didnt see a hair of him.. but... i see him now. i truly missed him. Hwanee. ............... 111. Hwanee.. only a few meters away.. but why do i feel so far?? ........... ..................... i missed you. Hwanee!! ­00­ so much... i missed you so much!!! "i'll just... HWAK.." "bastard. stop overreacting!!!" Hwanee pretended to be a little kid and he beat his hands .. the group stopped playing the game.. and turned around.. they're coming my way.. to this direction.. ................ they're coming closer... i was looking at Hwanee when.. Hwanee did not look at me.. "Hwanee!!!!" "...................." "ey!!!!!!!!" "f*cker, what!!!!!!" "..................." Hwanee's friends pointed my way.. it was then that Hwanee.. reluctantly turned his head.. and saw me.. "......................" Hwanee's expression suddenly hardened � ^ gulp. i swallowed. "lets go.................." at Hwanee's cold.. and heartless words.. my heart twisted.. Hwanee went around me.. tears are coming.. im so sorrowful... "Hwanee!!" along with the rain... i called Hwanee. i feel drops of rain on my head.. "..................." Hwanee abruptly stopped... "I have something to say..!! Hwanee!!!" "...................." "please... look at me... please... i have something important to say!!!" "important??" Hwanee looked at me critically and replied. Hwanee came closer to me.. i see drops of water falling from his head.. his eyes look sad.. "important??? whats so important to you?? whats so important!!!!!!!!" please dont do this!!! this is really our last moment!!! if you do this.. if you really do this. "why are you saying it like that!!!!!!!!!!! i.... im................sor.............." "you're detestable" i was going to speak.. i was going to say something important.. but Hwanee interrupted me.. seriously... why is he doing this!!! why isnt he listening to my words!!! "...................." "dont cry in front of me!!" ".........Hwanee!! i mean to say...." "you made your decision!!! you chose Han Yoo Bin!!!! so why do you come here!!!!!!! do you want me to leave you, is that it?? do you want to see me go crazy!!!! so... is that it!!! even if you didnt come here.. i was about to go out of my mind!!!!...... for a minute.. give me time to think..................." Hwanee pushed his hair out of his face and turned around.. he wants time?? time?? what time does he want... i have to make my decision by tomorrow. how much time does he need.. without limit, tears fell... i couldnt say anything.. and.. i hurt Hwanee even more.. i shouldnt have even come here.. i should have left without saying anything.. i should have.. then... we would have been more at peace.. Each of Hwanee's friends looked at me for a minute before following Hwanee. "Hwanee!!! Hwanee!!!!!!!!!!" Hwanee was already at the end of the street. "Hwanee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" i screamed.. but... Hwanee did not hear. because of the rain. and because he was too far already.. "Hwanee!! heuk... heuk... i i.... if you hold onto me just this once.. then.. i could get my heart straight.. truly.. why.. why wont you hold onto me!!! i dont know where im going soon... why are you just leaving!!! why.. why.. heuk......heuk............" i slumped onto the wet floor and cried.. i cried for a long time... then i went to a payphone.. "...................." my hands are trembling.. my hands.. ring... ring... ring... click. "hello.........." "heuk....heuk....heuk.............." the moment i heard Yoo Bin's voice i started crying.. why... "Yeh Won?? Yeh Won.. where are you!!" "Yoo.. Yoo Bin!!!!" "yea.. where are you right now????" "no... no.. i....i.... made up my mind........" "What???????' i heard the rain pouring outside.. but in this situation, meantime, someone ignored all the lights and was running.... "Yeh Won!!!" "Yoo Bin... i.......i................" why cant i speak properly? why............ "Yoo Bin!! i.. i made my decision.. i.........." "....................." TAK... "i.... i'll folllow you... i'll go to America.. heuk...heuk..........." i crouched down with the speaker in my hand and i cried.. why do i feel so strange?? "Yeh Won!! Yeh Won!!!" i let go of the phone.. and i cried all the tears i was holding back.. i heard Yoo Bin's voice through the ear piece.. "Han Yeh Won!!!" a male called my name when i was crying.. the pay phone box was open... and with a drenched body.. and with raindrops dropping from him.. "Yeh Won!!!" "Gyoo... Gyoo Hyun!!!" it was Gyoo Hyun. how much did he hear?? "what are you saying?? you're going to the U.S.??" "heuk...heuk..........." why do i wish Gyoo Hyun was Hwanee right now??? why......why......... 0 ......... 112. "..................." for a long time, i cried in the pay phone and then i went with Gyoo Hyun to a random shop.. ".........tell me.. Yeh Won!!! what were you saying..." "........im.......going to America. ^^.. or at least, im planning to.." "America?? the United States??" "yup..^^" I smiled awkwardly at Gyoo Hyun. "Why America?? are you going.. with Han Yoo Bin??" "<nod nod>" "what about Hwanee?? why are you going with that jerk!!! are you crazy?? just because you and Hwanee fought. you're running away with Han Yoo Bin??!" Gyoo Hyun grew angry as he yelled.. "...no... no its not that... Gyoo Hyun... Yoo Bin's eye.. .his eye...." "whats wrong with his eye!!!" "i made that eye like that!! because of me.. Yoo Bin's eye.... Yoo Bin is hurting!!!" "What???????" "Yoo Bin is hurting so much.. and he's in so much pain.. i was so sad.. after seeing him like that... i did that to him.. yet Yoo Bin did not want to show me that he was hurt.. he only forced himself to smile.. when he was miserable and unhappy... that made me more burdened... so... heuk.............." "......................." Gyoo Hyun's eyes looked sincere.. "was is those Boo Young bastards?????" "<nod nod>" "is his condition.... serious???" "he has no sight anymore.. so he cant see anything... heuk.. heuk... because of me.." "i never knew it was that serious....." "i told him i would help