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uggen soc 4111 1 lecture 13N: Chris Uggen – Sociology 4111 1 a. papers b. suicide (exercise) b. disability Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand. Al the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shal we say, the ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as wel as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things. For example when we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins, it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddy Mercury, who seem to love, relish in the love and adoration from the crowd, which is something I total y admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do, God believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child. On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for al the people I've known personal y and as fans of our music but I stil can't get over the frustration the guilt and Chris Uggen – Sociology 4111 2 personal y and as fans of our music, but I stil can t get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in al of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know! I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, ful of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and wil do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become. I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards al humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along and have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess. Thank you al from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody, baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out then to fade away. Peace, Love, Empathy. Kurt Cobain.Frances and
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This note was uploaded on 06/20/2010 for the course SOC 4111 taught by Professor Uggen during the Spring '10 term at University of Minnesota Crookston.

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