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We’d been happy, hadn’t we? I tried to remember, my memories
shrouded, as if I’d covered them up like they did to furniture in old houses tokeep the dust at bay. I remembered sitting on the couch in his apartment.Small, like mine, but well finished. Granite countertops. Gas stove. Realfurniture that hadn’t either been purchased from Ikea or from strangers on theinternet. Tasteful yet safe art upon the walls, not wanting to make too muchof a statement.He’d cooked for me. Chicken breasts, Sidekick Noodles, and boiled peas.At least he’d tried, right? He even watchedThe Bachelorwith me. Not manyguys would do that!The sex was… sex. Some kissing beforehand, not much during. It wasgood, but, you know. I’d had better. It was like cereal. Yeah, cereal is good.You can eat it every day. But it’s not like waffles and bacon, smothered inmaple syrup, with powdered sugar sprinkled on top.Which brought me to Dev.Jagdev. Jagdev Singh.Rebecca Singh.What would we name our kids? Carter Singh. Penelope Singh.Or maybe their names would be completely different from the ones Ipicked out in third grade.But our future was up in the air. I’d made myself out to be the enemy,single-handedly driving him away from his family, the businesses they’dexpected him to take over, and his responsibilities as a son. On top of that,there was a better, more suitable option for him to marry, someone his motherapparently not only approved of but was actively encouraging him to date.Even if I was what Dev wanted, maybe he’d make a different choice.Maybe what his parents had said was sticking for him, making him thinkwhat we had was only a brief, sexual fireworks show, which wouldeventually fizzle out and leave him wishing he’d made a different choice—amore responsible choice.Then, I realized, what Dev wanted was out of my control.What was itIwanted?I wanted what Miranda had. A loving husband, a baby on the way. Herwhole future was set before her now, everything bright and bubbly and shiny.When we were teenagers, we’d planned on getting married and having babiesaround the same time so our kids would grow up together,like we did.Now those plans were out the window.It was a surreal feeling, being so happy for someone, yet so sad it wasn't
happening for me. I tried not to be jealous at first, but then I realized therewas no one around to judge and I let the feelings wash over me.Miranda and her perfect, fairy tale wedding. Her husband with the goodjob and the good family and their nice house and their new baby on the wayand the Pinterest-worthy nursery they were bound to have.Angelina, her whole life still ahead of her, with so much gusto andconfidence about who she was and her place in the world, a stark contrast tomy own awkward self.Even Nicole, with her perfect job, perfect rich boyfriend, perfecteverything.

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