him.. so every day i visited him but.. Yoo Bin rejected me... he didnt meet me once.. he didnt want to show me the hurt side of him.. doesnt Han Yoo Bin sound like an idiot?? right?? ... heuk...heuk..." "......................." "but.. but... Yoo Bin..." "................" "he asked for my help for the first time... i offered to help before.... but he refused me... but... for the first time. the first... he asked for my help..................." "................." "he wanted me to go to America with him... to get treatment.. he wanted me with him.. but... he told me to choose... isnt it funny..... America. America...." " and so????????????????" "i originally... i originally wanted to go with Yoo Bin.. but something kept holding me back.........." "Hwanee????" "<nod nod> it looks like it..... i didnt know what decision to make.. and my mind was so jumbled... if Hwanee listened to my story and held onto me.. then.. i would have made a decision to stay.. heuk...heuk........" "................." Gyoo Hyun's expression hardened.. "but.. but... it looks like Hwanee already forgot about me.. ...i.. i think of Hwanee everyday.. but... in front of Yoo Bin.. how could i do that?? so... so... heuk...heuk............" "thers no reason for you to do that.. Han Yeh Won!!!! Hwanee... drinks every day because of you... and he only thinks of you. and worries about you.... so dont think of negative things like that!!!! does that even make sense?? Han Yeh Won?????" Gyoo Hyun yelled loudly... "................." "hurry and hold onto Hwanee... you have to hold onto him!!! Hwanee still loves like you like before..." "no... Gyoo Hyun...." i wiped my tears and i stared straight at Gyoo Hyun... "no.. Gyoo Hyun... i already made up my mind.. im going to America.. im going to America..." "WHAT???" "im going to America... i have to help Yoo Bin.. ^ 0 if something goes wrong with Yoo Bin's eye.. i wont be able to live...." "Han Yeh Won!!! do you think that... Han Yoo Bin's eye is more important than love?? is that it????" ".................lets go... it looks like i have to walk home in the rain.. *^^*" "did ... did you already forget Hwanee?? dont you love Hwanee???????????" "..................." ".............Han Yeh Won!!!!!!" "what do you mean forget.. forget... after seeing me right now.. you say forget? ... how can you say that??? how.. how can i possibly forget about Hwanee? im hurting so much because of Hwanee.. whatever i do i see Hwanee... is this forgetting him??? "....................." "i... i love him so much.. and i miss him so much im going crazy... do you call this forgetting him???" "Y E H Won!!!!!!!!!!!!!" "im. im leaving the day after tomorrow..." "to America????" "yup..^^" "Han Yeh Won!!" "yea... Gyoo Hyun!!! i want to ask one favor!! ^^" "whats that???" "you can keep a promise right??" "what??" "promise me first..." "oh.. sure...." "all the things i told you today.. everything.. please dont tell Hwanee..." "what???" "please keep it a secret.. you would be doing me a favor!" "i cant.. not this.." "you promised!!" "but!!" "you promised right??" "ah.. i got it. but... its going to be hard.. i'll try my best.." "okay then.. im going to go.." i ran outside into the rain.. i leaned on a building nearby. and i poured out the tears ive been holding back.. ................... still still... my soul is relieved.. i wanted to say those words so much.. ....... it was so difficult trying to hold them in.. he wasnt Hwanee but... but..i feel more relieved.. .............# the next morning. "cough.. cough.." "are you okay?? you have a fever of 101 degrees... how long were you out in the rain 0 " "....^^;;" "make sure you rest today. and dont go to school.. alright??? *^^*" "okay..." "alright.." "Ahjumma!!" "yes??" "um.. tomorrow.. im leaving.." "leaving?? where??" "im going back to the countryside...." im so sorry Ahjumma... for lying.. but i had no choice. 0 "the countryside?? why suddenly the countryside??" "just... its time for me to go back home..." Ahjummas eyes were filled with concern.. im so sorry... "i made a mistake.. i was neglective to you.. im so sorry..." "no its not that!!" "then what is it????" ................ for a moment, i didnt know whether to explain the whole story or to lie.. .........it was so difficult.. i was going crazy because i was so sorry. at the end, i saw a glimpse of Ahjumma's tears. 0 Ahjumma thought of me almost as a daughter. and i lied to her.. 0 i deserve to die.. cough cough. this is the first time in my life that ive hurt so much... ............. 1 o'clock.. i was sweating and tossing in my sleep.. when my phone rang. Yoo Bin said he would call today.. 0 113. "hello.." "Yeh Won. its me, Yoo Bin.." "hey.. Yoo Bin!!!" "can you meet right now??" "right now??........." im too sick right now though.. "we're leaving tomorrow... so we should buy necessities.. since we both need them.. i wanted to go together.." "right now?" "why?? are you tired?? if you're tired, its okay!!" "oh.. no. im fine... where do you want to meet??" "i'll go to you..." # in front of the neighborhood. im crazy... my condition isnt so great.. 0 the weather is really hot. but my body is shivering.. ".................." a black car stopped in front of me.. "Yeh Won!!" Yoo Bin opened the door for me.. "^^" "where are you sick??" "huh? oh. no. im okay!!" "you really look sick. why did you come out!!!" "^^ im alright!!!" we went towards the department store. and we were buying this and that when.. my head felt dizzy.. "Yoo Bin.." "yea???" "lets sit.. for a minute.." "sure.. i told you. why did you come out.." Yoo Bin assisted me to a chair. "................." Yoo Bin leaned my head against his shoulder.. its comfortable.. "..............." "........................" � .............. where am i ?? when i opened my eyes.. Yoo Bin was next to me. "Yoo Bin!!" "oh. you're awake!!!" "what.. what time is it????" "9 o clock.." "what?? 9 o clock?? then.. hey why didnt you wake me up!!!" "it looked like you were in a deep sleep.. it was pretty.. *^^*' "stupid!! .. why didnt you wake me up!!!" "*^^* i said it was cuz you looked cute!!" "..............." Yoo Bin dropped me off at home.. and i went inside.. ".................." i dont know why my heart feels so heavy. its tomorrow.. tomorrow.. ................. lets think positively. Han Yeh Won!!! try working all your life.. you would never be able to save up to go to the U.S.!!! 0 no matter how optimistically i thought.. Hwanee's face was always on the corner of my mind.. its existence had become too large.. one by one my drawers emptied... every time one drawer was emptied.. my heart felt heavier.. "......................" but why do i feel so lonely? .............. i looked at the cell phone beside me. oh right.. my phone was turned off. 0 idiot.. i turned my phone on. i had 21 missed calls.. 