she never loved her husband, and her emotional connection with herself is stronger than her love for any man will ever be.“The tears came so fast to Mrs. Pontellier’s eyes that the damp sleeve of her peignoir no longer served to dry them…Turning, she thrust her face, steaming and wet, into the bend of her arm, and she went on crying there, not caring any longer to dry her face, her eyes, her arms. She could not have told why she was crying. Such experiences as the foregoing were not uncommon in her married life” (Chopin 14).This quote reveals Edna’s first true encounter with unhappiness. She finally recognizes that her family does not satisfy her, and while sulking, she realizes that her disappointment has become a
pattern in her life. She despises society and its mandatory rules on love and marriage, thus her obsession with herself and her own freedom grow significantly.“I would give up the unessential; I would give up my money, I would give up my life for my children; but I wouldn’t give myself. I can't make it more clear; it's only something I can begin to comprehend, which is revealing itself to me” (Chopin 47).