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Several days later Mr. Waters calls Hazel to tell her he found, not written pages, but a notebook with pages ripped out of it. Her initial thought is that they are pages Gus might have left for her at the Literal Heart of Jesus, but when she and Isaac arrive early to a support group meeting to look, there is no indication they were placed there. The support group meeting starts, and eventually the support group leader, Patrick, asks Hazel how she feels. She asks him if he ever just wants to die, and Patrick asks why she doesn't just die. Hazel replies she doesn't know.
That evening, all she wants to do is go to bed, but her mother argues she needs to eat. She explodes again, but this time her mom reacts not just by providing support but also by explaining that for the past year she had been working on a master's degree in social work to counsel families; in effect she is thinking about a future regardless of Hazel's current state of health which, to Hazel, is probably one of the better things she could have said at that moment. Hazel decides to eat some dinner before going to bed and manages to keep it down.
It becomes clear Hazel's concern with her impending death is not just with the pain she will leave behind but also concern for the welfare of her parents. She saw what happened to Van Houten and doesn't want that for her family. At this moment all she is feeling is pain and depression over Gus's death, which solidifies her impression that death causes nothing but pain and suffering for the people who are left behind. She worries about the pain she will cause her family when she dies, thinking of Van Houten's alcoholism and anger; however, when her mom tells her she is training to become a counselor, she realizes her family will probably cope even after her death.