0 this is the first time ive missed so many calls.. >00< ............... who could have called so many times? it was the same number.. Hwanee's cell phone.. .................. three voice mails???? i listned to them. BEEP.......... "Han Yeh Won!! fawk why arent you picking up your phone.. do you really want to see me die?? you... you.. you!!! are you really going to do this??? lets meet... and lets talk.. Han Yeh Won!! where. where do you think you're going!!! can you live without me?? i cant live without you.. can you live???? Han Yeh WON!! you cant leave. i wont let you leave!!!" beep beep beep. ............. Hwanee's voice. Hwanee.. Hwanee.. i really miss him.. when i wanted him.. he coldly brushed me off.. why now. why now... my tears fell incessantly.. im sorry Hwanee. but its too late.. its too late.. that day it rained.. we.. we.. already made our decision.. we cant change our fate.. the next message.. "Yeh Won!! im sorry. im sorry... i deserve to die. i really wasnt going to tell Hwanee.. but after seeing how miserable he was. i couldnt hold it in.. you're leaving tomorrow!!! if you leave like that.. Hwanee might really die.. i'm Hwanee's friend. so.... im really sorry.. im really sorry.. Yeh Won!!!!............" CLICK. i turned off my phone. it was too hard to listen any longer.. ........... why are you understanding my heart now!! Jin Hwan!! if just a little. if you were just a little faster.. "................heuk..heuk.............." this is the final time you're crying. Han Yeh Won!!! if you go to the U.S., dont ever cry.. just forget.. i have no motivation to forget. but just give it your best effort!!! i was crying for a long time when.. BOOm BOOM BOOM.. "Han Yeh WON!! Han Yeh WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!" BOOM BOOM BOOM.. like the door was going to break. Hwanee kicked the door. .... when i glanced at the clock it was 2 o clock.. "Han Yeh Won!! Han Yeh Won!! open the door!!!" ... i didnt know what to do. the only thing separating Hwanee and me.. was the door.. "Han Yeh Won!! open the door. i know you're at home. so.. open the door!!!" "................Hwa... Hwa.........Hwanee!!!!!!" my voice shook.. ........... it seemed like Hwanee was crying.. "..............(silence) Yeh Won!!! Yeh Won!! open the door.. please open the door. i have a lot of things to tell you. really, a lot...." Hwanee said through a wavering voice. my heart hurts so much. dont do this.. dont do this Jin Hwan!!! im crying. Hwanee's crying........... "i.. i really have a lot of things to say to you... a lot, you stupid!!!! please. Please open the door... Han Yeh Won!!!!" "Hwanee... calm down." "you.. you... how can you say that to me?? calm down. stupid!! if you were me, would you be calm!! hurry and open the door. open the door." i heard Hwanee's choked voice. my shaking hands. i held onto the door knob. "open the door.. open the door!!!" BOOM BOOM BOOM. click. i opened the door.. Hwanee looked at me. Hwanee's eyes are red. never had he shown his tears in front of me. after looking at me for a long time.. "................" Boom.. the door closed and Hwanee came to me. he pushed me to the wall.. "Han Yeh Won.. Han Yeh Won!!! you cant go.. i wont let you. i wont let you go anywhere!!!" "dont do this!! Hwanee!!!" ........... "Dont do this!! Hwanee.. if you do this.. if you do this. it makes it harder for me!!" "i. i was wrong.. i was the crazy one.. im sorry.. im sorry.. Han Yeh Won!! so. so.... dont go to the U.S.!!! why the U.S. of all places!!!" "Hwanee!!! dont do this!! really!!" "i was wrong.. Han Yeh Won!!!" "no. no.. you did nothing wrong.. its all my fault. it was my mistake.. this is how it turned out!!" "Han Yeh Won!! i.. i... i truly love you.. but.. i dont think i could live without you.. so... why are you trying to leave.. if you leave.. im really going to die!!" "dont say those things!! dont!! i ... i............." i couldnt tell Hwanee that i loved him. because i was afraid to turn my back on him again. because i was afraid my heart would falter.. "...........heuk..heuk................." "Han Yeh Wo!!! you cant leave anywhere!!! no. i wont let you.. you cant go anywhere!!" "Hwanee. please dont do this!!" "f*ck. then what do you want me to do.. the person i love is leaving.. and across an ocean too.. so.. what do you expect me to do!!!" "heuk.. heuk..............." "i love you... Han Yeh Won.. i really love you!!!" "Hwanee.........dont do this!!!!!!! if you do this.....its harder for me!!!!!!!!!!!" "i said i love you... you love me too!!!!!!! no?? was i just assuming??" "no.. no i love you. but... but.. this is too difficult... i already made my decision.. dont make me change my mind!! please, for me.. it was so hard to make this decision............." "Han Yeh Won!! Han Yeh Won!! look at me.. i said look at me!!!"