Essay on Existentialism

When i felt that my habitual lifestyle was the only

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Unformatted text preview: ring Act I, Estragon famously states, “I’m unhappy” (Beckett 33). I didn’t come to realize much else at this time other than this fact. I was unhappy and I did not know how to fix my unhappiness, or even where to start. If only someone had let me in on life’s secret. Coupled with realizing how unhappy I was, I knew that I needed to get out of my habitual rut in order to start living. Chris McCandless had said, “The core of mans’ spirit comes from new experiences” (Into the Wild). There is no quote more relevant to my life than this. How can one feel motivated or look forward to what the day brings if they don’t know what beautiful experiences it has to offer? Personally, I have struggled for years to find the motivation to face each new day. Nothing ever seemed extraordinary or worth looking forward to. Without a doubt, I owe my existence to a young woman who lives next door to my childhood home, who became the best life- long companion I could have hoped for. I was fifteen when Aubree moved in, and although she is two years younger, she taught me a great deal about life and about myself. Malloy 4 She created a whole new mindset for me, and all she did was listen to me. We would walk for hours, and although most of our jabber was pointless, I found myself looking forward to our walks after school. My best friend Aubree made life tolerable, and eventually, she made life fulfilling. One of my proudest moments was when she called me her big sister and let me know that she looks up to my courage and strength. About two years ago, Aubree’s aunt was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. Though I’d never lost anyone to cancer, I made it my job to always be there for her, to hopefully lessen her sadness. After her aunt passed, she relied on me to be there for her. Mostly, I just listened and took her mind off the pain, and although the circumstances weren’t ideal, I felt important. Aubree gave me a reason to get out of the house and be the strength she so desperately needed. Aubree kick started my life into overdrive, she forced me out of my comfort zone, and with her endless support and words of encouragement, I began to love myself. Though I knew I lived life out of habit, repeating the same actions over and over, Aubree saw the negative toll it took. In Samuel Beckett’s Waiting for Godot, Vladimir professes, “But habit is a great deadener” (58). Aubree pulled me out from under my habitual rut of waking up exhausted, dreading school, and coming home and locking myself into my room. As a result of our walks, I met some wonderful neighbors, found comfort in a favorite spot along our usual route, and rekindle...
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This note was uploaded on 01/12/2014 for the course ENGLISH 102 taught by Professor Bailey during the Fall '11 term at Boise State.

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