On her date with Constantin, Esther again has mixed feelings. She thinks that he's too short but still "sort of handsome." She also says that he has intuition, a quality that she thinks that most American men lack. He drives her away in a green convertible, and she feels happier than when she was nine and ran with her father on the beach. It is now (Chapter 7) that we learn that Esther thinks that she was only happy until she was nine years old. She's had all kinds of lessons since then — dance, art, and music — and she's been to college, but she's never been happy, apparently, since her father died. In addition to her thoughts of unhappiness, versus her earlier bliss, Esther starts to think of all her deficiencies. She can't cook, can't take shorthand (her mother's specialty), can't ski, or ride a horse (because they cost too much, she says). She is only good at winning scholastic and literary prizes,
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