! he held my face and forced my eyes to look at his.. "we made a promise... right!!! do you remember?? please dont do this!! please.. Han Yeh Won.. please.. where do you think you're going.. if you leave. im really going to die..!!!!" "why are you saying all this now!!! why.. Why!!! why.. why are you saying this now!!! i wanted you to hold on to me.. and it was so hard for me to make up my mind. i went to you and you brushed me away.. you left me.. you left me.. i made my decision to leave.. and then you came!! why are you holding onto me!!! it was so hard for me to choose.. why are you so late!! you didnt come when i waited for you.. you always come when im leaving... jerk!!!!!!!!" my tears fell without stoping.. no matter how hard i tried to stop.. "................" drip.. a tear rolled down Hwanee's face.. .................. im sorry Hwanee.. and i love you so so much.. i love you.. 114. .. why does my heart hurt so much after seeing Hwanee's tears.. ... "im sorry.. im sorry.. im sorry......." Hwanee lifted my face with his large hand.. "look at me...." i couldnt look him in the eye. his shining eyes were filled with tears.. how could i look at that... "look at me!!!" "... heuk..........heuk............." "you... love me right?? right???" ".........heuk....heuk....<nod nod>" "then thats final.. its final!!!" i pressed my face against Hwanee's chest.. and Hwanee hugged me tightly.. "im sorry.. im sorry Hwanee!!!" "what do you mean sorry!!!!!!!!! why are you so sorry??????!!!!!!!!!!!!" "i... i .. have to go to the U.S... i have to help Yoo Bin....." "why you!!!!!!!" "if... i dont go with him... im going to regret it and be bitter for the rest of my life .... really........ heuk...heuk......" "....is it because of that bastard's eye??? is it??? i'll give him my eye.. i'll give him my eye!!!! i'll give him everything he needs....." "stop it!!! stop it Hwanee!!!!!!!!!" "i only need you!!!!!" ".........no.......no.......no..Hwanee!!!" "i only need you!!! so..." "no... i dont want you to do that......." "you... do you want to see me die???!!! is that it??? its quite possible i could die!!! Han Yeh Won!! if you leave... im going to go crazy!!!! do you know that????" "heuk... heuk.... im sorry.. im sorry..........." Hwanee blocked my mouth.. of all the kisses we shared.. this is the first time. we've both cried and kissed with tears streaming down our faces .............. "Han Yeh Won!!!" my lips are tingly. 0 "................" "dont leave!!! where do you think you're going!!! why are you abandoning me!!!" Hwanee pulled my head.. and gently hugged me.. "heuk.. heuk............" "Han Yeh Won!!!! we promised to marry each other!!!! to build a house in the countryside. and live together.. dont you remember?? and... we promised to go to the beach together........and............." those beautiful memories of Hwanee and me.. this is so difficult for me.. "stop it Hwanee!!! this is not it.. this... is not it...." "what do you mean this is not it??? i can do it.. you.. just dont have to leave!!!" "........heuk.......heuk.........." "dont go!!! if you go im really going to go crazy..." he held my face... and looked straight into my eyes.. and embraced me closely. my heart is wavering. i dont want to leave.. i want to stay like this with you forever.. this is what i want.. "dont leave!! Han Yeh Won!!!... i came back to you.. i came back........." i stayed in Hwanee's embrace.. .............. i dont want to see you cry anymore.. but... "i wont go.. i wont go... i wont go... i'll stay by your side... i'll stay like this............."­ i said.. i'm hurting Hwanee again.... im so sorry Hwanee. for lying. but this is the best way to do this..... looking with disbelief.. Hwanee held my face and stared straight into my eyes. i wiped away Hwanee's tears... "really... are you serious??" "yes... yes... heuk...heuk....." and then Hwanee kissed me.. we continued kissing in front of the door.. and i fell asleep holding his hand. Hwanee layed next to me. and tightly held my hand..... "................" i observed Hwanee.. his naiive innocence... i touched Hwanee's face. his clear skin.. .................... those eyes that sometimes scared me. those eyes that looked at me lovingly.. these lips that wouldnt let me move away... these large hands that protected me.. ............... ............. and this broad chest.. one by one, i remembered our cherished memories.. ............ ............. there will be no one as stunning as you in my heart.. from this day forward.. forever.. .......... ..... i wont ever forget.. those loving memroies.. those times we spent together.. never... i will never forget. im going to treasure them in my heart... Hwanee... i love you so much. i truly love you.. since the time i was born.. and while im living my life in the present.. i wont love someone as deeply as i love you.. i love you Hwanee... i truly love you... with tears falling, i kissed Hwanee's cheek. "............." Hwanee hugged me tightly.. "i love you Hwanee.. i really love you....." ".................." without sleeping even three hours.. i opened my eyes.. my flight is at 9 o clock... Hwanee slept holding my hand.. i dont want to let go.. of this hand.. this hand... ".............." ................. i carefully slipped my hand out of his.. Hwanee's hand left a red imprint on mine. "................" i got ready... and carried my bag out. clueless, Hwanee slept innocently.. Hwanee was holding tightly to his blanket.. this is our last moment!!! i love you Hwanee.... i truly love you........ i kissed Hwanee's lips.. i feel tears coming up.. i wiped them and hurriedly left.. if i stay for even one more second.. a tear might fall on Hwanee's cheek.. .... i opened the door.. i still felt madly undecisive.. the door knob was damb from my sweat.. with bags in both of my hands.. i headed for the airport.. "................good bye........" ............. 115. "................" it is 8:15... .. i arrived at the airport. is Hwanee in a dream world right now??? i rode a taxi when.. i saw a first glimpse of the airport. i lifted my heavy feet.. and Yoo Bin happily welcomed me.. .. "Yeh Won!!!" Yoo Bin ran to me and hugged me tightly. "i thought you wouldnt come... i really didnt think you were coming..." "Yoo Bin!!" "yea??*^^*" "i have to say something.." "what??" "i'm going to the U.S. with you.. but im not going because i love you... im going to love Hwanee forever.. and im only going to love Hwanee......" Yoo Bin hugged me. "i know.. i know... its fine. dont say another word.." "................." "i know you like that guy... i know you like him a lot.. but im going to change your mind... im going to the u.s. to change your heart!!!!" ".................." "...................." 8: 45... "you're like a doll.. your eyes have no focus... why are you staring into space like that??" "......................" i saw the airplane out of the window.. "....................." "....................." Yoo Bin squeezed my hand. "...................." "*^^*" the intercom announced that the plane departing for the u.s. was here.. 9: 50... i feel the apprehension.. im really going to the u.s.!!! im really leaving!!! "okay lets go..." "................." i turned around and looked at the people in my surrounding.. "........................" and i was following Yoo Bin when.. "Han Yeh Won!!! Yeh Won!!!" when i turned back. i saw a male figure racing towards me.. "........Han Yeh Won.. right??" it was a guy ive seen hanging out with Hwanee. "Hwanee... Hwnaee is coming....." "what??" "wait... you cant go anywhere.. Hwanee. Hwanee will never let ... Huk.. hUk..." that guy gasped for air. "Yeh Won we're late.. we have to go.."­ Yoo Bin nudged "Han Yoo Bin... why dont you go.."­ that guy replied. "Kim Jin Chang.. shut up.. if you dont want to get beat up.." "Yeh Won!!! Hwanee wants to hold onto you. if you leave... hes going to die!!" "................" "i told you to shut up..." PUK. Yoo Bin grabbed that kid's throat and hit him "Yoo Bin!! dont do this!!!" "lets go..." "................." Yoo Bin grabbbed my wrist and pulled me. it really hurts. i looked at the kid who was on the floor.. .............. "tell him.... that i will return for him......" "no!! no!! Hwanee. Hwanee.. Hwnaee is looking for you!!!!!" "Please tell him im sorry.." "Han Yeh Won.. Han Yeh Won.." that kid who called me.. his voice was trembling.. ....right then.... CREAk... BOOM BOOM.. "..................." "what happend?????????" what is that noise?? it looks like it came from outside. everyone turned to look out the window.. people pressed their faces to the pane and looked below. "Crazy. crazy... why is he in such a hurry..." "crazy... tsk tsk. kids these days.. thats why they shouldnt be allowed to ride motorcycles!!!" motorcycle? i quickly ran to the window.. TAK. Yoo Bin grabbed my wrist "Yoo Bin!!" "no.. lets go.." "Yoo Bin!! i.. i... hold on a minute.." "no.." Yoo Bin tightened his hold on my wrist "dont do this!! Han Yoo Bin!!" i pulled myself from his grasp. "................." "i'll be back.." and with that, i ran to the window. there was a motorcycle on the floor. and.. a taxi.. "................." that motorcycle is Hwanee's. its Hwanee's. "..............." my heart raced.. but... no.. i want to run to Hwanee and hug him but. but.. i went to Yoo BIn. "...................." "lets go.." my heart is heavy.. i was giving my ticket to the attendant when.. "Han Yeh Won!!!! Han Yeh Won!!!!!!!!!" a voice echoed... ............. ...................... "......................." i turned around.. Huk.. Huk. that guy was running like mad.. "Hwanee!!!!!!!!!!" "Han Yeh Won!!!!!!" i was already inside the gate. no matter how hard Hwanee tried to get in. all the people blocked him off. "f*ck i said let go............. i said let go!!!! Han Yeh Won!! Han Yeh Won!!!!!!" "..............good bye.." i said quietly.. i turned around to go inside when.. ........................................>..< 116. "Han Yeh Won!! where are you going!! you cant leave!!!!!!! i love you... i love you!!! Han Yeh Won!!!" Hwanee's words exhausted my heart.. those three words.. ".................." those tears i were holding back fell rapidly. "Thank you............" "Han Yeh Won!! i wont let you take one more step. f*ck.. let go!! if you.. leave... leave.. leave............" "i'll come back. im coming back!!!!!" "no!!! you cant leave!! heuk.. turn around!! dont leave!!!!!" Hwanee said with a cry. its so hard to hear.. Hwanee's shaking voice.. "i love you. Hwanee!!!!" with tears streaming down my face.. i said the words that i never said while i was going out with Hwanee.. the words i wished i could say to him. i said those words now. "........................" Hwanee looked at me with an astonished face.. "no.. no. Han Yeh Won!! Han Yeh Won!! turn around.. turn around... if you love me, why are you leaving!!!!" "................." "..................." Yoo Bin grabbed my wrist.. Yoo Bin's one eye looked so sad.. "...........lets go..............." Yoo Bin said tiredly. "....................." i turned around when... the tears kept pouring out.. "Han Yeh Won!!!!!!!! Han Yeh Won!!!!!!! f*ck.. Han Yoo Bin!!... you're gonna die.. Han Yeh Won. if you take her... you're going to die!!! mother f*ker!!! Han Yeh Won!! come back.. come back..!!!!!!!!" Hwanee's cry. ringed in my ear.. I love you. Hwanee... i love you.. good bye........... .....I dont see Hwanee anymore. "...Han Yeh Won!!!!!!!!!" Yoo Bin........ "........................" "i hate this.. i feel like an idiot.. i.... this is the first time in my life ive acted so maliciously.. this is the first time ive been in so much pain.. and the first time things didnt go my way. and the first time ive been so frustrated. resenting the heavens too.... its all because of you.. Han Yeh Won........." "......................" "leave!!!!!!!!!!" "what??????" "this is a very hard decision.. leave.. i might change my mind......." "..........Yoo Bin!!!" "hurry and go... go to that bastard!!!!!!!!!!!!" "Yoo Bin!! i.............." "forget it. i will survive with my eye.. Yeh Won, but instead!!" "??" "know this.." "................" "this is the first time ive loved someone like this.... know that you are the first... and know that you are the best...." "Yoo Bin..........." "got it??????" "...heuk...heuk........." "dont cry.... if you're not crying because of me. then dont cry!!!!" ".............im crying because of you!!!..............." Yoo Bin wiped away my tears a tear fell from one of Yoo Bin's eyes. "Yoo Bin!!! i'll promise you.. that i'll remember... i like Hwanee but.. i like you too.. really.. i... i... i'll say goodbye to Hwanee and i'll come back okay... i have to say goodbye right?? not saying it stuck in my heart.. thank you Yoo Bin.. just wait a little.. just a little..............." "....................." "......................." Yoo Bin turned around. "....................." Hwanee. Hwanee!!!! ........... Hwanee was on the floor crying. .......my heart hurts. it feels like its tearing.. it hurts so much. "Hwanee!!!" "..................." Hwnaee looked at me.. ........... "Hwanee.." .........i took a step. and another towards Hwanee. Hwanee pulled my hand. "Han Yeh Won!! Han Yeh Won right?? you came back??" "im sorry." Hwanee held me tightly. "Hwanee.." "stupid!! i thought you were really leaving!!!! i thought i was going crazy!!!!" "Hwanee..." "why are you coming now???? why now..............." "Hwanee!! listen to me..." i raised my voice. ".............." Hwanee stared at me. after seeing Hwanee's face.. how could i.. how could i... "Hwanee... im going to the u.s.!!" "Han Yeh Won!!!" "im going to go... im going to follow Yoo Bin...." "Han Yeh Won!!! where do you think you're going!!" "i have to go help Yoo Bin find his sight back. if i dont.... for the rest of my life..... im going to live like a prisoner!!!" "Han Yeh Won!! where are you going!!! you came back, where do you think you're going!!" "i... i..... i dont know when im coming back but.... but.... im so sorry for saying this but... will you wait for me????" "what???" "im finally getting the courage to say this!!! *^^* will you wait for me????" crying, i forced myself to smile. how do i look through Hwanee's eyes?? .............. "will you wait for me???" "................tell me again.. that you love me..??" ­Hwanee asked. "i love you......... so so much. i love you............" a tear rolled down Hwanee's cheek. Hwanee hugged me tightly. .............>...< i planned on smiling as i left. if i do this... im going to be crying!!! "............. what.. what do i do if i miss you?? what.. what if i want to see you.. then what do i do??"­ he asked. "dont you know how good technology is these days..?? ^^ you can see my face from far away....^0^" "i dont want to let you go though.... what do i do???" ".............. im going to go..." "Yeh Won!! Han Yeh Won!!!" though i hated the thought of letting go of Hwanee's hand i broke free. "Yeh Won!! Han Yeh WOn!!!" till the end... Hwanee called out my name. to see if... he could change my mind.. i worried about this.. but.. thank you for letting me go.. ............... i dont know how much i cried as i entered the airplane.. i still heard Hwanee's voice in my ear.. i love you...... ".................." now. i dont see him. Hwanee. "......................" im leaving like this!! so im leaving like this!!! im really leaving!!! i'll return. i promise.. im truly going to miss you.. Hwanee.. >0<....... 0 117. since then, four years have passed.. im now 22 years old.. i attended college in the U.s..... graduating in 2006.. .............. "Han Yoo Bin!!! clean this up. you cant just take off your undershirts like this.. 0 its frustrating me!!!" "what.. is so bad about it?? its not the first time you've seen them.. keke" "jerk!!!!" SLAP. "ow.. it hurts!!!" "then clean it up!!!" "give it to me!! 0 ................ you always nag. 0 " (*sound of a cute melody) ~~~~~ you've got mail... you've got mail!!! "you got a new email~!!!!!" "Yoo Bin!!! whats this!!! if you ate it, then put it in the sink!!!!" "i got it... i got it..!! 0 " "Han Yoo Bin... what did you do to the books in my room.........." "i'll find them for you.. so... stop yelling at me!!! 0 " "anyway........" ~~!!! you got mail...!!!! "what?? oh its Hwanee!!" "what?? that jerk?? i want to see too!!" with a fluttering heart i sat in front of the computer.. for four years, we exchanged emails everyday. i never tired of it... i feel like a kid everytime i get an email..>0< "ey.. that bastard....." "what?? its a movie!!!!kekeke" the computer made noises.. and then we saw Hwanee's face. "...................." right now, Hwanee hasnt changed.. . he looks a different on the outside though.. his hair reached his eyelashes. because in korea, the style is long, messy hair and so the ends of his hair pointed to the left.. and its a dark brown.. i dont see his clothes except for his jacket... it looks like he's wearing a suit. of course... he works at an office... i miss him.. >0< i want to see him.. >0< his ssangapul [*double eyelids].. look bigger from before.. is is hard to live in korea??? or no?? of course, those pretty eyes. and that high noise.. and those pretty lips.. >..< ................ he had a cigarette in the side of his mouth.. and Hwanee had a sullen expression "....................." i wont be able to show Hwanee my face. but i see his.. 0 and i can talk to him directly. "ey!!!"­ Hwanee suddenly spoke. "yea??" "is that bastard next to you??" 0 oh yea... this guy hasnt changed one bit. you're supposed to get mature as you get older. 0 theres a saying... your habits when you were a three­ year ­old stay with you until you are 80. "yea...." "tell him to get the hell away.." ­Hwanee said. Hwanee stuck out his middle finger and blew out a cloud of smoke.. "........................." Yoo Bin sneered and lifted a corner of his lip.. 0 kekeke "f*ck. im gonna leave.. thats nasty.. .. i dont know why.. a human would do that.. he's sucha teddy bear!!! rude bastard... go to hell!!!" ­Yoo Bin said. Yoo Bin stuck out his middle finger. "ey... what did you just say.. huh!!!"­Hwanee yelled. "keke idiot.. Yeh Won!!.. good luck!!" Yoo Bin whispered in my ear.. and he stroked my hair. kekek "Jin Hwan!! dont do this!!" "........you always do that to me!!!............"­Hwanee muttered­ "its cuz you always do something wrong.. thats why.. 0 and.. i thought you were going to quit smoking!!" "i am going to quit." i heard a strange noise. but i could still hear Hwanee's voice clearly.. Hwanee immediately took out his cigarette and threw it away.. "*^^*" "i look cool huh?? hows my style??" of course.. that childish boy.. as soon as Yoo Bin left, his expression changed.. 0 to tell the truth, if there was anywhere he did change.. he did get more loveable.. 0 .. "what?? how are you still the same after 4 years?? 0 " "i dont look cool? i even cut my hair... its been five years since ive been in a barber shop.. dont i look cool??" to tell the truth, he looks soo hot.. i wish i could run to Korea and kiss him.. "you dont look cool at all!!!" "YOU.. im leaving!!" "okay..i got it!!"­ i yelled­ last time, i kidded around and told him to come here.. and then.. a few days later he showed me a plane ticket.. i really have to be careful of what i say to him.. 0 ^ "how are you doing these days??"­ i asked­ "me... im the same... its no fun living. 0 they tell you to do all kinds of nonsense in college.. and at the office they tell me to do these weird correspondences. its freakin annoying.. should i just go to the u.s. and disappear??" "keke do you get a lot of stress from work???" "stress?? that old manager is so impatient that he cant wait to chew me out.. last time i worked for thirty minutes and wanted a break but do you know he lectured me for twenty minutes?? and after i dyed my hair. he said this and that.. urg.. i just want to... its too bad that i cant beat him up...." "kekeke be strong!!!" "kekeke i should.. because in a few years.. im going to be the boss of that company.. as soon as become the boss im gonna fire that manager.. keke. then what will happen to you??" "me?? i'll be the wife of a big executive... *^^*" "kekeke" i see Hwanee's laughing face through the computer screen.. what do i do.. what do i do.>0< i really.. want to kiss him.. 0 as soon as he laughs for even a little ibt his dimple goes in.. and his smiling eyes.. i dont know if its because we're in a long distance relationship.. but i really.. like him. so so so so so so much more than before.. "Hwanee!! today im going to a party.. with Mike and Lisa.. and June.. and Yoo Bin..^^........" "what?? where are you going?? ey!! where do you think you're going!!!" "im gonna go play!!" "no.. dont go!!!" "why are you.. getting mad!!" again. he's getting mad again. always.. whenever i tell him or Yoo Bin that im going somewhere.. they always get mad.. "okay okay.. i wont go.. i wont go.." "kekeke" i see Hwanee's serious face. he isnt saying anything. "Hwanee!!" ".................." "Hwanee!!" "i miss you...."­ he said suddenly­ "yea??" "i want to see you.. i really want to see you...." ".........me too......in a little bit.. im going to go back... so. so be patient just a little longer.. lets wait for that day.." "....its hard........." "just hold on a little bit longer!!!!' "do you know what?? theres a line of people that say they like me.." "okay.. i got it.. i got it.." "you.. have you seen someone like me?? have you seen a guy not look at anyone else for four years!!!!!" "im right here. 0 " "if youre this late... i can just go to someone else!!!" "really?? do whatever you want!!!!!!" "Han Yeh Won!!!!" ding dong. ding dong. "who is that??' "stay there.. dont leave!!"­Hwanee yelled­ ... the door opened.. "Yeh Won!! they're here.." ­Yoo Bin called. "huh? oh. okay.." "Hwanee!!!" "Dont go!!!" he's trying to persuade me again.. "lets meet again three days later*^^*" ­ i smiled­ "no!! dont go!!" "no!!i have to.." "Han Yeh Won!!!" "I love you!!"­ i shouted­ i think im getting stranger by the minute.. >0< ".................." Click. i minimized Hwanee's face. and i went to my friends.. "......................." to tell the truth.. today we're meeting for a farewell party. im going to korea tomorrow.. i wanted to surprise Hwanee so i didnt tell him.. but im excited right now.. i drank so much with my friends.. my nose still stings. i piggybacked on Yoo Bin and was trying to sleep... why do i feel so excited. tomorrow.. tomorrow.. i can see Hwanee.. ........ that night i didnt sleep one bit. it soon became morning.. "wow~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!" "are you awake??" "you're doing the computer again?? Han Yoo Bin you're addicted.. 0 " "i am an addict... a drug addict!!!" "crazy!! you.. if you keep saying those things.. im going to notify the police!!" "kekeke" Yoo Bin's sight was recovered.. but it is hard for him to see.. without his glases. but.. people recognize a good looking person when they see one. 0 glasses suit him well. Yoo Bin.. and he became so popular in the u.s.. when Yoo Bin and i first came here, i experienced being an outcast because of him.. Yoo Bin even beat some people up in the u.s. so that they had to move to different schools.. "what time is your flight??" "um.. 8 pm..^^" "really?? then in korea time.. you're going to arrive in the afternoon??" "yup... probably......" ...................... .......................... i was packing when. i felt odd.. i anticipate meeting Hwanee but on the other hand... i had some special memories in the u.s.... im going to miss it.... that day. i got all of my things ready... and i arrived at the u.s. air port.. "be safe.." "you too....." my friends all hugged me and kissed me on the cheek. "*^^* bye...." "be safe... send us an email. im really going to miss you...." "your boyfriend... bring Hwanee next time!!!"­ they yelled "okay..*^^*... 0 " Yoo Bin didnt say a word. he simply smoked a cigarette... "Yoo Bin!!! *^^*" i smiled brightly at him. *^0^* "...........bye.." "okay.... i'll come again..." "sure....." Yoo Bin hugged me tightly.. ........... and he kissed me on the cheek.. those friends and Yoo Bin who ive spent four years with... i left.. good bye.... i'll come back someday.. ...........Hwanee... im going to korea now... >0< ......... wait. wait just a little longer... 0 118. ............. in the airplane, i pushed back nervous thoughts and just slept... yesterday in my rampage, i didnt sleep one bit.. "....................." ..................... ........................... # korea i arrived in korea.. how many years is this.. its been four years!!! i wouldnt have recognized it.. it changed so much in four years. "................." i went to the building where Hwanee and his father worked. ............. the district in Seoul with the big buildings... >00< i cant believe Hwanee's working here.. i felt sort of proud of Hwanee.. "...................." i left my bags in the taxi.. and i went inside the building. people were running around, all looking extremely busy. "...................." .......... "....................." ............. where is he? ...........i was lost when.. "excuse me, who are you???" "oh my. you scared me.. i.. im looking for Jin Hwan..." "Han Jin Hwan ssi???" "yes......" "how do you know .....?" "yes?? im.. im his girlfriend.." " � ^" that man gave me a strange look. "i heard his girlfriend was studying abroad 0 ?" "yes?? ah... im that person!! *^^*" how does this man know??? 0 "� go to the 8th floor.. he's in the meeting room.." "okay. thank you!!" "................." there were a lot of cubicles.. "......................" i looked here and there.. but Hwanee was nowhere to be seen!! 0 .............. did this boy ditch again?? 0 ­­ yelling­­ "who are you to say?!!!!!!!!!!" "no... i mean.........." "what did i do wrong.. what did i do wrong!!!!! whats wrong with this!!! everything i do you spit back out.. *&*!" PAK PAK. � what is this!!!! inside an office.. tsk tsk... people with no skill always do that.. but wheres Hwanee?? i hopes he's working hard 0 "f*ck. i cant work im so distgusted!!" "look here. Han Jin Hwan Ssi!!!!!!!! sir. the boss trusted me. the boss asked me for a favor.. do you know that.. you!!!!!!!!!!!!" "so... so what are you going to do!!! you're going to tell him?? you're going to tattle tale?? do whatever you want!!! im not scared!!!! you old man... keke its nothing!!! okay! you person!!!!!!!!!!" .................Hwanee????? ... is it possible.. its Jin Hwan?? i prayed that it wasnt him.. and i went inside. ".............." there were papers strewn everywhere.. ............ ................. in the front, a tall guy was furiously stabbing the air and was cursing ( � yelling at this short manager looking person. ^) and "i cant believe this.. you... how dare you!!" "sir!!! even though you do this. nothing will good will come out of it!!!!" "....................." .............. i stepped a little bit closer... "you!!!! when i become the head of this company.. you're going to get fired immediately!!! do you know that!!!" the office people grabbed both of Hwanee's arms and tryed to stop him. .............. Hwanee kicked his legs and attempted to resist.. ".................." whew.. you're not going to disappoint me!! ^0^ you havent changed one bit!!! � i really missed you.. really!!! "excuse me..." "you're going to get fired!! got it???" "excuse me!! Jin Hwan.. ssi............" "what!!!" "..................." "......................" "*^^*" Hwanee looked at me. he was wearing a dark suit. and his tie looked like it was going to slip off.. ........... he lifted one eyebrow. (like he didnt recognize me) ...a few seconds passed.. and then a smile began to form on Hwanee's face. "*^^*" "Han Yeh WON!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAN YEH WON!!!!!!!!!" he pushed the people aside.. <they all fell � > and Hwanee ran to me.. .............. "*^^*" "ey.........Han Yeh Won!!! Han Yeh Won!! right?????????" "...........yup..............." Hwanee stroked my hair as he examined my face.. "Han Yeh Won!! Han Yeh Won!!" Hwanee hugged me tightly... how much i wanted to hold him!!! i wanted this hug so much. i returned Hwanee's hug just as tightly.. "f*ck.. fawk.... you're here to stay right???" "yea..." all the office people watched Hwanee and me. "..i freakin missed you so much!!!!" but.. Hwanee ignored his co­workers stares. and simply looked at me.. "*^^*' ".........you're really here right?? you're here?? right?" "yea...." "i dont know if its because you went to america.. but i couldnt recognize you....." "*^^*' "you're really here right?? right???????' "yes...!!!!" "hey.. look at me.. look at me.." Hwanee picked up a few pieces of paper from the floor and showed them to me. didnt change at all.. Hwanee's smell.. "*^^*" i looked at that paper. "look at this. look. i did this.. i freakin did good.. but that old supervisor kept saying it wasnt good enough.. freakin surprising huH?????" "????????????????" "and you know i went to other countries right?? because im so good in english..........." "...........heuk.........heuk............." "Why are you crying!!.........hey!!! Han Yeh Won!!!" "heuk....heuk............" "Han Yeh Won!!!!" "............heuk.......heuk..........." "Han Yeh Won!! 0 " Hwanee hugged me again. "euaaaaaaaa~~~ang.~~~~~~~~~~" "...dont cry!!! why are you crying!! i should be the one crying.. you're the one that left me.. why are you crying!!" ".......Hwnaeee!!.....i missed you.. i missed you so much....." Hwanee took his large hand.. and wiped away my tears.. "i missed you too >0<' "..........^0^" "................can i kiss you???????" " 0 .." "im going to.. im going to.............." .................... ............................. ...................... and Hwanee took my breath away. if he was going to do it anyways.. why did he ask!! 0 but i dont not like it... im happy.. isnt this what you call happiness?? ........... a kiss in four years...... ...................... .................. in front of all those staring people.. Hwanee and i proclaimed our love. .............^..^ ...... my life changed once i met Hwanee. my average, normal destiny... was changed.. my guardian angel.. ............ “ * � Æ e ~+�� � � � �� ( � �� � � �+ (+ � E� E� �� �� � �� ��@ � E�� �� �� À ª* (+ áe~ ( E + � �(+ � � �@ À ª* (+ + e~ (+ žE žE � (� + � (+ P ( ª* (+ (+ µ ª žE e~( + (+ žE áe (+ (+ @ ­� Love Song ­ by Jo Jang Hyuk. [*couldnt translate.. but.. you know the story : )] 0 ......... The End ...
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